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Hate to admit it but binged. We had some sort of pancakes and lots of delicious looking bread at our lunch table (I live at home). I immediately felt strong urges to eat those but I recognized that that's not me who wants to eat them. I ate a big serving of cauliflower and lentils but I still had super strong urges so I though (or rather "the pig" did but I din't recognize it) that it doesn't matter if I eat just of some of those pancakes. After all it's Saturday and once a week won't do any harm right? So I ate bread and pancakes until I was completely full and then stopped. In my previous binges I had just eaten and eaten until I couldn't physically put more food into my body, but now I was able to stop much earlier. After that I went to do other things but couple hours passed and I was still hungry so I ate some more bread and a couple eggs and stopped there. I probably ate a little above what my body needed but that's better than going completely overboard. I'm making fast progress towards being completely free of bingeing but I still sometimes mistakes those urges as me. Oh yeah and I meditated for 90 minutes and did self-inquiry for 50 minutes.

Loving this two meals a day thing. Even though I still eat quite slowly I have much more time in my day. However I only got 15 minutes of meditation which isn't that bad because I feel I get a good amount on most days. Now I actually realized that I don't know who I am and that is super scary. I feel like I don't want to ask that question anymore because it feels so scary. Until this enlightenment has just been some kind of impossible to reach goal in my mind but now I can actually feel what it would be like to have no self . Some things I realized today: If I drink a lot of water after meals, I quickly get hungry again, if I tell myself that I'm the kind of person who doesn't eat unhealthy foods and say I don't do that rather than I can't do that, it will become part of my identity and I'm much more likely to stick to my food plan

Yeeeez back on track! Today I had only two meals + some bcaa for snack. I felt really productive because I had so much more time. After school I read about half of the book "Mastery" and also cleaned the house a lot. Then I finished the book breaking the habit of being yourself by Joe Dispenza and started doing the subconscious reprogramming from the book. I also meditated for one hour in the morning and did 15 minutes of self-inquiry in the evening. Plus I was asking what the heck am I almost the whole day whenever I could. It's funny because I'm in school with my friends and all those people around me but still I have absolutely no clue of who I am. Before going to bed I took a walk. It was really beautiful outside: it was snowing and the lights of the town were glowing through this white-yellow snowy fog. And it was quiet everywhere. I really enjoyed the silence.

Damn! This is what happened: I often feel strong cravings when I haven't drunk enough water and that's exactly what happened today. I felt a strong urge to eat something and I just went to eat something small because I thought I actually was hungry. But after I ate, I felt even stronger urges to eat something more and that continued for quite a while. I didn't eat much unhealthy stuff but simply stuffed myself with normal foods because the hunger didn't seem to go away. Logically I already knew it was just thirst but somehow I just didn't drink. I will make sure next time I will drink a big glass of water before eating anything. This also screwed my meditation. Because the eating took so long I was only able to meditate for ten minutes . I think I will try eating only mean meal in school, one snack and a dinner so that I'm not wasting all my time just eating.

@Sevi I will definitely try that. Thanks!

Today meditated again 15 minutes before school and one hour in the evening. Been feeling a little sick for the past two weeks and not been able to exercise. Slept really well last night, almost 10 hours. My sleep really has a huge impact on my ability to focus during meditation. When I haven't slept properly I feel like I'm just sitting and trying to stay awake . What I realized today is that if I put too much salt on my food, my hunger doesn't seem to go away at all and I will have crazy cravings. For dinner I ate half a kilo of salmon, two cups of beans, an entire broccoli, two carrots, two bell peppers and like five tomatoes. Then meditated for one hour and was super hungry after that . Even though my stomach was all filled up I still experienced hunger, weird.

Today I meditated 15 minutes before school. And in the evening one hour of just trying to meditate but getting lost in thought like every five seconds. I thought I was gonna be tired because I only slept seven hours but my energy was actually pretty high the whole day. Although after lunch I'm always dead tired which is why I skip it as often as I can but I can only do that when I have a different lunchtime than my friends. It feels to me that my days are always the same and that I never do nothing new. So I changed just a small thing: I went to a different store to buy food and walked around that neighborhood a little. Even a little change like that felt really good and brought newness to my life. I think I will try to spice up my life with those kinds of small things more to keep my daily routine from becoming too boring. The aren't much urges to eat unhealthy foods during weekdays. They usually hit me on the weekends or when I'm really tired.

Yesterday was great! I meditated one hour and and did one hour self-inquiry in the morning. After that I felt so alive and everything seemed so beautiful. Sun was shining outside and I listened to music and everything felt really good. Almost starting to get to that childhood vibe a little bit. Also don't have any idea if self-inquiry is working or not. I just see that in my direct experience my own head is just a thought and the feeling I call me is a feeling inside that thought and it changes places when I try to point at it. Sometimes it also disappear entirely and I have zero idea who I am, but I still don't really feel like I'm getting any enlightenment experiences or anything like that. Just a whole lot of confusion. I did school stuff the rest of the day and ate only one meal the whole day. There were some urges to go and eat the dessert my dad had made but I was able to immediately notice them as not me.

Read never binge again. It will change everything.

I'm definitely interested in this too since I've just recently realized how important it is to hold yourself accountable especially when forming new habits.

I'm quite interested in the missing link (http://www.brainwavelove.com/product/the-missing-link/) because of the spiritual aspects of the program.

Hi! I'm a 17 years old high school student from Finland. I found personal development through sports when trying to maximize my athletic potential. I started listening to motivational speeches and somehow stumbled upon Leo's spiritual enlightenment video. At that point enlightenment seemed like too much work for me so I forgot the whole thing. Later I watched Leo's meditation video and got really interested in the benefits of meditation. I started doing 20 minutes of meditation every day and at some point ramped that up to one hour. I trained sports really hard until now a year later I have realized there's more to life than just sports. Even though I like sports I realized I'm only fulfilled when I'm training . I have decided to change that through meditation. A lot of meditation. My goal is to be able to enjoy every moment of my day and be really fulfilled. I have really struggled to meditate more than an hour a day for a while now always coming up with excuses or stupid tasks to distract myself. I'm also having difficulties with emotional eating. Emotional eating and stuffing myself even after I'm full is causing me to be very tired afterwards and gain some fat. My plan is to do three hours of strong determination sitting every single day. With eating I will try to only eat when I'm hungry and in moderation instead of bingeing. I will report my daily progress here. Hope you enjoy

Thanks man! I must say I really needed this. It has been difficult doing many hours of meditation daily, especially when it's sds, so I needed some extra motivation. Anyways it is totally worth it and I will get back at it when I healthy again. Hope you will start doing one hour too! The benefits are just great

Day 11: Same as yesterday. I think one hour is decent amount now that I'm sick but if I feel good I will do more tomorrow.

Day 10: I have really high temperature so I've been mostly just sleeping. I did however do one hour of do nothing, again on the sofa.

I have read that people under 18 should not use brainwave technology because their brains are still developing. Is this actually the case? I have been meditating for over a year and this is basically just getting to deeper levels of meditation, right? Why would it be harmful in any way?

Day 9: Currently ill af. I meditated on the couch for 1 hour and did 30 mins of self-inquiry. I ate very moderately the whole day but in he evening I felt empty emotionally because of the illness and also because I'm not yet used to having an empty stomach at that time . So I let my old habits take over and ate two plates of food and had a disgusting feeling in my stomach afterwards. However I still feel like my habits are starting to change in a way they have never before. Recently I've been thinking about applying for a one year exchange student program to Australia. It would be cool to live in a totally different culture for a while and experience life from a different perspective. If you have some thoughts about being an exchange student ,please share Conclusion: Eating: Shifting for the better. Still some room for improvement Meditation: Lazy-ass meditation on a couch for 90 mins

Day 8: One hour sds first thing in the morning. I'm feeling sick once again so I just lied on the couch the rest of the day. Didn't eat much either .

Day 7: I have done some nlp techniques such as swish and belief change along with visualizations. Now I have a sense that I am successful at eating healthy and know how to eat in moderation. Did two hours of sds. Conclusion: Eating: Learning new helpful and motivating mindsets Meditation: two hours sds

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NLP swish pattern has helped me a lot with many habits

Finland

As this forum has been crashing, my journal has lost some days and to be honest I really don't remember what I did on those days . So I will be continuing this journal from day 6 which is now today instead of September 11th. My current situation is this: I have been able to reduce my overeating but those bad habits still keep acting themselves out. I am able to eat completely healthy and moderately all other meals but dinner. I usually eat way too much in the evening which is often caused by me mistaking thirst as hunger. I've been trying to fix this by drinking lots of water and it has helped on some days. With meditation there has been lots of procrastination and I have managed to mostly get only one hour of strong determination sitting each day. I will now focus on getting three hours each day. So here's my day 6: Three hours of sds + two times 30 mins shikantaza I ate my first meal in moderation and on the second meal too much which made me feel uncomfortably full. (I usually have only two or three meals a day)

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Day 5: I did three times one hours ads right after waking up. They all felt really good and my legs didn't fall asleep at all. After that I ate my first meal which was kinda small. After one hour I felt hungry or maybe I wasn't just used to eating that little so I ate shittons of chicken and potatoes. Probably worth 2000 calories. I noticed that when I eat lots of salty food I can't control my eating and feel the need to eat more and more. I din't eat anything more that day. In conclusion: Meditation: 3 hours sds Eating: went kinda overboard but only ate two meals so it wasn't that bad