Eliminate plastic dishes, utensiles, cups.
Replace aluminum baking pans with steel.
Don't use aluminum foil for cooking.
Don't microwave food in plastic.
Be careful with chemical cleaners, sprays, weed-killer, bug spray, etc.
Be careful with makeup, lots of heavy metals there.
Be careful with certain spices, lots of heavy metals.
Be careful with any powdered foods.
Be careful with baby food.
Be careful with pet food.
Be careful with talc powder.
Be careful with fast food wrappers and containers.
Be careful handling receipts, they are covered in toxins.
Be careful with sunscreen, full of toxins.
Be careful with non-MRNA vaccines, may contain mercury.
Be careful with seafood, especially anything you fish out of a lake yourself.
Be careful with gasoline fumes, smog, exhaust, pollution. Never live within a mile of a major highway.
Never buy flourescent light bulbs, they are extremely toxic.
Never get any metal into your mouth at the dentist. Do not get any metal crowns, all-ceramic only. No metal filings.
Never accept routine flouride treatments at the dentist.
Be careful with birth control pills and devices.
Upgrade all your soaps, cleaners, and detergents to all-natural ones.
Upgrade your shampoo and bodywash.
Avoid food coloring.
Avoid artificial sweetners like Splenda and aspartame.

You guys get easily confused by calling it solipsism. Just call it dreaming. You are dreaming everything and everyone. And the dream is designed in such a way that you cannot easily notice that it is a dream, nor stop dreaming. If you could easily see through the dream, you'd be dead, so obviously the dream must be intensely convincing.
If you could just walk up to a scientist and ask him, "Am I dreaming?" And he said, "Yes!" Then that would be a very weak dream. Of course he's gonna tell you No! A dream can only work if you deny that you are dreaming.
So it all boils down to a simple game of denial. Since you are dreaming, you have infinite capacity for denial. Who's gonna contradict you in your own dream? Whatever you manage to convince yourself of becomes your reality. Simple.

Unfortunately what I found after 7 years of running this forum is that toxic people never make behavioral adjustments, and actually get worse and worse over time. And if you politely tell them to shape up, they take it personally, develop a grudge against you, and start behaving like monsters.

@integral Why not go to a library to do your work during the day? Pay for access to a commune office space... Get out of the house.
Also, set boundaries. If you say are you unavailable and she asks you to do something... Be a man, tell her NO. And do your work. Tell her when you will be available. She has to learn that you mean your boundaries. If you don't respect the boundaries you have set by giving into her... she won't respect them.
It's really about you two loving each other. You two being a team, being friends and supporting each others growth. Work it out together.
If you can't do that, your work is so important to you... Do whatever you have to do.

People don't understand that some things need concentration and how hard concentration is because they have never really done it. People don't understand the need for flow to go deep. People don't understand the need for passion and joy in ones work. People don't understand the need for alone time or the need of spending time with other people or things that is not them. People don't realize that the things you do that is not about them is vital for the health the relationship. Its all connected, our relationship does not exist in isolation from the rest of our lives, the quality of all aspects of our lives is integral to the relationship. ... more Not understanding = taking it personally.

I could be a lot more developed.
I feel the pain from my lack of development every day.
Good!
Well, there's a lot you could do, but in a nutshell I would boil it down to this:
1) First, prime your mind with reading and studying a wide array of sources and perspectives, like by reading the sources in my book list and watching my videos. You need some basic theory as grist for your contemplation mill.
2) Then, after some years you will have a solid theoretical foundation and the real work can begin. Now you stop reading and learning theory, and you start doing serious contemplation. 1000s of hours of thinking everything through for yourself and deriving every answer for yourself from scratch from first principles and direct experience.
3) And then you turn your attention to observing your ego-mind at work, and become a master of your own self-deception and egoic reactions.
You don't have to complete one step before doing the others. In practice you should be intermixing them.
Of course practices like meditation and psychedelics become really important after a while.
Perhaps most importantly, have an insatiable curiosity and passion for understanding reality at the deepest levels, and never settle for beliefs or the words of humans. That's really my only secret. All I do is just rentlessly pursue pure understanding by derviving all of it for myself from direct experience and intuition. This is what I've called Pure Philosophy.
The doing of Pure Philosophy leads to the highest wisdom. That's it. See my episode: An Intro To Serious Philosophy. That's my process.

I dunno about all time fav.. but I liked...
Walden
Ralph waldo emerson 
Man's search for meaning
The book of not knowing
The Bible (parts)
Carnage and culture
Guns germs and steel
The body keeps the score 
Outlines of phyrrhonism by sextus empiricus

Have you tried therapy? If yes, what modalities?

There is no way to separate truth from the welfare of all, since the revelation of truth reveals that we are the world, the world is us. The whole universe is contained within you. That is not just transcendent truth; it is also experienced as boundless love and compassion. What I’m getting at here is our spiritual motivation. Love for all is an aspect of our true being. If we do not access this, we remain essentially self-centered. Wisdom without love can be callous and harsh. Truth and love are simply two sides of the same coin—they cannot be separated.
I have met many people who have had a partial awakening. They realize some profound truth, but their heart is still essentially closed. They are half awake, and therefore essentially self-centered. This same phenomenon can happen when someone awakens to boundless love but not deep wisdom. Either way, it is like hopping around on one leg. I think it both wise and natural to include all beings within our spiritual motivations, as well as our more personal motivations.
Of course we can build more spiritual-appearing egos around the identity of being selfless and a servant of the good—such identities are as unreal as any other. Nonetheless, an altruistic attitude (without the accompanying ego identity) is conducive to realization and a benefit for all.
Spirituality is, of course, about much more than having moments of sacredness when in supportive and non-challenging environments, as nice and as enriching as these moments can be. The “goal” (if I may use such a word) of spirituality is to be realized, clear, and fearless enough to meet and respond to the tremendous challenges of life from a revolutionary perspective.
Someone like Jesus had far from an easy life. It was not a life predominately defined by resting in the bliss of being, but of engaging with the sorrows of life from a revolutionary standpoint of wisdom, love, and fearlessness. Being rooted in what he called the kingdom, or the enlightened view, was not for him an end in itself, but rather an inner condition from which to engage with the challenges of life.
To embody any degree of realization requires us to uncover and expose those remaining mental and emotional fixations that inhibit the spontaneous movement of wisdom and love within our lives. For most, this is no small task. It all starts by taking full responsibility for our own inner and outer lives, and noticing the ways in which our own fear, judgment, resentment, and confusion cloud our ability to respond to the challenges of life in a wise and appropriate way.
It has been my observation that many people involved in spirituality are waiting for some great spiritual experience to make everything in their lives clear and solve all of their problems for them. This is a bit of an overstatement but not all that uncommon to varying degrees. Instead of trying to remain in a state of stillness, or peace, or any other state when dealing with the challenges of life, we are better served by seeking to act and respond with wisdom, clarity, and openheartedness.
I suppose that the most direct answer to your question is to go deeper and investigate the causes of fear, anger, jealousy, and control within yourself. Then you will find it more obvious how to respond to these qualities when dealing with others. There is simply no other option than to uproot the causes of human suffering within ourselves if we are to manifest the incredible potential for wisdom and love that lie at the core of our being.
You are the world, the world is you. Now let’s all act on it. And by doing so, we become more and more clear, more wise, and more loving. It is not always easy, but it is the only thing worth doing. And it’s up to each of us to do it.
Excerpted from Adya’s book, Sacred Inquiry

Good question. His maturity and wisdom, and his ability to talk to people. He values simplicity, the small moments of life, and the art of conversation, and I appreciate that. 
"I think one of the most important things in any kind of human communication is: Do I actually understand the person that I'm talking to? Do I really understand them? It's a really big question. Because we can think we understand them, but we might just be understanding our interpretation, or our judgment of what they are saying, or we are filtering it through our own experience. And so we are not really hearing what the other person wants to say or needs to say. So it's a big question: 'Am I actually understanding and hearing what someone is trying to tell me?' If you did nothing but that, if that was your only practice, it would revolutionize your human communication." - Adyashanti
A sane presence is immensely valuable. 

@spiritual memes
You can apply this story to yourself and all beings whom you come to argument with
The Story of the Donkey and Tiger
The donkey told the tiger: 
′′The grass is blue". 
The tiger replied: 
′′No, the grass is green".
The discussion became heated up, and the two decided to submit the issue to arbitration, and to do so they approached the lion, King of the Jungle. 
Before reaching the clearing in the forest where the lion was sitting on his throne, the donkey started screaming:
′′Your Highness, is it true that grass is blue?".
The lion replied:
"True, the grass is blue". 
The donkey rushed forward and continued: 
′′The tiger disagrees with me and contradicts me and annoys me please punish him".
The king then declared:
′′The tiger will be punished with 5 years of silence".
The donkey jumped for joy and went on his way, content and repeating:
′′The grass is blue"...
The tiger accepted his punishment, but he asked the lion:
′′Your Majesty, why have you punished me, after all, the grass is green?"
The lion replied:
′′In fact, the grass is green".
The tiger asked:
′′So why do you punish me?"
The lion replied:
′′That has nothing to do with the question of whether the grass is blue or green. The punishment is because it is not possible for a brave, intelligent creature like you to waste time arguing with a donkey, and on top of that to come and bother me with that question".
The worst waste of time is arguing with the fool and fanatic who doesn't care about truth or reality, but only the victory of their beliefs and illusions. Never waste time on discussions that make no sense... There are people who for all the evidence presented to them, do not have the ability to understand, and others who are blinded by ego, hatred and resentment, and the only thing that they want is to be right even if they aren’t. When ignorance screams, intelligence shuts up. Your peace and tranquility are worth more.
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As someone who has a deep understanding of human biomechanics I suggest minimizing time spent in chairs.
Personally I do all my work while sitting in the ground or on a meditation cushion. I have a Japanese style floor table that I use as my desk.
I also don’t own a couch or any chairs in my home. They’re terrible for your joints

Annoyingly I can't find it now, but I definitely remember reading that (if they went to college) entrepreneurs in the US are most likely to have a Bachelor's degree in Economics or Philosophy. As a freelancer that works with a lot of entrepreneurs, I've definitely found those two subjects appear on LinkedIn a lot among founders. My first-ever client was a Philosophy graduate, and so is Leo...
I doubt it's because of anything they learned at college though - probably just that people who study those subjects are more likely to possess traits/skills that correlate with entrepreneurship. 
Computer Science makes logical sense, because it's one of the few subjects that will allow you to build a product. And I do know a few Computer Science graduates who are now entrepreneurs. But then again, most technical entrepreneurs end up teaming up with a "business" person and becoming a CTO or something. You can also teach yourself coding, so I'm not convinced college is necessary - my brother did that and he has a successful business.
I wouldn't recommend studying Business or Marketing - those subjects seem more designed to teach people to be Managers, Executives, etc. The most entrepreneurial Business student I met told me the degree was pretty much bs and very little of it was applicable to realistically starting a business. 
Honestly, if you HAVE to go to college, I'd probably just recommend choosing the subject that gives you the most free time so you can spend the rest of your time networking and learning about entrepreneurship firsthand.  

If I remember correctly you can actually see books that have been removed if you use inspect element in your browser on the list. They've had their HTML commented out but it's still there.

Everything that needed to be said for this discussion is right here, case closed. 

Solipsism Notes 
 
“One who sees everything as nothing but the Self, and the Self in everything one sees, such a seer withdraws from nothing.  For the enlightened, all that exists is nothing but the Self.” - Ishopanishad; Sloka 6, 7
 
“May I recognize whatever appeareth as being mine own thought-forms.” - Tibetan Book of the Dead
 
Student: “How should we treat others?”
 
Ramana Maharishi: “There are no others.”
 
Anyone who claims the existence of other minds, or even allows them as a theoretical possibility, does not realize oneself as God.
 
Introduction
 
Definition of Solipsism
Solipsism = Solis (Alone) Ipsi (Self)
Philosophical idea that only one’s own mind is sure to exist
Knowledge of anything outside the mind is unknown
Self is the only existing reality and all persons are representations of the self
Denial of existence of other minds
Other minds are private and are inference at best
 
Mankind and I gives negative connotations to Solipsism
Start to wonder why
Why am I biased against Solipsism?  Why do I assume it is crazy or bad?
 
Having a bias against Solipsism is unscientific and irrational
Truth is the truth regardless of whether it is liked or not.
Logic or improbability have nothing to do with Truth
 
Be open to all possible worldviews until I arrive at Truth
 
If I am interested in Truth, then it does not matter if it is Solipsism
 
People make a mistake to assume and make a fact that it is impossible to know Truth.
 
Solipsism deals with the nature of self but also nature of other.
Other is the inverse of my self-definition
 
What is other?  What is self?  They are inter-defined.
 
Spirituality frames it as What is the Self? But the uncommon direction is to ask What is Other?  Most people don’t contemplate what other is.
 
Be open to the fact that I don’t know what other is.  Other may not exist.
 
If I change my identity of self, I change my identity of other.
 
Infinite self makes no more room for other.
 
My definitions of self and other are mentally constructed
 
 
Is Solipsism True? Yes.
 
Most people object to Solipsism because it is too crazy and radical.
 
I can become conscious of what self and other are.
 
Other is my own self and my own mind.
 
My entire worldview and life depends on the notion of other.  Other defines my self and my sense of reality.
 
Awakening is realizing I am God and that I am the only conscious thing there is.
 
Be conscious of everything being myself and that I am alone.  God’s mind is alone and sovereign.  
 
I give partitions of other minds, but I fail to realize that I constructed all of that in my own mind.  
 
Other is my own construction.  I am the only conscious thing in existence.  There cannot be any other conscious being.  There are not multiple conscious beings or souls or parallel lives or past lives or parallel lives.  There is only my life right now.  All the qualia and experience now is all that existence. 
 
 I have 100% direct consciousness of existence.  The issue is that I imagine other things to explain away the present moment.
 
Outside of this dream is nothing and no-one but me.
 
Mainstream notions of solipsism don’t include God, Love, Will, Intelligence, etc.
 
My human self is part of the construction.
 
My bubble of consciousness is all there is and nothing is outside of it.  All of the qualia is my bubble.
 
Life is a dream for an audience of one.  It is a dream for myself.  There is only one entity that needs to be fooled to construct reality. Myself.
 
Why would there be other minds?  Solipsism is the simplest explanation.
 
How is reality created?  
Dream up self and other and fool myself
 
Multiple animals being born are all the same self and not other to each other.
 
Science cannot tell me what other is.
 
Rather than having materialism and multiple minds, there is one consciousness that fools itself with images of other minds outside of itself.
 
All things that I posit will always have a self-referential problem and infinite regress.  It pushes problems down a level.
 
There are no limits to what Infinite Mind can create. An atom is just as easy to create as an elephant.  Mind does not need a big bang or years of evolution.  It just imagines this human life and then a chain of causation of stories.
 
As a kid, I asked questions of where am I? Where did I come from?  My mind started filling in the blanks from society when I don’t know.  The backstory becomes my worldview.  Biology, history, science, etc. are all backstories to explain the present moment.
 
I have given my authority to imaginary others.  Others have an impact on my self.
 
I assume adults know what they are talking about when in fact they went through the same thing as me.
 
I am all that I have ever experienced in my life.
Before I was born there was nothing.
All that I have ever experienced was myself
visual, auditory, emotions, thoughts, tastes, smells, touch, etc.
I have never experienced anything other than my own mind, my own experience
My experience is absolute
Anything other than direct experience is speculation and inference
All science and all others is part of my experience
I am experience
 
I have given my authority and trusted others more than my direct experience
This is a problem.  Trusting others is a second-order phenomenon.  I have to first assume they are real and that they are in my direct experience.
Trusting myself and direct experience is primary.
 
Why am I so triggered by Solipsism?  Why do I want reality to be different from Solipsism?  Why do I depend on the companionship of others?
Others define the self
 
Solipsism is objective, denial of it is subjective and emotional reaction.
 
Other can be minds and inanimate objects like external world.
 
Can there be something beyond my experience?
anything beyond my experience is in my experience
 
No amount of thought experiments or science will always be in my experience.
 
All of us are solipsists are already. But some go one dream further.
We all accept that at night we dream and that they are solipsistic 
The entire dream and dream characters are a construction of my own mind.
When I wake up from a dream, all other characters are all me.
Do my dream characters have a mind of their own?
How is reality any different from how I dream?
 
I am dreaming right now, but I still cling to otherness.
 
When I wake up from this dream, it will be just me and nothing else.
 
Spiritual teachers say life is just a dream.  There is a notion is that when I wake up from this dream, there will be others waiting for me on the other side.  There is only one dreamer who dreams all other dreamers.
 
I am very attached to dreaming.  I am 100% responsible.  I am constructing the entire dream.  I am responsible for everything in my experience.
 
“We are all atheists but I believe in one less God than you.”
 
— We are all solipsists.  My nighttime dreams are imaginary.  Make that shift to all of my experience and not exclusive to my dreams.
 
Nighttime dreams are grounded in daytime dreams.  Nighttime dreams and reality is imaginary distinction.  
 
Solipsism traditionally is not tied into spirituality.  But Absolute Solipsism is spiritual.
 
Solipsism is essence of spirituality.  Love, God, Will, Omniscience, Immortality, Eternity, etc. are all part of Solipsism.  This dream is my own will and my own intelligence.  
 
All mystical/spiritual traditions point towards Solipsism.
 
FAQs
 
Enlightened teachers deny Solipsism
they are not fully awake and not conscious how they are creating all sense of other
Some may be conscious of this but do not want to tell people this because they want others to discover it for themselves.
Solipsism is bad marketing and triggers people
Ex. Ramana Maharshi was a Solipsist and says “there is no other.”
Most people will not reach the highest levels
Not telling kids about death and letting them figure it out - analogy
 
Where do my ideas of enlightenment come from?
teachers
books
from “others”
 
Be aware of spiritual ego
 
Goal: Have a complete understanding of reality
 
Why does Leo even teach if I am the only conscious being?
Playing a game with himself and do whatever gives meaning
I am actually playing a game with myself
Actualized.org is a dissociated part of my mind that I need to integrate
The question isn’t why is Leo teaching me but why am I teaching myself?
 
Does Leo have his own experience?
There is only my experience.  There are not other experiences.  Leo is my experience.  
 
Why is Leo talking as if he has his own experience? Why is Leo tricking me?  
The real question is why am I tricking myself?  Why did I construct Leo?
I have to deny all identities to construct my identity and my dream has to be convincing
I am God cosplaying as a human
 
Finger pointing exercise:
Point figure at the screen at Leo and then point it at me.  Say Leo out loud when I point to Leo and me when I point to me (behind my eyes).  
Then after a while, point to me and say Leo and realize that Leo has always been behind my eyes.
Everybody is my body.  This is all a projection of my own mind.
 
Stop imagining other people have experiences until all there is, is my bubble. That is awakening.
 
I am imagining that other people are awakening.  I have invented characters in the dream who awoken to give me an example.
 
My imagination is so powerful that I believe others.
Imagination vs. reality
I can awaken to that I am imagining reality
I imagine that others will exist after I die
When I cease to imagine, everything ceases to exist.
There is no world outside of my own mind
 
Open my mind to the possibility that it is just me and everyone else doesn’t exist.
 
I am imagining Leo is imagining me.  I imagine Leo’s joy, awakening, pain, etc.
 
All suffering that anybody experienced I am imagining in my own mind.
 
I never experienced death, but I imagined many animals dying, and I assume I will die as well.  I never seen death.  I can imagine others and myself dying but I cannot die.  When I realize I cannot die and I am immortal, that is the holy grail.  The holy grail is realizing the death of everyone and myself is a construction of my own mind.
 
Solipsism isn’t contradictory.
 
All denial and objections and everything is part of the dream.  There is no escaping the dream.
 
Angels, demons, Santa, etc. are no different from humans and animals.  It is just part of my dream.
 
It is dogmatic to state that it is impossible to know.
 
All other minds are sub-minds to my infinite mind.
 
If Solipsism is true, I am avoiding it and everyone is avoiding as a conspiracy to help me avoid it.  If Solipsism was on CNN, I would either already wake up or I would avoid CNN.  
 
Society is geared so that I can remain asleep.
 
My mom says she has an experience of her own.  Is she lying and being an evil demon?
My mom is not an evil demon trying to fool me.  I am God fooling myself using my mom.
All dream characters will deny they are dream characters so that I remain asleep.  If not, there is no dream.  
My mom is not faking it, I am faking it.  There is no mom, there is only me. 
There is only me deceiving myself so that I can exist as a human.  If not, I would die and stop existing as a human.  God creates others so it creates itself.
 
The only conspiracy theory that matters is my own self-deception.  It is a conspiracy of one.  I am conspiring myself during my dreams.  All other conspiracy theories are sub-conspiracies within the meta-conspiracy.  I am doing this to myself.
 
Reality isn’t a simulation, it is a dream.  Simulation still has a sense of other like an alien or other reality or something.  It pushes the problem back another level.  Where did the aliens and simulation come from?
 
What are the odds that I am the only one in existence?
The odds of me being conscious are 100%
 
Everything I have ever experienced has always revolved around me.
What if I am not an accident but an absolute?
 
If I am the only one, where did I come from? 
I have always been and have imagined all places and invented stories
 
Nothing can be conscious but me.  A dog and Leo being conscious is what I am imagining.  One day, I can imagine my computer being conscious.  It will be just another character in my dream.
 
Is the suffering of others real?
No.  There is only one conscious being who suffers and it is me.
Where has suffering ever existed?  Suffering only exists in my mind.
If I kick a dog and it wimpers, I am imagining that.  I am imagining the dog’s suffering.
If I torture a dog in my dream and wake up, where is the dog’s suffering?
Suffering is a mechanism to keep myself asleep.  Suffering feelings very real in my direct experience and in others.
Life has serious consequences to sell the illusion of the dream
 
How could I construct a dream so well to fool myself?
Make suffering so overwhelming that I would never do any existential questioning.
I am creating a drama.  What makes a good movie is the drama.  Why do I watch action movies?  I crave distraction and I want immersion.
I cook in a video game for immersion to simulate life and have a game.  The world is boring without evil.  It is to construct a powerful illusion.
 
Think of self-deception in an existential manner. Self-deception constructs reality
atoms, evolution, science, space, time, other beings, planet earth as metaphysical self-deception
All philosophy and spirituality goes out the window with pain.  Pain is part of the dream to keep me locked in the dream.
 
If suffering is imaginary, why not be selfish and harm others and be a devil?
No reason at all.  There will always be consequences in this dream for my selfish behavior.  My dream can turn into a nightmare.
I am dreaming.  What kind of dream do I want?  A nightmare or Heaven?
A long road ahead of suffering if I am selfish
God creates the dream to teach itself about how to live (for Love)
Since I am in the dream, why not create the best possible life?
True goodness and love is when I am even nice even when I know others are an illusion.
Love and goodness don’t need reasons.
There is no reason why a life of suffering is worse than a life of joy.
 
Solipsism is unfalsifiable because it is absolutely true.
It is verifiable
 
Is it safe and logical to assume other minds?
Is it practical to assume other minds? Practical and true aren’t always the same.  It is convenient to live the dream but it is not true.
 
Nonduality is Solipsism
Nonduality is Oneness and is Absolute Solipsism
 
There is so much untruth because truth is dangerous.
Truth is dangerous in every domain in life
Often times, the most dangerous things are true because most people care more about truth than survival.
 
Society is an illusion
If I find truth, I sit alone and contemplate and not go to others and to the herd
 
I can still socialize even when I know Solipsism is True
 
The Truth of Solipsism is beautiful.
 
Leo goes to parties has sex, etc. because it is his dream I am imagining and he enjoys it.  Enjoy the dream.
 
Should we be openminded to other minds?
start being openminded and then close off my mind to things I have become conscious of that are false
Become absolutely conscious to where I no longer have doubts
Openminded all the time can be closed off to being close-minded.  
Be closed-off to positions I have validated as false in my direct experience.
Truth is more important than openmindedness
Being openminded to everything is a trap because that means I don’t get anywhere
 
Does God have the power to create other minds? This contradicts God’s omnipotence
God is one. God has the infinite power to dream up many minds within its own mind.
God cannot sever its own oneness because God is One.
 
How to verify Solipsism
200+ 5-me0 Trips and do all the practices to deconstruct my mind
the trips could kill me
 
How do I know 5-me0 is not an illusion?  
How do I know anything is not an illusion?
Don’t misuse skepticism and go test it.
 
The real cult is mainstream society, spirituality, and materialism but most of all, my own self-deception.
 
Become conscious of Solipsism and not believe it
 
Nobody will verify that I am all alone.
 
Humans need a degree of socialization.  Don’t use Solipsism as an excuse to be a loner.
 
Self-Understanding is the highest happiness and end of suffering
 
The highest happiness is realizing I am God
 
Conclusion
 
What is other?  Contemplate what is other. 
 
Don’t take solipsism on as a belief.
 
Find out what is true.  This is a hypothesis till I can verify for myself. 
 
Stay with what is true in my direct experience. Think for myself.
 
Important to not fake it till I make it.  It can create disfunction.
 
True liberation is freedom from the illusion of other.
“Hell is other people.” - Satre
 
I am Alone because I am so together.  Love is togetherness.  The illusion unifies and not separates. 
 
It’s like God has multiple personality disorder and when God is one, God connects back to it Self. 
 
Being Alone means I integrate all parts of myself together into a unity. Love is Unity, Oneness, and togetherness.
 
The illusion unifies all the sub minds together and not separates.
 
There is a lot of bullshit out in the world.
Awakening is basically Absolute Solipsism
 

optimize.me has become completely free. For those who don't know, it is a platform where you can find summaries of a lot of self help books (and a lot that are in Leo's book list) just as some self help courses.

@Arzola You should not go to university. It will only stifle you.
This advice is specifically for you (Arzola) not others.
Double down on the work you are already doing rather than distracting yourself with university coursework. You will not find Truth or Love in a university unless you bring it there from the outside.
Self-taught philosophy is the only true kind. The rest is parroting the words of dead men.

Day 1:
Had some urges today but they were not too strong.
However, I ended up wasting some time on YouTube, consuming "productive" content but it doesn't really stay in my memory because of information overload.
It's better for me to just stick to the audiobook I am currently listening to, and stick to reading the book on my Kindle.
I need to focus more on my to do list, and the tasks that will move the needle the most. I need a way to keep it front and center in some way, so it's always on my mind.
Soon I will be getting to the point where I will be able to follow the program, and hopefully get some results with my health.
I need to stay determined that I will find a solution and make an amazing life. Looking at success stories for gut issues gives me some hope, for anhedonia however, it is rare to find actual success stories. But maybe solving my gut issues will solve my anhedonia, the only way for me to truly find out is to continue experimenting.

https://youtu.be/CusOhtf7U0E

“Truth and love are the two most powerful embodiment tools you will ever have. They are the two tools you have to lead a benevolent, beautiful, and enlightened life.”
“To embody love is a commitment. It’s a commitment to be connected, to be available, to be undefended, to sense into somebody’s underlying sense of being, and to not be looking through a wall of defense.”
“Where love and truth come together is that the more truthful you are, the more connected you feel. And the more connected you feel, the more truthful you want to be.”
“To embody your deeper presence of being requires not only truthfulness but also love.”
“To be loving isn’t to be perfect—it’s to be connected and warm both with ourselves and others. It’s to be residing in the humble heart.”
"We meet as presences." 
"I'm not talking about absolute truth. There's also relative truth. What's true for you is orienting you in your life all the time."
"Be precise and accurate in your speech."
"Start by telling the truth all the time. Tell it to yourself. Tell it to others. Your personal truth is not absolute. It will change and grow over time. Truth is a demanding standard. It's not whatever conditioned thought comes into your mind."
"Totally honest all the time. Totally sincere all the time. Never deceptive. Never deceiving."
"Telling the truth is about being deeply and precisely honest. And being open to having your truth change."
"If you have a little sensitivity, you realize there's more than one way to tell the truth."
"There will be consequences to you telling the truth. People won't always like it. But if almost everybody doesn't like it, then you have to reexamine how you're delivering the truth. Or is what you're saying really true?"
"It's hard to manipulate somebody, when you've been totally honest."
"It will transform your life completely. Some truths create chaos. It doesn't mean it's going to work out the way you want. It will be controlled by the truth."
"We stop willfully trying to close our hearts, even if we have to say, 'No'." 
"What's one way to bring more truth into your life today, one small way, each day."
"Watch your life transform a little bit every day. And over time watch it transform beyond your imagination, and maybe it will help transform other lives as well. Or at least contribute something good and true for them. Maybe if enough of us commit to it, it could transform the world. Isn't it about the most worthwhile thing that we could be doing with our lives. What's more worthwhile than truth-telling and love and connection, embodying the truth and love at the core of our being, thus bringing a little bit of heaven to earth, one small act at a time. Start small. Start very small. And slowly work your way up to more challenging expressions and embodiments of truth and love."
"It may stretch you and challenge you, also beyond your imagination."
"Little committed moments."
"Be compassionate with yourself. Care about yourself. Don't be so hard on yourself. Life's a challenging thing for anybody and everybody. What's amazing is that we get through the gauntlet of life at all. It's a hell of a thing to go through a particular lifespan. Don't use your compassion to excuse dishonesty."
"Put attention on that quiet and aware presence of your being. And then seek to live it out truthfully, through truth, connection, and through love, and through compassion."

Objections are par for the course. Respond playfully with “why you being weird?” or better yet a face that conveys that. Etc. Of course you’d only be able to congruently say that if it matched your vibe… which should be: that you’re good enough for any girl and she’d be crazy not to go home with you / take you home. Rock-solidly in that vibe (i.e. frame). If you notice even for a moment that it’s not your vibe/frame, go back to it immediately and stay there.

Women only care about your vibe and how you make them feel. Radiate positive energy, fun energy, playfulness, confidence, be interesting, emotional and social intelligence, self love.

You basically need to listen the news and arguments from all sides and draw your own conclusions.
There is no book which tells you what the right politics are. I have some good political books on my book list.
Listening to lectures on history, gov, politics, and economics is also important to develop a solid understanding of how government works in general.