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@Emerald Thanks for the help!

@Emerald What job do you do, if you don't mind me asking? I work as a direct care provider. So they may be more open, although I could be wrong.

What job do you do? I work as a direct care provider.

@Emerald Do you have a job? Because I have been writing a blog lately and I have let people know about it yet. I was wondering if your YouTube channel interferes with your job meaning have they been hard on you for your YouTube content posted, maybe even fire you?

@Shiva I am not needy. I just want to help people.

Ya, I think I was a little bias and I meant to say that it is a woman's tendacy to give a lot in the relationship not that giving is not masculine. But you are right I am geting lost in my head and going back to a fearful boy's mentality. I will weed those weak mindsets out and constantly think in a higher way. Thanks for giving me a clear perspective. @Emerald

@Sevi I posted the last post as an explanation on giving.

I was reading "Men are from Mars and Wemon are from Venus" and in it Jhon Grey says it is more of a feminine thing to give and that is women's tendency, they feel like all they do is give and get nothing in return and men say no matter what they do they can't make their women happy.This case is only with bad relationships though. I was thinking that if I gave to a closed minded women they might see that as weak, in fact that has happened, kind of like I am nealing to their superior presents, bullshit. Some women actually think this way, or they just blow me off because they don't find that attractive, idk. Some people just suck!

I seem to be struggling to gain people's trust because I think complex and struggle sometimes to think from their perspective. I may offend some and then they expect me to know how I did or think of myself as a person to stay away from. I think it is partially because of texting and people are just judgemental and not open minded. I have also learned to just listen to a woman or other people in general to gain their trust, but then you face opening up, which is more scarry. I find they are close minded or they say they are open and accepting but really are not, I don't believe them because usually they have not thought though what really being accepting and open means. After educating myself I am seeing the world very different, I am starting to realize I either meet people that are similar as myself( people on this forum or sometimes around colleges) or I meet people who are closed minded, but I have used humor, sincerity and understanding to attract them to me and then I don't feel comfortable opening up because they do not have as big of world view. So, I can't just say you are closed minded and judemental because they think they are. I struggle to influence people to develop and so I lack quality friends and possible soul mates due to my standards of highly conscious people, like most people on this forum. Any thoughts on this?

@Sevi I made it easier to read now, sorry for the shity writing, lol.

@Sevi It was, thanks.

@Sevi Thank you, ironically, the first guy you were helping had the same situation as myself, so I get why you thought we were the same, but I did not have a logical mom growing up, everything else is the same though, lol. But now I am not needy. Although, I am precived as being needy because I am so open minded to interpretations and personalities and my disire to help others. I come off needy and that is frustrating when it happens.

@Sevi After reading about male and female psychology I have found that love is a need for women and men love to be needed typically. So being so called needy is often misunderstood, I agree with you. It is not needy to really want quality friends and romance in your life, but it is "needy" to sacrfice your athuenticty for peoples' approval. But the art of putting yourself out there and reaching out to people is not needy in my opinion. What if I have a feminine quality in which I need to talk about my problems to someone in order to fix them, the few problems I have. I love to give, which women typically love to give, so I am less attractive if I love to give and it is unattractive if I love to talk according to the books on dating. I am not sure this is needy because this is how I am, I am still grounded in my purpose and am still overall more masculine than feminine but close minded women see this as weak and immediately lose atraction sometimes. I can manipulate them to like me by showing them all my masculine qualities, but it is almost programed in their head that I am supposed to be a certain way, that I can't be feminine in some ways. I am probably 60% masculine and 40% feminine, but can't men in the middle still form polarity with the women of their dreams? I mean women have a lot of masculine qualities too, the only thing is most have never really looked deep. What are your thoughts?

Things start to move subtly when I meditate with my eyes open. It is almost like my perception of reality is a delusion. My vision also dims and lightens as my heart beats, I am not sure what to think of it.

Lol, if you embody the wisdom from actulized.org, I gurantee you are way wiser in a lot of ways, but we still need experience, the older fokes will have that over you or I.@kieranperez

So I have been educating myself so much lately and I have been debating on starting a blog post. I plan to be a counselor, but I am working as a direct care provider and I plan to work a social worker or something like that for my upcoming jobs. Do you think it would be wise to start a blog post at age 20? My only concern is that my world view and knowledge my turn off some people, possibly, and this may even prevent me from getting future jobs. Or it may attract a lot of people and change their outlook on their lives for the better and get me more jobs.

I used action in the wrong context, when I said action, I was meaning geting a job reading life changing books, trying new things, etc. I never said I did not have a shit load of room for growth, I am saying it is still hard to find like mined people period. I also don't have low self esteem anymore, I just need to get out.@Shin @Peace and Love

Thank you, your words actually mean a lot, and that is so rare now days. I work on myself so much that I have trouble imagining someone like myself, not to sound cocky, I just turn inward so much, but don't go out much, I kind of lose hope because I lack time and a solid group of friends. @Sevi @Peace and Love

I am finding that my life purpose is to improve people's lives. I want to do that by sharing as much information I can with everyone and show them it is possible. I find it hard to because, well, I am repeating a lot of what I have learned off actualized.org with a lot of spins because I have a lot different information as well. So, is it possible for me to just pass on what I learned from this place with a lot of different knowledge to a different audience?

@Sevi You are so kind.

Is there any one near Salem,Oregon on this forum? That is where I will be living for my next couple of years.

Is there any one near Salem,Oregon on this forum? That is where I will be living for my next couple of years.

I am kind of in the slumps. Not to sound like a victim,I will get through this eventually, but I have got a lot of yeses but no actual dates off tender and Zoosk, they all flak, so far. For Zoosk the girls are usually too far away and for tender some are just playing me for atention, understably. I have been trying cold aproch( not a lot though) , but it drains my energy levels and I end up not having very much motivation to do anything else. Idk, and it seems so silly to play the game sometimes, so i lack motivation because everyone takes first impressions so seriously. I just want to let go and be myself, but I have so much trouble, it is not even funny sometimes. Sometimes, I am completely free, other times I just can't be that fun playful calm collected guy. It is just so fucking hard! I like online dating because it breaks the ice and I can attract women, but in groups or when other people are around I get mental blocks for some reason. And yes, I have been trying to destroy my ego and improve myself, and work on my life purpose, but still, I have this bullshit in my head and I don't know how to get it out, espically when girls reinforce my lower self and tell me a lie. Deep down I almost believe the lie (that I have no game). But I know all this low consciousness bullshit is just womens' way of seeing if you know who you are, and well, I guess there are times when I do and times that I am not quite sure. Just a little lost, not majorly.

Okay, so I have been watching a lot of videos on pick up and attraction. Is it wise to purchase a program, or read a book on dating? I have aready reasearched this feild so much and I know the basics, and I am decent at attraction, but there are still many things I dont know most likely, or they just want my money. I know one thing, I have not had enough hands on experience in dating.

@SFRL The previous text was meant for you.