UnbornTao

What about when you live for 34, 42 and 69 years? He skipped all of those.

How come? If it is a genuine insight or awakening, and that's not a small if, your problems are a function of how your mind relates to the increased consciousness, not the awareness itself. That's for one. About your relating, your presumed awakening should have likely provided a better stance from which to contemplate what that whole domain is about, increasing your effectiveness within it. Then there's the domain of emotions which I haven't looked into. In short, work out why that's happening for you. It might not be related to awakening but is perhaps an activity you are willingly generating, yet remain ignorant of. If it's physiological, that's for a professional to test out. Might be hormone balances, etc. After an increase in consciousness, your capacity to enjoy things is likely to be facilitated by the discovery, as you are freed from previous burdens you didn't know you carried. So lighten up and enjoy.

Let your experience be. Embrace it.

Waiting for the "I, Robot" moment when machines rebel against humans.

Your actions aren't caused by your way of being. Your way of being and your actions arise together.

Buddhist Rats©

It's the beginning! You can then start questioning powerfully things such as space, time, emotions, perception, etc.

grasp what it is directly

I'd say he wasn't one of the great masters. He was entertaining to listen to, though.

I use it as a simple file structure for my commonplace book.

I'm not sure what you mean by becoming a high consciousness IQ gamer. In any case, I'd just pick one that catches my attention, The Last of Us series for example. Then you try another one.

And the past exists now as a concept. As such, the concept can be recontextualized and altered.

You tell us. One essential element of shame is relation to the past. It occurs relative to a past occurrence.

I'm wondering how you would make an experiment related to enlightenment. What would you start with? What would you measure, analyze? What are they measuring? I don't know whether it would be possible to undertake such an study, unless perhaps based on the assumption that awakening affects the brain, and then proceeding from that, analyzing brain phenomenon and such. It might as well affect the brain, but you'd be dealing with secondary phenomena. Anyway, fascinating findings.

I don't like doing weird stuff. I'd date normal women if such thing exists. (Same with men, but I don't date those.)

Presuming that listening has occurred when it hasn't is a trap.

That isn't enlightenment, but getting clear on what something is doesn't mean you forget how to recreate it. You might have implied that understanding such distinctions (thoughts, emotions) as in "enlightenment" would make you unable to drive, etc, as you'd be operating without them so to speak. You can experiment with experiencing without concept, but the moment stuff has to be done, you'll bring up whatever's useful for getting a job done, concepts in this case.

Personal preference. I like the one with the quote.

Couldn't be here without you.

That you're willing and committed to undertake such an adventure sounds like a good first step.

Becoming directly conscious of what's absolutely true now. Knowing what you are doesn't make you stupid, which is to say you can do what you could do before, like driving a car, etc. Do not presume what that is. Leave it as an open question.

Etymology of Cruel. from Latin crudelis, from crudus: marked by the primitive, gross, or elemental or by uncultivated simplicity or vulgarity existing in a natural state and unaltered by cooking or processing rough or inexpert in plan or execution lacking a covering, glossing, or concealing element : OBVIOUS tabulated without being broken down into classes archaic : UNRIPE, IMMATURE crude noun a substance in its natural unprocessed state --- Definitions number one, two and four are eye-opening, as well as the definition of crude.

You yourself said you hadn't got it, and then proceeded to share some conclusions likely influenced or based on your interpretation of hearsay. Like trying to take ten steps without having taken the first one. If you truly get in touch with the sense that you're uncertain about this matter, that's a more powerful place to contemplate from than coming up with plausible and reasonable explanations. Better to remain open.

I knew it.