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@EmeraldThank you for clarifying. That's a pretty radical belief to uphold. A part of me feels bad for anyone who thinks like that, but I'm going to assume holding a mindset like that causes great suffering to others. Many of these people are just as hateful if not more than that at which they think they are combating. It's also extremally counter-productive when males see females with radical beliefs such as that in helping the male perspective become a "friend" of the female perspective as a whole. Though, I do suppose these people are far and few between.

I believe it did a lot of things well as a package, but didn't do anything exceptionally well. The physics based puzzles were pretty neat for it's time being a FPS. I think it's a great experience, but great experiences don't always equate to loads of fun. Although controversial, The Last of Us 2 I believe is a phenomenal experience. Though I wouldn't call the game fun whatsoever. It's overall just depressing. What would you like to see? A continuation of something great or a new refreshing idea?

Alright, fair enough. Half-Life 2 was a serious game changer. Honest question, even if it's a meme question: Do you think we will ever see Half-Life 3 or do you think Valve makes so many oodles of cash with Steam that they can't be bothered to give it to us?

Alright then just wanted to make sure out of respect. I've heard him talk about the Oblivion mods, but not working for Irrational Games. Still really neat though, all the Bioshocks are fucking awesome.

What is a Terf if you don't mind me asking? I wholeheartedly agree here. I'm an ally to the LGBTQ community and believe it's important others see the importance of accepting others for the identity they align with. Though, I still accepted the bigoted regardless there has been massive growth in the direction of acceptance. Though, my philosophical beliefs largely remove labels within reality itself. I understand that I'm an outlier with these beliefs and others have their own set of beliefs on who they are and I find it very important to honor them without criticism of their choice. Outside of this forum and talking to my partner there is no need to state non-dual ways to others. It would be disrespectful in my eyes.

@Leo Gura I'm pretty positive I know what game dev you use to work for. I'll refrain from mentioning it on the forum since I've never seen you publicly state it. But, if it truly is the case you have (most likely) worked on one of my favorite game series given the time period, which I find pretty awesome, and I'll also refrain from saying what series it is.

I agree, though I suppose this would be a difficult thing to become aware of until hindsight kicks in. I see no personal fault for accepting all as who they are rather non-acceptance based on what they are. But, this acceptance comes directly from the unpleasant feelings we get when we find someone we don't accept in life. There are no hidden non-acceptances though in my intentions that I'm attempting to cover up. But, is it best to accept you don't accept all? Or best to find a place inside yourself to accept all? Agreed I think what you do here is great and that also applies to your YouTube channel. I'm in agreeance here.

Spiritually bypassing, is only bypassing if it comes from a place of non-realization. Though, I can understand where reading someone's ideas online and attempting to follow said ideas without the insight could be damning. I don't disagree with about 95% what you are saying about the aspects inside the illusion themselves. You and @Etherial Cat have very healthy views on the masculine/feminine in my opinion. I rarely ever agree with @Leo Gura on how he talks about it. Though, he's well informed on his own view of things I believe it's toxic the way he sees it all. Normally no mind would be played at such ideas, but considering he has some fantastic ideas on awakening and non-duality. Others could potentially buy into his warped beliefs on women as the "correct" way of viewing them since he's proficient in other areas. I only wish to mix it up a bit with what I post. Just curious to what you and others have to say about it. I don't believe I'm right here nor should others just buy into my bs. Again, I'm in agreeance with you since how you speak about it is much more practical in practice.

@Emerald And yet, here are all your beliefs of what masculine/feminine is. You are not becoming aware of an absolute truth, you are becoming more accepting of the variables in life that you have perceived and attempting to find balance/comfortability in said variables. Reality itself is a shared egoic construct that we agree on. But, many of us here have realized the true illusion that is our reality and the Nothingness that is Actuality. But, very few people on this planet actually have become aware of this. If reality itself is that of an illusion, so is the idea of masculine/feminine and the more we embrace these ideas the more we delude ourselves from our true nature. Once I gained the insight of the masculine/feminine I was able to integrate them as well, but the insights didn't stop there. If was to guess, the ego whishes to formulate understanding of these ideas in order to gain a self of control over self and other. The more control the ego has, the better if feels about itself. The grander the identity we have, the grander the ego has done it's job. The ego does not want to release it's identity and will justify it's existence in any way possible. Most people could never accept this is a "dream" for a lack of better words or we are all One. Just like most people can't accept the masculine/feminine are constructs of fabrication within reality itself and not an Absolute truth. It's not about rejection of said polarity, it's about accepting the unknowingness of what we are attempting to tether to. The more we think we know, the less we actually know. The mind does not like this idea at all. Again, there is nothing wrong with this. There are perceived benefits to living within the illusion. I'm only giving a differing take on this, because it's almost everyday we see these topics being talked about. It really seems like no one is getting anywhere except the personal satisfaction of stating their own opinion onto another. Though, I may preach a non-dual way of living with these ideas. It's difficult for me to fully embrace that. Largely, I don't see masculine/feminine anymore within the confines of reality itself. Though, on a overarching scale of how reality is formed I have some beliefs of how these energies manifest reality itself. Though there is an attempt to drop these notions as well for I feel they are still part of self-deception. I'll explain them below: Masculine is the dreamer that dreams the dream, or the mind behind what is formed. Feminine is form itself or anything that our awareness can highlight. (Physical form, emotions, thought, and ect) The masculine watches/observes the form(feminine) in order to evolve said form. The feminine attracts the masculine to be observed, much like a bee to a flower. This creates the illusion we live in. This process repeats instantly for eternality at once. Forever "creating"/evolving reality on itself. Fear is what drives the masculine to be attracted to the feminine. Though this fear isn't human fear, but an attempt to complete itself by merging with the feminine. Absolute Love is the totality of both energies unified. This idea has nothing to do with men or women for our vessels are not defined by masculine/feminine for both male/female would be considered the observed form therefore inherently feminine. But, a product(dream) of the masculine therefore inherently masculine. Though, one could remove all of those above ideas for there truly is Nothing behind them.

The best way to find balance isn't to embrace what you believe is your own polarity. But, rather drop the idea of masculine/feminine in total. Both of these ideas are collective beliefs the ego has constructed with gives us the illusion of "truth" when really there is no grounding in what is being observed. Though, the ego identifies with these polarities so strongly that the very premise of giving them up is threatening to itself to the point where it seems non-sensible to do so. But, by holding the idea that masculine = X and feminine = Y. That we need to find balance within these spectrums then this doesn't become a case of Oneness we are trying to balance but rather a unbalancing set within delusion that we must be or not be certain qualities that the collective labeled masculine/feminine. How does this truly help us by conforming to these two polarities and also projecting our own personal beliefs on the polarities onto others. I see no wisdom when all of this is talked about. I see wars of the ego in attempt to validate one's own personal views rather than an overall agreeance of some sort of natural law. Just by observation on how many varying opinions there are on these dynamics of energies truly shows how much we don't truly know what we are talking about. The more a person truly believes they have contextualized the polarities the more actually ignorant they are and further from the "truth". Once the idea of these polarities is realized or it's understood we are unable to actually understand what is happening on an Absolute level. Considering the amount of "arguments" that manifest from these types of discussion one can not deny the liberation the self would have by dropping the ideas completely. But, again the ego's survival to it's own identity is so wrapped up in these polarities it will make every excuse it can to tether itself to them. All things are perfect the way they are. All people are perfect the way they are. It doesn't matter if they are Saints or monsters. All of us have our own biased self interests on what we think is best for the world, just like my opinion here. This manifests in our projection of "what should be" or how others should act, again as I'm saying here. Largely, people are free to do as they please or believe what they wish and I have nothing against how others perceive reality. This is only a suggestion, but I strongly believe that it's a senseless chance to find balance. The very idea of creating a destination "If I do this I can become more feminine/masculine so I can be more balance" will only create more distortions and manifestations in the process of getting to said destination. Only polarizing thoughts will arise and those will achieve polarizing outcomes. Release the idea of balance and you will remain harmonious. You can never point to why you are balanced, for the moment you start to list why you are is the moment you become polarized and thus imbalanced. If you truly wish we can accept these two polarities exist but we are 100% ignorant to what they actually mean to ever "be" them. We will be them regardless if we are aware of them or not this way.

No, I wouldn't. I would say those that are categorizing others in numbers are those that are losing touch with reality. Fully embracing the idea of separation between us, even to the point of belittling those we don't deem worthy I would say is the height of losing touch with reality. If an overweight woman approached a man with fit body due to him going to the gym the last thing I'm going to say is there is something wrong with that. She either has enough love for herself to have the confidence to approach him or she is ignorant to this number scale that your "fragile" ego is categorizing people into. There is nothing inherently wrong for putting a number on a person. But, I would do some serious self reflection if you believe if someone takes offense to what you are saying, it's only their insecurities talking and it has nothing to do with your own personal insecurities. People are free to rate me as they wish, but the moment they do no matter what rating they give me even if it's high. I see it as an unattractive quality to do so. The only time I would feel bad in a situation like this, is if a woman was scared to approach me because she believed I was "out of her league" simply by looks alone. I would never want anyone to feel that way about themselves because seeing yourself as something not as good as "other" or seeing yourself better than "other" well neither are out of a place of self-love and I only wish to see others love themselves.

This is true, but the discussion just started to get more and more off the rails from "would you date a trans male" and since I was partially involved with this derailment me stating anything is possible is just my way of politely stepping away from the conversation lol.

I'd assume there may be a few people that found peace first. Though, many do it to escape suffering. This is the case though with many people and not just transgenders, of course. I believe if they were there already the decision wouldn't matter so more times than not, the decision wouldn't go through. But, it's possible since it doesn't matter the decision could go through. They could perceive it as part of their destiny or life story and their sex change is just part of that narrative. Though not a real comparison, people still work on themselves or feel the need to "wake up" more after they had glimpses of the absolute. There is nothing wrong with this depending on the mindset towards it. I'll be honest with you attempting to translate how I transgender person could feel though it's my area of expertise. I prefer not to go into too many details here nor do I wish to offend anyone by saying the wrong thing. My assumptions on the above statements is a general idea of how anything could be possible when it comes to the human psyche.

You are free to perceive others how you wish. Though I don't agree at all. I'm saying that I can hold sympathy for the LGBTQ+ community because I would assume there are some traumatizing aspects of it such as judgements they may get from society or how embracing they own sexuality which could be different from the body they were born in may not be an easy thing to accomplish. But, regardless of the struggle many can still overcome these hardships and live happily as whoever they wish to be. I'm not looking down on them nor am I saying there is something psychologically wrong with them for them being themselves. Also, there is no fear of being judged. If you want to see me as a bigot, you are free to do so. Your opinion of me wouldn't change who I am. So why would I be offended by your own personal perception of my self that I have no right to tell you how to view it? Though, all criticisms are taken into consideration. They just pass through the moment they don't resonate. Shutting out all criticism would be equally foolish as letting all criticism trigger me.

It's not a 100% no, but a most likely no due to just how much the stars would have to align for me to be in a potential situation like that. Long as my intellectual and emotional interests were being met then they would have a chance. I think it's a dangerous game to label something as "phobic" just because they have certain preferences. I partially agree trans people may have some deep emotional trauma inside of them, but at the same time I don't want to blanket statement an entire group of people and rather see it as a person to person understanding of them. In my opinion, making that blanket statement is the bigoted belief.

Exactly, I'm not going to say it's a universal rule the higher your consciousness is the less you want these things. But, there is a good chance that these aspects of life aren't seen as attractive in one's eyes but rather mundane and mean very little to the very essence of an inter-personal connection between yourself and a potential lover. The more one becomes higher consciousness, the more one knows themself, and the more authenticity becomes the object of attraction. It has nothing to do with being "above it" and that is silly to say. No one's going to say "Ah, but you see you have nice tits. Sorry you just aren't good enough for me". But, rather the tits themselves mean almost nothing to the factors in why you would be attracted to her and if she does have nice tits it's not even a bonus, it's just how it is. Implying that someone only feels this way because they can't get a woman with large breasts is silly and a very low tier deduction of what is actually happening. An argument you would hear on Reddit or something where they person really thinks they got ya there. Instead of having faith in the words of the other person considering they are stating their own personal preferences as a person. Though it's entirely possible someone could literally be the reincarnation of Jesus and be all about them tits and that status.

Very lovely video. Thank you for sharing.

There is no "need" to make a life purpose out of it. Honestly doing so could destroy the very thing you love. As long as your day to day needs are being met, you aren't neglecting family/friends to play games, and this isn't an escape from reality of some sort then all is well if that's what makes you well. You do not "need" to achieve anything that society deems successful in order to live out a happy life. You are free to do as you wish. Feeling the need to accomplish something grand could result in you wasting years of your life trying to fill that void only to realize it never was you in the first place that wanted this grand thing to happen. If you are content with gaming, game long as your needs are met. If one day opportunity presents itself or you find a passion outside of gaming, go for it. I do suggest not holding yourself back from new experiences when they are available, but that doesn't mean you need to go out on an adventure every day of your life lol. I'd say what is very important in all of this is accepting this is who you are, if this is truly who you are. If you are the person who likes to game in a healthy way, then accept that and never doubt it. Don't let others take away your hobby and passion. But, if you look inside of yourself and see that you wanting to game may be fueled by something else. Then I would try to find the core of that issue, fix it, and see if you still feel the same way about gaming after.

I believe that is answer is strictly relative. In today's modern world you could attempt to turn your enjoyment of video games into a streaming or YouTube career. Though it's easier said than done, it's still a viable option that I would consider could be a LP. You get to enjoy your hobby, bring entertainment to others, and get paid if you are successful. If I wasn't in a relationship I would highly consider doing this myself.

This is no real answer to this. I wouldn't allow other's opinions that you should be focused on something else scare you, but at the same time it's very possible you should. I've played a lot of games in my life. It's one of my favorite past times. Though, I still get my responsibilities done my free time is usually gaming. All things carry perks if you have a healthy relationship with it. On the side I did personal development work, but it wasn't a massive dedication. Even with my extensive gaming I was able to have non-dual experiences and get my self to a very stable and acceptable well...self lol. For many years I wondered if my extensive gaming was actually a hinderance. I would say at one point it was about a decade ago when it no longer was playing games for fun but playing them to escape depression. After having experiences on psychedelics I've accepted this is just part of who I am and there is zero reason to demonize them or believe I should invest time else where. Besides life things I still prioritize my relationship over gaming and when I can go out and do something fun that still will be done as well. But, this is my own experience and I'm sure there are situations or mindsets that may not do as well as myself or even better I suppose. I only say this because what we should and could do is not universal. As long as you are personally enjoying the gaming and it's not because you are trying to escape something then I say more power to you on that one. Though, it should lived through with an open mind for there may be an experience in life you haven't had yet that may be more interesting to you than gaming. Should I say, don't just game but still try new things when you can. I'll add, when I literally only played video games and got high outside of working my job at the time. Life became very dull. Gaming became my worst enemy and a massive amount of money was spent always attempting to chase new experiences because games would get boring. This would cause an even worse feeling because I was realizing my attempts to force happiness through gaming was failing, thus I felt like there was nothing I could do. I took a healthy break, got into personal development, and started to dabble in psychedelics and this mindset fixed itself.

You sure like to say that to others, don't you? It's not a projection onto you, it's my literal experience to see if you could relate to it or not. It's not for me to say you are that, it's for you to see if you have a common place to it or not. You are attempting to find something in you that you have no idea what it is. I only state possibilities. I never said you did, nor did I say that was what I did either. It would be an easy fix if you were specifically looking for this. Yet, you still attract people like this in your life. So there is something inside of your that is attracting them. Regardless if you wish to accept it or not, there is a sub-conscious desire that is being played out. It may not be anything about healing others for your own benefit, but it IS something or else it wouldn't be happening. This is why healing yourself literally heals the reality within your awareness. There are aspects of ourselves we are not aware of though. Sometimes it's a commonality between most people and because most people have this inside of them it's difficult to see how it's inherently flawed in the terms of the greater good. If you look inside of yourself and look at the situation. Do you truly believe this person has the capacity to fix themselves? Do you believe they are willing and strong enough to commit to that? I'm not trying to sound cynical, these are sincere questions. The relationship is as successful as you are willing to see it. From everything you said about him he seems like a decent man at heart. Though he may have some sort of sexual trauma and strong work ethic issues. Love and acceptance, without these actually being issues to you that you state may be the inspiration he needs to help heal himself. Bearing witness to unconditional love is quite the motivating factor. I'm not saying this is the case here, but bringing up issues can make others feel guilty like I mentioned before. Instead of trying to better the relationship, accept what it is and it will naturally better itself. If it doesn't, then there is no reason to stay. But, you are always free to handle a situation as you need to. I understand people have their own needs. What about yourself though? Is the mirror you are holding perfectly centered? Is it polished crystal clear? If there is a blemish on the mirror is the one gazing into it aware it the mirror that is faulty and they don't mistake the blemish for themselves? I don't disagree we should be mirrors in a relationship. But, it's important that which is reflecting is still like water. Still water holds no biased on who it reflects. Still water holds no judgement on what it reflects. Still water cares not to latch onto what it reflects. Still water never muddies itself, yet always returns to form when disturbed. It would be very difficult to meet someone that has never been traumatized in their life. But, not too uncommon to meet someone who already has the tools to overcome their own trauma. Just like you have done yourself.

Very interesting, indeed. But, thanks for sharing.

What is your sign if you don't mind me asking?

Honestly, this is a tricky question. I understand what you mean though. I did a lot of work on myself, but attracted many partners with deep rooted trauma. I personally didn't have anything serious happen to me, so it wasn't too difficult to get over my own. But, I believe there was an aspect of myself that had the desire to help/heal others. I wanted to be someone's hero, possibly because in my own personal life I felt like no one was a hero to me. That no one lifted me up and few people helped me emotionally when I needed. Not that people weren't there, but those that would didn't have really any words of wisdom. Possibly I had some sub-consciousness twisted love narrative that true love stems from how willing you are to truly help someone heal(or them heal you) also get over hardship and by doing so it establishes a solid bond in the process. I'll also add that the more I worked on myself the more I saw the value of personal development. Kind of like a "I can't believe so many people don't do this" type of mindset. I wanted to share this "gift" we could all give ourselves by looking inward very deeply and that's possible why I found others with trauma. I can't share the gift if someone already has the gift more or less. I don't believe it's something in your face for you to work on. Though I can't say, I'm only going by what you are giving me. There is an abstract realm within goodness that can come with consequences even though our intentions seem pure on the surface. Being good for the sake of being good is very important over being good because it feels good to be good. Though the latter isn't something we should reject. Regardless, to get a bit more spiritual about it. No matter how this continues or ends there is a karmic lesson at play. You will learn something about this which will help to navigate more optimally in life. It could be a lesson you learn about yourself why you attract people who have deep trauma or it could be a lesson why your persistent love for someone actually helps them and why it was and is the right thing to do. Practical advice is a bit more difficult to give since it's not him we are giving the advice to. Besides "giving space" and all that generic stuff you already know I would say it's important to have faith in yourself, him, and what is meant to be. When the mind accepts that it may not get what it's attempting to accomplish the door of opportunity mysteriously shows itself.

Happy for you, good work!