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I see. Thats a fair criticism of Jan I suppose. Once he gets into a good conversation flow he can be very interesting to listen to. But he can also be quite introverted and quiet. Saying that, he is extremely conscious and his shaktipat is strong as fuck. If you gonna get shaktipat he's your guy.

Cool new documentary about a bunch of hippies who built a fully self contained biosphere in the middle of the desert. Interesting example of the conflicts and differing worldviews between Stage Green and Stage Orange:

Don't know what you mean. A black hole?

Yes I will probably end up doing that at some point. It's not like i'm never gonna ejaculate for the rest of my life, particularly if I get into a relationship . I'm just going for as long as possible at the moment as an experiment to see what the effects are. It's not that deep mate. I don't see it as something that's hard or difficult - it's actually been quite easy and stress free for me. I don't keep count of how many days i've gone, and I haven't told anyone i'm doing it other than on this post. So I ain't trying to impress anyone. I like experimenting with new techniques related to body and health, and this is just one of many i've tried. Thanks for your post, I appreciate your perspective.

I appreciate your perspective but i'm not sure this is the case for me. I wouldn't say i'm restraining myself too much. Retaining my semen hasn't been difficult for me at all, so there isn't really any restrain. I just decided one day to try it and then 4 weeks later here I am. I'm also a very busy guy, I work full time and spend the rest of my hours working on my projects and towards a large vision. I wish I had more time to sit and think about stuff. Either way, thanks for your feedback, i'll keep it in mind.

@beastcookie Have you ever worked with Jan Essman to get shaktipat? I've attended a few of his retreats largely out of curiosity to see if this kinda of stuff works. Seems to be much more effective for some people than others for sure.

@Dlavjr Have you tried retaining semen in between the times you're seeing her? If you're masturbating a lot that could be depleting your sexual drive to some extent.

Leo is aware of this, he ain't stupid. You can be fully aware of the toxicity and dangers of extreme porn and masturbation addiction, whilst still allowing yourself to masturbate and watch porn at a healthy level. Same with drinking or anything really. Leo has always advocated having a healthy attitude towards porn and masturbation - meaning just don't go overboard with it. I generally agree with him.

A fair comment. No I never really found masturbating to cause any negatives in my mood either. Some guys say they're completely spent after they orgasm, but thats never really been an issue for me. The main reasoning for me trying this extended retention was to see if it had any effect on my anxiety - and it did, quite significantly. The other benefits were great as well. Just wasn't expecting the flatline.

I will probably end up doing something like this. But for now i'm gonna go for as long as possible. I want to see when and if my labido comes back.

Cool thanks for the response. Yes I have read that for many guys its a good things because it makes trying not to NoFap a lot easier. That's definitely true, but as I mentioned it comes with so many other negatives there's little motivation to want to stay on track. I'm gonna wait it out for a bit longer, and see how things progress. Interesting way to look at it, i appreciate your response, thanks. Fingers crossed for that beautiful Astral girl then eh? I've actually ready stories of people having sex with entities in the astral realm so i'm not completely averse to that idea. I know I know . It's an experiment of sorts, I wanted to seriously test it out and see if what people were saying was true. Turns out it is (was?) to a large extent.

I'm just refuting his point about 'actual infinity' being a logical contradiction. It isn't.

A retreat like the one you describe is not really going to prepare you for a high dose psychedelic trip. They're two quite different things. A better preparation for iboga would be to try other psychedelics.

@Nak Khid He is incorrect. Actual Infinity can be realised, or rather it can become conscious of itself. He's ignorant to the required radical shift in consciousness necessary in order for Infinity to realise itself. His definition of actual is also incorrect. He says it means 'totally encapsulated'. This is a false assumption. Again, he's trying to use concepts and language to make his argument. But actual infinity is radically beyond symbols.

It is not contradictory to me. You simply misunderstand what the word Love means in this context. This isn't a personal attack, just a direct realisation that you have yet to have. Like I mentioned previously, this literally cannot be understood from a normal baseline level of consciousness. You're trying to get this with the logical rational mind, but it literally cannot be done. Don't believe what I say, but just be open to the possibility that this could be true. You must verify this for yourself. You won't be able to verify this by thinking about it. It's good that you are questioning this stuff.

I will never deny or invalidate the suffering of others. Other people suffer, horrible and terrible things happen in the world and we should all be working towards reducing this. Yet this does not contradict what I said in my previous comment.

This is not actually the case. You see, understanding what the phrases 'Everything is Love', or 'Reality is Love' mean requires an extremely radical shift in consciousness which is far beyond your normal state, and is also far beyond even ego death. Has God realised itself through your body/mind? This is the kind of level of consciousness required. This simply cannot be understood at 'normal' human consciousness. At the highest levels of consciousness, the actual substrate of reality is recognised as Love, and that this Love is Absolute because it is Infinite and Eternal. Every happening that has ever occurred is literally Pure Love. Just because one individual is not conscious of this does not mean it isn't an absolute, or that its only true 'for you' as you say. Truth is not dependant on 'individual humans' being conscious of it, otherwise it wouldn't be absolute.

The short answer, as explained by others, is that you, an ego, are imagining that suffering, pain and misery are somehow bad and evil. And relative to you as a separate self, they are! But this is only a relative truth. In the absolute sense there is no bad and evil.

Great thread idea. I'd encourage people to not just spam this with people who make a living solely off of making Youtube videos. We should collate examples of how people have built authentic successfull careers that don't necessarily rely on Youtube. Masahiro Kikuno - Watchmaker: Ross Symons - Origami Artist: "Ross quit his 9-5 job after spending a 18 months making origami and posting his work on instagram. He started the year with 165 followers and ended the year with 50,000. 10 months into his project he was featured by Instagram and his followers jumped from 10k to 40k in 4 hours. He does origami installations, art exhibitions, create origami stop frame animations and create social media content for brands around the world. He also does public speaking gigs where he shares his story about how he made the shift from 9-5 web developer to an Instagrammer and full-time artist." https://www.instagram.com/white_onrice/ Kacper Kowalski - Paraglider Photographer: https://mymodernmet.com/kacper-kowalski-aerial-photography/. Kowalski trained as an architect and was enjoying a flourishing career in that field, when his passion for aviation took over. Attracted to the freedom and adventure of paragliding, Kowalski began photographing his journeys as a means to kickstart a new career that would allow him to spend endless hours in the sky. He now makes his living as a successfull photographer. Nick Anger - Bladesmith, woodworker, metallurgist, and chemist who creates utterly unique, custom Damascus steel knives.

I've never felt like I was going to vomit from the vibrations. They can be quite intense but usually have a neutral feeling. There's always a brief moment of nausea at the beginning of the trip during ego death, but if you take a deep breath and just relax is passes quickly. I should mention that the vibrations and bi-lateral symmtery movements happen completely spontaneously without any egoic intention. So if you find yourself forcing them or trying to do them in any way then let that go. I get you're excited, but remember - slow and steady wins the race

@Vipassana What was the purpose of the fast?

In most cases 5-MeO-DMT should definitely not be used as a replacement for traditional medicine. Psychedelics simply don't work that way. You'd be better off not taking 5-MeO if you already have psychotic symptoms.

@EntheogenTruthSeeker Carefull not to overly idolise Leo. He's just a normal dude who makes videos.

Depends greatly on the dosage. I'll tell you what happens at 30mg plugged: Total ego death beyond anything you can imagine and then ACTUAL GOD!! GOD realises itself completely directly through your body/mind. Total Oneness and Unity beyond anything imaginable. Your entire life dissolves into the sweetest purest Love. Visual field becomes infinite just like all other 'perceptions', but these are largely unchanged. Body moves in bi-lateral symmetry as the energetic system is rewired and refreshed (seems like it doesn't happen for everyone, but does for me). Orgasmic vibrations permeate throughout the body.

@Rilles If i'm honest, no. I'm working on my projects every single night. Longest break i'll take is a day or two. I think the key with a life purpose is having a vision or a goal that you really really want to achieve. I'm also quite inpatient so i'm just more eager to get there sooner rather than later. Nothing wrong with what you're doing though. If you're actually producing work and making progress then thats all that matters.