I'm just making a confession of what I'm experiencing. The following might be classical spiritual concepts but I'm not just parroting them.. These are my living experience.  
 - I am not the doer.. when I raise my hand like this✋.. I'm not doing it. 
- I am not the thinker.
- I have absolutely zero control over absolutely everything that's going on in this body.. mind.. and the world
- I am not my name. I am not this body. I am not a thought (self-image).  
-this body came to this earth to do whatever it came here to do.  It's absolutely inevitable.  But I have nothing to do with it for I am not this body.. I am not the mind.. I am not this world. 
-there is absolutely no point or purpose that I'm here for.  There is absolutely nothing to do. Yet everything will get done regardless.  No rush.
Nothing to do.. and forever to do it.. and infinity to be done. 
- there is absolutely nothing that I have to do. I'm absolutely free perfect and complete however I am.    Everything that could ever possibly happen is perfectly perfect. 
-all that there is.. Is being. 
The goal of my life is to just exist. To be . And I can't fail at it even if I wanted to.  
- my real nature is indescribable. The only word that can get close to represent my real nature is nothingness.
-what this world is..  Is a Flux.. A mirage as soon as you catch it.. It dissolves. It's nothing. This infinite magnificent world is nothing. Therefore there is nothing to get to achieve.. and nothing to fear.. Just chilling. 
-  I am nothingness. and there is nothing but me as nothingness.  And nothingness is the only real thing. And this is the ultimate truth. 

@SaaraSabina Sounds like you have a lot of inner work to do around low self-esteem, etc, which is why you are attracted to co-dependent relationships.
It's very common.
As you do inner work, as you improve your self-esteem, as you erect healthy boundaries with men, as you become more conscious -- your relationships with men will become a lot better. If not, they won't.

I'm guessing you separated from someone? I may be wrong you'll have to correct me, I'll just give my advice based on that assumption. Apologies in advance if it's not relevant.
I just broke up with my partner as well, we've been sorting things out the past month so I know what you're going through.
Whether or not you initiated the break-up doesn't matter really matter at this point, it's not useful to dwell on it except for whatever you can extract from it to understand your feelings and move through them.
What's important right now to make your mind right is to make the situation a win-win. It would have been a win if you stayed together in your mind right? Realize you are coming up with all those reasons for why it would be great, correct? So that means you're totally capable of coming up with all the good benefits to being apart now. You need to start crafting a vision for yourself and what your life will look like without that person, what does it free you up for? What new passions can you pursue? What burdens or constraints was the relationship putting on you that you're now free of?
It may feel hard to come up with those positive answers, but trust me they are there. Don't let the sadness cloud that for you, it's ok to feel shitty and confused and asking "why?", but you need to let those emotions pass after feeling them. Don't suppress them.
One more thing that's important is to realize you are a whole person on your own. Even if you have some flaws or inadequacies that they were maybe filling, it could be a good thing you aren't together now because those were now made clear to you. Every relationship whether successful or unsuccessful teaches us something about ourselves that might have been impossible to see on our own.
Now you can find out what those things are work on them and make yourself a stronger, healthier, independent person.
I hope any of this helps. Take care @allyo2003

Î found this Video yesterday and found it really eye opening and helpful. You will get better.