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This song reminds me of my ex who fled the war in Ukraine. Aah the memories...

isn't it just f*cking wonderful that no matter what happens in this movie of life, that we can always take a step back and just look at reality itself? what cured my depression was realizing Death. Truly. I dont claim to know what death is in a spiritual sense, but I do know it's enough to make me appreciate every god damn second of this life. Imagine.. everything you've ever known, seen, heard, felt, whatever, will be gone in a flash. And you won't even know it. Its truly breath taking. I mean seriously. LOOK AT REALITY. WTF IS THIS??!! its the most beautiful wonderful thing there is, because its all that is. Whatever problem you have in the relative domain, you can always take a step back and just look at the qualia of reality. Everything else is thoughts, emotions, beliefs.. But the actual experience of life itself should be enough for ANYONE to get cured from fears and depression. It's so fucking obvious. still, we're so caught up in the story. And ofc., we should. That's what gives this life a sense of meaning. But in the end, its just this.. raw sensory experience. The appearance IS the reality. It's never been anything else

What are u f-ing kidding me?

I guess people can relate more to that side of the coin more than the woke side

I wouldn't trust an AI on the road more than a drunk person behind the wheel

I second this. we have a rich inner life, and honestly nothing wrong with that.

I'm a man-baby

Gencraft (ai pics)

So what do you wanna do then? Cut them off if you have to. Or perhaps you don't truly want to.

Is it just me or does it feel like JP has changed ever since his benzo-troubles? He gets very emotional nowadays, unhinged.. not the same cold-cut rational person he was before

If you make a radical post like this, expect to get radical answers. It seems as if you are connecting death with awakening, which is a big trap. You dying is not you becoming one with God. You talk about an idea of becoming one with God, a wish that you want to be realized, a certain state where you think suffering will end. Awakening is not an idea, nor a 'future hope for bliss and unconditional happiness'. Awakening is an extremely slow process of deconstructing yourself. Psychedelics should be used as an extra tool to help guide your path. For example, if you want to get better at socialising, you can take a shortcut by snorting a line of amphetamines... you'll be the most social person in the room. But then you have to come down and end up with your real self. OR you can realize that there are no shortcuts that lasts, and start working on your social skills through dedicated practice. I'm sorry to hear that you are suicidal. I've also been. I was clinically dead for a few minutes, after an OD of benzos, hand sanitizer and cocaine. I also wanted to die because I thought that everything is meaningless, and so I might as well just take the shortcut of dying and become one with God right? The disconnect, the gap, is way too big. Ground yourself in actuality. Not any idea.

Sounds like you already got the answer, my friend. Create a contrast in your mind - between the life you have now, and the life you could have. Be motivated by this vision, and take very, very small practical steps to move toward the vision. You'll realize that by you already placing your vision as a tangible option in your life, you'll get a different perspective on your current situation. It's like as if you're struggling through a very difficult week, but you know that by the end of the week you will go on a date with your crush. Suddenly the 'pain' of your daily struggle becomes less intense. Cus' you can contrast it with something else

I find this video very interesting. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C2jgcjlmKkw

You're clearly not spiritually mature enough to take any psychedelic. A psychedelic is anything but a quick fix. Ground yourself in current, material reality. Your wish to 'die and become God' is ridiculous. I'm not saying this to put you down. I've been there and having premature insights and awakenings is the opposite of infinite bliss

Also it's extremely difficult 😭 I've been doing it off and on for ~3 years and I have yet to truly learn it. It can also be dangerous. I'd honestly suggest a mentor/teacher for this one specific practice.