PsychedelicTraveller

I want you to try meditating outside, just walking around and observing things with your eyes. This is key. Try to penetrate into your field of view SO intensely, that things will become super real and sharp. You will feel as if life is some kind of Matrix or super beautiful simulation, at least that's what happens in my experience. I hope you try it and it helps you enrich your life

Well well... I've been meditating for a few months for 12-16 hours a day (Since I wake up till I go to sleep). I don't sit down, I just do whatever I did before but being fully present until my mind shuts off for the rest of the day. The first thing I noticed (after like 3 days of meditating all the time) is that things became beautiful. I am really seeing objects now. I feel like I'm closer to them, or something. Every item looks more bright, detailed, and with nice shadows. Every single day I feel more and more dettached from my Ego/Identity. I literally feel like I'm dead. Like a ghost. Because I know I'm not in the physical dimension so It's like people look at me but they don't really see me. They just see my body. I feel like I'm always at home, no matter where I am or how cold it is. Kind of like I were in the Animus I perceive my body as a vehicle or a portal to contact the physical world, but I know I'm immortal. There's nothing that can bother me. I feel like playing Grand Theft Auto. I have complete free will because things like embarrassment or anger no longer exist. I can do whatever, without even being sure if it's normal or "acceptable". Now I am all the time beatboxing or doing whatever as I walk on the street and there's no embarrassment at all I feel like I am somewhere behind the scenario, like I'm a dot or some kind of ball floating in an empty space, and from there I command my body. There's total inner peace. But there's no happinness, nothing is funny, and there are no good or bad. I see things so objectively that nothing makes sense anymore, I can't really get into a conversation unless I get into my "Ego" again. Because I have 2 complete different perspectives on life, depending if I'm conciouss or not. I can switch from "asleep" to "awake" anytime I want. But being asleep feels like being a machine. I don't have a clear notion of time. It feels like a continous present moment all the time. Unless I get really distracted I also feel like I'm older than anyone else On the good side, I am okay doing anything, I have way more patience, objects look so interesting I can literally stay all the time looking at a plant! It's a perfect virtual reality... But I'm alone here. It's like being in a lucid dream, but I'm the only one who's lucid.

This is what I've been experiencing. I've been like this for 3 days now but I can switch on and off my emotions/ego needy perception whenever I want

That's really helpful

Then what might I be going through?

No. I do normal things but focusing on the present moment so much that the voice and imagination in my head shuts up and doesn't come back for hours. I then feel like walking in the matrix because everything is so extremely clear and beautiful. I'm not exaggerating.

What is it I'm experiencing then? Because I don't have an explanation. Is it derealization?