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@silene I think it is just a general feeling, something like "It's raining now, but I know that in 10 minutes it's gonna be sunny." If that would be the case, I would be excited if something, changes are fun.

Hey, dunno if I am alone in that, but for some reason I have the feeling that the next few years, great crucial changes will occur and how will we as a species deal with them, will determine wheter we gonna make it or break it. Might be just rambling of my mind on conspiracy theory spree, but I can't come to a different feeling. Yes, I know, everything changes. It didn't change for so long, that I might just logically be expecting something big, might be just a construct of my mind. But I can't get away from that feeling. It isn't unsettling, it's actually strangelly comforting, but I wanna know If you feel it the same or I am just gong crazy. Thanks for your opinion!

Hey! I'm at a point in life, when it is completely clear to me WHAT person should do and HOW should he act to achieve different goals, but I have unimaginable problems with execution. I'm just missing the drive, the WHY that would make me go forward. And it's apparent every day - I'd like to lose weight and pursue mastery over body and mind in life through different ancient and modern techniques, I'd like to make money by coding and starting my own bussiness, I'd like to go out on dates, but I just can't find the reason and drive to do so. And part of me doesn't want that anymore or I know I'll wake up after 5 years in my chilhood bedroom, still wearing the clothes I wore 10 years ago, exponentialy more obese and depressed. It isn't that I don't know how to those things, nor that I fear that, I am just not able to start, I'd just rather eat and sleep somehow. I'm considering buying the LPC, that's why I want so ask you if and how the life purpose course helped you what is your experience with it, please? It isn't that I don't believe its benefits I just need to research before I spend my last money on it, because it's quite a substantial sum. Thanks for understanding!

21 male, try not to judge me please. For the longest time, I wasn't able to confront people directly when insulted or called out, i'll leave out the reasons, but that resulted in years of bullying. I've learned a lot of techniques (added irony, laughter, ... but I was never able to confront people directly. Today, a bus driver insulted and humiliated me in front of a lot of people so I thought "I'll give it a shot.", waited for others to step out of bus and then confronted him, wanted an apology between four eyes. Well, that was the plan. It seems that trying to stay cool while directly confronting someone intimidating is way harder than getting angry and shouting. In the middle of my "trying to compose myself", I almost started crying and my legs were shaking the whole time. I didn't get an apology and "lost" the confrontation, but you have no idea how glad am I that I did it. Now I think I know what I need to do in the future so to move forward with personality development - of course not argue with everyone, but stand up fot myself when needed even when risking to cry, so I get accustomed to it step by step. After I do, I will have the luxury to go back and being able to chose from the right method of solving the situation or not reacting at all, knowing that I can defend myself, but I don't have to. (Maybe similar to Jungian integration of shadow?) Thanks for feedback!

Hey! I have a lot of random insights popping into my head randomly during my day lately. It's at least one AHA mindfuck every 2 days - goosebumbs and all that. I was thinking about starting blog for fun of doing it, I just don't know if this is at least a partially good. Could you read this and give me your opinions, if you have the time? Thank you very much!!! ______________________________________________________________________________________________________________________ On the existence of magic. Following text isn‘t trying to deny the present or future possibility of magic or some unknown powers – on the other hand, it is focused on the term „magic“ itself, it‘s explanation and the connection between „magic“ and reality. When I was a irrational kid, I was delighted about the posibility of magic force that people would be able to utilize to some extend – flying, invisibility, creating things from thin air, summoning creatures and many more. I would daydream for hours and hours about the possibility of waking up with magic powers. Maybe because I didn‘t have many friends or I just found the life too boring – I was obsessed with fantasy world. Unfortunatelly, as a adolescent I started to realize that „the magic with wands and summoning“ that I always imagined doesn‘t exist and wont exist, at least not in today‘s conditions. Fortunatelly after reseaching and conteplating the topic for a time period that I am not comfortable sharing, I came to a conclusion that first – magic itself is subjective, but more importantly second – MAGIC SPELLS and SUMMONING CAN EXIST. First, we need to disclose what magic really is – simply put, it is a unknown power that beings can utilize. Everyone knows that phone would be considered magical tool in medieval era, that is a common sense, but bear with me, it will be more interesting. -------- Let‘s imagine a hypotetical reality with diferent laws, where magic exists and is common part of life – people usually imagine medieval ages just with magic and fireballs shooting from staves. Lets go with that then. Assuming the dating would be similar, medieval ages officially ended 1492 in our world, what do you think would happen if you visited the reality only thousand year later? Assuming that an inteligent civilisation can go on in one of two ways – either the civilisation will be improving and evolving gradually or it will destroy itself completelly. That would mean that if you came into that kind of world after that time, either you would find a reality similar to ours, where the laws of nature have been discovered and the humanity learned haw to amplify them and use them for their own need – creating moving object without the need for animals, wands shooting spells, flying devices etc. Even if there were some monsters some time before – by this time, they would be not only researched, but also eliminated or used. On other hand, there is the possibility of catastrophe, that would set the civilisation back few centuries, but that wouldn‘t matter too much, because by definition the civilisation would continue to improve until they are at the level as the civilisation in the first case or the whole civilisation would be erased, there is no other way. --------- The word unknown is really important, it signifies the lack of knowledge about the laws of reality that allows the power to be used. Now for the best part that you‘ve been waiting for – is it possible for magic to exist? Yes, but it depends on the time period you live in. What I mean by that is – in present, almost all of the laws of nature that concern the life of a human beings have been discovered and utilized – gravity, motion, mass and energy, thermodynamics etc. We might not know the laws of black hole, but do you really care, would your life change that much? One possibility is clashing of dimensions – everyone heard of the multiple dimensions theory. I am not scientist, and truthfully, even if I was I am not sure I could tell you the real probability of that happening, let‘s just assume this wouldn't tear our dimension apart, but it would merge those two together instead. Let'S say tommorow morning you would wake up, realizing that you have dragon on you lawn and gnome is sleeping on your face. World would be thrown into chaos for an unspecified amount of time. After some time – by the definition of improving civilisations - the mixed laws would be explained and life would become boring again. First would be chaos, then the phase of adaptation, experimentation and in the end explanation. The „magic“ would be no more. So, yes. In theory „the magic“ is possible, but in reality wery unlikely thing. Of course, unless you live in a simulation, but let's not talk about that possibility today.

If someone tells you that life is just a game, don't trust him. If it is, it's the shittiest game, because it lacks clear sense of progression and even the UI. Can you think of any game that lacks those thinks that you like? Even if I try my best, I can't. Just needed to get it out there. Thank you for reading the following experience and if you have any thoughts, please don't hesitate to share them, because I have no idea what now. Nothing seems to matter now. Thank you. ____________________________________ Yesterday, after doing too many rounds of holotrophic breathwork, I had a dream - vision or sense of you want to call it, it doesn't matter. But I was convinced that I live with clean game-like user interface (UI) that tracks my progress, experience and skills acquired and measures the path to goal that I chose. It was so amazing, I felt the most satisfaction and extasy I have ever felt in my life, I could clearly see my progress in front of me and It was something that could help me move forward (which i have problems with), it wasn't just goal with action steps written on paper, it was clearly in front of me. Today after waking up and realising that it was only dream, I was so devastated that I skipped my excercise and I went to sleep convinced that after I wake up the interface will be there. It wasn't. I am supposed to study for exams and find a job, but even if I try, I can't - I am devastated and I dont know why. I mean, I can always code something similar, but that won't be it. The interface not created by me was like a proof that person can move somewhere and it matters what he does. But it's gone and nothing seems to have any meaning anymore. Please help?

Thanks everybody. Update: I ended up buying it, but i made tea with only about 2 grams of it. I wasn't sick and it was really tasty, felt great afterwards - same way i feel after 40' meditation, but mightve been only placebo. No trip, gonna use it for tea just to use it all up, since it adds kind of zing to it.

I've done more resesarch, seems like 60% of ppl were really sick afterwards - flu like, but i read also good trip reports, little bit on a verge. If i decide to do so after thorough resesarch, ill write trip report here.

Hello everybody. For some time now, I want to try psychidelics, problem is that in my country, you can't get things like DMT or 5 Meo DMT, don't wanna do LSD, yet. Also, I don't really wanna go around web searching "where to buy drugs", even with vpn/vps. Was searching around web and read that nutmeg is quite potent, and with effect similar to DMT and such. Was wondering if anyone has experience with it. Read that you can experience bad trios on nutmeg if you not prepared enough, but good trips are quite helpfull. Thanks!

For me, my Intuition screams that Enlightement is the way to go. Also, If I can't "reach" the true enlightement in next few years, I should go and take the mindfullness path the same way as buddha - will reach that or die. I have literally no doubt about it. What is the biggest thing you done because of intuition / feeling that that's the thing you have to do?

Yeah, amazing. Right now I'm at about Day 30 or so. Good luck

I was thinking - what do people think about online acredited degrees? I was searching and I found couple of good ones - Universities of Florida, Ohio, Utah, Phoenix and many more are offering actual degrees for online courses. Granted - those are not actually free, but I am sure with little bit luck and effort, you can find some good tuition-free university online degrees. You can work, be entrepreneur or mother with child. Just find some time per day to study, safe and sound at home, with no stress. After all - you'd still be studying about 6 semesters, but without that money and time consuming monster. It looks 100 times better in CV than just "high school" or so and when it comes to it and they ask you on interview, you can tell them that you really like education, but none of the universities actually offered what you wanted - study all disciplines of human research (physics, chemistry, psyhology, history, ...), while working and becoming expert in one of them (coding / software / game design / ...) - that would be for me at least. If you can also get some big company acredited courses (google, nasa - any company like that) - oh lala.

This is idea of mind, where mind would prosper. Not talking about physical time travel - only awareness (or mby ego) - wise. If time does not exist for awareness and awareness is everywhere and everytime, it would - teoretically be possible to go back on your own timeline with you as a awareness. Even better If you could actually take you as your ego and mind with you. I know I should look ahead and all that stuff. But still ... it would be amazing waking up tommorow 10 years before this moment with my current knowledge. Any thoughts?

Hello, my uni will kick me out soon (if not now, next semester). I focused on self-actualization and learning online marketing and coding, instead of uni studies. I have plan, but I know that parents are gonna be dissapointed (gotta live elsewhere). I know this is neccesary, but still.. When you quit college how did you deal with negative opinions of your relatives? Those who graduated - was that worth it? I feel like everything (except medicine and such) can be learned elsewhere (courses, internet), without stressing about exams. Anyone who has degree from online studies backed up by real uni? (Heard from friend he was using it in his CV's with great success ) And lastly - for everyone - if you could comeback to your 20, would you do the same again or would you do something differently? (college × job, actualization, self-education, start and fail few bussinesses, date more, ...? ) Thank you

Hello I just wanted to share my insight that I experienced few moments ago and ask if someone realized something similar. Me - my awareness only seems limited by my body. In fact I've never been limited. Also, It's the bodymind that is attached to me, this aware me who I am. But this aware I is never attached and dependable on bodymind.