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@Danioover9000 Yeah, it is something to be aware of. I've been living very unconsciously.

I am going into it with the idea that the body is intelligent enough to release excess semen through wet dreams or reabsorb it or turn it into something else or break it down. But I have heard people getting prostate problems after holding it for two years. I have been on both extremes where I have jerked off 4-6 times for several days straight and it leads to desensitization for me. I don't get hard unless I use my hand. And I have also been on Nofap where I held on for a good 40 days and it was an amazing experience. There is a lot of ideology that comes with Nofap that it will attract women, and it will bring in more energy, and it will elevate spirituality. I must say it is somewhat true for me. But then, I cannot attribute it to Nofap alone. I don't want to be the guy, who in pursuit of attraction, more energy, or spirituality, doesn't listen to my body, and then gets a prostrate problem. I am 25, a virgin, and don't have a gf which might explain why I might be lured onto this path. But it is much more than that. I genuinely feel this is what I want to do. But then also not fuck up my body in the process. How do you guys do it? What is your frequency of ejaculating?

Yesterday, I was following "How to get enlightened" video of Leo, and I was trying to locate "I", there was a moment where there was a realization that the body and the inner voice, is a perception just like the glass bottle which I was aware of, and then instead of being so attached with the body, I identified with the glass bottle. And it felt like all of reality is tightly glued together, and there isn't a separation at all, and there was no "I" to be found, just perceptions. I tried to do it again, and failed. When I become aware, I get lost. And I am not aware that I am aware. And then when I am able to become aware, the body confuses me. The inner voice confuses me too. And then I ask as suggested : Who is aware of the voice " I am aware", but still I keep looking for the self, and it frustrates me, that I cannot find it, and there was no experience of being one with everything either. But If that isn't how you do it, how do you do it?

@JonasVE12 Primarily, I was too caught up falling in love with girls who played hard to get, that, and I spent a lot of time fapping, which I could have used, the time and the energy to talk to girls instead. But back then, I didn't have fearlessness, as I do now. I mean if my confidence at 18, was 10/100, now it is 70/100. I don't hesitate to ask girls I like on dates. And then I get rejected. Even I have the confidence, I just don't know how to play the game. I get first dates, and it is downhill from there. @Harlen Kelly I noticed how I believe that holding semen will lead to something great, spiritually or attraction-wise, but I can see how it is an unquestioned ideology. Will have to experiment. @Danioover9000 These practices, I can't do properly, cause I don't understand exactly what's being done. But yeah, doing it daily, does affect my mental state and health. How do you decide the frequency or do you go with what the body tells you? @Osaid Yeah, I feel like you hit the sweet spot when you talked about the body needing rest after so much fapping. And yeah, edging might be the elephant in the room here. Not that if it is bad per se, but if you're doing it frequently, but still wanting to hold on to semen, you might as well start all over again.

@Preety_India The snake eating its own tail

@Godishere I am quarantined, and where I live, psychs are not available so easily. I have done it 4 years ago, and back then, the trip was all about survival and the beauty of reality. And the symbol of onenness- Ouroboros, I was lost in the mind back then.

It's when Leo says- Once you realize you are God, and are able to construct anything, even a billion dollars, you'd get bored with it, and would want to set limitations and make it a challenge, which is the life I'm living right now. So, what I grasped was, there is nothing to pursue. I am where I decided to be. So, if I pursue god realization, I'd be back again here living life, and then wanting to pursue god realization again, ad infinitum. I feel like knowing this, is a curse, and ignorance might be bliss. Then again. I don't know what to do anymore. What I lack, is that there is no inner compass active in me, which would give me hints, about what to do next. I am stuck with reasoning, and it doesn't go very far.

So, I'm on campus. And guys here outnumber girls, by 3:1. And although I have talked to a lot of people, i could say I don't have any friends. Just people I know. I went on walks at night with a few girls, but I didn't make any moves. It was more like, I was enjoying myself. So a woman i once met flaked on me, and i haven't texted her since. Another girl ignored me while she was with another guy and so I stopped communicating with her as well. There was this girl who asked me out, and I had icecream with her like last week. But I know I am on shaky grounds. I've met almost every girl on campus but they have their own friends and guys they hang out with, and it gets complicated. Is there something I could do? I think I might lack social skills, and I am afraid to make a move. Other than that, i can't figure out what's going wrong.

I think "The Game" is a bit outdated. Read "The Rational Male" by Rollo Tomassi. It's a not a pick-up book but more about inter-gender dynamics. It's better to just learn by yourself by approaching. Or watch videos by Todd or some RSD member.

@Preety_India I mean, If I would be radically honest, I was a desperate man, and still am, to a good degree. Like if earlier was 10/10, I am on 7/10 now. I would say - It's the need for acceptance from women, cause I've been rejected or flaked on, by a lot of girls. I mean, seeing reality as it is, that is, women not caring much about my feelings, has made me colder. I am likely not to chase women further if they flake or reject me, and I would move on. They are yet to learn about how this game of attraction really works. It's brutal. I'd go as far as to say, I might stop looking for romantic love altogether given the pace at which my bubble is hitting the road. I might just let them come to me if they want to, and not put much effort at all, cause it's not appreciated. It's frowned upon. I mean, if me showing I care, turns women off. I might as well, stop caring as much. As an ending statement, I'd say, that desperate men need to be stoic and grateful, and find happiness and love not in others, but in themselves. And they should simply let women come to them, and not chase them.

Thanks @Preety_India I am starting to understand!

So, I was in a long-distance relationship with a woman who treated me like shit. I let her treat me like that, cause I was too blind in love with her. Call it fantasy, love whatever. When i told her about how I felt bad because of her. She was in denial and told me to stay away from her. I deleted her number and unfollowed her on Insta. I've never been taken seriously by women. It always ends up in a mess when I tell them how I feel. I started liking this another girl, i was simply texting, and she calls me rude. She pulled away. I was like- Tf just happened? It's been three days, I haven't texted her, nor seen her stories or liked her post. After this many years, I have learnt, that if a woman pulls away, let her go. It will always be worse when i try to convince her or tell her I am sorry. It has never worked. I know from experience. So, the fairy tale idea of the one girl who will truly love me, is kinda dead. I hate to play these mind games. I am growing more detached, which is far better than super needy like i was. I'll never look at women like angels anymore. I won't make generalizations cause I don't want to demean anyone here. The games we play while being in survival mode. I feel like romantic attraction is kinda shallow. I can see through my own attraction as well- I don't see beyond looks: The visuals. Help me understand, how can there be a true relationship, when both sexes will always be attracted to attractive people of the opposite gender, and sometimes, even cheat?

I plan to pursue my MBA this year, i am looking at three possible specializations: 1. Finance 2. Sales & Marketing 3. Operations Management. I have work ex in Marketing but I am interested in finance cause it involves a technical side to it. I don't want to have a job which is completely results dependent and then stress me out. (like Sales). I think all of the above are SD Orange. What career choices are atleast SD green, or better SD yellow ?

It gives me crazy amounts of confidence. I am nearly fearless when it comes to women.

I am a 25-year-old man who hasn't had sex nor has kissed any girl. I've been on dates. And I've tried pick up when I was 22. I had developed the ability to go up to a girl I like and hold small talk. Although I sucked at small talk. I met one such girl at a pub like four years ago. We went on a date twice, and I regret not making a move last time I met her which was like 1.5 years or 2 years back. I like to think I had a long-distance relationship with her but she never committed. Now she hasn't responded back to my text, and it's been like 1.5 months. I have fantasized about her, and idealized her, and I genuinely feel like I am in love with her, although that feeling surfaces only once in a while. I was really thinking since I first met her, like I'd want to spend my life with her. It's kind of disheartening. I cried yesterday but they were manly tears and I felt the magic of having met in the first place and there was immense gratitude. I've emotionally matured over the years. From fear of losing her when I was 23, to accepting my fate now. I feel like I'm cursed that no woman I fall in love with, will love me back. And I was cursed by those women who I'd fallen in love with, everyone of them hates me or is indifferent to me, as of now. I have accepted my fate in a very chill way like it doesn't matter whether are any women in my life. I'll focus on semen retention and spirituality instead. Life is what it's supposed to be. I've given up on love though. And i don't feel like pursuing women anymore.

@Arcangelo Thanks man, your pickup journal was an inspiration. I don't know if you're still continuing it

I don't know if it belongs here, apologies if it doesn't. I have a page which posts insights from "the Midnight Gospel" on Instagram, and 40+ posts later, the engagement levels aren't that high. I maintain a familiar format, engage with people. And i try to use maximum and relevant hashtags. But the growth is limited. Any instagrammers here who could pitch in to give some guidance?

As of now, Trump, being a right winger, although he has his shortcomings is anyday a better candidate than Biden who has dementia and can't form sentences properly. How dumb can the public be to want to make Biden the POTUS ? It's strange how US politics works or any politics around the world works. Some of the least developed people running entire countries.

Not only do I feel horny but I feel like i have this energy wanting to express itself sexually. Now i could start watching erotica and edge and dissipate it through physical channels, that is, ejaculation. What is the alternative? And if there is an alternative, how do you get started with that?

I feel this very clearly. It's baffling to me how I want to have sex with so many women, and none of them want to have sex with me. I am constantly texting girls. And I felt bad that the girl I really liked, turns me down, saying something like she has higher priorities than being with me even for a short while. That's kinda tragic. And the other one straight up told me to fuck off. And some others would suddenly stop replying to my texts. Having feelings for someone who treat you like trash, kills the vibe completely. Most women have it so easy. They just to need to text that they want to have sex, and there is a good certainty their wish will be taken care of. Whereas, I have to go through this long process of initiating conversations, texting and keeping in touch, cause they don't even make an effort to connect back. And there is no certainty. I have been absolutely crushed in the process. In theory, I do know that I am not entitled to sex or romantic love. And I need to take 100% responsibility and stop being a victim. Fuck me, if I don't try. And trying isn't helping. And I am not doing any more masturbation to just dissipate the frustration and make me docile. And I am not willing to pay for sex either, not because of the money, I can pay that, but i could have sex that way, but is that woman going to be make me feel like I am being loved? Probably not. I don't need pickup advice. Give me mindset changes if you can. I'd really thank you for that. And please don't pity me. Treat me like you treat someone normal. I am about to be 25 btw.

Wow. Oh, you are a woman. I am not aware of how sexual energy in women works. Is it the same as men? For me, It is usually a build up until I ejaculate. And if the build up is too long, then it calms down. I don't know the equivalent of ejaculation for women. Qi gong you say. Will check it out.

@Preety_India @Gili Trawangan @egoeimai @Raze@Leo Gura @Kailash Bhattarai@Display_Name@remember@Mada_@w4read@Enlightenment@Username Thank you everyone, I have taken note

I really can't understand what you're saying. What exactly is hard for women? Assuming they are straight, Is it finding the right guy? Or is it related to emotions or physical attraction?

@IJB063 I don't know if you noticed but you are giving too much chi (or power) to astrology by hating it. It's becoming a resistance. You were better off letting it go. As to why Astrology is true? No one here could give you a direct answer, cause truth is to be experienced, it has to be direct experience. You have to experience the truth for yourself. Do you get that? Or else you are simply playing mind games. You seem like a scientific and rational person which you are. I am not saying astrology is true. I personally stay away from astrology not because it is false, it may be true, but because i don't resonate with the vagueness in it, I personally find it too vague to specifically direct or align my life with.

I am serious about growth and I have barely taken any action. And I have watched Leo's content for 3-4 years now. I'll keep the question simple. What is the simplest spiritual practice I could start with?