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Its not that people exist when you're looking at them and when you're not looking they don't exist - even though that might be true. Even if you are looking at another being, there is no person there. There is no separate entity or 'unit' there. There is nothing other than pure happening, pure appearance - which is not a 'person'. The happening isn't separate from other happenings. There isn't anything or anyone behind this appearance.

@ivankiss Gary Vaynerchuk is a pretty good source for all social media stuff. However he posts soo much that it's hard to find the good/useful information (it is there) without spending hours just watching him ramble. But if you're willing to spend some time to dig into his work I think you'd find that very beneficial. There is also definitely an audience for your kind of music - just about figuring how to get it in front of those people.

@PukkaDanks I have actually had a fairly big breakthrough with meditation over the past 4 months. Started meditating like 4 years ago, tried a bunch of different techniques with varying intensity, with periods where I was doing 2-4 hours a day, and then sometimes just 20 minutes. I've also done a few 10 day retreats. But in general any change in my level of consciousness was minimal. In terms of the breakthrough, all i'll say is that psychedelics were likely the catalyst, and specifically 5-MeO, and more specifically a major breakthrough with that substance that occurred earlier in the year. I only need to do 30-40 minutes in the morning and it 'stays with me' for the rest of the day. It's like the meditation has taken on a new form. In fact, in a lot of ways the meditation never stops. Your natural state is meditation. I have scrapped all 'doing' techniques completely. Letting go of all doing and just residing as what is left is usually my go to. So my point is, start working with psychedelics, and specifically large doses of 5-meO.

@DawnOfReality What do you actually want? Like actually. When you sit down and ask yourself, what do I just really wanna do, what is the answer? Its very important that you get clear on this. This will then give you a much clearer path forward. I'm not saying you need to set out and get clear on the whole of your life. This is more short term, 3-5 years. What do you want in the next 5 years?

Try doing 3 days at home first. Test the waters before you invest a chunk of money. Yes distractions will be readily available but you can put computers/phones away in a cupboard etc. The difficulty with solo retreats is that you don't have some external factor forcing you to go and sit down to meditate and follow the schedule like you do on group retreats. So you need a large amount of commitment, seriousness and discipline. So thats why I suggest testing the waters first with a smaller retreat. But if you're really set on renting a place, look on airbnb. There must be options available on there, particularly in US.

@integral I've been watching Frank for years. He's definitely awake. He had a series of deep kundalini awakenings which resulted in a permanent state of non dual awareness - at least thats what he says. If you compare Frank's recent videos to his older videos (2019) you can clearly see a significant change. He's so much more authentic now. He speaks the truth as well. This stuff can't be faked.

I've (m27) recently started dating for the first time and i'm pretty ignorant as to how it all works/what should and shouldn't happen etc. My issue is that I never feel like I want to take it past the first date. I'm attracted to the girls on a fairly basic appearance level, but the attraction never seems to go any deeper than that. I get along with the girls really well, I never feel awkward or like I just want to get up and leave. Good conversation, laughing etc. But it's like I can't get past that kind of friend vibe. My question is, does a deeper attraction form only after a few dates? Or should it be obvious after the first whether I actually like this girl or not? Do I ask the girl out on a second date even if i'm not sure i'm that attracted to her?

@Roy @Girzo Thanks for the feedback and comments guys!

Enough to want to go on a date with them, but I wouldn't say i'm dying to see them again.

It doesn't matter what the kid can and can't see. The truth is independent of the kid and the rapist. You're mixing up relative and absolute truths here. Rape is bad and of course it should never happen, but this is only so relative to the ego. At the same time, rape is neither good or bad from the absolute perspective because as Leo explains in his previous comment, good and bad are all in the mind and not baked into the action itself.

Rape only seems 'bad' to you as an limited ego/self. Bad and good are purely conceptual and relative. From a higher perspective it's all Good. Try to see from outside your ego perspective.

@crimson_chess You need to ask yourself whether your resistance to doing the work is a product of laziness or whether its a genuine disinterest in the subject. If you're really not interested in doing animation then don't do it, but also realize that art is not always an easy process that is always fun and enjoyable. Very often, making art is hard, challenging and sometimes boring. The way you know if drawing and animation is the thing for you is; do you loose all your motivation and interest in the subject when it starts getting hard, tedious or boring? Or is there always an underlying passion and interest in the subject despite what you're doing on a day to day basis? It's OK if its the first. But its important that you figure this out, because you don't want to waste more time in something that you're just not interested in. You should also recognize that animation is 1 field within art as a whole. You can apply your drawing skills to many other areas such as editorial illustration, concept design, character design, product design, product illustration, scientific illustration, game design, logo design and probably a hundred other specialties. Each one of these has a whole community of people online providing all the lessons you need. Why are you stuck on animation? I know you said its because animation has helped you out mentally, but don't be attached to it. Be flexible, experiment with other types of art. Try doing an illustration project for example, or some logo design even? There are so many art related industries and jobs. Another option you have is to not focus on doing full projects, which often take a lot of time and commitment and can be frustrating and challenging to complete if you're not experienced enough. Try focusing more on building basic drawing skills, or just drawing one off images, or do lots of experimenting with different mediums and drawing styles, or spend a few months trying to really improve your anatomy knowledge. When I first committed to pursuing art, I spent like 4 months doing anatomy, and filled 3 sketchbooks will rubbish drawings that no one will ever see but served me enormously ever since then. And its still an ongoing process. There's a lot of stuff you can do to improve your artistic skills that don't involve finished pieces, but are still super fun, relaxed and creatively rewarding. If you want to continue on with doing animation projects, try making them really small and easy to finish. It's important that you're able to finish projects. Make five 10 second animations. Then make a 30 second one, etc. You'll learn more and get more experience doing smaller projects.

Interesting, thanks for the clarification. I only comment on it because its such a spontaneous and natural phenomena for me during the trip so its strange not seeing it happen for other people. You mention the negatives of the group session with Octavio, any positives?

I think the issue here is smoking the natural substance, rather than plugging synthetic like I have done and Leo as well of course. Plugging synthetic seems so much more manageable, safe, and produces a more stable and clear experience. When people smoke the venom they end up just rolling around, basically going completely unconscious and doing all sorts of dangerous shit. I can plug the synthetic substance and remain totally in control with extreme levels of clarity. Also I have never seen anyone smoke the venom and then start doing bilateral symmetry yoga. Why is this the case? Differences in substance between natural and synthetic?

Give this man 30mg of 5-MeO!

@RedLine As another user said, follow the smaller books as they condense everything down to its most essential. There's so much unnecessary stuff in the bigger book. Stick to the core techniques - spinal breathing/pranayama, mahamudra, breath of fire etc.

@Jordan94 I find these to be the most useful. Very effective and they don't stick out of your ear and fall out easily. https://www.amazon.co.uk/Macks-Pillow-Moldable-Silicone-Earplugs/dp/B0083A3PLA/ref=sr_1_7?dchild=1&keywords=swimmers+ear+plugs+macks&qid=1590183465&sr=8-7

Insight Timer can do this, you can set interval timers. You shouldn't do this though, because sitting through the boredom, anxiety or any kind of thoughts about time or how long you have left, is part of meditation that needs to be overcome. Just set your timer and don't stop until it goes off.

Try changing your perspective on your thoughts. Instead of resisting and not wanting the thoughts and feelings you have about this guy, try accepting them as fully and non judgmentally as possible. Almost observe them as a scientist would. Interested, objective, but not wanting to change anything. Each time you have a thought or feeling about this guy, try to take a step back and just observe it. Just fully and totally allow what arises to arise. Think 'Hmm there that thought again, how interesting *smiles*'. When a thought arises, smile and say thank you, like you're watching clouds in the sky, or a bird flying past. You notice it, you observe it happening, let it be exactly as it is without wanting to change anything, allow it to stay as long it wants. You must learn to accept these thoughts. This doesn't mean you endulge in the fantasies or actively encourage these thoughts/feelings. It means you accept them because they simply happening. Repeat this, over and over again, and your attachment to these thoughts and feelings will begin to fade.

Damn! I've seen this Conor guy on youtube before. Didn't take much value from his videos but this is a tough watch for sure. Seems like his whole world is crumbling before him. He's going through an intense purging process. He'll come out of it a better man.

This is what it was like with me. 6-10mg = no effects. 15-25mg = ego death 30mg = God/Infinity

So are you gonna share the details? At least put it on your blog or something. On a different note, do you have any plans to provide any exclusive content for your Patreons (I am one of them)?

I wouldn't say 5-MeO builds up energy - although it is very energetically intense (hard to explain). It's much more about releasing stored and repressed energy, untying knots etc. The vibrations that I experience with 5-MeO feel like i'm shedding off layers of energy. There isn't any orgasmic bodily sensations like in the video you linked (at least I haven't experienced them), but there is Bliss. I have had permanent, lasting changes to my entire sense of being from 5-MeO, but there is still much more to work on. On another note, that video is kinda' hot!

@Leo Gura In all of your 5-MeO discussions (in videos and on the forum etc.) I don't hear you talking much about bilateral symmetry or the intense full body vibrations - both of which I have found to be a recurring experience in my 5-MeO sessions. I see the vibrations as an extremely important and valuable component of my trips. It feels as though as I am releasing and restructuring the energy in my body at a profoundly deep level. It feels as though I am genuinely healing and transforming my entire being. The bilateral symmetry yoga is also something that I am beginning to appreciate much more and, again, I see it as an almost key component in the goal of creating lasting permanent changes to my baseline level of consciousness and sense of self. I'm curious what you thoughts are on this, and also if you have experienced the vibrations and/or bilateral symmetry? The vibrations look exactly like this for me, in case anyone was curious (stats at 3:26):