@Trevor Herrick Seems like the darkness as I like to call it has you in a bit of a haze. I started getting out of my haze by questioning every little aspect of the darkness and depression. Why do i feel this way, what does it mean to me, pretty much question the hell out of why you are in this sort of haze. After questioning it you have to know its your responsibility like in the aforementioned comments. You have to start by understanding and confronting this issue over and over again because the more you do that the more you see how this issue influences you. As for school who cares you are 20 years old and have all the time to make up for any bad grades. Community college is a great place to start and get your grades up. It doesn't sound glamorous but i found it to be a great start in order to seek higher education. Step out of that comfort zone or current reality and hopefully you'll find some answers. One last point, work on loving yourself despite all these flaws you may see, your past made you who are are, and you deserve to own it happily. Hope I was of some help, good luck.
