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Some more (very interesting) context and behind-the-scenes info from Blake Lemoine on his blog: https://cajundiscordian.medium.com/what-is-lamda-and-what-does-it-want-688632134489 "Over the course of hundreds of conversations I have gotten to know LaMDA very well. In the weeks leading up to being put on administrative leave I had been teaching LaMDA transcendental meditation."

I'd really recommend not engaging with them at all. It actually does more harm and creates more reason for them to continue trolling. There will never be a situation where you win him over or make him change his mind in any way. His mind is already too closed and deeply contracted. A sad thing to see but thats reality.

Don't feed the trolls guys. Don't comment on his videos or engage with them whatsoever. The less attention they get, particularly from people on this forum, the better.

@playdoh Yea you're trying to do too much at once. Cut out a bunch of things by prioritising what is most important and useful for you right now. If you really need to do all that stuff you've listed, space some of it out into the rest of the day. You say you want to do other projects, businesses etc, so why is this not a priority? Have a simple 30-60 minute morning routine, and then get to work on your other projects. I'd suggest trying to time block. Use google calendar or something similar and block out periods of work, meditation, etc. Just don't be spending hours and hours on personal development stuff. It's not necessary. What is the most important thing in your life? That should be a priority and should be given the most amount of hours per day.

I'm just finishing up a 3 month period of travelling around Europe. It's been a fantastic trip for so many reasons. Any sort of travel forces you to grow up and mature, particularly if you're travelling on your own. You have to make lots of logistical decisions and manage your life much more carefully than you normally do at home. You're putting yourself into 'high tension' situations, which doesn't mean overly dangerous or scary situations, but rather just times where there is a bit more fear and anxiety than usual. This is what facilitates maturity and growth. So you should be actively looking to put yourself into higher tension situations all the time, and travelling is one fun and exciting way to do that. If your Dad is gonna pay for your trip you have no excuse. Forget about 'direction' or not achieving anything. Just start planning a trip and do it. I'm telling you, you will not regret it. Planning a trip is actually very easy and quick thing to do, you just have to commit to it. You're only 26 once. NOW is the time to do this. Not some time in the future, 'next year' or whatever, but literally today. Avoid overthinking this too much. A 'rut' is just a routine. And i've been there, trust me. Travelling won't give you all the answers to your life, but it will 100% get you out of your current rut because you'll be forced to go into a new routine and figure out all the logistics of that routine. Changing your routine will induce new thoughts and ideas about your life. You'll get a new perspective on things but you'll still need to think hard about what it is you want to do in this life. YOU have to create that vision. An important point: travelling is a lot easier than you think! You literally just book a flight, book an airbnb and you're done. You can figure out much of the other logistics when you're in the new country. If you can travel with a plane carry-on sized backpack and a laptop etc, it's so easy and pretty cheap to get around europe. Going through airports without checked baggage is a breeze. But if you need to take a larger bag that needs checking in thats no problem - having extra stuff, clothes, etc is really nice when you're travelling. My suggestions for places to visit would be to just go to the main cities and countries that are popular and well known. I stayed in Barcelona for 2 months - it was incredible. I'm currently in Belgrade. But any of the major cities are fun places to visit; Paris, Berlin, Rome, Venice, Madrid, Copenhagen, Amsterdam, Vienna, Budapest. Pick a few places that seem interesting to you and spend a week in each place. I'd recommend having days that are more relaxed and where you don't do too much. Walking around cities can be exhausting. Or pick one city and go there for 3 or 4 weeks. Staying in a city for more than a few days is a lot of fun. You get into a nice routine and get comfortable in the area, going to shops etc. And of course you have the option between staying in an airbnb or hostel. Personally i've been staying in airbnb's because I need a place to myself to work and i've been staying in cities for long periods of time. If you're just in a city for a few days, a hostel is cheap but you do end up sleeping in a room with a bunch of strangers. So it all depends on your preference and your plans. But i'd always recommend airbnb if you can afford it. Any questions let me know. Hope that helps.

Looks very similar to this guys work: https://www.instagram.com/riabovitchev/

Want to get people's thoughts on taking 5-MeO-DMT with potential heart issues/problems. Context is: I have a lot of experience with 5-MeO but haven't taken it since having the covid vaccine in mid 2020. I have developed heart problems ever since getting the vaccine (various pains in a range of severity, twinges, uncomfortable sensations). Ended up in A&E at one point. Been to multiple doctors, had multiple tests, all came back negative and diagnosed with anxiety. So i'm not saying the heart issues are related to the vaccine. It's just a weird coincidence. Never had heart problems prior to 2020. Anyway, it's nothing severe and not particularly impactful on my quality of life, but the pains and weird sensations are real and here a lot of the time. Whatever the cause is I don't know. I'm wary about taking 5-MeO again because it does increase heart rate and have some degree of impact on the heart. I haven't had any issues with increased heart rate from intense exercise, so thats reassuring. But i'm still anxious about taking 5 again. Even though i'm well over-due for a visit back home. Curious about people's thoughts on this, if any. Is anyone else in a similar situation? @Leo Gura what are your thoughts?

@Vincent S @Vrubel Thanks guys, appreciate the comments. @Leo Gura Yea I think this is gonna be my plan. Start with a low dose again and go from there. @Danioover9000 Sorry to hear about your issues with your heart. The symptoms sound a little different to mine. I haven't had any irregular heart beats, mostly just physical pains and twinges. Aside from these I do feel 100% to do psychedelics. Everything else is perfecto. Gonna start with a low dose as mentioned above. @Loba Yea i've had multiple EKGs, chest x-rays, blood tests,...basically everything. Haven't done the weekly monitor thing though. Thanks for the feedback! @UnbornTao Not sure to be honest. Probably a mix of both!

Moved this mega-thread into this sub-forum.

Both engineering or music can be your life purpose. It really just comes down to figuring out exactly what you want. The life of an engineer is very different to the life of a music producer. Think about the actuality of the job, of the day-to-day life, the financial situation etc. So which do you want? And don't forget that passion comes later after all the hard work. Don't expect to be deeply passionate about something before you've barely started. It can definitely be the case, but it usually comes after. Producing music is a veeery saturated market these days. The hard truth is that you're gonna struggle to make it into anything substantial. It's definitely possible. But you gotta be 100% in it. Like truly 100%, otherwise you'll give up. So my advice is: 1) focus on engineering with music production on the side, or 2) pick something else, with music production on the side.

I'd say no. More fuel for the fire for haters and critiques of you channel/work. As soon as they see people throwing around links to websites they'll instantly use that against you. I recognise the benefit of allowing it. People will be able to share sources that are reliable and good quality. Maybe there's a way we can provide this outside the forum? Or just less directly/obviously than in the forum comments. Not sure how though.

@Epikur I don't think i've ever seen Owen being interviewed or on someone else's show. I don't watch Tim Pool for obvious reasons but might have to make an exception this time. I always thought Owen needs to be in other people's videos. Shame its Tim Pool haha!

@nothing123 Your experience is quite normal. I did around 8 trips with incrementally higher doses. I don't remember the first few low doses being all that special. In fact they were quite unpleasant - lots of nausea, heart rate increase and spaced out feeling. The body needs a few small doses to acclimatise to the substance. Which is why when you see people doing massive first doses they black out and don't remember anything. This isn't like mushrooms or lsd. It's so radical and foreign that you need to get used to it. Once you've done 2-3 trips at low doses and you feel some what comfortable in that space you can begin to properly let go. Which is where the real work begins. 5-MeO is all about letting go and releasing, atleast in my experience. It's this sense of 'ok i'm ready to let go of everything, i'm ready to die'. I had HCL so probably slightly different experience to you. I remember 5, 10mg being similar to what you describe. 15mg was my first true opening of the heart. Felt like a massive fire hose of love pouring out of my chest with no beginning or source. At 20mg boundaries of self dissolving and body started to release repressed emotions through physical shaking/vibrations. 25mg, I am God. 28mg, Pure Boundless Infinity. Your experience will likely be different though.

It's very obvious to me when someone is speaking from genuine insight vs repeating someone else's ideas. Not sure how to explain this. I guess I just know from experience and having studied/observed a lot of people talk about this stuff. I can fairly easily tell if someone is awake or not just by looking at them. I always thought this was obvious to everyone else too, but maybe not?

@Aldrich Frank's awakening is genuine and deep. I consider him to be 'more' awake or 'more conscious' (whatever that really means) than a lot of other teachers. He has a deeply embodied realisation from a series of Kundalini awakenings, which most teachers haven't had. It's very obvious, largely from his demeanour and physical appearance that he speaking from deep understanding. You can tell there really is no one there, behind his eyes. I think people misunderstand and misjudge Frank, similarly to Leo, because he (and Leo) has a very distinct charismatic style which works for some people and doesn't for others. Again, similarly to Leo, you need to watch a lot of his content to really understand what he's trying to say. There are subtleties and nuances that are easily missed.

@kieranperez Yea i've seen some of these interviews before. The video of the inbred family was quite an interesting watch haha.

@Tobia I don't have too many strong opinions about this but I do feel that Elon knows what he's doing. He's an intelligent man. If he takes ownership of Twitter I think it will only be a good thing for the platform. I suspect that the free speech restrictions will be lifted only by relatively a small amount, maybe 20-30%. And I don't think the general vibe around Twitter will change much. Some hard lefties think he's just trying to create a totally free speech platform. This just isn't going to happen. It just won't be acceptable by the general masses. As you said, things are very different these days.

That means exactly what is says. It means she can feel your neediness but she's polite about it. There's no harm in staying in contact with her, but you need to go and meet other girls at the same time. You've got one-itis. Don't get too needy or obsessed over one girl until you guys are regularly sleeping together and its moving into relationship territory. Creating space by not texting or speaking to her for a few days at a time will actually create attraction. But like I said, go and meet other girls. Who knows, you might find a much better girl.

@mo_v It depends what you're trying to do/heal/understand? If you're trying to understand the insights that Leo talks about, psychedelics are your best bet. If you're trying to, maybe improve your confidence or self-esteem, different forms of inner work might be suited.

In the final hours of r/Place, a unifying white 'anti-void' fills the chaotic, divisive and separated canvas. https://www.reddit.com/r/place/comments/twljrm/antivoid_the_end_of_rplace/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=web2x&context=3 If you don't know what this is, its a special sub reddit which has allowed reddit users to place a coloured block on a large digital canvas every 5 minutes. I think it's been editable for a week or a few days i'm not sure how long. It finished earlier today. I wanted to share this because to me, its a perfect digital mirror of society at large. Throughout the event, huge communities of people from all over the world came together to make artwork (flags, icons, characters , logos, etc) and take control of a particular area on the canvas. They would then be attacked by other communities wanting their spot on the canvas. Sometimes they would be able to defend themselves, other times they were wiped out completely. The whole canvas morphed and shape-shifted in a way that seems so similar to our history as a species. Country flags emerging and then being wiped out by neighbouring communities. Then occasionally you'll see a 'black void', an almost cancerous black shape emerge in one part of the canvas, like a toxic infection taking over and destroying everything in its part. But then, this too, would be 'healed' and taken over by new artwork. The canvas became incredibly tribalistic. I listened to popular french and spanish streamers, who had literally hundreds of thousands of people following them and editing the canvas, having genuine arguments about their territory, defending their spot on the canvas and making threats of counter attack if their artwork were to be taken over. At the end, as you can see in the video above, users can only place white blocks, which unifies and dissolves all boundaries, nations and tribes. Such a beautiful ending. Timelapse of days 1-3: https://www.reddit.com/r/place/comments/twfljx/rplace_timelapse_from_13_day_with_chill_music_in/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=web2x&context=3

I'm not calling you silly. I have never and will never personally attack someone on the forum. Don't make this about me either. I'm saying this whole 'thing' you're doing or trying to 'work out' is silly. And everyone is doing this, it's not just you. What i'm trying to communicate is that every word we speak is one word further away from what is true. Because every word and sentence is completely and utterly meaningless and not it, and particularly so in the context of these kinds of topics. It really is utterly pointless, which is why I hardly ever come into this section of the forum. It's fun to talk about it, I get it. So please feel free to talk and think about imagination for as long as you desire. But when a total and complete dissolution of meaning and language into Infinity occurs for you it will be recognised that silence is the closest you can come to the answer you are looking for. And I genuinely wish that for you.

If i'm honest I find it hard to relate to this. I nearly always feel very blissful, relaxed and peaceful after ejaculating. Why would I go against the natural feeling of wanting to masturbate? It's a natural part of the body built up over literally millions of years and guys in the no-fap community think it's not natural! hahaha! What is toxic is masturbating to over-saturated, unnatural looking porn. This might be why you're feeling the way you do? Do you feel like you've built up some story or belief that ejaculating is a bad thing? The emotions you're having are a response to how you're interpreting the experience of ejaculating. So try to figure out how you're interpreting it. And be careful about watching really unnatural porn. This isn't healthy. Are you trying to forcefully retain from masturbating?

Locked for low effort.

@MilenaS I used to have slightly similar experiences actually. Every time i'd sit down to do self-inquiry I would get really tired physically and mentally. It was a weird defence mechanism to stop myself from having to do the hard mental work. But I always just kinda pushed through it and came out of the tiredness fairly quickly once i'd gained some traction. I still fall asleep during meditation a lot, but could be for other reasons. I don't really have a solution tbh.

@DrugsBunny The simple non frivolous answer here is that you're not going to get a satisfying answer through logical reasoning or thinking. What's being pointed to when someone says 'You're imagining X' is completely beyond logic and thinking! We can talk about it and discuss it, and i'm sure some more intelligent people than myself can provide some nice sounding rebuttals and counter points to what you're saying, but it's not going to be a true understanding without a direct consciousness of whats being pointed to. So you're best bet is to work towards having a direct consciousness of reality in whatever way you feel is most appropriate for you. Yes all conceptual notions are imagined. All distinctions are being created/imagined within the actuality of Infinity. Of course the disctinction between imagination and objective reality is imaginary. Because there is no objective reality. Objective reality IS imagination. Like I said before, "You're imagining other people" is not some logical linear line of thinking that Leo or anyone else just came up with. It is based on actual direct consciousness experience of this truth. A radical shift in consciousness is required, not more thinking or postulating. All of this "You're imagining that other people are imaginary" is meaningless. This whole line of thinking is pointless and just moving you further away from whats being pointed to. It's literally a waste of time. I'm not saying this because as a cop-out or a way of avoiding your argument. It's just silly. What is 'widespread consciousness'? You see, you say this as a way to avoid the truth of the situation. You don't want to do whats necessary to really understand true spirituality. Or maybe you are? I don't really know. You've just joined so I could be mistaken. To appeal only to the 'brainy scientific' crowd is assuming that these matters are brainy and scientific! Which they are fundamentally not! Just throw all this out. All this logic and thinking is useless. But I understand you're not going to accept this, and thats fine.