nightrider1435

@the_wanderer There are an infinite number of ways, whatever vibes with you then do that. Mediation, affirmations, journal, eat healthy, exercise, yoga, etc.

Make healing your number one priority, nothing else matters but your well being. Stay strong and have faith.

Yeah sometimes mediation isn't necessary when your dealing with these energies. I would say yoga would be more beneficial to help balance it out. Either way it doesn't care about what your ego thinks of it, it is just energy. I agree with @Tony 845 , just let it be. It's gonna do what it wants to do in you anyways, whether you agree with that or not. Also exercise is great if your not doing yoga. That's what I do when I'm feeling energetically over whelmed.

@SoonHei Just smoke less next time and you should be good. Leafly is a good place to check out, very informative about all the strains.

Do you know what strain you smoked? Sativa's are more of a head high which can cause your thoughts to race while indicas are more of a body high. If you live in place where weed is legal then you have the luxury to choose which one is more suitable for you, it will make a difference. Me personally I've always preferred hybrids, best of both worlds, leaning more on the sativa side.

I've had this happen to me before but it has been awhile. But yeah, it just felt like I was free falling and I would wake up with my arms and legs spazzing out, only to realize I'm in my bed... Not falling haha. I'd be interested to see if someone had some sort of explanation for it.

@Nahm I didn't know you were doing these transmissions, that's awesome. I don't give a shit what other minds have to say, this works. Just approach it without expectations and let the energy work on you. That "I" will be eliminated and you will be rooted directly back into source.

These transmissions actually do work, it is not bullshit. Haven't had one from ramaji though,. I would keep working with him if it's not to bad on your wallet.

You need to understand why the fear is there, it wants to get a message across to you. Once you have that insight then it will be gone out of your experience, forever. However then another one will come along, and then another, and another, it all wants your attention.

@Recursoinominado This energy has been insane for me to, especially if you are sensitive then you feel this quite intensely.

Haha I feel you on this, and we just had a full moon last night so there is a ton of energy going around right now.

Yep. It's so obvious the mind is astonished how it was looked over this entire time.

Your body exists within the illusion of time, you can become concious that your whole life is right now but the illusion of time will continue to play out, but you can see through it. The mind can't drop time, it needs the illusion of time so the story can continue.

I did this for years, it gets old quick. You'll get to dependant on it, you're tolerance will sky rocket, the stuff is not cheap, going to work sober will suck. Its not necessarily good, so many people post about pot here and to me it's all about moderation, just try not to over use it.

This is a fantasy world. I know what you mean, people seem like ants including myself, so tiny compared to your higher self.

Hell yeah MDMA is great, especially in a setting like this. Its an experience that everyone should have at least once. Can almost guarantee that you will experience infinity on it. The stuff awakened me.

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I just want to say to remember to pull back and just breathe, it can help prevent your mind from spiraling out of control. The mind likes to delude you into making it all seem worse than it really is, you can see this for yourself. Now I don't know you, but your situation is probably not as bad as your making it out to be. Your only 19, life goes on and can get better. The fact that your going through this indicates that your're a strong individual. Speaking from the big picture, there is probably good times ahead of you, just have to pass through the dark first.

Just sounds like ego backlash, which is normal. I would just keep doing what your doing, don't try to find bliss, let that go.

How would one go about tapping into love? The only thing that comes to mind is Mdma. I've experienced so much ego back lash since breaking serious ground, I'm watching my mind eat itself alive, its exhausting. Ego is making a huge deal out of dieing, its out of my control other than to just be aware of the chaos. You've said once the ego dies you feel a huge sense of relief like why was I so desperately clinging on this entire time, this hasn't happened yet.

I'd start with 100ug and take it on a empty stomach.

@Quanty Fast growth is more of my style, all though my mind complains and gets irritated with the process, I'm use to it at this point. Not sure how this will unfold but I know it will be worth it, don't really have a choice at this point. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I feel heat at the base of my spine alot, it happens during mediation and even throughout the day. It feels like a volcano waiting to erupt down there sometimes. Its an orgasmic like feeling in my spine, sometimes it can be pretty distracting. I've felt this down at the root chakra, heart, even the third eye area. I've been doing nofap and cold showers which seems to arouse the energy even more. Is this the so called "kundalini" that everyone talks about? I'm about a year into my Awakening now, and my intuition is hinting that I'm on the edge of another big break through.

Sounds like you're doing good. Mediation is going to dissolve your ego over time, mind is throwing existential fear at you in defense.

I do agree with this 100%.