Raphael

@Forestluv What does the left don't like about Biden?

14 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 08:22 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:15 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 09:30 AM - 10:33 AM: I created the cookie policy modal and started to fix some bugs on the product grid. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 3 minutes 10:58 AM - 12:37 AM: I worked on the navigation and added all the important links to them. I had a lot of negative thoughts about previous difficult social experiences. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 39 minutes 01:47 PM - 03:06 PM: I created the mobile legal pages, the forgot password page, and then reset password one. I distracted myself near the end with some podcasts. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 19 minutes 03:12 PM - 04:06 PM: I completed the remaining pages and did a few design adjustments. Deep Work Duration: 54 minutes I almost didn't sleep for the entire night. I got super lazy in the morning and didn't want to get out of bed. That's OK anyway because I didn't want to work that much today as I was tired of the last two weeks and feeling so much pressure on me. Total Work Duration: 4 hours 54 minutes, including 4 hours 54 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

They fit perfectly together. I think having two people of different gender in the president and vice president positions can bring a little more balance in the government. I hope to see more of that in the future and in other countries too. It's also maybe better that they are not the most progressive candidates because they can appeal to more people from both the left and the right. If Bernie would be Trump's opponent, Trump would have more chances of winning because more people would resonate with him and resist Bernie.

13 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:02 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:05 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 09:29 AM - 10:40 AM: I worked on the navigation links for the member area, it created a display bug for the login and logout buttons. I also started to design the mobile version of the orders history section. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 11 minutes 11:14 AM - 12:51 AM: I started to divide the enquire component for mobile/desktop views. I distracted myself near the end because I started to listen to a podcast. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 37 minutes 01:57 PM - 03:04 PM: I completed the enquire component and started to work on the items viewed component. I was quite distracted because I was listening to a podcast at the same time. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 7 minutes 03:15 PM - 04:23 PM: I almost completed the order items component. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 8 minutes 04:31 PM - 04:51 PM: I completed the order items component. Deep Work Duration: 20 minutes 08:27 PM - 09:14 PM: I moved the currency selection to the side menu. Deep Work Duration: 47 minutes @Raphael Good job Stay aware of the distractions and focus completely on your work. Keep it up! Total Work Duration: 6 hours 20 minutes, including 6 hours 20 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

12 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:44 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:20 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 02:08 PM - 03:38 PM: I continued the work on the mobile/desktop separation of the checkout page. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 30 minutes 03:44 PM - 05:00 PM: I completed the mobile version of checkout page, the cancel checkout page, and the validate payment page. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 16 minutes 08:13 PM - 08:54 PM: I completed the mobile view for the stripe payment. I distracted myself a little near the end. Deep Work Duration: 41 minutes 09:00 PM - 10:01 PM: I started to work on the mobile version of the orders history. It's almost complete, I was quite focused. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 1 minute @Raphael Good, that's better. Continue to re-stabilize yourself ? Total Work Duration: 4 hours 28 minutes, including 3 hours 57 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

11 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:51 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:00 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 08:25 AM - 09:57 AM: I started the day with some fixes concerning the social logins. It caused me a lot of trouble, but I'm finally out of it. I got distracted at some moments. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 32 minutes 10:26 AM - 12:16 AM: I started to fix more bugs related to the mobile layout. I distracted myself a bit at some moments. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 50 minutes 12:26 AM - 12:52 AM: I completed the fixes to the mobile layout. Deep Work Duration: 26 minutes 02:15 AM - 03:44 PM: I started to work on the cart page. I wasn't highly focused because I was listening to some videos and then talked with my sister. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 29 minutes 03:56 AM - 05:02 AM: I almost finished the cart page. I wasn't very concentrated because I was talking to my sister at the same time. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 6 minutes 08:04 AM - 09:08 AM: I completed the cart page and started the checkout page, it's half complete. I was quite focused during this session. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 4 minutes @Raphael Courage Raphael, courage! Total Work Duration: 7 hours 27 minutes, including 3 hours 57 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

The bald guy is toxic which is ironic because he said himself that men became toxic.

10 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:31 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:50 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: 03:51 PM - 04:31 PM: I had a call with my client. It looks like the more I work for him, the more he wants me to work non-stop. Work Duration: 40 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:47 AM - 10:36 AM: I created the mobile search menu and did some adjustments. I distracted myself at a moment by doing some desktop configuration. Deep Work Duration: 49 minutes 11:21 AM - 12:05 AM: I completed the search functionality. It looks very good, I'm very satisfied with the result. Deep Work Duration: 54 minutes 12:15 AM - 01:03 AM: I started to separate the login component into a desktop and mobile version. Deep Work Duration: 48 minutes 03:28 PM - 03:51 PM: I worked on the login page. Deep Work Duration: 23 minutes 08:24 PM - 08:59 PM: I completed the mobile login view, the social logins are not working yet, I will add them after completing the registration page. Deep Work Duration: 35 minutes 09:10 PM - 09:50 PM: I worked on the mobile registration view. It's almost complete. Deep Work Duration: 40 minutes 09:57 PM - 10:26 PM: I completed the register mobile view and added the loading logo. I will deal with the social logins tomorrow. Deep Work Duration: 29 minutes My client is pressuring me and I don't like it. I over stress when I'm pressured and in consequence I'm more lazy and I procrastinate and take more time to do my work. I respect more the deadlines without deadlines. I know that I will have to deal with such situations in the future, and not being able to give the work on the time is similar to dying for me. I think that the best way to deal with such situations is to work as if I'm already dead so that I don't have anything to stress about. Total Work Duration: 5 hours 18 minutes, including 4 hours 38 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

So Many People Do Dumb Shit Warning: The following paragraph is a rant and will be seeing as toxic and insulting to some people All my life I have been blown away by how many dumb things people do. By people, I'm talking about normal average people who just have an average life and live pretty well. They are the people that I mostly grew up with, they are people who just live life without trying to improve anything. They just do so many dumb things, it's incredible. When they eat, they eat unhealthy food without even thinking about it and the future consequences. When they entertain themselves, they entertain themselves with the stupidest entertainment possible (dumb movies, low conscious video game, sports, TV, etc.). The information that they consume is total garbage, they don't want to learn anything conscious. When they speak, they just talk shit all the time, say stupid jokes and cannot handle a deep conversation. Physical health is almost non existent for them, they usually don't have any physical activity except walking, and sometimes walking is too difficult for them so they prefer to use public transport. They don't take any responsibility for anything, that's crazy. They simply like to be dumb and say shit all day, they don't want to change, they don't want to improve. I understand that they are where they are, I understand that they are stuck, but I am not conscious enough to accept them completely. When I'm in my lower self, I just see them as dumb people.

09 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:20 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:25 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Deep Work Sessions: 01:48 PM - 03:08 PM: I started to fix bugs related to the mobile filters. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 20 minutes 03:26 PM - 04:57 PM: I continued to fix the bugs related to the mobile filters. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 31 minutes 08:15 PM - 09:21 PM: More fixes, and also more unrelated thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 6 minutes @Raphael That's better, you need to re stabilize yourself. Courage! Total Work Duration: 3 hours 57 minutes, including 3 hours 57 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

Stage Green rap.

I think that's stage red.

08 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:10 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 00:40 AM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Deep Work Sessions: 08:44 AM - 10:00 AM: I wanted to continue the work on the mobile navigation, but run into a bug that I didn't expected. I also got distracted by my depressed grandma who started to cry. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 16 minutes 10:35 AM - 12:19: I continued the work on the mobile navigation. I had a lot of painful thoughts about my dad, my toxic family, stage red, narcissists, psychopaths, and sociopaths. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 44 minutes 03:21 PM - 04:46 PM: I completed the mobile navigation menu. I was distracted as I was at the same time setting up my new computer and talking to my sister. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 25 minutes 09:59 PM - 00:27 AM: I worked on the mobile filters and almost completed them. Deep Work Duration: 2 hours 28 minutes Shit... @Raphael Let go, just let go. Total Work Duration: 5 hours 53 minutes, including 5 hours 53 minute of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

07 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:23 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:05 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 10:32 AM - 12:12 AM: I fixed the bug that I had yesterday and started to design the mobile navigation bar. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 40 minutes 12:20 AM - 01:05 PM: I continued the design of the navigation bar. Deep Work Duration: 45 minutes 02:01 PM - 03:24 PM: I completed the design for the navigation bar. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 23 minutes 03:31 PM - 04:59 PM: I started to design the left navigation pane. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 28 minutes 08:06 PM - 09:08 PM: I continued the work with the navigation page, I'm currently very satisfied with its design. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 2 minutes @Raphael Good job Raph! See letting go always works Continue! Total Work Duration: 6 hours 18 minutes, including 6 hours 18 minute of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

06 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:29 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:20 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 10:10 AM - 10:28 AM: I had a call with my client. Work Duration: 18 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:27 AM - 10:10 AM: I discovered some bugs with the mobile view, I started to fix them, then got a call from my client. Deep Work Duration: 43 minutes 10:47 AM - 12:50 AM: Fixing these structural bugs are a nightmare, they super pissed me off. I also was super distracted by unrelated thoughts storms during this session. Deep Work Duration: 2 hours 3 minutes 02:02 PM - 03:15 PM: All these bugs made me crazy. I lost self-control during this session, fortunately, I saw some light near the end of the session and got out of this endless tunnel. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 13 minutes 07:42 PM - 09:05 PM: There's a remaining bug, but I didn't found a way to fix it. I will do that tomorrow. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 23 minutes This day was a crash day. I expected to get a lot of things done and move fast but entered bug hell. I exploded at the end of the day and wasn't able to work at all, I was feeling overstressed and very pressured. I started to watch porn and ended up jerking off. @Raphael Let go, let go, let go of all your expectations, you don't need to succeed nor to fail, you know what you need deep inside you even if words cannot describe it. Love from your higher self ♥️ Total Work Duration: 4 hours 57 minutes, including 4 hours 39 minute of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

05 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:10 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:55 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: 10:56 AM - 11:42 AM: I did a few administrative tasks. Work Duration: 46 minutes 04:40 PM - 05:09 PM: I did a little more administrative work. Work Duration: 29 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:16 AM - 10:33 AM: I did one small correction on the product grid page and started to work on the mobile product page. I got interrupted in the middle by a phone call. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 17 minutes 11:50 AM - 01:10 PM: I continued the work on the mobile version of the product page. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 20 minutes 08:11 PM - 09:17 PM: I completed the mobile view for the product detail page. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 6 minutes 09:34 PM - 10:23 PM: I created the mobile view for the search page. Deep Work Duration: 49 minutes @Raphael Courage Raphael, the end of this week is going to be pretty intense. Stay focused & keep it up! Love from your higher self ♥️ Total Work Duration: 5 hours 47 minutes, including 4 hours 32 minute of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

04 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:00 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:30 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: 08:37 AM - 09:09 AM: I started my day with a call with my client. Work Duration: 32 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:19 AM - 10:06 AM: I found a proper banner size and removed the ads on the home page. Deep Work Duration: 47 minutes 10:28 AM - 11:57 AM: I'm faced with a new bug. I was distracted and found it difficult to work because there was so much noises outside, I also distracted myself on this forum. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 29 minutes 12:09 AM - 12:43 AM: This bug is still blocking me. Deep Work Duration: 34 minutes 02:28 PM - 04:01 PM: I found a solution to the bug and finally started moved forward again. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 33 minutes 04:10 PM - 04:51 PM: I started to separate the desktop base from the common base for the product grid. I had a bug that's still blocking me. Deep Work Duration: 41 minutes 07:40 PM - 08:33 PM: I continued the work on the mobile/desktop product grid separation. Deep Work Duration: 53 minutes 08:38 PM - 09:29 PM: I completed the mobile view for the product grid. Deep Work Duration: 51 minutes 09:39 PM - 10:08 PM: I started working on the product page mobile view. Deep Work Duration: 47 minutes Even if it seems that I worked a lot today I was way too much distracted. I spent too much time reading this forum and it very badly impacted my productivity. My mind was very blurry and hyperactive while a was working. I'm also going to be very tight on the deadline, I will probably need to brute force it. @Raphael Ok, you were too much distracted while working today, that's the reality, let's accept it. Now, remember the most important thing: Stay Focus, Stay Intensely Focus on your work and you will achieve incredible results. Love from your higher self ♥️ Total Work Duration: 8 hours 6 minutes, including 7 hours 34 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

Me.

Trapped In Consciousness I feel trapped in consciousness, I have zero control of anything that I do. I, as a human entity, is just doing what he needs to do without any control. I'm just somewhere on the path and I'm moving forward like a prisoner of my own consciousness. I don't have the control of what I say, how I move, how I look, how smart I am, how performant I am, how I breathe. I am exactly where I need to be without choosing it. I'm not controlling the words that I'm writing. In fact, these words are creating themselves, they created everything that they needed to appear on this screen and on the screens of others. They created a worldwide infrastructure, computers, sockets, the internet, this forum, Leo, and others, they created a human entity that bought a computer and is using it to write themselves so that they can exist and show themselves to others. All of this without any control. This is just ...

Emotional Blockages I have some emotional blockages within me. Every day, I feel trapped emotion in my body, notably in my torso and a little in my face muscles. Sometimes I have difficulties to speak and articulate what I want to articulate because of past traumas and self-esteem issues.

My Struggles In The Software Industry It's very difficult for me to cope with the business side of the software industry. I really enjoy doing my work, but in a business environment, many times managers and bosses are just obsessed with time and want to go fast. Because of this, they put pressure on workers who then tend to neglect the structure and produce unstable low-quality code. I don't like working like that, it's mindless and dissatisfying work, I don't even have the time to think about the system and how to interconnect its different parts together. I see myself as an artist when I code, I appreciate the elegance and complexity of computer programming and It's very difficult for me to work with people who only want fast results. If we compare a programmer to a classic artist like a painter, he/she doesn't want to paint fast just to sell fast and get money, a painter wants to paint because he/she loves painting. That's the same thing for me with computer programming.

03 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:16 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:40 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 10:57 AM - 11:02 AM: I had a quick call with my client. Work Duration: 5 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 08:00 AM - 09:25 AM: I initialized the mobile view. I was a little sad during this session and had a lot of negative thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 25 minutes 09:48 AM - 10:57 AM: I worked on the mobile view initialization, but I'm encountering some bugs that are blocking me. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 9 minutes 11:29 AM - 12:33 AM: OK. I fixed most of the bugs that I had, I think that I now can start to dive deep into the mobile view. Something strange happened during this session, I was having a lot of negative thoughts about a manager that really hurt me in the past (even though I understand it was unconscious), my body was very contracted, then near the end of the session someone called me, I answered and it was that manager. I freaked out. He needed my new address. That was craziness, life a sending me signs, life wants me to pardon him. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 4 minutes 01:30 PM - 02:09 PM: I continued the work on the responsive view, then got interrupted. Deep Work Duration: 39 minutes 02:32 PM - 03:55 PM: I continued the responsive design work. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 27 minutes 04:05 PM - 04:50 PM: I almost completed the responsiveness on the home page. Deep Work Duration: 45 minutes 07:44 PM - 08:29 PM: I finished the responsiveness for the home page. Deep Work Duration: 45 minutes @Raphael Good job Raphael But stay aware of the distractions notably during the evening and put intense focus on work, it will change your life1 Total Work Duration: 6 hours 19 minutes, including 6 hours 14 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

Language looks more like a tool that we give to children from my perspective. It's so basic that considering it being indoctrination doesn't apply in this case, but telling a kid to not use bad words would be indoctrination similarly to cleaning classrooms.

They are cleaning because the adults told them to clean and are giving them awards in returns. They are not understanding why what they are doing is a necessity as they are only doing it to be seen as "good" by the adults and therefore feel good. It's similar to a religious indoctrination where someone likes to read to the Bible or Quran because he/she gets rewarded by society. A proper way to make them clean consciously would be to let them make the mistake of not cleaning anything and be in a very dirty place that could be dangerous. That way they would not just clean mechanically, but because their mind would comprehend the necessity of cleaning. I guess that's what you mean by positive indoctrination.