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No. Maybe yes. Not anymore... This is a big one. But I dont think it affects me anymore,as well. maybe this is the worst. But If you consider that *this moment right here right now* is our freedom,Im free under any circumstances. If u quiet the mind you are free. Haha this is childish. As you grow older you are getting less and less fear from that. Its only temporary. As long as it happens,you cant help but feel it. Pain even unbearable you cant escape. Loool. In my experience,the past 5 years my 2 grandpas had passed away,then my uncle (young)and then my aunt(young). Im very very used to death and highly tolerant. Im not afraid of it. Whatever you do,in my opinion doesnt matter. Only thing that matters is how you are feeling inside. Not money,relationships etc. Not afraid. Loool this is kinda scary. But my grandma has dementia and lives with us. I think she is having a nice time and ppl love her unconditionally. The past 2 months I ve kind of learnt what unconditional love looks like.

I guess in schizo,the person is living in 2 different "realities" in and out in and out. And they dont know what its true and they have so much fear. But in deperso,its the person who sees himself in the same reality BUT he feels outside of himself. Like someone else is living his life and he is the observer.

Υes for fuck sake,dude. So true! Pure freedom.

So true! Yezzz!

You rule! ?

Nothing wrong with u. In the end u will understand there was never a need/desire,and u will stop looking and then it will come.

Too many people on this forum want to change things. Isnt that suffering? Isnt that resistant? Now,the previous guy wanted to be a bad guy,and now you want to talk to people more and not feel what you are feeling? Those beliefs u have are old beliefs,theyre in your head for a long time, but trying to get rid of something,doesnt work. If u accept yourself as you are, meaning..a person who doesnt enjoy talking to ppl? Now whats wrong with it? Nothing. Some ppl like you exist on this earth. Imagine If we were all gossipy and loud and eager for stupid conversations. It would be exhausting. Take your time and accept it. 1. I think there is a fear right there. That you will lose your precious moment. The present moment with your self. Its okay to be distracted some time. But embrace your situation. 2.3.4. All beliefs. Just beliefs that u hold.

This is so stupid! Stupid goal ! Nerds cant become bad guys. Nerds will be always nerds. Never worked never will. Do you want to be another one similar to the masses? Sad. Trying to change who u are is a total suffering. So you want to change radically and this doesnt work. Do You want to know why? It doesnt work that way. Unless you accept yourself,you cant be in a peaceful relationship as u wish to be. What you describe is another form of low self esteem. If you cant love yourself,nobody can. Ps. Bad guys were raised in a good way as you did,but for them something went wrong in the middle. Dont wish to be one of them. Bad guys experienced plenty of rejection and they became such monsters. Of course they never got over their fears. Thats why they continue to be "bad".

Maybe you're too nervous? Or you are focused on the goal rather than have fun? People can sense that.

Ι hate this spider. I want to stamp on it. Hahahaha

I would love to join for addictions in general,but I dont have an issue with masturbation addiction.

Ive found the one ....but Im talking only about appearance. So Ive found the only appearance that I like. The rest of it is the difficult.

I dont thing that action is the goal. I would suggest to have that changes in your mind first,because thats where they begin at the 1st place. Action is a bit irrelevant to me. Doesnt change much. Because the mind,no matter your acheivements ..can easily "erase"...annihilate all the things called action,in just about a minute. I mean...all these are beliefs,that the mind puts in yoyr way,and makw you believe that If u have them,things will change for the better.And maybe in this case you mean probably that...because you are an observer of reality,in order to believe you have to see,but this is not ideal imo. Behind every success( there is an illusion of the mind) lies an end of a goal,an award! But that is again a thought and belief born in your mind. At least for me,when I discovered Abe Hicks teachings,I realized its not about action,because success never ends,you will continue to want more and more and more and desire never ends. But that is what matters. How you feel at the moment,and that feeling,actions cant change. At least is how I view it. Because these stories play inside the mind.

Yes. Separation! When we are all one! Yes u cant judge judge and be okay with yourself. These 2 dont go together. How to do this? How can u make your mind understand this when its needed? Toootally. As you said in my recent thread,ppl do such things,u cant control them! Totally me. I agree its pointless by the end of the day.It all clears up in the night and the next morning the same again! Pointless. People must see this because it brings suffering,too!

I agree with everything but this☝ And that is because comparison appears in a very young age and in this case you cant do anything to stop it.It just comes and u feel awful seeing ur parents comparing u with other kids. But parents can stop it before the child is born. So both of the parents can agree to raise a child without these bullshit.

We do this because we like to rationalize EVERYTHING. Because we believe that for everything there is a reason out there! Sad. We believe we must reach something OTHERWISE we will miss out in life! Loool. Life is now.

Who says? Dont you care for your suffering? Is it all this that worth your suffering? Who says? Who cares? You? Do u really care? And why? Let me tell you. Because you sense theres something wrong. Of course. Do what makes you "happy". Love it If you want.

These two things dont go together. Pain is separate/independent from what you think you want. By this, I mean that pain will always exist,you cant do something to vanish it. So your choices are limitless. You can want whatever,desire everything or something or nothing! But you will experience pain however! Avoiding pain is the worst! Now for the second part of the question,how to find true passion,I really believe its a matter of circumstances (which u create) but with experience and knowledge in life,you somehow come to a conclusion! Letting things flow is for sure the first step to find them! But I really dont think there's something you seek. It just comes! From nowhere! You feel it and then you follow it. But then again,why does that matter? Whatever you choose doesnt matter a lot. Every choice is a choice. Good or bad,you name it! Good luck.

@Principium Nexus Take that wisdom,come back and tell me If there is still something special about her! 1. 2. 3.

Its awful. Loool. Ps. There is no "with her". We are all here.

Haha It seems a lot of people have experienced similar shit. To be honest,seeing someone or not seeing them,doesnt make ANY difference imo because,that which you have in mind/heart is there because is there.And you decide you let it go, or you keep holding on to that. Its all about a choice. Ive had a similar experience before! It will pass!

Great advice but.... This is not good advice in my opinion. New girls/current girl,are irrelevant factors. Him finding new girls aint gonna solve his "problem". Its all in the mind.

Slayyyy biatch! Loool.