@Natasha I have a legit doubt about a subtler means of communication.
She posted an Insta story and I didn't look at it. I used to react and reply to it almost every time. She must have felt bad that I ignored her. She was already going through a mild quarter life crisis, and on top of that my complete absence is going to make her bad, a bit or a lot, I don't know.
I'm concerned for her.
And for myself.
The way I see it, If i look at her stories, it tells her that i am giving her attention while she is not, which further weakens the already disturbed dynamic between us, but if i don't look at her stories, her ego is likely to strongly react to it and generate hate towards me.
If i let go, will she assume that i have really let go, and she would as well, even if she wanted to connect back ? In the absence of hope of me ever contacting her.
It's tricky. But she has to make a choice in my complete absence.
It feels like whatever I went through, she will go through that. And I don't want that but my hands are tied.
Tragic how it all works, we were there for each other when we didn't really need each other, and now that we need each other, we can't be there for each other.
