The White Belt

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  1. Hey all. So I just completed Leo's video, 'Enlightenment Guided Inquiry - The Neti Neti Method'. I struggle to sit in one position for that amount of time so I changed positions a few times because my back ached. I ended with lying down on the floor belly up with a book supporting my head, I had to keep my eyes open for a lot of it to avoid falling asleep, which I almost did (The video wasn't boring, i'm just really tired). Anyway, this isn't really too relevant to it all but just a bit of background on how I listened to the video. Nothing really earth shattering happened, how ever as I had my eyes open the ceiling was changing colour slightly, and then I closed my eyes and saw these strange burst of vivid colour like paint splatters. What I wonder is, was a genuine experience, or if it was my ego telling me that I HAVE to have some sort of experience and therefore pushed it into my consciousness.. Thoughts? Thanks!
  2. @Gabriel Antonio Thanks for your response! Yes, it is basically that. What is Shikatanza out of curiosity? :-D
  3. @RossE Thanks for keeping it real! I don't think it's from keeping my eyes open for an hour though. On average, I have my eyes open for about 15 hours a day!
  4. @electroBeam Wow. That's so nice to hear actually. I'm very happy. Could I use Leo's video every day? Or will the words lose meaning if I know what's coming? What's another way?
  5. Hey guys. I was wondering, that if you have a passion, what signs can show that it is genuine? For examples if you want to use it to serve other people rather than just yourself, is it more spiritually grounded? Do enlightened people want anything else other than just to be enlightened? Do they want to contribute to the less fortunate? Thanks.
  6. @Leo Gura Leo.. Every time I think about spiritual enlightenment my mind keeps creating a very false image of what it is. It's like it's telling me to not follow the path even a little because I'll have to give up what I love. I know on an intellectual level this isn't true but I keep taking it all out of context. How can I stop this?
  7. Heeeey guys. Firstly let me apologise for if the formatting of the post is bad, as I'm doing it on my phone. So I've been upping my game a little in the last couple of weeks, and doing perhaps double or triple what I've been doing in the past, but the issue is I always feel a sense of guilt or confusion. This is because I still don't know if I'm doing enough. I look at my work idols and I can see they've done a lot more but if I'm driven by guilt it makes me feel bad and probably do even less. I want to make this my life's work but sometimes distractions come and make me feel bad. Like the other day I was invited out by a work friend and I've not been out in a couple of weeks so why not.. I do my 'normal' job in the day. No time to do some work after work and I go straight out, all night until sleep. So a whooole day with nothing done and it makes me feel like I've wasted a lot of time and I feel bad for that. Should I feel bad and guilty? Is it a good motivator? Or not? Am I trying to do too much and cram? I don't know. Opinions please. Thanks :-)
  8. What I did today to edge me closer to being one of the most impactful actors of this generation :- - Watched a 45 minute episode of 'Playing Shakespeare' - Worked on my monologues for about 45 minutes - Read the play 'The Dutchess of Malfi' for however long. Other Success Habits I completed today:- - Today I looked at my Dreamboard - Today I expressed gratitude. - 5 minute meditation General notes/Notes of improvement/Affirmations :- - Divide what you want to do into small pieces. Don't be overwhelmed. It is not a straight forward thing. Small effort over a long time is better than burning out over a big effort in a short time.
  9. @ULFBERHT The thing is that if you don't follow enlightenment people will just tell you 'your ego is telling you not to follow it', which is just such a shitty thing to say to someone because it will put people in in a state of confusion, self-hate and self-denial. It is totally and utterly irresponsible and wrong (and here will come others telling me this is my ego speaking). Also Leo said that not following enlightenment will be like chasing your tail for happiness if you don't go on the journey. This black and white thinking is simply not true, and creates the assumption that the few thousand 'enlightened' people on the earth are only truly happy. I'd rather embrace the up and downs than think that way about people.
  10. What I did today to edge me closer to being one of the most impactful actors of this generation :- - Finished studying Stanislavski's 'Building a Character'!! - Read 'The Dutchess of Malfi for one hour (Trying to read as diligently as possible). - Went to an art gallery. - Wrote a rough draft of a poem. - Brought a book on English language - Thought about what acting means to me, what difference it will make to people's lives. Other Success Habits I completed today:- - Today I looked at my Dreamboard - Today I expressed gratitude. - 10 minute meditation - Workout and stretch General notes/Notes of improvement/Affirmations :- - Celebrate the small successes!!!!!!!!!
  11. @Bob84 Which part are you saying not really to?
  12. What I did today to edge me closer to being one of the most impactful actors of this generation :- - Watched a little video on Stella Adler. - Basically nothing else. (I just want to keep the habit of journaling every day) Other Success Habits I completed today:- - Today I looked at my Dreamboard - Today I expressed gratitude. - Quick affirmations - Quick visualisation - 15 minute meditation General notes/Notes of improvement/Affirmations :- - 1 day Nofap - Be present, diligent.
  13. What I did today to edge me closer to being one of the most impactful actors of this generation :- - 30 Minutes on my monologues (Subtext and character discovery) - 30 minute sight reading '100 Ways to motivate yourself' - 1 Hour reading Stanislavski Other Success Habits I completed today:- - Today I looked at my Dreamboard - Today I expressed gratitude. - 5 minutes affirmations - Quick visualisation - 15 minute meditation General notes/Notes of improvement/Affirmations :- - Back to 0 days NoFap (Note: if you want to take nofap seriously, don't work in bed in your boxers. Get dressed and work at a table.) - This week there are lots of events to do with Halloween. Enjoy them and do not punish yourself. Your pursuit is life-long so what's a couple of days here and there gonna do? Nothing negative. Just do what you can.
  14. What I did today to edge me closer to being one of the most impactful actors of this generation :- - Today I guess you could say was a 'rest' day, but certainly not a purposefully lazy day. I read the play 'Dutchess of Malfi' for ten minutes, and in the evening I went to a gig which is why I didn't do much else. However at the gig I got to see some supporting acts perform poetry which I feel ties in with acting, and the main act was a political rapper. Theatre is very political. Other Success Habits I completed today:- - Today I looked at my Dreamboard - Today I expressed gratitude. - 5 minutes affirmations - Quick visualisation - 8 minute meditation General notes/Notes of improvement/Affirmations :- - Three days nofap - Perusing passion isn't a long military drill or a straight trajectory. There are ups and downs and every now and again a bit of procrastination is fine, and to be enjoyed.
  15. What I did today to edge me closer to being one of the most impactful actors of this generation :- - Spent one hour studying Stanislavski's 'Building a Character'. - Worked on two drama school monologues for 30 minutes. - Read '100 Ways to Motivate yourself' aloud for 15 minutes Other Success Habits I completed today:- - Today I looked at my Dreamboard - Today I expressed gratitude. - 5 minutes affirmations - Quick visualisation - 15 minute meditation General notes/Notes of improvement/Affirmations :- - Two days nofap - Art is hugely important.
  16. What I did today to edge me closer to being one of the most impactful actors of this generation :- - Spent one hour studying Stanislavski's 'Building a Character'. - Read the play 'The Dutchess of Malfi' for 30 minutes. - Worked on two drama school monologues for 30 minutes. - Took a two hour acting workshop (that was very emotional). Other Success Habits I completed today:- - Today I looked at my Dreamboard - Today I expressed gratitude. - 5 minutes affirmations - Quick visualisation - 15 minute meditation General notes/Notes of improvement/Affirmations :- - So far so good NoFap, one day, hahaha! - Keep pushing it, creating the new disciplines, good bye to the old.
  17. What I did today to edge me closer to being one of the most impactful actors of this generation :- - Spent one hour studying Stanislavski's 'Building a Character'. - Started reading the play 'The Dutchess of Malfi' for 30 minutes. Other Success Habits I completed today:- - Today I looked at my Dreamboard - Today I expressed gratitude. - 5 minutes affirmations - Quick visualisation - 15 minute meditation General notes/Notes of improvement/Affirmations :- - Too much time masturbating. Take one month off. 23rd November. - Keep pushing and forming new paths. Willpower.
  18. What I did today to edge me closer to being one of the most impactful actors of this generation :- - Spent 30 minutes studying Stanislavski's 'Building a Character'. - Finished another segment on Kevin Spacey's Masterclass - Took another look around my local theatre for inspiration - People watched - Went to the local art gallery and contemplated somewhat the correlation between paintings and performance - Spent 30 minutes sight-reading 100 Ways to Motivate Yourself (Two Birds..) Other Success Habits I completed today:- - Today I looked at my Dreamboard - Today I expressed gratitude. - 5 minutes affirmations - Quick visualisation - 20 minute meditation - Went to a half-day meditation workshop at the local Buddhist centre General notes/Notes of improvement/Affirmations :- - Insightful quotes taken from the mediation workshop: 'A beautiful lotus flower comes up and out from thick layers of filthy mud'. ' You can't smooth the rough edges of a block of wood with silk. You need sandpaper'. These quotes are in regard to baring suffering, going through tough times and delaying gratification (self discipline).
  19. What I did today to edge me closer to being one of the most impactful actors of this generation :- - Spent 1 hour minutes studying Stanislavski's 'Building a Character'. - Booked a 'Drama School Intensive' day workshop for December - Brought Kevin Spacey's Masterclass online, watched one segment. Other Success Habits I completed today:- - Today I looked at my Dreamboard - Today I expressed gratitude. - 5 minutes affirmations - Quick visualisation - 20 minute meditation - Workout and stretch General notes/Notes of improvement/Affirmations :- - When the going gets tough, keep on going.
  20. What I did today to edge me closer to being one of the most impactful actors of this generation :- - Spent 30 minutes studying Stanislavski's 'Building a Character'. - Went over the lines of a play I will perform, 'The Threepenny Opera' for 20 Minutes. - Went to a local two hour acting workshop. Other Success Habits I completed today:- - Today I looked at my Dreamboard - Today I expressed gratitude. - 5 minutes affirmations - Quick visualisation - 20 minute meditation General notes/Notes of improvement/Affirmations :- - Different is good. Even if the workshop is crappy, getting up and acting is the most important part. No matter what the setting. Reading is great but not valuable if it stays in your head and isn't tried and tested in front of people. - Drop your anger as much as you can. Keep smiling. Come from happiness with whatever you do. Don't go to it.
  21. What I did today to edge me closer to being one of the most impactful actors of this generation :- - Spent one hour studying Stanislavski's 'Building a Character'. - Went over the lines of a play I will perform, 'The Threepenny Opera' for 30 Minutes. - Cold read '100 Ways to Motivate Yourself' for 30 minutes (Two birds, one stone!). Other Success Habits I completed today:- - Today I looked at my Dreamboard - Today I expressed gratitude. - 5 minutes affirmations - Quick visualisation - 15 minute stretch and 30 minutes calisthenics workoutl General notes/Notes of improvement/Affirmations :- - Good that you are noticing the subtle ways of resistance. Keep pushing! It's better to be on the upper side (what seems like the upper side anyway for now) of the gauge for a while so you can give resistance a well deserved kick in!
  22. What I did today to edge me closer to being one of the most impactful actors of this generation :- - Spent one hour studying Stanislavski's 'Building a Character'. - Read aloud learned the lines of a play I will perform, 'The Threepenny Opera' for 30 Minutes. - Got a co-worker to listen to my Cockney accent. Other Success Habits I completed today:- - Today I looked at my Dreamboard - Today I expressed gratitude. - 5 minutes affirmations - Quick visualisation - Went down to my local Buddhist center for a mediation and talk General notes/Notes of improvement/Affirmations :- - I know you feel embarrassed to do your acting when your brothers around, but don't be. Seriously even if he thinks 'WTF', are you gonna' let that make you deprive the world of what will be stunning performances brought about by the ability to make a fool of yourself in front of absolutely anyone?
  23. What I did today to edge me closer to being one of the most impactful actors of this generation :- - Spent one hour studying Stanislavski's 'Building a Character'. - Read aloud and took notes of a play I will perform, 'The Threepenny Opera' for one hour. - Practiced a Cockney accent for said play. - Went to a weekly acting workshop (2 Hours) Other Success Habits I completed today:- - Today I looked at my Dreamboard - Today I expressed gratitude. - 15 Minute Meditation - 5 minutes affirmations - Quick visualisation - Had a short read of Steve Chandlers' '100 Ways to Motivate Yourself' General notes/Notes of improvement/Affirmations :- - Sort out monologues and application for submission to drama schools by the end of December. - Well done for volunteering to get up a cold-read a scene in front of the acting class. Keep doing that! - Don't hold onto your words when discussing a play, even if it sounds stupid, get into the habit of speaking up, yet also don't feel saying nothing and feeling like you absolutely have to come up with something. - Stop staring at the hot actresses (lol)! You have lots of other, more appropriate, opportunities to stare at hot girls but the acting workshop must be a place of absolute focus. - Seek critique not praise (But enjoy praise).
  24. Heyyyyy. So when I watched my first movie as a young boy, I wanted to be an actor, and that always stuck with my mind. I took an acting workshop but because I was so young it was all confusing and I didn't want to go back, so my parents didn't make me, but the dream stuck with me, so about four years ago I signed up for some other acting workshops and it was an incredible feeling. For somebody who changes his mind all the time on what he wants to do, I actually stuck with it for quite a while, and managed to pull in some acting jobs. Then self-doubt crept up, I got anxious in classes, on sets, and now I keep telling myself that it's a shitty, superficial, self-chershing thing to do, and I keep changing my mind on what I want to do, yet keep returning back to acting. Any time an acting job comes my way, without me seeking it out, i'm all about the acting, and then I drop it again like a bad habit. Yet, even when i'm into it I can't make my way through an acting book, I can't get the work done, or be proactive looking for opportunities, yet I can read a personal-development book very easily, which tells me I don't want it. I can go cold on acting for months and then I start dreaming about big actors. I'm trying to convince myself that I shouldn't do it because it's chasing money and fame but it might be deeper than that. I dunno :/. Please help! Thanks.
  25. What I did today to edge me closer to being one of the most impactful actors of this generation :- - Spent one hour studying Stanislavski's 'Building a Character'. - Read through and took notes of a play I will perform, 'The Threepenny Opera' for 30 minutes. - Watched and joined in with a 15 minute voice exercise on YouTube Other Success Habits I completed today:- - Today I looked at my Dreamboard - Today I expressed gratitude. - 15 Minute Meditation - Went for a 15 minute run followed by a 15 minute stretch. General notes/Notes of improvement/Affirmations :- - Sort out monologues and application for submission to drama schools by the end of December. - Begin a five minute affirmation daily routine 'I am a world-class actor'.