Raphael

I had an experience like this. For 18 months I worked in a company of ~20 people and was the only one to have some different origins, and yes I felt excluded and attracted some comments based on my origins. I also experienced a clash between stage blue and orange, most people in the company where at blue where I was mostly at orange. It was an emotionally difficult situation but was not the first time that I felt excluded based on my appearance. It helps to do perspective switch exercises to experience and understand the pain in other groups.

07 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 08:10 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:30 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: 02:50 PM - 03:48 PM: I had a call with a client. Work Duration: 58 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 11:28 AM - 12:27 AM: I fixed a few bugs. Deep Work Duration: 59 minutes 01:46 PM - 02:50 PM: I worked on the forgot password page then got interrupted by a client. 1 hour 4 minutes 04:03 PM - 04:47 PM: I almost finished the retrieve password page. Deep Work Duration: 44 minutes. 07:51 PM - 09:11 PM: I completed the retrieve password page, did the reset password page, and a few other fixes. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 20 minutes I almost didn't sleep of the entire night. My mind was too agitated and because of that, I woke up very late. I'm also overblown, I consume too much information, and my usage of screens before going to bed is not healthy. @Raphael I see a recurrent pattern in you, you usually have one week of progress and one week down. Those downs are fine, it's just homeostasis playing in. Accept those moments, they are necessary for your progress. Total Work Duration: 5 hours 5 minutes, including 4 hours 7 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

Hello, I recently started to change my meditation habit and tried the strong determination setting technique. I used to meditate for 1 hour every day and found this technique much more powerful. I couldn't stay for 1 hour, the maximum that I did was 35 minutes. Now I just have one question: When Leo said to not move at all during the session, is it really literally? Can I swallow my saliva or should I drop it on the floor? Can I blink? Should my entire body be completely like a stone without any tremor?

Putting Too Many Weights To My Feets I notice that often time I put myself in very difficult situations, much more difficult than I can handle. I think that I usually do that because I want to grow and get toughed up to handle more difficult life challenges. There is some truth in this perspective, but there is also some false. The true part is that we need challenges to evolve in order to be competent in dealing with and evolving in life. The false part is that too many challenges can put someone extremely down so down that the person will not even be able to recover in the future and be negatively impacted for years or decades or maybe even for life. I also think that I put myself in difficult situations because of a stage orange mentally. In previous situations, I wanted to be seen as macho and strong, and result-oriented, as the guy who can achieve everything by itself without the help of anyone. This is not the case. That has never been the case of any human being who ever existed because we are all intimately interconnected. To evolve properly through life, one's needs to set calibrated challenges and proper expectations. Not enough challenges will make him/her lazy and incompetent, too much challenges will damage him/her.

06 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:33 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:25 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Deep Work Sessions: 11:25 AM - 01:03 AM: I changed social login icons, but I was quite distracted looking at the actualized.org forum. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 38 minutes 02:26 PM - 03:29 PM: I worked on the product page. I was distracted because I was listening to Leo at the same time. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 3 minutes 03:35 PM - 04:46 PM: I continued the design of the product page. I was distracted because I was listening to Leo at the same time Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 11 minutes 07:40 PM - 08:11 PM: I created the payment validation page. I was distracted because I was listening to Leo at the same time. Deep Work Duration: 31 minutes @Raphael Ok Raphael, I get it, you got lazy and got distracted notably on this forum. That's the reality, so let's accept it. Now, for tomorrow, just remember, the important thing is to immediately get focused on what you want to do in your life when waking up. Just stay focused and do what's necessary. Take care ♥ Total Work Duration: 4 hours 23 minutes, including 4 hours 23 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

Maybe because it is the case Having regular sleeping hours is difficult especially for people who have an overactive mind. I personally struggle with that, but the thing that really helps is to stop all electronics 1 hour before going to bed which I struggle with. Thanks for your encouragement! I hope that you will get your life together too

@Robi Steel I'm surprised to find Trump supporters on this forum. How did you discover actualized.org? What value do you find here?

@Nak Khid Yes, I know, that's in a case if I want to meditate with the eyes open. Thank for the other advices by the way.

05 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:15 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:15 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: No work for today @Raphael That's good Raphael, you rest properly today. Tomorrow you will wake up at 5:30 AM and be in shape for the day. Love ♥ Total Work Duration: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

It's All About Luck Classic self-development emphasizes a lot about taking responsibility and hard work. The reality is that it's all about luck. Being responsible and working hard only works if a person lives in a minimum working environment. Stage orange wants to be proud of being the one who starts from nothing and build itself up until it becomes rich and famous. But almost no one becomes rich by starting from the complete bottom, individual success are all dependants of thousands of years of evolution. it was nearly impossible to get rich a thousand years ago, yet many people now are already richer than kings who lived before them for just having the privilege of being born in the 21st century and in a stable place of the world. It's because billions of people went through the pain of building the infrastructures that we know now in the 21st century that many of us can now be responsible, independent, and work hard to get luxuries that never existed before. There is a difference between being a victim and living in an unstable environment. A victim is someone who is living in a minimum working environment but doesn't do anything to improve and complain about its situation. Where some people in the world work hard and take full responsibility for their life every day but will never have a decent life because the environment that they live in doesn't have the necessary infrastructure. Personal responsibility doesn't exist as they are no self, yet stage orange egos want to feel that it exists and want to feel being an individual. In reality, life creates itself in certain ways and some of the ego created are lucky enough to be born in functioning environments that will then allow them to develop to higher stages and eventually awaken.

Attention Neediness I noticed myself wanted to attract attention from users on this forum by quoting them in my journals. I wanted to do it in my new journal Insights by quoting them and mentioning them so that they can notice me. Damnnn... my ego is so big, but hopefully, I'm becoming aware of it. I just decided to change my approach, so what I will do if I quote someone in my journal is instead of mentioning them I will only put a link to their profile and a link to the quoted post.

Leo, Please Stop Please, Leo, stop making such awesome deep videos. I would like to diversify my knowledge sources and listen to other thinkers, but I can't because I resonate so much with your content that I'm addicted to it

I think that it's red/blue imposing its authority on blue people and insulting its own blue people.

Ok, I always thought it was real, so he is a good actor. But do you think that he would do videos like this if he was high conscious?

Thank you guys. @Nak Khid I actually close my eyes during my sessions, so blinking is not an issue. Currently, the main issue that I'm experiencing is physical pain notably in my legs because I sit in a lotus position and my body is very rigid.

04 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:22 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:17 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Deep Work Sessions: 09:45 AM - 10:51 AM: I fixed an image loading bug. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 6 minutes 11:10 AM - 12:47 AM: I fixed some bugs and found more bugs. Lol. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 37 minutes 03:28 PM - 04:40 PM: I corrected the subscribe button, removed incorrect social media login icons, and did some research. I also forgot about some stuff that I did. I felt quite tired because I almost didn't sleep at night. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 12 minutes I almost didn't sleep at night because my mind was too crazy, it caused me to wake up late and have difficulties working today. @Raphael Ok Raphael, you were a little down today, but it's fine it happens sometimes. You need some time to recover. Tomorrow is your rest day, have some downtime, minimize your activities, and recover properly to be at your best on Monday. Love from your higher self ♥ Total Work Duration: 3 hours 55 minutes, including 2 hours 47 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

Journaling Feels Great I recently become aware of how great it feels for me to journal. I have so many insights every day, so many things going on in my head, it feels great to release them. I will journal more in the future.

How do you know that it was played?

03 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:37 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:18 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: 09:26 AM - 10:23 AM: I did some research on the Instagram API. Work Duration: 57 minutes 10:43 AM - 11:01 AM: I planned a few new tasks. Work Duration: 18 minutes 01:32 PM - 02:35 PM: I planned a new task and had a call with a client. Work Duration: 1 hour 3 minutes 07:28 PM - 08:30 PM: I started a new SEO course. Work Duration: 1 hour 2 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 11:06 AM - 12:30 AM: I went back to my personal project and created an API to get all connected Instagram accounts for a user. I got a little distracted by some stuff during this session and also experienced negative thoughts and sadness. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 24 minutes 02:46 PM - 04:09 PM: I created a new API and did some changes to a previous one. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 23 minutes @Raphael Good job Raphael! Also if you can start working for at least 09:00 AM it will be awesome too. Continue! Total Work Duration: 6 hours 7 minutes, including 2 hours 47 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

02 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:30 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: ~ 09:09 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: 08:02 AM - 08:31 AM: I had a call with a client, he pointed out some bugs. Work Duration: 29 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 07:35 AM - 08:02 AM: I worked on optional fields and validation for the checkout page. Deep Work Duration: 27 minutes 08:41 AM - 10:02 AM: I made some other changes to the checkout page. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 21 minutes 12:14 AM - 01:02 AM: I analyzed some bugs. Deep Work Duration: 48 minutes 02:00 PM - 03:08 PM: I added some API calls. I still have many unrelated thoughts, I guess my life is not focused enough on my goals. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 8 minutes 03:15 PM - 04:37 PM: I finished loading the most similar products slider and almost completed the alternative products slider. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 17 minutes 07:29 PM - 07:56 PM: I'm now loading the correct alternative products data after getting the current product base information and metadata. Deep Work Duration: 27 minutes @Raphael That's good, your improving and regulating the rhythm. Congratulations for waking up at 5:30 AM! Keep it up! Total Work Duration: 6 hours 08 minutes, including 5 hours 39 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

01 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:45 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:05 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Deep Work Sessions: 11:09 AM - 01:20 PM: I started to handle the country shipping error on the checkout page. I got a little distracted near the end. Deep Work Duration: 2 hours 11 minutes 07:15 PM - 07:50 PM: I completed the shipping error handling. Deep Work Duration: 35 minutes @Raphael That's great, you rest properly today Try to wake up at 5:30 AM tomorrow, it will be very useful for your organization and your mood for the day. Love from your higher self ♥ Total Work Duration: 2 hours 46 minutes, including 2 hours 46 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

I feel like losing thousands of neurons when listening to my family's discussions.

On Fixing Others And Ourselves So true and so elegantly said. Credits: @loub Full Post: https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/50870-experiences-of-conscious-bullying/?do=findComment&comment=656161