Sick Boy

Hello, I've just finished this book (audiobook) and it is the deepest spiritual teachings I've ever read. It explains the teachings in A Course About Miracles, but in easier to understand, plain words. It describes contacts with entities, but you don't have to trust that part if you don't want. This book is about pure non-dualism, no concessions. Going far beyond the universal mind, beyond perception. Realizing that this world never really happened, and we were God all the time. The teachings are very practical and I feel how it elevated my consciousness level. If fact, I was playing a videogame while listening to it, and I almost had spiritual experiences while killing monsters (no joke). Some of its concepts are exactly the same as Leo talks in his deepest realizations. What surprises me is that he didn't heard any spiritual teacher talk about them before. Well, some of those metaphysic concepts are explained this book. The good thing about Leo realizing them by himself, is that he proofed at least some of them, which gave me confidence on the teachings. The other thing that gave me confidence, it is noticing the changes on myself and my conciousness level and glimpses of the disidentification with my body and seeing past the illusion of the world. I went to an ayahuasca/bufo retreat (I have been going pretty often for the past year) and the ayahuasca experience was very clear this time. I know exactly why I was there and what was the job I had to do that night, instead of having a bunch of random realizations that could entangle me more in the game of ego. I encourage everyone to check this out because it is the deepest teachings I've ever found and very easy to understand and practical at the same time. Regards.

I have vaped 5MeO several times in shamanic retreats. Sometimes I was so scared of taking it that I was crying before the session. At least once I was 100% sure I was going to die and twice I thought I made such a fuss that they wouldn't me come back to the retreats. But after some minutes I realized that everything was a lie of my ego to avoid going deeper, neither my life was never at risk nor I screamed that much. After several sessions it cured at 90% my insomnia, which was killing me. And in the last sessions its becoming a bit easier. Also, healing my insomnia is letting me getting rid of my porn addiction, since I don't need to ejaculate to sleep anymore. And not ejaculating is helping me getting more attraction from women (which I know is something a bit shallow for a lot of people here, but hey, I'm at this stage of consciousness). Totally worth 100% will do it again next weekend.

Sorry, didn't know in which subforum to post this. I can't play Actualized.org on Google Podcasts, this problem shows up both in Google Podcasts app in my iPhone and via browser. There is any workaround for this? Thanks!

I totally identify myself with this. It's easy to find infinite distractions in life, and a lot of times I'm carried by them so I don't have to deal with the painful truth.

Yes, maybe I'm focusing too much on what I don't want. But to be honest, I notice the things that I don't want because they influence me a lot and distract me from my spiritual objectives Maybe it's just stories I make in my mind, but I find difficult to do these things at the same time. It's like on one hand, picking up, lifting weights and corporate environment put my state of mind on one direction and spiritual practices in an opposite one.

@LovingAwareness Thanks for your first post!! Seeing that people already saw difficult to balance both ways of life encourages me a bit. Also, the video "Successful People Are Not Happy" from Leo talks about the trap where everyone around me is into.

Yes, I guess that not being surrounded by like minded people makes the journey harder and lonelier. I work in a corporate environment and nobody cares about these things and I feel like a misfit, like if I don't behave in the same way I'm missing the party of life or something People in the gym are very ego-driven, to be honest I'm lifting for the same reasons as them, but the health part of lifting weights is nice In Bikram Yoga, we don't talk much so we can't really dig into each other Sometimes I do Wim Hof Method retreats from time to time, people there are great, lots of them are very into health, nutrition, spirituality and psychodelics, but I don't do these retreats so often to not to feel as a weirdo in my day to day life I'm very fortunate to have an open relationship with a calm girl who is open to learn about spirituality and try psychodelics, this helps But probably this struggle to incorporate spirituality into everyday life is something that almost everybody felt. That's why I was looking for resources that motivate and help me.

Thanks for the responses. Also, I have found a book by Jack Kornfield that may help: After The Ecstasy, The Laundry I do Bikram Yoga, it may not be as powerful as other types of yoga for spiritual development but I like the mix of calming the mind, correcting the posture of my spine and body, challenge and being half naked surrounded by lots of women, it motivates me haha

I feel that when I pursuit sex, videogames or reputation, they hinder my spiritual development. When they are part of my life, they are like a big alarm on my brain, they are "easy" to follow, still ultimately unsatisfactory, yes, but easy regardless. They start to occupy more and more of my time and "brain power" and spirituality starts to fall aside. When I try to follow a spiritual path and disregard the things I mentioned before, meditating more, not having any caffeine, not flirting when 5 different women, I feel calmer, clearer, but there is a lot of dullness in my life and I feel isolated. Life doesn't feel exciting anymore. I'm the only one feeling like this?

It's not only fear, it feels bad to miss sexual opportunities, chances to increase my reputation, develop more muscle and better body so I feel proud and admired... I guess my reptilian/mammal brain is punishing me for missing chances to increase my reproduction/survival opportunities.

Hahahaha don't be so harsh. I understand where Leo is coming from, when you have walked so much down the path of spirituality these petty problems seems like nonsense. But yeah, I'm still dealing with those petty problems and they are not easy for me. I would like to know how other have managed them.

Yes, I realized it while I was typing this post haha One video Leo shot that was very helpful was "Lifestyle Minimalism - Renouncing Your Busy Stupid Life". I was hoping for more inspirational sources of information like that But maybe the best motivation would be just doing some psychodelics. After tasting the fruit of God, every other thing may fall for itself.

For me its very hard to let go of all these things. Next month I'll probably have an ayahuasca retreat and maybe I'll wake up to the fact of whats really important. But some information about how other people struggle with this things and how they manage them may help. Thanks!!

Hello, I am facing some obstacles when following spiritual teachings: Since I'm calmer, I could be boring for a lot of people now Loneliness, my friends wants to party but now noisy environments don't attract me anymore Going to the gym, I'm losing some of my motivation maybe because part of it was ego driven, or maybe since I'm calmer I have less steam to blow off. Not totally sure why. I feel like everyone in the world is searching dopamine hit after dopamine hit (whatever it is, videogames, being the center of attention, instagram, flirting, caffeine...), and it's very hard for me to not fall into the same trap FOMO. Specially regarding girls Do you know any source of information that goes deep into these problems? Maybe books or essays? Thanks!!

Thanks for the suggestions