JohnnyBoy

@Heart of Space I don't care for the movie myself, but I think both sides handled it inappropriately.

Going by what happened today at Las Vegas, but it has been building up for years with the police shootings, the race riots, the rebirth of racism, and the whole fight over Ghostbusers 2016, I feel that this world is falling apart. I really want to start another hippie movement or at least another Woodstock just to get people to start loving each other. What can I do to keep my sanity in this world that seems to be getting worse and worse. *Sigh* John Lennon, where are you when we need you?

I've been suffering from depression for more than 15 years, and about two years ago, I've started to backslide. I've always feel that I'm not like everyone else, like I'm completely different and bizzare. The only way I know how to make friends is to be the exact copy of the other person. I've been doing this for so long, I don't even know my real self anymore, nor do I want to be my real self because I don't want people to not like me. I need people to like me. That's how I feel I get self-worth (false belief, but I can't shake it off no matter how hard I try.) I think it's time for a change. I need to blow everything about myself up and start all over again. How do I be the cool person that most people would like?

So I've been following the Actualized.org videos for a little more than a year and a half and for the most part, it helped me out quite a lot. But I've had a huge flaw within my psyche, and that is getting easily offended. I will not get into what I'm offended about, but if you make fun of that particular thing about me, then the gloves are coming off and I want to make your life a living hell. I tried other people's advice: get over it, stop being so sensitive, stop whining... but no matter what, it is not getting to the root of why I am so butthurt all the time. Are there ways to over come that, or is it part of my ego that I have to break down in order to self-actualize?