I tried self-inquiry two times the last days and without a real enlightenment experience i got huge panic and anxiety the more concrete I questioned myself. I’m already scared without an enlightenment experience. Maybe my ego has more fear of death than usual? I notice on a daily basis that my ego protects itself more than usual. I get highly neurotic and anxious in topics like diseases for example. Should i fix that first or should i stay on track towards enlightenment? Because if I’m already scared just after a few questions of self-inquiry work, then probably it will be particularly difficult for me to handle enlightenment experiences?
