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Happy birthday man!

Leo, you are right. the End Goal is to realize that you are me, I’m you, and we are one. Therefore, I’m god. God-realization is this whole process. I’m writing this right in my break through LSD trip I’m literally conscious of the purpose in this life now. It just to let you to awaken to yourself as god!!!

@Breakingthewall Now the God realization just becomes a memory in my mind, but more than a memory I should say. I’m no longer conscious of how I imagine this whole universe now, but the insight I got from yesterday’s realization will carry me throughout the rest of my human life. And this, perhaps, is one of the biggest rewards for doing this work. And the insight is: I’m God. I create this dream out of love. I create this dream because I want to experience the joy of realizing I’m God. This dream is necessary and beautiful, so enjoy this dream and enjoy the process of reawaken to yourself as God. You never know when you’ll reawaken, but you’ll know when you do. And this whole process never ends. This is consciousness. This is God.

@Yimpa cheer

And of course now I’m back to my human self and I’m no longer conscious of myself as God, but the god realization is still so valid and profound that it changes me completely. You know, all states of consciousness is valid. Doesn’t matter you are in human consciousness or god consciousness. As I’m in this relatively low level of human consciousness now, I’m conscious of the fact that it’s necessary for consciousness to be limited and forgetful. One of the functions of consciousness is to forget and remember. The reason you are in this current state or you are not conscious that you are god is that you want to remember again. Everything you ever encounter, the people, movie, food, music and so on, are the bread crumbs you leave to yourself to one day remember/realize you are god. it’s just like the symbol infinity ♾️. The left circle is god consciousness and beyond, the right circle is the human consciousness as I’m in right now, or whatever state of consciousness that is not god consciousness. And the god realization is the threshold point in the center! And this whole symbol, this whole dynamic is consciousness! so basically yesterday I cross the threshold and realize all this. As unbelievable as it sounds, this is the most certain thing in my mind now. This is one of the structures of consciousness! God is playing this whole game right now. and this is the only game in town.

@BlessedLion some day you’ll realize you are THE only being

@r0ckyreed it’s very paradoxical and mind fuck. As I typed the words yesterday I knew the fact that I was typing these to share to myself. God creates this dream to share this joy of discovering itself as God to itself. How did I know it? Cuz I was conscious of it! And the moment you realize you are God, it’s the so-called breakthrough moment in this work. I had a lot of profound experiences before from LSD and 5 Meo dmt, but yesterday’s trip was really the breakthrough. It’s the first time I realize I imagine everything, and the purpose is only one! It’s because of Love!

@Schizophonia you’ll never know unless you are in the god state of consciousness. it can’t be proven, but you can be conscious of !

The point of life is to do whatever the fuck you want to do, until you reach the point to realize that you create everything. and this whole process is God realization

I’m sorry guys I might sound a little unreasonable now. but I just can’t believe it I have to write it all down. I’ve tripped a tons, and this is really the BREAK Through moment. I have to write it down.

I still can’t believe omg the god realization is just to awaken that fact that you imagine everything!!!! Literally everything!!!!! You realize you are this immortal being who imagine this entire show right now. the only purpose in life is to let you self to awaken to the fact that you are god, and you imagine everything. Omg literally everything The whole journey of life is just to let you to realize you are god. This is it.

Omg I can’t believe this. I’m literally the only being who imagines this whole thing. There is no one I can share this Insight toward other than me. Omg Sorry guys I just can’t believe it I have to write it here to let myself see.

@SQAAD You need to tough it up and bite the bullet. Ultimately what you wish is you want to find some easy solution for your current situation. However, you know that there isn't this the case. Doomed if you do, doomed if you don't. If staying in your country or moving to another country are both challenging, you still need to pick one nonetheless. So tough it up. By being victim only makes thing worse.

Sup guys. So I am planning to do a self-healing retreat using 5-MEO-DMT (plugging) and MDMA (oral) tonight. I have already had around 15 5-MEO trips at 30mg-40mg, and at this point, there is no fear or resistance, only pure bliss and love during the trip. So, I have finally decided to trip again tonight and am curious to see how adding MDMA will deepen my understanding toward love and God. I won't do them together at the same time. Instead, I'm planning to plug 5-MEO first and then take MDMA after the trips end, but I'm still wondering if there are any potential risks or damage when doing them on the same night. Has anyone done this before, and what are your thoughts on it?

@OBEler Awesome! Thanks for the suggestion! I'll follow your method and see how it goes! Actually I'm very excited for tonight. I've mixed MDMA and LSD once (candy flip) and it's one of my most memorable experiences. Even though I won't mix 5-MEO and MDMA but still excited to see how far they'll lead me to! Will definitely report!

I hope I can somedays comprehend God as deep as you have so that I can confidently say these words out loud in public. Someday: I REPEAT! Nobody on this planet comprehends GOD except for ME and LEO!

@Leo Gura Agree that when fully into it, it didn't really matter. However, the nausea just feels really uncomfortable in the first 5-10 min at a high dose. By knowing that you've done more than 100+ 5meo trip and endure it every time, and still going strong. Man you really value the truth. lolll

@Leo Gura Do you still have nausea now when doing 5-meo-dmt or malt? And how do you cope with it? I find nausea pretty hard to deal with at a high dose of 5-meo. As @OBEler said in the post above, taking raw ginger 30 minutes prior the trip would remove the nausea. I'm planning to do another breakthrough dose 5-meo-dmt trip tonight and I'll give it a shot.

Just neglect these things and focus on your own development . Clearly this conclusion comes from your observation and experience, but keep in mind there are also some projections you make here. At least for me, if I really value my own development and well being in general, I wouldn't focus my attention on such thing and certainly will not open a topic about it.

The true love results in having the courage to embrace all the "bad things" in this life you avoid. True Love is the most radical things and it's what we fear the most. We can't love all of them because we have form to survive. If you genuinely love to be tortured, then your body won't live long. Well, believe or not, there are people in this world that actually desired to be tortured to death. So who should we say if that is a bad thing? So realistically you can't really LOVE unless you're in the state of God consciousness. And you can't really understand true love if you are in human state of consciousness. So embrace your limit and if you really want to understand love, try some 5-meo.

@Leo Gura Got it! I'll see where I'll end up after 100+ 5-MEO-DMT Trip

I've been following Leo's works for years and have done dozens of LSD trips. After having some profound mystical experiences here and there, I still feel like there is something more to discover. So, I finally got myself some 5-MEO-DMT. So far I've done total of 7 trips. The first three trips (10mg, 20mg, and 30mg) were complete failures though. It's because I plugged way too deep into my butthole. I thought the deeper, the better, but clearly, I was wrong. After some research and trial and error, I learned to plugged only halfway and finally had some profound experiences on the next four trips (20mg, 30mg, 30mg, and 40mg). They all worked like a charm which was so epic that it blew my mind. However, the trip that I'll be mainly emphasis is my 7th trip at 40mg. Personally 40mg would be considered my breakthrough dosage, but keep in mind, everyone has a different tolerance level and generally I don't recommend people trying more than 30mg! And always start with low dose and slowly build it up. Anyway, without further ado, let's dig in. Substance: 5-Meo-DMT in Fumarate Salt Form Method: Plugging Dosage: 40mg Setting: My bedroom Time: 7:50 pm 3/24/2023 Trip report: Yesterday, I finally had the courage to try 5-meo at 40mg. Since 30mg only produces moderate trip for me, my intuition told me I needed to go higher. So after plugging at around 7:50 pm. I calmly sat on my bed and waited for the effects to kick in. After 7 or 8 minutes, the effects finally kicked in, and I started to have an uneasy feeling of nausea. I wanted to vomit, but as my consciousness arose in a speed of light, I became too conscious to even care to move and vomit. I just lay down on my bed from seating position and closed my eyes. As soon as I closed my eyes, time stopped. I suddenly became conscious that time does not exist. Time is just imagination in this present moment, and this moment is all there is. This moment last eternity. Time is just one of the many elements that make up our human life. There is never time; there is just now. However, this was just the beginning. As I watch my consciousness significantly increased, I became conscious that all my sensory fields are literally made of consciousness. I don't know how to put it into words. I just felt like all my sensory fields started to collapse and merge into each other in a spiral way, and this was a nonstop force that I, as ego, couldn't control, which finally started to made me afraid and worried. Combining with the uneasy nauseous sensation, in my first time during trip, I begged to stop. It just became unpleasant, but weirdly amazing at the same time. I wondered how this could all be possible and was surprised that I never had experienced anything like this during an LSD trip. The fear came. I wondered where all this would lead me. This is too much! Then I realized the only thing I can do here is to surrender. So what is actually the act of surrendering? The act of surrendering is just to face the fear, face = give attention to = aware of = conscious of. So I simply became conscious of my fear, the sensation of fear. Then I became conscious that fear itself is also part of consciousness. It's one little facet of consciousness! Everything is consciousness! The only reason I was afraid was that I didn't understand who I really am! I'm not this human self. I'm consciousness! Fear is there as a necessity for the existence of this ego to fool myself into thinking I'm an ego, and fool me thinking that there is really something to be afraid of so I could stay alive. If everything is consciousness, including fear, my sensation, my current room, my breath, my hands, my thoughts, tree, animal, people, drug, psychedelic, etc, then who am I really? I started to wonder. As I had this realization, my conscious and sensory fields were merging into each other more and more. It was like a never-ending spiral. It was quite amazing to watch all of this happening, and it felt like it would last for eternity. Finally, the spiral of consciousness consume every part of me, including the image of myself, my memory, my body, and, lastly, my fear. I gave up. I totally gave up. This is the most amazing and yet the most terrifying thing. I died, I literally died. I'm gone, but consciousness remains....... Then I realized what all of this collapsing of my ego, the dying process, is all about. This is the process of love. What is love? Love means I'm willing to fully experience suffering, experience fears because these are a part of my consciousness. The only thing that prevents me from realizing love is my fear and my escape and avoidance from fear. Love must be total! Love must be a totality! If you don't accept all the things in this world you hate, you cannot love! What every human being is most afraid of is suffering, fear, torture, and ultimately death! If you can't accept or love these things, you can't really love! By loving suffering, fear, and death, it literally means living through these moments, fully experiencing them until the point you realize you are them because you love them. Love is just the total embrace of everything that is in the consciousness, whatever that is good or bad to your human sense! And finally, this spirally emerging process completes. Everything has finally emerged into each other. And what remains is oneness. What remains is just this conscious field. I'm One!!!!!!! if Me = One, then who am I? Oh my God! Oh my God! Oh my God! As I scream those words out loud! I'm God! I'm God! I'm God!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't believe it! I can't believe it! I screamed my lungs out in pure joy and happiness. And while I was realizing I'm God, my my consciousness started to spirally emerge again! However, this time, my consciousness field imagined orgasm, and the sensation of orgasm told me "I love you." Then my whole consciousness field is suddenly filled with orgasm and starts to merge into each other! It's literally like this picture below: Imagine each little black circle in this picture represents your most amazing orgasm during sex you ever had, and during this moment there are literally infinite numbers of orgasms merging spirally into one. It never stops! This is literally the best possible pleasure you would ever encounter! Infinite high! Infinite orgasm! Infinite love! Oh my God! This is infinite love! I'm infinite love! I screamed again. And THIS is my PEAK of realization, my peak of the trip, my peak of pleasure. And it lasts for eternity........ I became Love. I'm Love. Love is infinite orgasm........ While it literally felt like eternity, and it IS. As my trip end, as my consciousness started to go back to my base line. I fell back into my ego self. Everything slowly returns to normal. However, it left me completely speechless. I'm happy like a child. And I cried. I was lying on my comfy bed for quite some time and just stared at my ceiling, thinking: I'm God. I'm Love. This is the surest thing I know. Not only do I understand I'm God, I become it. I am it. And God is Love. So these are all the things I can say about the trip I had yesterday. And now I realize how foolish I was. I had contemplated for years, listened to Leo's content for years, and did a lot of self-development work and did a dozens of LSD Trips. I thought I knew something, but in fact, I knew nothing. The only way to truly know something is by experiencing this crazy realization yourself and coming back. Then you might know a little better. Intuitively, I know that this realization of myself as oneness, as God, as love is not the complete God's realization. It's not even close! I have only touched the fingertip of God. This journey has just begun, and I'm optimistic about it all. Now I understand why Leo teaches what he teaches. Now I know why Leo needs to behave like a jerk sometimes on the forum to warn people that they are self-deceiving and foolish. Leo does it for truth. Leo does it for love. In short, There's more to become conscious of. The 5-MEO-DMT is truly the God molecule. And my journey toward true God-realization just begin. Thank you, Leo. Thank you for showing me 5-MEO-DMT and for your teachings. I literally listen to your episodes ever day. And they are the solid foundation for me becoming God yesterday. So it's not just the power of psychedelics that matters, but also what you do when you're not on them matters too.

@Arthogaan Thanks for the love.

@Thought Art Thanks!

@Giulio Bevilacqua No permanent change on the base line consciousness. However, for the past few day, my consciousness would tend to rise and has desire to merge into God consciousness every time I closed my eyes. This is quiet amazing. It's not scary per say, but I'm just wondering why this is happening. The real change after this experience is gaining profound understanding. Even though base line consciousness doesn't change, but when you grasp some profound understanding and you know for a fact that it's true, Man that changed everything.