UnbornTao

By which I mean that what you talked about isn't awakening. I'm not saying what you experienced couldn't have been positive or powerful. You clarify for yourself what it was -- insight, shift in state, unusual feeling. You may be trying to intellectually arrive at a conclusion that fits into your belief system. If you're after enlightenment, inquire who and what you are.

I can but since we really don't know what we're talking about, it's not very useful. Absolute is whatever's absolutely true now. How's that? Since it is absolute, mind is not up to the task -- neither are perception nor experience. Doesn't matter what's said about it but that you grasp it for yourself.

Then this is about feelings, not awakening. By throwing out I mean letting go of your belief system. If feeling good by adopting positive beliefs is what you want, be clear that may be what you're doing. To pursue the absolute forget what you came up with and has been told, it is less than worthless. Rather, question afresh each time.

You mean interactions within spiritual communities? Maybe, unless you're dealing with someone who's had many authentic experiences.

sounds like a cosmology you've got going on. Pretending is the lie, does more harm than good. I'd throw it away and tackle things honestly.

If you lie I'm gonna call you out on that, especially with this enlightenment business.

I've got tinnitus, not clear on the cause though, but it wasn't loud noises.

Zen stick. Someone has to. Seriously though, sounds to me like fantasising.

Good spiritual parrot.

Cute. Not enlightenment though. Don't get too high on your BS. Set that aside and contemplate.

You want to be given an answer but it doesn't work like that. So who knows?

What about when you live for 34, 42 and 69 years? He skipped all of those.

How come? If it is a genuine insight or awakening, and that's not a small if, your problems are a function of how your mind relates to the increased consciousness, not the awareness itself. That's for one. About your relating, your presumed awakening should have likely provided a better stance from which to contemplate what that whole domain is about, increasing your effectiveness within it. Then there's the domain of emotions which I haven't looked into. In short, work out why that's happening for you. It might not be related to awakening but is perhaps an activity you are willingly generating, yet remain ignorant of. If it's physiological, that's for a professional to test out. Might be hormone balances, etc. After an increase in consciousness, your capacity to enjoy things is likely to be facilitated by the discovery, as you are freed from previous burdens you didn't know you carried. So lighten up and enjoy.

Let your experience be. Embrace it.

Waiting for the "I, Robot" moment when machines rebel against humans.

Your actions aren't caused by your way of being. Your way of being and your actions arise together.

Buddhist Rats©

It's the beginning! You can then start questioning powerfully things such as space, time, emotions, perception, etc.

grasp what it is directly

I'd say he wasn't one of the great masters. He was entertaining to listen to, though.

I use it as a simple file structure for my commonplace book.

I'm not sure what you mean by becoming a high consciousness IQ gamer. In any case, I'd just pick one that catches my attention, The Last of Us series for example. Then you try another one.

And the past exists now as a concept. As such, the concept can be recontextualized and altered.

You tell us. One essential element of shame is relation to the past. It occurs relative to a past occurrence.