Hey People,
Im in a therapy process in wich i get access to my surpressed childhood feelings right now. So there are strong emotions like anger wich i never felt bevor this way flooding my whole body, also fear and sadness. Most of the times, i can cope with it quite good because i already learned its gonna end in some hours. When this anger comes, i try to write it out, scream to my imaginary father or punch my sofa. I always try to convince me: Okay, this is coming up right now, its a phase in your life, its healing you and is gonna loose its intensity.
Right now im a little bit confused, its not that bad, more like interesting to me.
Today there was sadness coming up, but mixed with anger. Right now i feel really pressed down by my sadness and at the same time on the inside im furious and angry. Did you already feel this way? That you had two different emotions, who were really really intense at the same time? Like its not feeling like i was really sad, now the anger is taking over, but its both at a quite high level at the same time.
My second question: Did you have a phase in your live when those childhood feelings came up very intense and then it faded down more and more? Can you remember how long this took in your case? Was it like it went on for some monts and then went down forever or was it more like you had severel phases in wich those feelings came up and in between there were periouds of pauses? Im a foreign english speaker so its hard for me to describe, i hope you see what i mean.
Thank you for reading and for your answers,
Peace!
