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@Itay Spiegel your welcome! When you selflessly desire to be used to inspire, to heal, to guide and bless humanity, you are bound to absorb into your aura the beneficial light of the spirit. pg 50 book- Spiritual Enfoldment 1 by White Eagle

Spiritual Enfoldment 1 - Chapter 1 pg 11 The fundamental purpose of man's life is that he may find truth, truth which will be unveiled to him by his own inner self. As we search for this truth that lies buried deep within, the barriers erected by the outer-self will vanish and we shall become free, free to hold communication with those we love in the beyond; free to contact the cosmic rays of life-force and healing; free to use them in the service of our brother man; free to become en rapport with those beings ho minister to humanity from the spirit. Chapter 3 - Communication between two worlds pg 38 We have heard much talk about about psychic matters and proofs of an after-life obtainable through psychic evidence, with great emphasis laid on the scientific viewpoint, rather suggesting thereby that the spiritual viewpoint is not scientific. This idea we would correct, and make clear that there is nothing unscientific in spiritual law. Spiritual law is eternally true, while the pronouncements of science change almost yearly, so that what is considered true today will be dismissed and forgotten tomorrow. With spiritual law there is no change other than continual unfoldment and growth. More and more truth becomes revealed to a man as his inner self grows in awareness, but the law remains constant. Spiritual science is the true science, both on earth and in the higher worlds. When a man becomes aware of, practices and lives these cosmic and spiritual laws he is truly a man of science. pg 43 All of you have the ability to receive impressions and true communications from beings in other worlds; all of you are mediums in that you can be receptive to the spirit; but the quality of the message received will depend upon the quality of your own soul consciousness. pg 48 Each human spirit is a God in embryo; and humanity as a whole is a concourse of tiny God-cells, all linked with God in at-one-ment. Each retains the power to isolate or separate itself from it's fellows, but not from God. Man's innermost self is of the essence of God. Man is formed in the image of God, in his likeness. When man fully realizes this transcendent truth, all that is based and worldly will be dispelled. pg 50 When you selfless desire to be used to inspire, to heal, to guide and bless humanity, you are bound to absorb into your aura the beneficial light of the spirit.

Hi Actualized.org Family! I just wanted to share this book I found that I think you might be interested in reading about enlightenment. Especially if you are interested/believe in akashic records, astral travel, past lives, other life on other planets, angels, spirit guides, the power of thought, Life Force Energy, etc (It also talks about those things). @Leo Gura It may not make a lot of sense to you right now unless you really have a grasp on this stuff and have studied it. If you are not far along on the spiritual path this stuff will seem "completely out there" and "bogus". As you know enlightened and highly personally developed people can come off as wack jobs to normal every day people that don't understand. I'll copy a few parts that I like. Book: Spiritual Enfoldment 3 (There is four in the entire book series) By White Eagle "Follow the One, avoid the many, be true to your inner light, and the mysteries of the invisible worlds will be revealed to you in the degree that you are ready and will use the knowledge thus attained in selfless service." pg 12 Once a man or woman longs for wisdom, not out of curiosity, or to satisfy a greedy mind, or for his or her own satisfaction, but rather that he or she may serve, then they set their feet upon a path which leads ultimately to enlightenment. When a soul this great longing and searching finds his or her path, then teaching and guidance come from the invisible. Having found his or her path the soul should remain true to it, be true to the inner light. We suggest: follow the one, avoid the many, be true to your inner light: and the mysteries of the invisible worlds will be revealed to you in the degree that you are ready and will use the knowledge thus attained in selfless service, but you should obey the guidance of your heart. The Mystery Schools (read prior for further info) of the past served a great purpose in revealing the eternal life of the spirit. They showed men and women their origin and destiny, where they came from, why they were on earth and what was their goal. But there came a time when human kind became deeply immersed in physical matter; men and women lost their use of the "third eye" which reveals the spiritual worlds. Deterioration set in and there was a misuse of power--due perhaps to young priests becoming too eager and admitting students unable to stand up to the testing. Yet none of this was outside the divine plan, for men and women had to develop both physically and mentally. They had to become "earthed", their wills had to be developed to become strong. And so the masters of wisdom withdrew, and departed into the secret places of the earth, where they still dwell. Yet, from time to time, from the Temples of the Ancient Wisdom a teacher comes forth who presents truth once more to humanity. Particularly is this so at the beginning of any new age, as humanity moves forward into a new way of life and thought. At such times there comes a reinstatement of ancient and eternal wisdom, in a form suitable to that new age, and to help humanity though the difficult transition from one age to another. Chapter 3 - The "I" and the "Not I" pg 28 The real you, the soul which is stirring, awakening, searching, has asked that you may be tested, that all manner of difficulties should fall across your path. In the trials that beset you, always remember that your higher consciousness has asked for the light, is seeking initiation. pg 31 But you cannot stand aside from the real self, the "I", the son-daughter of God, the light. There is within you the real "I", the Will, the divine spark, which should control the whole self, but usually souls allow themselves to be bound and ruled by the "not I" and all the chaos around them. We suggest that you spend some time each day trying to recognize and quietly lay aside the various outer layers, the physical, astral, mental and emotional, until you find this real "I", the eternal self. On the one hand are all the worries, the fears, the angers, the foolishness, the desires-- all these are the "not I". On the other "I" stands poised, polarized, still....the spirit, the light within. Give the "I" every opportunity in this daily meditation to become stronger, a polarized light...and understand the "I" that you identify in meditation is the real you-- a God in embyro. It will never lead you off the path, never lead you astray. The sorrows, the responsibilities, the anxieties which you think are yours, do not belong to you at all. You are that shining self, that light, that essence of being that you find in the hours of meditation. All your will to do good lies with the "I". I will to do good, to do God's work, to put egotism aside, to deny the claims of the "not I". But the Christ light, burning within, willing you to do what is good in the sight of God and putting aside all egotism, also reveals the same light to others. When you are ready on your path to enlightenment, you will read on.

I've seen references to what these number mean, and I even have a book on it. But I'm wondering anyone else has experience this as well.

@Ramu Your welcome! Namaste!

Hi Actualized.org Family, So I've been taking this Kundalini class for over the last year and I feel absolutely amazing afterwards after every session. Has anyone else been to a kundalini yoga class? We would chant these mantras from a different language and I never really understood what they meant so I finally decided to look it up and see what I was saying. I was looking at a website that if you can chant these mantras for long periods of time (like 30 minutes) you can captures some real benefits. http://www.satnamfest.com/blog/aad-guray-nameh-white-light-of-protection/ “When you cannot be protected, this mantra shall protect you. When things stop, and won’t move, this makes them move in your direction.” – Yogi Bhajan Aad Guray Nameh is a very powerful mantra used for protection, to gain clarity, and to receive guidance from one’s highest Self. This mantra creates a protective field of energy around the person chanting, attracting abundance to them helping them live out their destiny. The Mangala Charan Mantra (Aad Guray Nameh) can be chanted at any time, any place, whenever there is a need for protection. When chanted for 31 minutes, in any setting, it is a practice for covering and clearing the past, present and future. You will often hear this mantra after the initial tuning in with Ong Namo Guru Dev Namo in a kundalini yoga class. Yogi Bhajan himself suggested chanting this mantra 3 times after you have started your car, before shifting out of neutral or park, to prevent any incidences on the road. By chanting this mantra, you become surrounded by a field of white light of protection. In Gurmukhi: Aad Guray Nameh Jugaad Guray Nameh Sat Guray Nameh Siri Guru Dayvay Nameh Translation: I bow to the Primal Wisdom. I bow to the Wisdom through the Ages. I bow to the True Wisdom. I bow to the great, unseen Wisdom This mantra is the Mangala Charan of the Sukhmani Sahib, a sacred prayer whose title translates as “Consoler of the Mind.” Guru Arjan, the fifth Sikh Guru, wrote this prayer. It is often called the Mangala Charan Mantra, but it is important to note there is more than one such mantra. From Yogi Bhajan: “Charan means feet. Mangala means happy, happy feet. It means walk, talk, be rhythmic. And all those words in Siri Guru Granth which creates that rhythm, are called Mangala Charan. So, every Gurbani, every shabad has a Mangala Charan . . . Mangala Charan is the first magnetic touch, a vibratory touch of the soul and the Infinity.” Through the protection we invoke, our feet can continue walking in happiness, and our mind can be consoled knowing all is in the hands of the great unseen Wisdom.

I absolutely love this post! You guys inspired me to make another vision board! lol I've been working on mine for the last few days, and was really struggling on what to put on the board. I went on a walk yesterday morning in nature, and I think being among the trees and getting a little fresh air must have ignited something in my brain. I started to come up with answers! I didn't use pictures though, it's more written, but this seems to work for me right now. Especially since I'm reevaluating what is important to me at the moment. I was trying to figure out how to be selfless and seek enlightenment but still have the BALANCE of taking care of my body-(physical, mental, and spiritual) and pursuing my life purpose while incorporating all the knowledge I've learned from Leo and picked up recently from other books. Who knows?? Maybe the vision board will be updated again tomorrow, if I find some new information to inspire me. Vision Boards are interesting. You can have one based off of your whole life or a specific part of your life or your life purpose, etc. I was talking to my friend last light about vision boards and he had one just based off of starting his music career. I felt I had to simplify mine because I have so many pictures that inspire and motivate me. I have this cool habit of collecting pictures on my computer desktop and I organize them by specific topics- body, love, career etc. So in my folder on my desktop labeled "body photos" I have all these inspiration photos of people working out and exercising. For my Love folder- I'll have pictures of romantic relationships or inspirational love quotes. And the same for career, etc. That seems to work very well for me. If I need a boost during the day, I'll just open one of these folders and browse through the photos. I feel so amazing afterwards. This vision board gives me a good outline of what I need to do right now. Thank you everyone for sharing their vision boards! This is awesome! My board may not make a lot of sense to others here, but I'm learning as long as it resonates with me and it motivates me...what does it matter?

@Ramu There are 4 separate books in the series. But the one I was referencing from about enlightenment, and the book that specifically focuses on enlightenment is Spiritual Enfoldment 3 by White Eagle. There are older versions of the book that have different book covers, but the content is still the same as far as I know.

@unknownworld - When you read the book you will see it is a non-dualiastic perspective. This is an older book, which was written a long time ago and it's just worded differently, and may appear a little confusing to read because it's different terminology. The real "I" that's stated here is one in the same as non-duality. It has the same definition as there being no identity. When the book refers to the "not I" it is talking about the illusionary nature, the fake self. The fears, anger, roles, egotism, everything. I hope that makes a little more sense.

@electroBeam I totally get what you're trying to do here. I remember speaking with you in another post about you having Asperger's, and I most likely have it too, so I completely understand how you might feel like it's harder to read people and you're trying to understand. (I also just recently found out I have ADD that is provoked by dietary choices) In my early college years I was also in a committed relationship with this guy named Ryan that happened to have Asperger's. I didn't even know he had Aspergers until he told me, and we were already dating for a few weeks. We shared an art class together but we met at the arcade room at our community college. I want you to know that you're doing great and I'm glad you're taking initiative! A lot of men don't change and never figure these things out! The more men that get involved in pickup and go after the women they truly want to be with, the better off we will all be. Happier relationships, less divorces, etc. Like some of the men saying on here....lol....I'm going to offer my "TERRIBLE ADVICE". Women are very interesting...we're very EMOTIONAL and we can pick on things very easily that most men would not. We are looking at things visually: Like how you talk to us, your body language, what you say, your approach, what you are wearing, how you look, the location you ask, etc. I really wish men wouldn't try so hard to pick us women up. They make things more complicated than what it has to be. If they would just approach us like a friend, and not like some piece of meat (which unfortunately they come off this way even when they don't mean to), or having a modus operandi, it would make things so much easier and they would not face so much rejection. I'll give you an example...TRUE STORY...back in December, my mom got picked up by this guy at the grocery store. She was looking at salad dressing, and Mark approached my mom and asked her what she thought was a good low sodium salad dressing because his doctor told him he had to switch to some low sodium diet for health reasons. Instead of asking for her number right away, where most men make the mistake....they talked for a good 20 minutes. He was real, he was friendly, he wasn't acting like he wanted a piece of ass. He wasn't worried, and he was having a good time talking to my mom. And they were talking about all kinds of things, and it was just so natural and free flowing. Eventually he gave her his number (which is much less threatening, and a smarter idea in my opinion). My mom wasn't even physically attracted to this guy at all. In fact she wasn't even looking to date because my dad had just passed away in October. My mom taught me this rule, that I usually abide by, if a guy asks you out, at least give the guy a chance by going on a first date, because you NEVER KNOW. My mom took that chance with Mark and they completely hit it off! He is a total angel in disguise and he literally worships the ground my mom walks on. In fact they are in love and they are already planning to get married and it's only February!!! lol Yay! I'm going to have a step dad and a step brother soon! If men kept it that simple and mastered Mark's "Salad dressing technique" I think they would have a lot better experiences with women. *Let me give some personal real examples of times I've been picked up by men and why I've rejected them! Maybe this will help you understand better. Example #1: 3 years ago I was living in Fort Lauderdale, Florida and I was taking a walk outside one morning for some fresh air and exercise. I was new to the area, because I had recently moved from Cocoa Beach, Florida where things were a lot safer and men were more family oriented. I was walking in a neighborhood and I almost felt unsafe to some extent. There was no one else around, and this man that was probably about 6 ft 2 (and I'm 5 ft 9) approaches me. I was already scared because I had walked down the wrong block. And he was definitely not my physical type I would ever date. In fact he looked sorta like a gang member. So when he approached me and told me I was "HOTT, and wanted my number" I was scared shitless! lol. I told him right away I had a boy friend (even though I really didn't. It's my classic sentence of saying NO) He persisted on getting my number (and I'm holding a pepper spray in my sweat shirt ready to bolt) I told him again no really, I have a boy friend and walked off. Where the guy went wrong was first off....the LOCATION. He should have picked up on my nervousness. Second. the approach was really BAD. He came off like he just wanted a piece of ass. Thirdly the way he dressed gave me a really bad impression and that this could be a dangerous person. Fourth, he persisted and made me feel scared shitless! I have a history of being stalked and once an almost planned kidnapping, so I'm very apprehensive...probably more than most women! lol Past experiences can play a part in a women's mind and her decision making. Example #2: Two years ago I was in Virginia, and I went with my mom to Walmart down the street to pick up a few things. My mom was off somewhere on another side of the store and I had walked down the PC gaming aisle. This was around the time the new StarCraft expansion had come out so I was checking that out as well as some good "hidden object games". This gamer nerd guy came up to me and he said Hi and asked something about a game for like a sentence or two, and then asked for my number. I immediately told him the classic answer "I'm sorry, I have a Boyfriend" statement and walked away as fast I could. Where the guy went wrong was first off....his approach. He was way too mechanical. And it felt uncomfortable. I could tell he was just coming over to talk to me to ask me out. It was like he wasn't even interested in getting to know me or even ask my name. He just proceeded to getting a number. If he had given me his number it would have been a lot better and more attractive to me. If he had done a different approach and started talking to me about StarCraft, and asked what my favorite race is (Which is PROTOSS BTW!) ..... Like have a decent conversation for like 10 minutes!... I think he would have had a better shot. I wasn't physically attracted to the guy, but I would have been way more likely to give him my number based off the emotional connection. And if he had given me his number instead of asking for mine....it would have been even better. When in doubt leave the ball in the girl's court. And even if he wasn't my type he could have been a good friend, and who knows? Life is all about connections! Maybe I could have introduced him to a chick later on that would have been his type! Example #3 Right now as I'm getting my own hypnosis/reiki business off the ground and healing from the loss of my dad's passing I'm working part time in a store. Last week I was at the cash register and this older guy who was atleast twice my age, (and I'm 33 but most people mistaken me for being in my early 20's) started flirting with me. He was making jokes that I wasn't finding funny or really making a connection with. In fact he told me his wife was waiting for him in the car. He asked me for my number and I just laughed and continued completing his purchase....lol (obviously this guy was not practicing the cold approach, and I know that) First off the guy was Waaaaaaaaaaaay too old for me. Some chicks are into that.....but I'm not. I would prefer someone around my age. Second the jokes he was making were inappropriate and not funny at all. Third....he had a wife! lol Forth....he was looking for a piece of ass and it was obvious in plain site. Fifth....it was just down right creepy! You can email me btw, I hope this is helping and starting to make more sense to you. There were a few guys that did do things right. And I was in two long term relationships...one for 2 years, and the other 4 years.....What did they do??? My ex, who is my high school sweet heart. I was introduced to him by a mutual friend. We talked for two weeks back and forth before we started dating. We were just real with each other. And for me GOOD COMMUNICATION is a must! If I can't hold a good conversation with the guy, feel comfortable and safe with him, and tell him my deepest darkest feelings he's not worth pursuing or dating. There was no rush for anything when I met this guy. We just clicked. He wasn't pushy, and he was friendly. We could talk for hours on end and never get bored with each other. We had things in common. We were both on the cross country and track team and studied American Sign Language, and liked StarCraft. lol. So we had stuff to talk about. He used Mark's "Salad Dressing Technique!". My other ex, I met while I attended art school, at an anime club! We just talked like friends, clicked and he asked for my number. We stayed in contact, knew each other for two weeks, started dating, and then we made it official. He also used Mark's "Salad Dressing Technique!". K-I-S-S = Keep it Simple!! Sexy!! Good Luck! I know you can do it!

Just wanted to show some LOVE to my Actualized.org family! Happy Valentines Day! (Even though it's celebrated tomorrow.) I wanted to express my gratitude to Leo and everyone on this forum that has helped me on my life journey. And I appreciate the support I've received here, and non-judgemental caring attitudes and advice! We are all in this together! God is Love/Absolute Infinity/Nothingness. We shouldn't wait for one day out of the year to celebrate love and gratitude for the people that we care about and bring meaning to us. It should be celebrated everyday! <3 Love and Peace be with you. Namaste!

@Nic - Thanks for sharing these videos, especially the wolf one. I'm a reiki energy healer but I haven't been trained yet to work with animals, although I have experimented with my best friend's cats. They were very responsive.

@TJM1959 Just working on personal development and the inner self in general can be stressful at times, and that's because you're addressing your subconscious mind aka childhood vows. We create beliefs, habits and behaviors as a comfort/safety net that may be holding us back from bigger potential. But the end results of going after what you want is far greater than staying stagnant, lazy and doing nothing. Life is about changing and evolving. You deserve success in your life, but sometimes our ego and our fears get the better of us. It hurts to address these fears....it's like an open sore that doesn't go away and we cover it up with a bandaid when we ignore what's going on. But when we address these fears and conquer them we close these wounds like an antibiotic and they permanently heal never to return. After Leo's Childhood Vow video, I had to do a huge reflection on all the mental garbage I put in my head that was preventing me from going after the things that I want. I've cried, I've been scared, I've been angry. I've even had suicidal thoughts too. But the journey to heal those wounds made the fight all the better. I don't regret any of the hard work I've dedicated to the self. I know it has paid off, and I love myself for it. One of the scariest things for me was telling myself that I loved myself in the mirror! I hesitated for weeks to do it! But when I finally broke down and looked myself in the eyes and said I LOVE you....omg I felt so much better. As I started working on myself, I started to enjoy completing goals and seeing changes. I also used to be deathly afraid of dogs. So back in September of 2016 I got a job for two weeks as a professional dog walker and broke my fear of them. Now when I walk by a dog, I see a giant fur baby instead of some crazy monster that wants to bite me and tear me apart. lol I changed my perception. And I have many more fears to conquer....and I'm going to do whatever I can to beat the odds. Because I deserve SUCCESS. And I love myself too much to not have what I want and desire in my life. Good luck on your journey!

@Colin Thanks for sharing all these helpful quotes and videos. I am a 1000000 times better than I was two years ago when I came home after being drugged. I LOVE myself, and I know there are some great men out there! It's just that prince charming hasn't found me yet! lol.

@Sukhpaal You said the f word.......FEAR! It sounds like you created some type of childhood vow or subconscious belief about socializing and being around other people. It's time to do some inner work and investigation. Leo is right. Meditation is awesome, but don't use it as a reason to hide or an excuse to not go outside. You need to create some BALANCE. It's time to balance out your social life, and other areas if needed. It's time to work on self love and self esteem. Why do you need a relationship to feel satisfied? Did this only happen with this specific relationship? Or has this been going on with other dating relationships as well? Start searching within. Socializing is apart of personal development. I understand your pain, I've been where you are. I've had my set of experiences where I would literally pine over a guy I missed or broke up with. But I noticed when I socialized more, and got out and kept busy, worked on my life purpose, exercised, eat right, etc...those things started to go away. If it's winter time depending on where you live you may have seasonal depression...maybe.... I'm not a doctor, and I'm certainly not diagnosing! lol...I have the same problem, because I have a lack of vitamin D. Supplements don't seem to work for me at all. I've been resorting to tanning booths unfortunately but it seems to be working. Apparently I need the sunlight...even if it's artificial in some way shape or form. I know you can do this! You have the POWER to change your life and experience SUCCESS! Good luck on your journey!

Here is a holistic approach to forgiveness. I love this book....Louise Hay - You Can Heal your Life. pg 8 All Dis-ease Comes from a State of Unforgiveness Whenever we are ill, we need to search our hearts to see who it is we need to forgive. The Course in Miracles says that "all dis-ease comes from a state of forgiveness," and that "whenever we are ill, we need to look around to see who it is that we need to forgive." I would add to that concept that the very person you find it hardest to forgive is the one YOU NEED TO LET GO OF THE MOST. Forgiveness means giving up, letting go. It has nothing to do with condoning behavior. It's just letting the whole thing go. We do not have to know HOW to forgive. All we need to do is be WILLING to forgive. The Universe will take care of the hows. We understand our own pain so well. How hard it is for most of us to understand THEY, whoever they are we need most to forgive, were also in pain. We need to understand that they were doing the best they could with the understanding, awareness, and knowledge they had at the time. When people come to me with a problem, I don't care what it is--- poor health, lack of money, unfulfilling relationships, or stifled creativity --- there is only one thing I ever work on, and that is LOVING THE SELF. I find that when we really love and accept and APPROVE of OURSELVES EXACTLY AS WE ARE, then everything in life works. It's as if little miracles are everywhere. Our health improves, we attract more money, our relationships become much more fulfilling and we begin to express ourselves in creatively fulfilling ways. All this seems to happen without our even trying. To Release the Past, We Must Be Willing to Forgive We need to choose to release the past and forgive everyone, ourselves included. Affirmation" I forgive you for not being the way I wanted you to be. I forgive you and set you free."

@Lynnel I'm not sure why you are putting a picture of someone smoking on a vision board while doing a passionate activity. Are you trying to quit smoking? I agree with @Nahm. I would focus on what you do want, not what you don't want or want to take out of your life. Why not find a picture of someone doing a passionate activity without the smoking? If you are just using the picture for the passionate activity itself I don't think it would be an issue, unless you do have a history of smoking. As long as you don't associate success of the passionate activity with smoking I think you should be ok. But with vision boards you really want to put exactly what it is you want up on the board. Use the board to put up long and short term goals you want to complete during your life journey. You may even want to post something on your board regarding what your life purpose revolves around. Vision boards are used as reminders of what you want, and to help inspire and motivate you. Good luck on your journey.

Spell of Madness? Not sure what you mean by that. @Gabriel Antonio I'm definitely going through a rough patch in my life and I'm working through it the best that I can at the moment. Meditation definitely works!

@Martha77 It sounds like you would benefit from taking Leo's Life Purpose Course. You need to find out what you enjoy doing and brings meaning to you. I felt the course was definitely worth my time and money. I discovered my life purpose is to help people along on their journey and to help other people find their life purpose. And I do that by using my holistic healing (hypnosis, reiki) abilities and as well as pursuing my art. You didn't send the wrong message at all, you're fine. I've been where you are. And I could literally list the crazy different jobs I've tried and done.....I've bounced around, but I've learned so much...I was a: preschool art teacher, professional researcher, waitress, Bugs Bunny at Six Flags Magic Mountain, hypnotist, exotic dancer, floral designer...etc....lol. I get it ...I totally get it. This is good that you are inquiring and that you want more from your life. That means you are willing to change and to do whatever needs to be done to bring you happiness and success. If they are cutting your hours it sounds like you need to shop around when you have time off to find something to supplement your income. A lot of it has to do with what you can tolerate and what you enjoy. What works for someone else may not work for you. That's why it's so important to find a life purpose and a job or something that you LOVE to do. If you're going to spend the rest of your life working for something....you might as well make it enjoyable, meaningful and leave something that will impact the world. Good luck on your journey! I know you can do it!

@Elisabeth I noticed that you said "you hate being pushed and resist all the more". It sounds like you feel that you have a lack of control in your life. This is something you might want to look at. As it seems like it's coming from multiple areas in your life that you feel you have a lack of control. What "childhood vows" have you created revolving around this? Sometimes we use food as a form of comfort and safety. Sometimes we use food as a way to relax and get away. Perhaps if you can find a way to feel like you are more in control in your life, it will be easier to let go of using food as a comfort, if that is what is going on with you. One of my mom's closest friends had issues with food and when she got more socialized and was going out more, she stopped using food as a form of entertainment. She just didn't need it anymore. I have also used food as a form of comfort myself. I learned to gorge myself with healthier food instead of grabbing stuff that gives me allergy problems! lol. You may also want to look into your diet especially since you have allergies. There is supposedly a connection between eczema and asthma on the DNA Chain. I have eczema skin issues that are related to dairy allergies. When I eat dairy it causes me to stress out more, because cheese is addicting and causes a drug like effect. And it also can be mucus producing making it harder for you to breathe. Here is a book you may want to look into about food allergies: Is this your Child by Doris Rapp MD Here is a holistic answer as well. Book: Louise L. Hay - You Can Heal Your Life Health Concern: Asthma Probable Cause: Smother Love. Inability to breathe for One's Self. Feeling Stifled. Suppressed Crying. New Thought Pattern (To meditate and focus on): It is safe now for me to take charge of my own life. I choose to be free.

https://www.disabled-world.com/artman/publish/article_2086.shtml Famous People with Aspergers Syndrome Adam Young, multi-instrumentalist, producer and the founder of the electronic project Owl City. Adrian Lamo, American computer hacker Carl Soderholm, speaker in neuropsychiatric disorders Clay Marzo, American professional surfer Craig Nicholls, frontman of the Australian garage rock band, The Vines Daniel Tammet, British autistic savant, believed to have Asperger Syndrome Daryl Hannah, actress Dawn Prince-Hughes, PhD, primate anthropologist, ethologist, and author of Songs for the Gorilla Nation Gary Numan, British singer and songwriter Heather Kuzmich, fashion model and reality show contestant on America's Next Top Model James Durbin, finalist on the tenth season of American Idol Jerry Newport, American author and mathematical savant, basis of the film Mozart and the Whale John Elder Robison, author of Look Me in the Eye Judy Singer, Australian disability rights activist Liane Holliday Willey, author of Pretending to be Normal, Asperger Syndrome in the Family; Asperger syndrome advocate; education professor; and adult diagnosed with Asperger syndrome at age 35 Lizzy Clark, actress and campaigner Luke Jackson, author Michael Burry, US investment fund manager Nicky Reilly, failed suicide bomber from Britain Paddy Considine, actor Peter Howson, Scottish painter Phillipa "Pip" Brown (aka Ladyhawke), indie rock musician Raymond Thompson, New Zealand scriptwriter and TV producer Richard Borcherds, mathematician specializing in group theory and Lie algebras Satoshi Tajiri, creator and designer of Pokemon Tim Ellis, Australian magician and author Tim Page, Pulitzer Prize-winning critic and author Travis Meeks, lead singer, guitarist and song writer for acoustic rock band Days of the New. Vernon L. Smith, Nobel Laureate in Economics Hmmmmm.....I'm seeing a lot of SUCCESSFUL people here. Oh wait.....there's more! People that most likely had Aspergers Syndrome! Abraham Lincoln,1809-1865, US Politician Alan Turing, 1912-1954, English mathematician, computer scientist and cryptographer Albert Einstein, 1879-1955, German/American theoretical physicist Alexander Graham Bell, 1847-1922, Scottish/Canadian/American inventor of the telephone Anton Bruckner , 1824-1896, Austrian composer Bela Bartok, 1881-1945, Hungarian composer Benjamin Franklin,1706-1790, US polictician/writer Bertrand Russell, 1872-1970, British logician Bobby Fischer, 1943-2008, World Chess Champion Carl Jung, 1875-1961, Swiss psychoanalyst Charles Rennie Mackintosh, 1868-1928, Scottish architect and designer Emily Dickinson, 1830-1886, US poet Erik Satie, 1866-1925 - Composer Franz Kafka, 1883-1924, Czech writer Friedrich Nietzsche, 1844-1900, German philosopher George Bernard Shaw, 1856-1950, Irish playwright, writer of Pygmalion, critic and Socialist George Washington, 1732-1799, US Politician Gustav Mahler, 1860-1911, Czech/Austrian composer Marilyn Monroe, 1926-1962, US actress H P Lovecraft, 1890-1937, US writer Henry Cavendish, 1731-1810, English/French scientist, discovered the composition of air and water Henry Ford, 1863-1947, US industrialist Henry Thoreau, 1817-1862, US writer Isaac Newton, 1642-1727, English mathematician and physicist Jane Austen, 1775-1817, English novelist, author of Pride and Prejudice Kaspar Hauser, c1812-1833, German foundling, portrayed in a film by Werner Herzog Ludwig II, 1845-1886, King of Bavaria Ludwig Wittgenstein, 1889-1951, Viennese/English logician and philosopher Ludwig van Beethoven, 1770-1827, German/Viennese composer Mark Twain, 1835-1910, US humorist Michelangelo, 1475 1564 - Italian Renissance artist Nikola Tesla, 1856-1943, Serbian/American scientist, engineer, inventor of electric motors Oliver Heaviside, 1850-1925, English physicist Richard Strauss, 1864-1949, German composer Seth Engstrom, 1987-Present, Magician and World Champion Thomas Edison, 1847-1931, US inventor Thomas Jefferson, 1743-1826, US politician Vincent Van Gogh, 1853-1890, Dutch painter Virginia Woolf, 1882-1941, English Writer Wasily Kandinsky, 1866-1944, Russian/French painter

Don't let your disability define who you are. I am also learning disabled as well. I had a best friend in college that also had Aspergers and we talked back and forth for a while and there is a good chance that I might have some form of autism or Aspergers too. By telling yourself you have this disability you are giving yourself this false belief that you are half a of a person and unable to do things because you have a learning disability. When I was in California last month I was talking to an old friend about learning disabilities. People get classified as learning disabled because they "learn differently" and don't fit into the mainstream way of learning in public schools. It doesn't mean you're dumb, stupid, or that there is anything wrong with you...it just means that the education system is faulty, and hasn't figured out that people learn in many different ways. My best friend that had Aspergers was one of the smartest people I know and was also a self made millionaire. He could figure out and answer complex physics and calculus problems with no problem, but had issues adding 2 + 2..... In four days I taught my best friend addition, subtraction, multiplication and division. I used different thought patterns, and perspectives and he caught on very quickly. Now he adds better than anyone I know! It's just no one was willing to teach him in a way that made it work. Yet he was extremely intelligent! You have some inner work and self love inquiry you need to do. If you want to get better with girls get involved with pickup. It will build your confidence and it's not creepy. I used to have problems just interacting with people in general and had extreme social anxiety in junior high and high school. I noticed it went away when I got into adult entertainment, and pursued my career in hypnosis. I learned about body language, and started to learn why people did certain things. You need to find a way to immerse yourself with people, pickup may be answer for you. Also finding hobbies that you enjoy that you can get involved with will help you too. The only thing that's wrong with you is that you think there is something wrong with you! Your thought patterns and childhood vows are holding you back! You deserve to have a wonderful life!

Things that make me smile.... snow, lady bugs, kitty cats, meditation, family, the beach, working on my art!, pursuing my life purpose.

Here is a holistic answer. Book: Louise L. Hay - You can Heal your Life. Pg. 201 Problem: Suicide Probable Cause: Seeing Life Only in Black and White. Refusal to see another way out. New Thought Pattern (to meditate and focus on): I live in the totality of possibilities. There is always another way. I am safe.

@eskwire I just want you to know that there is certainly nothing wrong with being celibate but there is also nothing wrong with being in an intimate sexual relationship either. What matters most is your thoughts and feelings behind what you are doing/actions. And besides you said the f word........FEAR! Which lets me know that you might have some type of childhood vow or experience that has led you to believe that relationships are not worth pursuing. I think it's pretty common for many when pursuing enlightenment and consciousness work to think relationships are a waste of time. They can be time wasters and unfulfilling if your mind is not in the right place. The TRUTH is you don't need anyone to complete you. But we also need BALANCE, and relationships can be GREAT personal development growth when applied correctly! Although we need to be comfortable being alone and with ourselves and I'm pretty sure Absolute Infinity/God/Nothingness did not put us here to be completely alone and not interacting with other people. Also keep in mind there absolutely nothing wrong with not getting married or having kids at all. Everyone is different and has their own path to take. All healthy committed relationships start from a place of self love. And any time you have issues in a relationship you look within to find answers. Because when you change yourself and your perspective the world changes around you. And what about Non-duality relationships? I see relationships as a way to expand my spiritual growth. And for some people it may be apart of their life purpose. I have come across some great reading and studying material when it comes to relationship stuff that you may want to look it. Here's a book you may want to look at, that I'm currently reading right now: Spiritual Partnership - The Journey to Authentic Power, by Gary Zukav This books goes along with a lot of the stuff Leo teaches here on this site about consciousness and sage work. It think it will resonate with you. http://shiningworld.com/site/shop/index.php?route=product/product&path=18&product_id=133 I also LOVE this video. I wish I had seen this video when I was a lot younger. This is what a healthy relationship looks like! I also want you to know I really understand where you are coming from. I have not been in a long term committed relationship in almost 10 years now. In my last relationship my ex-boy friend raped me and I had 3 months of vaginal bruising. He stalked me and I had to put a 6 month restraining order and leave the city where I lived to be safe. Then a year later I got involved with adult entertainment for 6 years. I left the industry after a near death experience from being drugged in a bar. I also left the industry feeling that men were evil, horrible creatures, that were out to get me and that I wasn't good enough to be in a relationship. I became very insecure about my body and my looks. I did a lot of therapy, reading, and spiritual work to be where I am now. I've learned that you attract what you are. If you love yourself, you will attract someone that loves you too. I know healthy good relationships exist. My dad recently passed away in Oct. of 2016. My parents were married 40 years, and my dad was abusive to my mother and I. My mom healed and realized her self worth and soon after met a guy at a grocery store in Dec. 2016. They have been dating and inseparable ever since. They are madly in love with each other, and are planning to get married. We are expecting a proposal on valentines day. I know if my mom can find somebody that easily, I know that I can and so can anyone else as long as they love themselves. Good luck on your journey, whatever path you may take!