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It doesn't matter what the kid can and can't see. The truth is independent of the kid and the rapist. You're mixing up relative and absolute truths here. Rape is bad and of course it should never happen, but this is only so relative to the ego. At the same time, rape is neither good or bad from the absolute perspective because as Leo explains in his previous comment, good and bad are all in the mind and not baked into the action itself.

Rape only seems 'bad' to you as an limited ego/self. Bad and good are purely conceptual and relative. From a higher perspective it's all Good. Try to see from outside your ego perspective.

@crimson_chess You need to ask yourself whether your resistance to doing the work is a product of laziness or whether its a genuine disinterest in the subject. If you're really not interested in doing animation then don't do it, but also realize that art is not always an easy process that is always fun and enjoyable. Very often, making art is hard, challenging and sometimes boring. The way you know if drawing and animation is the thing for you is; do you loose all your motivation and interest in the subject when it starts getting hard, tedious or boring? Or is there always an underlying passion and interest in the subject despite what you're doing on a day to day basis? It's OK if its the first. But its important that you figure this out, because you don't want to waste more time in something that you're just not interested in. You should also recognize that animation is 1 field within art as a whole. You can apply your drawing skills to many other areas such as editorial illustration, concept design, character design, product design, product illustration, scientific illustration, game design, logo design and probably a hundred other specialties. Each one of these has a whole community of people online providing all the lessons you need. Why are you stuck on animation? I know you said its because animation has helped you out mentally, but don't be attached to it. Be flexible, experiment with other types of art. Try doing an illustration project for example, or some logo design even? There are so many art related industries and jobs. Another option you have is to not focus on doing full projects, which often take a lot of time and commitment and can be frustrating and challenging to complete if you're not experienced enough. Try focusing more on building basic drawing skills, or just drawing one off images, or do lots of experimenting with different mediums and drawing styles, or spend a few months trying to really improve your anatomy knowledge. When I first committed to pursuing art, I spent like 4 months doing anatomy, and filled 3 sketchbooks will rubbish drawings that no one will ever see but served me enormously ever since then. And its still an ongoing process. There's a lot of stuff you can do to improve your artistic skills that don't involve finished pieces, but are still super fun, relaxed and creatively rewarding. If you want to continue on with doing animation projects, try making them really small and easy to finish. It's important that you're able to finish projects. Make five 10 second animations. Then make a 30 second one, etc. You'll learn more and get more experience doing smaller projects.

Interesting, thanks for the clarification. I only comment on it because its such a spontaneous and natural phenomena for me during the trip so its strange not seeing it happen for other people. You mention the negatives of the group session with Octavio, any positives?

I think the issue here is smoking the natural substance, rather than plugging synthetic like I have done and Leo as well of course. Plugging synthetic seems so much more manageable, safe, and produces a more stable and clear experience. When people smoke the venom they end up just rolling around, basically going completely unconscious and doing all sorts of dangerous shit. I can plug the synthetic substance and remain totally in control with extreme levels of clarity. Also I have never seen anyone smoke the venom and then start doing bilateral symmetry yoga. Why is this the case? Differences in substance between natural and synthetic?

Give this man 30mg of 5-MeO!

@RedLine As another user said, follow the smaller books as they condense everything down to its most essential. There's so much unnecessary stuff in the bigger book. Stick to the core techniques - spinal breathing/pranayama, mahamudra, breath of fire etc.

@Jordan94 I find these to be the most useful. Very effective and they don't stick out of your ear and fall out easily. https://www.amazon.co.uk/Macks-Pillow-Moldable-Silicone-Earplugs/dp/B0083A3PLA/ref=sr_1_7?dchild=1&keywords=swimmers+ear+plugs+macks&qid=1590183465&sr=8-7

Insight Timer can do this, you can set interval timers. You shouldn't do this though, because sitting through the boredom, anxiety or any kind of thoughts about time or how long you have left, is part of meditation that needs to be overcome. Just set your timer and don't stop until it goes off.

Try changing your perspective on your thoughts. Instead of resisting and not wanting the thoughts and feelings you have about this guy, try accepting them as fully and non judgmentally as possible. Almost observe them as a scientist would. Interested, objective, but not wanting to change anything. Each time you have a thought or feeling about this guy, try to take a step back and just observe it. Just fully and totally allow what arises to arise. Think 'Hmm there that thought again, how interesting *smiles*'. When a thought arises, smile and say thank you, like you're watching clouds in the sky, or a bird flying past. You notice it, you observe it happening, let it be exactly as it is without wanting to change anything, allow it to stay as long it wants. You must learn to accept these thoughts. This doesn't mean you endulge in the fantasies or actively encourage these thoughts/feelings. It means you accept them because they simply happening. Repeat this, over and over again, and your attachment to these thoughts and feelings will begin to fade.

Damn! I've seen this Conor guy on youtube before. Didn't take much value from his videos but this is a tough watch for sure. Seems like his whole world is crumbling before him. He's going through an intense purging process. He'll come out of it a better man.

This is what it was like with me. 6-10mg = no effects. 15-25mg = ego death 30mg = God/Infinity

So are you gonna share the details? At least put it on your blog or something. On a different note, do you have any plans to provide any exclusive content for your Patreons (I am one of them)?

I wouldn't say 5-MeO builds up energy - although it is very energetically intense (hard to explain). It's much more about releasing stored and repressed energy, untying knots etc. The vibrations that I experience with 5-MeO feel like i'm shedding off layers of energy. There isn't any orgasmic bodily sensations like in the video you linked (at least I haven't experienced them), but there is Bliss. I have had permanent, lasting changes to my entire sense of being from 5-MeO, but there is still much more to work on. On another note, that video is kinda' hot!

@Leo Gura In all of your 5-MeO discussions (in videos and on the forum etc.) I don't hear you talking much about bilateral symmetry or the intense full body vibrations - both of which I have found to be a recurring experience in my 5-MeO sessions. I see the vibrations as an extremely important and valuable component of my trips. It feels as though as I am releasing and restructuring the energy in my body at a profoundly deep level. It feels as though I am genuinely healing and transforming my entire being. The bilateral symmetry yoga is also something that I am beginning to appreciate much more and, again, I see it as an almost key component in the goal of creating lasting permanent changes to my baseline level of consciousness and sense of self. I'm curious what you thoughts are on this, and also if you have experienced the vibrations and/or bilateral symmetry? The vibrations look exactly like this for me, in case anyone was curious (stats at 3:26):

You're assuming it is the body that is being aware. How can this be if you are aware of the physical body? Ask yourself what is aware? Also why do you assume the 'real you' is not where you are right now. Who told you this was true? Where else would you be other than right here right now? I'd advise you to practise the Do Nothing technique in addition to contemplation. Do Nothing means don't intentionally do anything. What happens when you completely and utterly let go of all doing? What is left when there is no doing happening?

Yes these are the correct ones. They need to be thin enough to actually insert like half way in.

Has anyone seen this new series called 'Devs'? I just finished watching the final episode and its by far one the best series i've seen in a long time. The basic premise: After a series of traumatic events, the main the character Lily becomes suspicious of Devs - a secret division of a tech company (set in current time) which has built a quantum computer that can supposedly simulate reality and go back and forwards in time. I wanted to mention it here because it deals with big themes and ideas like the nature of reality and existence, infinity, determinism and free will. In the last two episodes I was almost having strange flashbacks to my recent LSD trip. Its really trippy stuff and very entertaining! There are a few questionable editing and script choices, but the cinematography is absolutely outstanding and the music is awesome! The series raises really interesting questions like if you could see the future could you change it? and, if we simulated a complete reality would it actually be any different to the 'base' reality? I'm not saying any of the ideas in the series are true or even accurate but it gets you thinking and contemplating about stuff which most series don't even get close to.

@At_Giza See how it plays out over the next days and weeks - it may only be a temporary experience. Do what feels most authentic to you - it is your experience after all. Follow your intuition. If you feel you want to meditate and contemplate more then do that. Be equanimous. Don't resist and don't crave the experience.

@Sleyker It's very old and the questions are far behind what Leo teaches/talks about now. Still entertaining to watch though.

Yes it can be a very frustrating process. I applied to nearly 100 jobs last year and finally managed to find one in October. I worked with a career coach and the main thing she said is to tailor your CV extremely specifically to each job. You can't be sending out the same CV to every company. You need to write a brief personal statement at the top which is very tailored to the job and its requirements. Adjust work experience, skills and other stuff in the CV to match the job requirements as well. Another big tip my coach gave me was to apply to jobs through recruitment agencies rather than apply on website like Indeed or LinkedIn where you can be competing against >1000 other people for one job. Tailor your CV for a particular job and then contact (literally phone up) recruitment agencies that are specific to that industry telling them what you're looking for. Remember its a recruitment agents job to find candidates for every job position.

Be carefull with your projections and assumptions. There are plenty of highly valuable contributors to this forum, and a lot of great posts and discussions. Just because there are a handful of toxic users doesn't mean that everyone is. This forum has helped me enormously and I would not be where I am today without it - i've just learnt to ignore and filter out all of the unnecessary low quality discussions. Also don't forget that everyone has to start off somewhere. People are at different stages of learning and growing here so try to be more tolerant of people's lack of understanding - unless it becomes toxic/against forum guidelines etc. Also, I can guarantee that most people who use the forum do not even comment very regularly, if ever. I'm sure there are lots of people working hard and taking action but just sit silently on the side lines. So to assume that people here are not serious about real growth is just straight up false.

@Matteo I think the biggest issue when asking Gurus or other spiritual teachers about psychedelics is that in 99% of the cases they have either never done them or they have a few mild trips under their belt, usually with mushrooms or LSD. So their knowledge and understanding of psychedelics is massively incomplete. Nowadays, unless someone has had a breakthrough dose of 5-MeO-DMT I have stopped listening to their advice. If no traditional practises are working for you, high dose 5-MeO will. 10mg is not enough, but its good that you started off slow and careful. 10mg doesn't really do much. 20mg and up is were the magic happens.

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Whilst this virus is seriously affecting a lot of peoples lives in a bad way, i'm kinda loving life at the moment. Getting to work from home is a joy - no commute, much more relaxed work day, I can focus much more easily when needed, no unnecessary work-socialising stuff, and of course i'm still getting my full salary. I feel so fortunate and grateful for my situation. I hope that going forward companies will be much more lenient and flexible about letting people work from home. It's given me a taste of what it would be like to be a freelancer and now thats definitely something i'm gonna work towards. I have so much more energy and motivation to put into other things, like my artwork, meditation and exercise because it hasn't all been spent with going to work in an office all day which can be extremely mentally and physically tiring. You can't properly relax, where as at home its so much more chilled. I can take a 15 break if I want to. I can draw in my sketchbook for 10 minutes if I have an interesting idea. I can also do micro meditations, for like 10/15 minutes throughout the day - something you obviously can't do in an office. I can do all that and still deliver the work that I need to do. In fact my productivity with work has increased significantly. London is also so quiet and peaceful. Obviously i'm not going out much but its lovely when I do. The parks are beautiful at this time of year as well - made even better with the lack of people about. Imagine if it was like this all the time but just without this terrible virus. God bless those who are being affected by it. Anyone else loving the self-isolation life?