Elena

So, that happened maybe a year and a half ago, I had been on a yoga retreat a few weeks prior and while I wasnt meditating daily I went to an one hour group meditation every week without fail. So, I had some experience and I wasnt a total meditation newbie that can easily get deluded. I smoked weed at the time and had a pretty high weed tolerance, and before the meditation my friend and I shared a blunt. The weed in it was not so much as to have any significant effects on me in a normal situation. The moment I sat down meditating I felt like I was pulled underwater, my meditative state was much deeper than it usually was. Nearing the end of the meditation I had this weird sensation where I was asking questions (but I wasnt at the same time, I knew that it was me who asked the questions but they came out of nowhere and I was just observing it) and getting answers (again I answered) The other `mes` told me that I should be really nice to my mom and then they started discussing a painting I had seen only once when i was visiting a friend some years ago. The conversation went like that -I dont know why she is keeping it, it has bad energy. the person who drew it is bad. -No, not bad, just confused. However when you look at his actions there is no difference. -If I were her I would throw it in the trash. -No, not in the trash, in the river. I felt weird about it and decided to call her to ask her if everything is ok and a bit ashamed that she would decide I was crazy I told her the story. She was really creeped out because it turned out her friend who drew the painting for her had turned crazy and stalkerish in the last few months, the week before she threw the painting away and she was in the process of getting a restriction order as he had threatened to kill her boyfriend. I didnt know any of that and I have been only once in her apartment and I havent thought at all about that painting since then. Weird. But true. After that experience I never felt the way I felt before about weed, I still got lazy and hungry when I smoked but the pleasure, laughing euphoric part of the experience was gone and I went from smoking every other day to cold turkey for a couple of months without any difficulty.

Do you buy it off the dark net? I can't imagine how I could find it in my country .

I am stuck in the Ultimate life purpose and I cant pinpoint three people that inspire me - at least not a 100%.I really admire Marcus Aurelius, Stephen King and Richard Bransonand I feel that they are great role models but they are more masculine and as a woman I have a hard time relating to them in all aspects. I feel that I cant follow their example because they are successful as men in a mens world, so to speak. A part of me wants to be a good professional but an equally big part wants to be a great wife and future mother and I just dont see many examples of that. Who are some people that inspire you? Who are women that inspire you? And do you have any examples of people who are changing the world `gently`- without all the glamour of success, just being a valuable part of society?

Those are good examples ... if you are feeling repressed in some way.The examples you gave- for me- are not of women succeeding a 100% because they succeeded the way men do. Frankly I am not in the bandwagon of western feminism, perhaps growing up in an ex socialist country I have never had the feeling that women are lesser than men, or that we had equal rights problems. However I do acknowledge that we never historically had the chance to have a `one income household`as people in America had and perhaps that is connected to our feeling that men are equal to women. As a foreigner, the American concept of feminism is sooo annoying, I think its just an excuse for people who want to take part in some sort of charity or `make the world a better place` without putting real effort or trying to really tackle real problems. As a woman I have had soo many bonuses in my life that men dont, men most of the time have to prove their worth to get respect, while I can just dress nicely and get peoples attention, be offered help with projects and get away with doing stupid stuff. I find her speech far more noteworthy than Madonnas

@Darrick his works are pretty amazing If you havent - read Watchmen Im sure youll enjoy it

I think that kids can be a hindrance only if you treat them as such - one example is Alan Moore who left his job while his wife was pregnant to follow his dream of becoming a comic book writer. Check out his bio I think it can inspire you

I feel you! I had always had a nagging feeling that art - the thing that I thought was my real passion as a teen is meaningless and doing stuff just for arts sake is well not as inspiring. I had to choose between becoming an art major or a dentist and frankly I never regreted my decision- I feel that the things I draw are just for fun and the fact that I dont have to make money off of it makes it more sincere. Having a stable job and money is great for an aspiring artist who is more the `down to earth` type. If you want to check if art is right for you sign up for an hard art class and see if drawing fucking fruits every single day for hours is what you really want. It might turn up that you only like the fun parts of it- freehand drawing and character creation which is very different than what your work will be

A version of my vision board I feel that stuff are missing but Ill add them when I come across them

There is an app for android that makes visionboards

Nail biting is common in children and it is a big problem in dentistry because it leads to orthodontic problems. Bitter and chilly invisible nail polish is sold and you can use it. That won't change the core issue but it would help with the habit.

Im a bit ashamed but -- 6 months to live? lol Ill travel in asia and try all the drugs Oh and I would get a really good life insurance so my family gets money when I die

Im currently in the Values Assessment part of The life purpose course (Great stuff by the way!) and family is a definite negative value for me (35%+ 65%-) . I love my family, I feel guilty when I dont spend enough time with them and I miss them, however when I do its just, well, work. It doesn't give me satisfaction or happiness the way my other values on the list do. Frankly I dont see how I could make, for example, my weekly interactions with my grandma super exciting when we are going through the same four topics every time. I discussed this issue with several friends and they shared similar experiences. I dont have traumatic events regarding my family we just dont have enough common interests to have a meaningful interaction. I am stuck in that part and wondering - should I just leave this value be the way it is and not try to make it a 10 out of 10 or should I try to dig deeper ? I think that the tricky thing about this value is that it involves more people. If you have issues with love and intimacy you can try to change yourself and find a suitable partner, however with family you cant pick and choose. Also @Leo Gura could you consider changing the format of the forum to something like reddit? It makes it soo much easier to find quality posts and you can check the best posts for the last year, month , week, day etc. Thanks.

Veganism and vegetarianism are great but they are not for everybody. If you are living in a very cold country wich doesnt produce a lot of fresh vegetables and fruits its really hard to be a "good" vegan

When was the epilepsy diagnosed? That is a great series on the topic, if you want to find more about epilepsy Just please, please please do not try to take a `holistic` approach to taking medications because epilepsy untreatetd can and will be life threathening. Thanks to modern medicine grand mals are pretty rare.

Interesting question- I have the same problem. Its cool thinking about all the awesome stuff I could hypotheticly do if I train hard consistently but the truth is that sometimes the only thing that makes me go to the guym is v\fatpeoplehate

Well, to be fair OPs question was pretty vague too. If she gave age/level of education/ height/ weight/ job it would be easier to give adequate advice. If OP is a 3 and is attracted to 10. Well, its pretty obvious what the problem is. I have loads of oaverweight friends that would only date guys with abs. And - you guessed it- they are not dating anyone. There are loads of reasons why someone would not be successful in a relationship.

Well, there are certain medications that lower your sex drive. In communist times they would put it in the food that soldiers ate and in the food of young men who were doing their obligatory millitary service so that ... less incidents would happen. You can always try to google it if you are serous, it was some kind of mild sedative.

Elliott is a pretty awesome guy, joke aside his channel might be exactly what OP was looking for.

Khalil Gibran Read it in Bulgarian and I cant find my favourite quotes but that is good http://leb.net/gibran/ My house says to me, "Do not leave me, for here dwells your past." And the road says to me, "Come and follow me, for I am your future." And I say to both my house and the road, "I have no past, nor have I a future. If I stay here, there is a going in my staying; and if I go there is a staying in my going. Only love and death will change all things."

I think people should be a bit carefull with her. There is A LOT of stuff on the internet saying she is a fraud when I googled it I saw there is a website dedicated to exposing her. Besides I dont see how contacting angels/aliens/the mother spaceship or whatever will be helpful in the long run. If you can do astral projections (if there is such a thing) but cant be nice to your neighbours or be a good parent you are really not all that self actualized.So I dont think radical open mindetness is needed about esoteric questions. There was an Sherlock Holmes story I read a long time ago where Watson was very surprised Sherlock didnt know about the existence of planets and the Solar system. And when Watson told him about that he said that he will try to forget it as fast as he can because the information didnt serve him any purpuse. I seriously doubt esoteric questions are important in the life of normal people. Unless you are Alan Moore.

I have been falling down flights of stairs and hurting myself in ridiculous ways almost all my life. I was discussing my most recent absurd trauma with my yoga teacher and he told me : You are not really clumsy. But its okay, its just the way you think. When you meditate more and practice more you will get over that psychological barrier. I thought that thinking about clumsiness as a psychological barrier was really interesting but I couldnt ask him more about that because he is just not that type of person. There is almost a "typical" clumsy character in books - think of the Bella Swans and other banal romantic novel heroines that became popular in the last 10 years and there surely is a reason for that. And I almost perfectly fit the type of dissoriented 20+ year old. Anyway, I thought that it was an interesting idea that self confidence (maybe) can affect such things as agility and I would like to hear what other people have to say on the topic.

Another Bulgarian.

I think she is a total fraud and/or crazy. Just check her bio. Its way too crazy. She claims she was a victim of a satanic cult for years, drugged for long periods of time, professional athlete and bikini model. Oh and magical super human. Anyway, I have watched a couple of her videos and in one of them she claimed the Jews made a pact with Hitler in the otherworld or something to be killed.

Ive been working out for an year and a half 3 times a week and doing yoga on and off for 5 years. So I dont hink thats the case with me

Hi! Its great that you are thinking of stopping it - my advice is start slow. If youve been smoking every day your body is really used to it and if you quit cold turkey it would be harder, (I think) Also, weed is linked to gingivitis so my sdvice is to get a dental appointment (studying to be a dentist cant help myself lol). There is a great reddit community dedicated to stopping weed https://www.reddit.com/r/leaves/top/?sort=top&t=all that might be helpful. I also smoked pot often for a while, never got really into it. Actually stopped it a november after a really good yoga class when I realised that Im feeling 10x times better doing yoga then smoking weed.