Raphael

24 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:40 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:15 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 11:42 AM - 11:56 AM: I had a conversation with my client. Work Duration: 14 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:02 AM - 10:11 AM: I corrected the API calls for the filters on the search page. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 9 minutes 10:34 AM - 11:42 AM: I started to handle new query parameters to set the filters on the product grid page. My client called me near the end. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 8 minutes 12:07 AM - 12:50 AM: I completed the corrections for the filters on the product grid page. I will have to do the same for the search page. Deep Work Duration: 43 minutes 01:46 PM - 03:01 PM: I corrected the search page filters and updated the view for the order's history. I distracted myself briefly at a moment. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 15 minutes 03:10 PM - 04:52 PM: I created the view order items modal. I still have a little of work to do in this area. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 42 minutes @Raphael Superb work! The do nothing habit before going to bed works very well on your sleep. Continue the good work! Total Work Duration: 6 hours 11 minutes, including 5 hours 57 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

23 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:40 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:05 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 08:02 AM - 08:18 AM: I had a quick call with my client. Work Duration: 16 minutes 12:00 AM - 12:23 AM: I did a small correction than a quick summary of what needs to be done. Work Duration: 23 minutes 01:33 PM - 02:37 PM: I had a talk with my client, he is still adding more work and talking about future projects, but doesn't want to pay enough. These negotiations are tight, I hope to get better payments for the following months. Work Duration: 1 hour 4 minutes 04:13 PM - 04:30 PM: I did a few analysis and started a few improvements on the search page. Work Duration: 17 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 07:24 AM - 08:02 AM: I continued to clean the project and fixed the remaining bugs. 38 minutes 08:28 AM - 10:03 AM: More bug fixes. I distracted myself at a moment. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 35 minutes 10:35 AM - 11:50 AM: More bug fixes. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 15 minutes 03:02 PM - 04:08 PM: I fixed the filters for the product grid page. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 6 minutes 04:48 PM - 05:36 PM: I started to work on the filters for the product page. Deep Work Duration: 48 minutes @Raphael Superb job You worked a lot today and in a focused manner. Congratulations! Continue! Total Work Duration: 7 hours 22 minutes, including 5 hours 22 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

22 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:35 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:20 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 08:33 AM - 08:56 AM: I had a call with my client. Work Duration: 23 minutes 10:12 AM - 10:23 AM: I had another call with my client. Work Duration: 11 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:21 AM - 10:12 AM: I fixed more bugs on the project. Deep Work Duration: 51 minutes 10:56 AM - 12:20 AM: More bug fixes. I was less distracted in the second half because my sister called me to talk. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 24 minutes @Raphael Good, you woke up early and rest properly today Total Work Duration: 2 hours 49 minutes, including 2 hours 15 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

This guy is incredible

21 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:30 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:00 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 01:42 PM - 03:05 PM: I withdraw the money from the freelancing platform. I also searched for a better laptop and made an order. Work Duration: 1 hour 23 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:05 AM - 10:00 AM: I started to fix the remaining bugs on the project, I fixed the cart number bug and I will fix the order data bug after. Deep Work Duration: 55 minutes 10:20 AM - 11:35 AM: I created a service for managing cookies and find out why I was having so many issues with them. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 15 minutes 11:42 AM - 12:20 AM: I wanted to continue fixing the remaining bugs, but I had many API errors. I contacted my client but didn't get any response. Deep Work Duration: 38 minutes 03:48 PM - 04:02 PM: I fixed a few bugs. The server is still not up, I cannot do a lot of things. Deep Work Duration: 14 minutes 07:42 PM - 07:55 PM: I correction another small bug. The server is still down, unfortunately. Deep Work Duration: 13 minutes @Raphael Remember, when things are hard just pause and let go. When you feel resistance, just let go. When you feel the urge to distract yourself, just let go. When your body is tight, just let go. When things aren't going well, just relax your body and let go. Accept the now, let go & love yourself ♥️ Total Work Duration: 4 hours 38 minutes, including 3 hours 3 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

I need to take more empty time, I have been way too distracted recently.

20 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:37 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:22 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 02:20 PM - 02:22 PM: I just did a commit. Work Duration: 2 minutes 03:41 PM - 04:55 PM: I started to read about the Twitter API, then my client distracted me and we had a pretty long conversation. Work Duration: 1 hour 14 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 08:35 AM - 10:02 AM: I corrected a bug, then started to work on Instagram login. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 27 minutes 10:42 AM - 12:12 AM: I completed the Instagram login modal. I need to do the same thing for the registration. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 30 minutes 01:18 PM - 02:04 PM: I implemented the Instagram registration and did some corrections. Deep Work Duration: 48 minutes 07:48 PM - 09:16 PM: I made API calls to verify the token validity and created the session expired modal. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 28 minutes I distracted myself too much on the internet today. I thought I'll work in a focused manner, but I failed. @Raphael Good, you woke up early and worked enough today Just remember, stay focused, this is critically important. Total Work Duration: 6 hours 29 minutes, including 5 hours 13 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

19 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:00 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:15 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 09:35 AM - 10:22 AM: I started to work on Google social login, so far so good. Deep Work Duration: 47 minutes 10:50 AM - 12:42 AM: I finished Google login implementation, I took more time than I expected. I had negative and sad thoughts of past events that came back and also other thoughts related to self-actualization. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 52 minutes I didn't expect to work, but this client is demanding so I worked a little anyway. I need to learn to set boundaries and ask for more if there's more work. @Raphael That's good, you woke up early and worked a little today. You maybe didn't relax properly as you didn't take a lot of empty time, but that's fine, you will do better next time. Take care ♥️ Total Work Duration: 2 hours 39 minutes, including 2 hours 39 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

@commie @zeroISinfinity @modmyth @Galyna It might be better to open a new thread to discuss all these issues, we are derailing he's journal here. The discussion is not only about him anymore, and I feel that it will expand in many directions.

I don't know if this is only me, but I feel like it mostly works when someone has repressed anger. That way when someone is harsh, the person reacts and wants to prove others wrong. I don't consider this healthy as it's backed up by fear.

I agree, and it's actually after being broked in pieces myself that I started loving myself. I was just so down that I started to have panic attacks, I thought I was dying. It led me to the realization that I need to accept and love myself, and that's what is currently allowing me to move forward even though I still have backslashes. Nevertheless, I consider that there's a limit to how much someone needs to be broken down, some people never recover. I don't know him that much nor the relationship that you guys are, so I'm maybe wrong here, and maybe broking him down is necessary, but I personally don't want to break him until he has a panic attack or a heart attack. There's an equilibrium to be found and some limits to be respected to allow growth to happen.

Canada looks like the ideal from my perspective. New Zealand and Australia also look great. But of course, that's only the feeling that I get as I never been to these countries before.

I'm not sure if I'm qualified to post here because I have a similar age and I'm also living with my parents, but I'm doing it anyway. From my perspective, you are too harsh on yourself and also have some victim mentality. @zeroISinfinity I also think that you are too harsh on him. In my experience, hyper-masculine approaches never worked on me. Putting yourself so down by being so harsh, by blaming yourself/others, and shaming yourself/others doesn't' work as you can see. Last time that I was so critical and harsh of myself, I was also very hateful and depressed. At home, I would lay down on the floor thinking about suicide, insulting myself, and masturbating myself all day to evacuate my anger. At work, I would ignore everyone and refuse everything of them and because of that others would also be hypercritical of me and insult me. The result was a downward spiral of depression and anger. What helped me during this ~1 year period of time was to stop trying to do things, isolate myself with my depression, change environment, and keep my social interactions to the minimum. Acceptance first, progress after. @Raptorsin7 You can PM if you want.

18 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:38 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:10 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:13 AM - 10:00 AM: I explored Twitter's functionalities and played a little with their API. Work Duration: 47 minutes 10:20 AM - 11:41 AM: I'm continuing exploring Twitter's documentation, I'm making some progress, but still not able to get data. Work Duration: 1 hour 21 minutes 11:50 AM - 12:40 AM: I finally understand how the authorization works for the Twitter API and I'm now able to make it work. I also had unrelated negative thoughts about previous difficult social experiences. Work Duration: 50 minutes 01:49 PM - 01:57 PM: I had a quick call with my client. Work Duration: 8 minutes 03:20 PM - 04:15 PM: I had another call with my client, I was quite distracted during the call. Work Duration: 55 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 02:11 PM - 03:15 PM: I started to do some corrections on my client's website. I distracted myself quite a lot on the actualized.org forum in the beginning. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 4 minutes 07:28 PM - 08:25 PM: I fixed some bugs, but they are other ones that are sneaky. I will need to do an in-depth inspection before finishing the project. Work Duration: 57 minutes My laptop is slowing me down in my work, I often experience lags and sometimes complete freezes, I need to find another computer. I got distracted quite a lot by social media today, I need to intensify my focus on my work and objectives. @Raphael You worked enough today, stay aware of distractions and focus on your work to accomplish extraordinary things Total Work Duration: 6 hours 2 minutes, including 1 hour 57 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

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17 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:26 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:20 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:00 AM - 09:23 AM: I started the day by a call with my client. Work Duration: 23 minutes 03:04 PM - 04:02 PM: I did some progress in exploring the Twitter API. I found a code example that is helping me to understand its authentication process. My vision of the API is still blurry, but I'm improving. Work Duration: 58 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:45 AM - 10:31 AM: I did a few corrections and started to work on the contact section. I was a little distracted. Deep Work Duration: 46 minutes 10:56 AM - 12:17 AM: I completed the contact us section, I still need to work on the modal. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 21 minutes 01:18 PM - 02:48 PM: I completed the contact us modal and added dynamic page titles everywhere. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 30 minutes I had a bad night, it caused me to be lazy and tired during the day. I didn't want to get out of bed and just layed down for too long in the morning. I also procrastinated a little and distracted myself with social media during my breaks. @Raphael Ok, today was a little difficult as you slacked off because of bad sleep. That's fine, it happens, let's accept it, you will do better tomorrow. Fortunately, you are taking responsibility for the quality of your sleep and choosing to start doing a do nothing habit before going to sleep. That's a good move, it will help you so much in the future. You will see your sleep quality highly improving in the next weeks and will have better shape and mood during the days. Take care ♥️ Total Work Duration: 4 hours 58 minutes, including 3 hours 37 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

New Habit: Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep I keep spending too much time on the computer and reading/listening to information sources before going to bed. I'm conscious of how destructive it is as it excites/agitates my mind and impacts the quality of my sleep which is so critical to work properly. I noticed that I sleep way better when I stop everything and do nothing before going to bed. However, I will not instill that habit until I'm more conscious of its importance, therefore I just decided that I will add a checkbox to my daily summaries where I will indicate if I succeeded or not to Do Nothing For At Least 45 Minutes Before Going To Sleep.

16 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:07 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:35 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: 08:21 AM - 09:29 AM: I did a few verifications and contact Dell and some resellers to get information about a new laptop for my work. Work Duration: 1 hour 8 minutes 09:51 AM - 10:21 AM: I started to dive into Twitter's API documentation, then got interrupted by my client. Work Duration: 30 minutes 10:21 AM - 10:33 AM: I had a call with my client. Work Duration: 12 minutes 03:11 PM - 04:42 PM: I did research on the Twitter API and started to work with it, but got stuck. Work Duration: 1 hour 31 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 01:29 PM - 02:56 PM: I have been very lazy after the previous work sessions. I didn't want to work and just procrastinated on the internet. For this session, I went back to my client's project and determined the domain name from the URL and created a subscription modal. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 27 minutes 07:42 PM - 09:16 PM: I didn't expect to work in the evening, but my client asked me to update the trending, top-selling, and items viewed services and sections. I distracted myself a little near the end. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 34 minutes @Raphael That's good, you worked properly today. Ok, you slacked off at a moment, but that's fine, that happens on the path, you are still making progress. Keep moving forward ♥️ Total Work Duration: 6 hours 22 minutes, including 3 hours 01 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

A Few Thoughts For The End Of The Day I'm not sure what's currently happening, but I have been a little angry for the last two days. Maybe it's because my client is putting pressure on me to always go faster, it seems like he is expecting me to work 10 hours/day. It's strange because many times I don't like that people take care of me, it's maybe because I want to be seen as an overachiever. My mom wants to do so many things for me that it annoys me, I feel like been treated like a baby sometimes and having no independence. I consider this to be the main failure in the way that she raised me, many times she just did too much for me where she should have put some boundaries and push me to do things on my own, except that all the rest was fine. It's strange that the more alone I want to be, the more people come to me. I'm started to get bored living with my family for almost one year, I feel the need to move again.

15 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:11 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:30 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: 08:43 AM - 09:53 AM: I had a call with my client. Work Duration: 10 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 07:29 AM - 08:43 AM: I had trouble fixing some bugs for the update details page, but finally found a solution. My client interrupted me near the end of the session. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 14 minutes 09:04 AM - 10:15 AM: I try to find bugs and did some corrections. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 11 minutes 10:30 AM - 12:10 AM: I did many fixes, but was quite distracted by my thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 40 minutes @Raphael That's fine, you got some rest today. Tomorrow you will have a productive day. Total Work Duration: 4 hours 15 minutes, including 4 hours 5 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

I encountered some people in my life that really hurt me in the past and even now, even if will never see most of these people again I still feel hurt and have thoughts about them and emotions that come up from time to time. Sometimes, I will have thoughts about telling them everything straight to their face, but I will not do it because I don't want to release anger to them and I don't have any contact with them anymore. Forcing my mind to focus on other stuff & letting go works to a certain degree, but that's not enough because the anger is accumulated inside me. How can I release the hate?

Quitting Social Media Works Quitting or minimizing social media just works. Whether it's Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, or any source that provides information non-related to work like this forum or other news websites, it just boosts working days to not use them at all until the end of the day. During a workday, we typically don't have a lot of time between pauses, maybe only 10 - 15 minutes. This is far insufficient to read and analyze an information properly, so it's just better to do nothing. Do nothing frees our mind and provides minutes of necessary non-overloaded inattention. A computer will slow down if its memory is overloaded by hundreds of applications running simultaneously, and it's the same thing with our brains, we need empty space to process new information and produce high-quality work. The best thing to do regarding non-work information sources is to completely avoid them all day, and then just contribute 1 - 2 hours to go through them at the end of the day or during the evening.

14 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:34 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:08 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: 10:02 AM - 10:33 AM: I had a call with my client. Work Duration: 31 minutes 03:17 PM - 03:20 PM: I had a quick call. Work Duration: 3 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 08:05 AM - 09:15 AM: I did an API call to get the recently viewed items and I also created a lot of new components. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 10 minutes 09:21 AM - 09:54 AM: I worked on the activate account page. I'm getting an error after executing the API, but it looks more like a backend issue. Deep Work Duration: 33 minutes 10:45 AM - 12:22 AM: I did a few fixes and then mostly worked on the orders history component, it's almost completed now. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 37 minutes 01:15 PM - 02:15 PM: I completed the orders history component. I distracted myself a little in between and I was also a little sleepy, I'm always a little sleepy in the afternoon. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 02:29 PM - 03:17 PM: I worked on getting user details when loading the app. Deep Work Duration: 48 minutes 05:29 PM - 04:41 PM: I worked on the member details form and almost completed it. I got a little distracted in the beginning. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 12 minutes Pfiou! Today was a huge day as I deep worked for more than 6 hours. I was quite exhausted at the end as highly focused work is very draining, but I'm satisfied with my day. My client is one of those crazy work alcoholics guys, he just works all day until 10 PM-Midnight and wakes up at 6 AM, that's a crazy life. I got the surprise to get Twitter approval where I thought that I would have some trouble, it's awesome because it means that I'm now allowed to use their API to develop my personal project. @Raphael That's awesome Raph, you nailed this day! Be careful to not overwork, tomorrow try to free at least half of the day. Take care ♥️ Total Work Duration: 6 hours 53 minutes, including 6 hours 20 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

@Boethius Ok, I will try this one. @Espaim This looks powerful, thank you.

People Will Hurt Each Other Inevitably We are just so ignorant of ourselves, so ignorant that we hurt others without knowing it, so ignorant that we get hurt by ignorance and are ignorant of others' ignorances. It's impossible to not hurt anybody and very difficult to not get hurt. As a specie even in a highly developed society people will hurt each other because of ignorance. We cannot help ourselves, we are just that way.