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but heey, she did say "I love you". I just like to call her Mommy

It's funny how some people actually look up to someone just cus' they're in a position of power. The most wealthy man (in terms of money) does something controversial and suddenly there's a debate about the meaning of it; when in fact the message was clear: *H*il H*tler, I'm the richest mothaf*cka in the world so I can do whatever I feel like* *applause* What's even funnier is some people actually see this as a surprise. Imagine yourself in a position of power. Not just power - the world's wealthiest person. You can do ANY FUCKING THING you want. And you do a salute like that... obviously this confirms our image of Elon as a person - very immature and whose only worth is for the other eyes to see

best director ever. Mulholland drive was such a vibe for me during my addiction (winter 2022). God damn... I even met the cowboy in my dreams. What a f*cking trip RIP, legend

You must transcend use and value to investigate Truth

isn't it just f*cking wonderful that no matter what happens in this movie of life, that we can always take a step back and just look at reality itself? what cured my depression was realizing Death. Truly. I dont claim to know what death is in a spiritual sense, but I do know it's enough to make me appreciate every god damn second of this life. Imagine.. everything you've ever known, seen, heard, felt, whatever, will be gone in a flash. And you won't even know it. Its truly breath taking. I mean seriously. LOOK AT REALITY. WTF IS THIS??!! its the most beautiful wonderful thing there is, because its all that is. Whatever problem you have in the relative domain, you can always take a step back and just look at the qualia of reality. Everything else is thoughts, emotions, beliefs.. But the actual experience of life itself should be enough for ANYONE to get cured from fears and depression. It's so fucking obvious. still, we're so caught up in the story. And ofc., we should. That's what gives this life a sense of meaning. But in the end, its just this.. raw sensory experience. The appearance IS the reality. It's never been anything else

I'm not in the US so I can't access it though http://www.sora.com

This song reminds me of my ex who fled the war in Ukraine. Aah the memories...

What are u f-ing kidding me?

I guess people can relate more to that side of the coin more than the woke side

I've never been a good reader. Hypocritocally I've written 2 books (in Swedish and Korean thank god). My dad has always been on my ass about reading. He loves fiction with wisdom, as he calls it. I've always had trouble with fiction though. As soon as I feel it can't really be connected to reality, I dismiss it. whatever, I love non-fiction. The writings of others; their thoughts and philosophy; insights and wonders. You know the type of litterature I'm talking about. the internet is also amazing, especially YouTube. And here's where I ask you guys, do you have any technique to use when gathering information and turning it into practical knowledge? My strategy has always been 'cold reading' as I call it. I find a book, an article, video or podcast.. and I skip my way through the intro part, and I just intuitively feel which part I need. This leaves me jumping in books. I can't remember the last time I read a book through and through. It's always been jumping from chapter to chapter - fetching sentences and main keywords/purpose/saying. Its worked for me so far, but at the same time I fear that my laziness to read a book in chronological order causes me to miss a whole lot. What's your art of reading?

I wouldn't trust an AI on the road more than a drunk person behind the wheel

I second this. we have a rich inner life, and honestly nothing wrong with that.

I'm a man-baby

Gencraft (ai pics)

So what do you wanna do then? Cut them off if you have to. Or perhaps you don't truly want to.

I find this video very interesting. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C2jgcjlmKkw

Is it just me or does it feel like JP has changed ever since his benzo-troubles? He gets very emotional nowadays, unhinged.. not the same cold-cut rational person he was before

If you make a radical post like this, expect to get radical answers. It seems as if you are connecting death with awakening, which is a big trap. You dying is not you becoming one with God. You talk about an idea of becoming one with God, a wish that you want to be realized, a certain state where you think suffering will end. Awakening is not an idea, nor a 'future hope for bliss and unconditional happiness'. Awakening is an extremely slow process of deconstructing yourself. Psychedelics should be used as an extra tool to help guide your path. For example, if you want to get better at socialising, you can take a shortcut by snorting a line of amphetamines... you'll be the most social person in the room. But then you have to come down and end up with your real self. OR you can realize that there are no shortcuts that lasts, and start working on your social skills through dedicated practice. I'm sorry to hear that you are suicidal. I've also been. I was clinically dead for a few minutes, after an OD of benzos, hand sanitizer and cocaine. I also wanted to die because I thought that everything is meaningless, and so I might as well just take the shortcut of dying and become one with God right? The disconnect, the gap, is way too big. Ground yourself in actuality. Not any idea.

Sounds like you already got the answer, my friend. Create a contrast in your mind - between the life you have now, and the life you could have. Be motivated by this vision, and take very, very small practical steps to move toward the vision. You'll realize that by you already placing your vision as a tangible option in your life, you'll get a different perspective on your current situation. It's like as if you're struggling through a very difficult week, but you know that by the end of the week you will go on a date with your crush. Suddenly the 'pain' of your daily struggle becomes less intense. Cus' you can contrast it with something else

You're clearly not spiritually mature enough to take any psychedelic. A psychedelic is anything but a quick fix. Ground yourself in current, material reality. Your wish to 'die and become God' is ridiculous. I'm not saying this to put you down. I've been there and having premature insights and awakenings is the opposite of infinite bliss

Also it's extremely difficult 😭 I've been doing it off and on for ~3 years and I have yet to truly learn it. It can also be dangerous. I'd honestly suggest a mentor/teacher for this one specific practice.

Something strange happens when I start reading about a certain topic. I might suddenly wonder 'Why did Hitler kill himself?'.. and I start googling and searching, going down a deep rabbit hole with information. Before I know it, an hour has passed and I'm suddenly reading about George Washington's personal life. When my mind starts digging I cannot stop it. Hours upon hours of reading and gathering information might seem positive, but I don't have any system or infrastructure to process the information I go on an info-binge purely based on emotions and intuition. Obviously I get a kick out of it, but I honestly don't know if this is a waste of time or if it's getting me somewhere. sure, I know a lot of things. Any conversation coming up; I can instantly engage and contribute. I've been addicted to drugs and alcohol in the past, and it seems like I've replaced my dopamine hits with info-bombing myself. anyone else with similar thing? I'm not saying its a bad thing that I suffer from. I see a great potential with this new habit, but I need to learn how to preserve and actually use the information/knowledge

Yees exactly. It's like the mind wants to gather information and connect everything into a wider picture. One that might not be entirely true. Like you said, its a good thing but it can be a bit 'reel/shorts' type of stuff, I know exactly what you mean. I'm still grateful for living in this time, Internet is a blessing if used properly

I think that's exactly what he was talking about but Ok, you can have your projections the man made a great post. Better than 90% of the other hot topics on this forum – THOSE are mental masturbation. Not this

Thank you for the input!! I know most of it is useless knowledge. I get a kick out of it. I guess those dopamine hits can be used towards something more effective, just like you stated