Shin

Dodo, are you sure you've not constructed a spiritual ego so vast and grandiose that you can't admit yourself that you have no idea what you're talking about ? As in just parroting knowledge about enlightenment that rings true because you've read so much about it that you can't distinguish the concept of enlightenment to actually really experientially right now being conscious of what you truly are ? Are you sure you're not deceiving yourself ?

It will be both. Easier cause you will be able to handle your emotions more easily. Harder cause the amount of emotional trauma will increase in degree.

On the path to reach Strategist ? I won't be able to say «filthy hippie» anymore ? ?

The reason you love your wife is because you see yourself in her. Love is fundamentally total acceptance, and when you totally accept something, You realize it is you.

The catch 22 is that what leads to awakening ist to be fully conscious, happy and peaceful in this very moment. Then you'll truly want to awaken, not as a need to supress your suffering (basically a magic pill), but as a way to share how amazing you already feel.

Is it the life you dream to live ? Or the life you think you need to be happy ?

Do you want to know for sure ?

The thing to understand is that the very thing that want to not feel lost is what you are trying to get rid of currently. In other words you're trying to escape yourself by fighting yourself. "No I don't want to be unconscious, I hate those unconscious thoughts" It's like the dogs you see chasing their tail thinking that at some point they will be able to catch this weird prey What you want to do, is to be conscious of what is happening right now, whatever it is. I like the metaphor Sadhguru uses sometimes "If you are in the traffic, it is very annoying, very stressing (you being lost in your mind), but if you are in a balloon in the sky watching the traffic, the traffic is very peaceful, even beautiful (the real you being conscious of what's happening)" Practically speaking, you just keep observing your thoughts and emotions, as the "watcher" (not just when you sit to meditate though). At some point it will be effortless. How much time that can take is different for each person, you gotta just persist

I don't expect to Leo, but I still want to see what there is to see that I fear of so much, and I definitely will That's something I often pondered. When I think back of how I (naturally) act towards people and talk to them, I often realize that I must appear loving, even though I don't feel anything myself. As in love was working through me, but the little self Shin can't feel the energy/love itself. It is there doing its thing, but is not consciously perceived psychologically and emotionally speaking.

I think the best thing you could do is to ask why you feel guilt. You ask this question and just wait to get and answer. The answer you are waiting for is not a sentence in your head (not a thought), which is logical, but an insight. What is an insight is very difficult to express with words, but it's something close to a gut feeling (intuition), except it feels so true and is so direct that there is no ambiguity, it will feel 100% trustable, even beyond that actually. To know if you're bullshitting yourself about having an insight, one thing to keep in mind is that if you really have one, you won't feel either happy or sad, it will just be the truth. After you had it you can definitely feel happy or sad (mostly the later ) though.

There is not a God and you, there is just God. It's when you forget that that you suffer, because you believe you are mortal and can be hurt. Becoming more conscious means being infinite in all possible ways. Which includes infinite happiness, love and joy. You won't experience those if you believe you're a finite and limited human. There is nothing wrong experiencing what you experience now though, and don't HAVE TO do anything that you don't want to do. Just keep in a corner ofyour head thenext time you suffer greatly that you could feel infinite love, peace, whatever you want instead ☺

Easy to understand Hard to master ?

I don't care about «Nofap». Just do what I'm saying. This isn't an ideology from my pov, it is 100% experiential.

If you ejaculate, you shorten your life expectancy, your health as a whole, and your energetic level. By energetic level I mean how much you can do in a day, and how amazing you feel both physically and mentally. That's explicit enough, and now if you keep doing it, and not try seriously to restrain from it, then you're just burrying your head in the sand. I don' care what you guys do, if you believe me, or if you agree with me though, I'm just telling you that you're wasting a big chunk of your health and energy for 5 seconds of pleasure per day (assuming you only fap once a day). That must be how Leo feels sometimes, trying to tell things that are so good for you, but you insist on being a donkey and telling yourself "NOOOOOOOOOOOO I can't do it, this isn't even true, I'm a donkey !!! I SWEAR !!!"

Stop having fancies ideas and just empirically experience what I'm saying. ???

If you ejaculate during sex, yes.

The reason porn and masturbation are «bad» are only because it's a waste of energy for a few fleeting moment of pleasure. It isn't morally wrong, and even if it were, that would be relative to a specific point of view. You have to test it empirically (and not just for a week), to see why we say those things. Debating about it is the same as talking about spirituality, nothing is really in your direct experience, it's just stories that you agree or not in your head. Those stories counts for nothing, direct experience is everything.

All the deluded egos criticizing leo to still be an arrogant jerk when it wasn't Leo talking the entire time Of course Leo is arrogant and an ass, and there is lots to be integrated, but it was God speaking through an imperfect and biased ego, as it should and will always be. If the video triggers you, it's just that you're still very arrogant yourself, because you really can't judge Leo if you truly accept that you can (and were/are) arrogant at times. There would zero judgments or critics, at least not in the way most of you are criticizing him by being so judgmental. Does that mean Leo won't give a shit about how he speaks and conduct himself (poor amazon guy ) ? No he will change (quite a lot), he won't have a choice about it, because there is way too much love at that point.

Never close your heart, and let God shine through ? Infinite love ... ???

If you get this, There is infinite peace ahead ? Much love ?