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What are u f-ing kidding me?

I guess people can relate more to that side of the coin more than the woke side

I've never been a good reader. Hypocritocally I've written 2 books (in Swedish and Korean thank god). My dad has always been on my ass about reading. He loves fiction with wisdom, as he calls it. I've always had trouble with fiction though. As soon as I feel it can't really be connected to reality, I dismiss it. whatever, I love non-fiction. The writings of others; their thoughts and philosophy; insights and wonders. You know the type of litterature I'm talking about. the internet is also amazing, especially YouTube. And here's where I ask you guys, do you have any technique to use when gathering information and turning it into practical knowledge? My strategy has always been 'cold reading' as I call it. I find a book, an article, video or podcast.. and I skip my way through the intro part, and I just intuitively feel which part I need. This leaves me jumping in books. I can't remember the last time I read a book through and through. It's always been jumping from chapter to chapter - fetching sentences and main keywords/purpose/saying. Its worked for me so far, but at the same time I fear that my laziness to read a book in chronological order causes me to miss a whole lot. What's your art of reading?

I wouldn't trust an AI on the road more than a drunk person behind the wheel

I second this. we have a rich inner life, and honestly nothing wrong with that.

I'm a man-baby

Gencraft (ai pics)

So what do you wanna do then? Cut them off if you have to. Or perhaps you don't truly want to.

I find this video very interesting. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C2jgcjlmKkw

Is it just me or does it feel like JP has changed ever since his benzo-troubles? He gets very emotional nowadays, unhinged.. not the same cold-cut rational person he was before

If you make a radical post like this, expect to get radical answers. It seems as if you are connecting death with awakening, which is a big trap. You dying is not you becoming one with God. You talk about an idea of becoming one with God, a wish that you want to be realized, a certain state where you think suffering will end. Awakening is not an idea, nor a 'future hope for bliss and unconditional happiness'. Awakening is an extremely slow process of deconstructing yourself. Psychedelics should be used as an extra tool to help guide your path. For example, if you want to get better at socialising, you can take a shortcut by snorting a line of amphetamines... you'll be the most social person in the room. But then you have to come down and end up with your real self. OR you can realize that there are no shortcuts that lasts, and start working on your social skills through dedicated practice. I'm sorry to hear that you are suicidal. I've also been. I was clinically dead for a few minutes, after an OD of benzos, hand sanitizer and cocaine. I also wanted to die because I thought that everything is meaningless, and so I might as well just take the shortcut of dying and become one with God right? The disconnect, the gap, is way too big. Ground yourself in actuality. Not any idea.

Sounds like you already got the answer, my friend. Create a contrast in your mind - between the life you have now, and the life you could have. Be motivated by this vision, and take very, very small practical steps to move toward the vision. You'll realize that by you already placing your vision as a tangible option in your life, you'll get a different perspective on your current situation. It's like as if you're struggling through a very difficult week, but you know that by the end of the week you will go on a date with your crush. Suddenly the 'pain' of your daily struggle becomes less intense. Cus' you can contrast it with something else

You're clearly not spiritually mature enough to take any psychedelic. A psychedelic is anything but a quick fix. Ground yourself in current, material reality. Your wish to 'die and become God' is ridiculous. I'm not saying this to put you down. I've been there and having premature insights and awakenings is the opposite of infinite bliss

Also it's extremely difficult 😭 I've been doing it off and on for ~3 years and I have yet to truly learn it. It can also be dangerous. I'd honestly suggest a mentor/teacher for this one specific practice.

Something strange happens when I start reading about a certain topic. I might suddenly wonder 'Why did Hitler kill himself?'.. and I start googling and searching, going down a deep rabbit hole with information. Before I know it, an hour has passed and I'm suddenly reading about George Washington's personal life. When my mind starts digging I cannot stop it. Hours upon hours of reading and gathering information might seem positive, but I don't have any system or infrastructure to process the information I go on an info-binge purely based on emotions and intuition. Obviously I get a kick out of it, but I honestly don't know if this is a waste of time or if it's getting me somewhere. sure, I know a lot of things. Any conversation coming up; I can instantly engage and contribute. I've been addicted to drugs and alcohol in the past, and it seems like I've replaced my dopamine hits with info-bombing myself. anyone else with similar thing? I'm not saying its a bad thing that I suffer from. I see a great potential with this new habit, but I need to learn how to preserve and actually use the information/knowledge

Yees exactly. It's like the mind wants to gather information and connect everything into a wider picture. One that might not be entirely true. Like you said, its a good thing but it can be a bit 'reel/shorts' type of stuff, I know exactly what you mean. I'm still grateful for living in this time, Internet is a blessing if used properly

I think that's exactly what he was talking about but Ok, you can have your projections the man made a great post. Better than 90% of the other hot topics on this forum – THOSE are mental masturbation. Not this

Thank you for the input!! I know most of it is useless knowledge. I get a kick out of it. I guess those dopamine hits can be used towards something more effective, just like you stated

I have no idea of what you just said. Tell me in clear words. I don't know what karma has to do with this

This is a very intersting topic. I'm kinda' ashamed that topics of 'mass control' get more exposure. But I guess that tells very clearly the level of consciousness the people on this forum are at. i've used ChatGPT like a maniac; and I totally agree that it can be incredibly useful. It's like a personal assistant while searching knowledge. Even though it has many flaws (obviously since it's just a mixture of algorithms) there's so much knowledge to gain from it

I dont wanna make this into a long-ass post like my previous ones. I'm just seeking some spiritual guidance. i've been inte spiritually since 2015. It's changed my life in unbelievable ways. Its gotten to the point where I see every value, ideology, feeling, thought, vision etc etc in a soup of consciousness. this has allowed me to release my past identity and surrender to the flow of the universe. Its a great feeling. But as you can probably predict; this is not equal to a complete ego death. that's where I struggle - I keep jumping from different states of consciousness. One day I'm deep into red and impulsive behaviour (as I feel there's still karma to resolve there) and the next day I switch to a more holistic perception. Like from day to night, my 'mind' changes too. this doesn't affect me as a person, because I'm just enjoying this ride. I dont want this experience to be filled with fear and dark intentions. I guess I haven't gotten past the morality. I know morality doesnt exist. For me it just exists as a thought, but this thought affects my emotional body. Even though I'm above it, as a third-perspective-awareness.. this is not what I wanna see in my own movie I might be spiritually unhinged, and thats what scares the sh*t out of me. Its not a fear connected to my identity or survival. More like a bothersome experience in my field of consciousness. i'm so grateful for what I've reached, but it feels like I have many untied knots in me. Perhaps I developed spiritually too pre-maturely. There's one side of me who's viewing all of this freakshow soup, and a part of me that's been left behind in the gutter which I can't seem to disconnect from. Please, I need spiritual guidance, cus' my self-identity or whatever's left from it is crumbling. I barely believe my parents are my parents. And this is unwillingly blissful in one way - dark af in another ..and still I turned it into a long-ass post. Lol

I guess my biggest issue is defining my problem. Let's just ignore this thread.

I've been through the 'earthly work' believe me. Try living on the streets for a couple of days and you will have a more clear perspective of what 'earthly' means i'm so sick and tired of 'spiritual' people who haven't experienced the greatest of suffering. I might be wrong but my understanding of consciousness as a dim-light of going from light to dark, is a total reality for me. I am just reaching for someone who might be going through a similar spiritual struggle. I don't wanna hear your BS about being in the moment and all of that. I spent 1 year in a Korean temple meditating and getting my back whipped every day; so let's not make sure your reply have some moral 'upper' ground try living on the streets for 10 days. Then get back to me and tell me about 'Trump' and 'Spirituality' Understanding = Being if u haven't been it - u don't know it. And I dont give af. about what position you might have in this social hierarchy pyramide. You told me to question You and all of this, so now I do! @Leo Gura

wow.. 'mental illness'. So if someone else says they experienced God it's more valid? I AM God. I am you. I'm writing your fckn words right now if this i'm spiritually unhinged please tell me. I'm inbetween being You and being lost in the soup of consciousness. if there ain't anyone who can give compassion/relate, I suppose you all haven't experienced the dark night of the soul. please.. if there's anyone out there who truly understand what I mean; please seek out

I'm not making this up as a belief. This is seriously how I experience reality what'd u think; this was some soft-core acceptance to reality equals bliss equals Knowing no fucking way. Truth is all the gruesome shit in acceptance. Its almost like I wanna puke cus' of my acceptance to unconvential ways 🤮 @Leo Gura pls help me