Katiee

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  1. I wrote this while have a panic attack and it pulled me through Hello Panic, Welcome Fear Come and take a seat right here. No need for you to guard the door Cos I'm not running anymore Yes make my heart beat fast and strong No don't back off, please, do go on Oh yes that trick, I know it well Cold as ice then hot as hell And this one... by far your best That evil death grip to my chest You love to hear me gasp for air Squeeze tighter so I know you care Distort my vision, cloud my mind Those hidden terrors help me find Make me beg and plead and cry Convince me I'm about to die Its funny, now I see your game Your side effects become quite lame Collect your troops and wage your war But I'm not fighting anymore You lose!!!
  2. Thanks @Nahm Its so true! Since my brother died unexpectedly a few months back, I've been having maybe 7 or 8 panic attacks a day. I've found its best not to fight it. I become aware of what's happening and just say "do your worst". I still get them but they only last one or 2 minutes now, whereas they used to cripple me for half an hour ?
  3. @Elton . Thanks Elton. Sweet of you
  4. Hey! Im in Southend On Sea
  5. Theres a tiny little box Called a prison for the mind It boasts a thousand locks And the keys are hard to find Hard, because we never try We would not even dare We'd rather let it slowly die Than take a look out there Besides, the cell is kinda fun There's music films and sports We'd rather watch how others run Be guided by their thoughts "Lights out" the jailer cries! But we're getting out of here... The locks are made of lies And it's lies that caused the fear Katie xx
  6. Hey guys, I'm going to arrange a 7 day retreat for early September. I'm not sure where yet. Maybe the Swiss Alps. Is location important? I'm planning to go and meditate a lot (something I'm new to). I wondered if you have any suggestions as to how to prepare for this and what to do while im there. I want to get the best out of it. Katie
  7. It's a diy @Mal. That's good advice. I will indeed wind down before I go.
  8. I started watching Leo's videos about a week ago and have seen about 15 of them. I now find myself questioning everything that i have ever known. My perception of reality is changing so rapidly. Prepared or not, this has happened and I find myself a little apprehensive and lost on this journey to finding myself. Has anyone else experienced this?
  9. Thank you all for taking the time to share your thoughts
  10. Thank you for the advice and encouragement @charlie2dogs
  11. @Natasha where can I find the thought flattening technique? Which video?
  12. It's worth it though right? @Extreme Z7 I mean... the benefits grow exponentially?
  13. That's some deep insight right there @FindingPeace. Thank you for taking the time. You are right. There's no turning back. Awareness is the only way forward. I especially like what you said about Leo's concepts being self evident. I was watching a lot of self help videos on youtube and only gleaning small amounts of useful info but with Leo it's different.... he speaks of many things that I have learned over the years by experience and he fills in more pieces of the puzzle than the other self help guru's I've come across. The responsibility to first investigate, test, then discern what we choose to integrate is ultimately ours alone. We all have a unique journey. Many of my old beliefs are vanishing before my eyes as a new world opens up to me. Beliefs that caused nothing but pain but that consumed my every thought and dictated every action for as long as I can remember. The driving force within me is changing. Like I was speeding at over 100 mph to my destruction and now I've come to a stand still and am fully aware of not being fully aware, hence i am as yet unequipped to map my journey forward. I'll just get out of my car for a while, maybe have a picnic and take in the views. Enjoy the slower pace and hopefully the future will become clear.