Raphael

27 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:39 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:35 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 10:32 AM - 11:03 AM: I did a few bug fixes. I was listening to something at the same time so I was a little distracted. Deep Work Duration: 31 minutes 11:30 AM - 01:00 PM: I continued fixing some bugs, but was super distracted. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 30 minutes 02:51 PM - 04:02 PM: I updated the checkout interface. I distracted myself a little. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 11 minutes Today was a fucked up day. Sometimes I get dragged down by unhealthy manifestations of the different stages: Red: Anger and hate. It can make me feel very dirty, but hopefully, that's very rare most of the time. Blue: Being afraid of speaking up for myself and breaking rules. Orange: Being too concerned about time and wanting fast results. It stresses me and in the end, I sabotage myself and get slower results. Green: Too much tolerance and kindness of other people which ends up backfiring on me because of people's abuse of my kindness. Yellow: Spending too much time lost in my head and therefore not taking enough actions. All these elements combined can create a toxic mess sometimes. @Raphael Some days are down days, that's life, that happens, let's accept it. You will do better tomorrow. Good luck Total Work Duration: 3 hours 12 minutes, including 3 hours 12 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

26 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:14 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:10 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 11:40 AM - 12:05 AM: I had a call with my client. Work Duration: 25 minutes 12:31 AM - 12:51 AM: I had another call with my client. Work Duration: 21 minutes Total Work Duration: 46 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

It looks like for me it only works and is necessary when people are at low levels of consciousness, otherwise, it would not be necessary. I see the validity in this situation.

I don't think that's only about spiral dynamics. Generally, people are not very interested in being open and understanding the world around them from multiple perspectives. They are mostly interested in fulfilling their immediate needs or at best medium-term needs. It's the same thing at school, at the beginning kids are very interested to learn about everything, then when they grow up they start to lose this interest. When we are kids, we are empty, and life is mysterious and magical so we want to understand how it works, but after growing up we assume we know reality, therefore, there's not so much mystery and we lose our curiosity. After 18 - 20, people are usually much less interested in challenging their paradigms. When I was following courses in amphitheaters at university almost nobody was listening to the teacher, most people were playing video games on their computers or phones.

25 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:10 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:09 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 08:38 AM - 09:42 AM: I had a call with my client. He told me that he will pay me more after this project, I'm still suspicious. Work Duration: 1 hour 4 minutes 11:46 AM - 12:05 AM: I had a call with my client. Work Duration: 19 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 10:05 AM - 11:46 AM: Various fixes and a few improvements. I got a lot of unrelated thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 41 minutes 01:26 PM - 03:09 PM: I continued the bug fixes and started to work on the trending page. I had a lot of unrelated thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 43 minutes 03:17 PM - 04:48 PM: I continued the work on the trending page. I also continued to have many thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 31 minutes @Raphael Good job Total Work Duration: 6 hours 18 minutes, including 4 hours 55 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

24 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:04 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 11:40 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 08:53 AM - 09:55 AM: I had a call with my client. I got fucked up again, it's pissing me off. Work Duration: 1 hour 2 minutes 10:37 AM - 11:00 AM: I had another call with my client. Work Duration: 23 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 11:40 AM - 01:13 AM: I searched for some libraries, did some tests, and worked on a carousel. I wasn't that much focused. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 33 minutes 02:21 PM - 05:32 PM: I continued to work on the carousel. I wasn't very focused. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 11 minutes 03:54 PM - 04:37 PM: I tried to fix some bugs that weren't even bugs. Deep Work Duration: 43 minutes 07:54 PM - 09:30 PM: More bug fixes. I distracted myself a little too much sometimes. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 34 minutes 09:40 PM - 11:25 PM: More bug fixes. I distracted myself a little too much sometimes. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 45 minutes Total Work Duration: 8 hours 3 minutes, including 6 hours 46 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

The Interpretation of True/False Everything that I say is false. Everything that I say is true. The validity of what one's say is only determined by the perspective that interprets it.

Ok. But I had cases where I would ask for something in a normal way, but people would get reactive just because I would forget to say "please". For example, one day I asked someone: "Can you open the other door when you'll be inside?". The person responded "PLEASE???" in an aggressive manner. I find it annoying to be so obsessed with politeness, it makes me want to be less polite and don't use politeness formulas at all. Isn't it the opposite?

I also feel like being too polite is a way to manipulate people, it seems inauthentic for me to be super polite 100% of the time. Super insightful, thank you. I used to practice ruthless honesty most of my life, but I think I did it because I wanted to confront people.

@ColeMC01 @Roy Thank you guys. I used to communicate a lot like Leo, being super direct and add some vulgarity to it. It created more harm than good for everyone including myself as it would come back to my face. This kind of communication is fine for me, but I see that most people cannot handle it. It's also tiring to fight with people because of words that I say rather than discussing the ideas. So I want to simplify my communication as much as I can.

23 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:38 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:12 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: No work for today @Raphael Good job. Try also spending more time relaxing on Sunday rather than on the computer. Total Work Duration: 0 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

@Artsu Actually, I think that this is needed. Change happen internally only if we do the proper things and many of those things are dependent of the external environment. So quitting the family home, exploring new cities, new countries are very important for change.

22 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:45 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:15 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 08:12 AM - 08:25 AM: I started the day with a call with my client. Work Duration: 13 minutes 08:31 AM - 09:07 AM: I installed a few stuff. I distracted myself while it was doing the installation in the background. Work Duration: 6 minutes 02:22 PM - 03:50 PM: I assisted my client with some issues. I distracted myself a little near the end. Work Duration: 1 hour 28 minutes 04:12 PM - 04:54 PM: I did a little of the SEO course. Work Duration: 42 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:15 AM - 10:10 AM: They are some fixes that need to be done for the social logins. I started to do them and also had a lot of negative thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 55 minutes 10:25 AM - 11:12 AM: I continued the mobile/desktop division for the social logins. Deep Work Duration: 47 minutes 11:20 AM - 01:15 PM: I continued the mobile/desktop division for the social logins. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 55 minutes. @Raphael Good job again! See, minimalizing efforts and letting work very well. Take care of yourself Love, from yourself ♥️ Total Work Duration: 6 hours 6 minutes, including 3 hours 37 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

Minimalism & Letting Go These two habits are superpowerful and at the same time super simple. Everything is better when I implement them, I'm happier, I have more flow states, I work deeper, I am more productive, more healthy, etc. When I feel the urge to distract myself, I just let go, when I feel difficult emotions, I just let go, when things are too complicated, I simplify them. I just need to stay aware and to keep reminding myself to minimize and let go of the most possible things. Nothing matters and nothing will be lost in the end. The more empty I am, the more authentic I am, the better I feel.

21 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:39 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:05 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 10:53 AM - 11:52 AM: I continued the bug fixed and did a few hosting related tasks. Deep Work Duration: 59 minutes 11:59 AM - 12:10 AM: I had a call with my client. Work Duration: 11 minutes 02:18 PM - 03:39 PM: I continued to work on the SEO course and also did some WordPress configuration. Work Duration: 1 hour 21 minutes 03:47 PM - 04:53 PM: I continued the SEO course. Work Duration: 1 hour 6 minutes 07:37 PM - 07:54 PM: I checkout a bug that my client showed me. Work Duration: 17 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:24 AM - 10:36 AM: I fixed some bugs related to the compiled version on the project. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 12 minutes 12:10 AM - 01:21 PM: I continued to bug fixes. I distracted myself a little. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 11 minutes @Raphael Superb work, you are improving! Continue! Total Work Duration: 6 hours 17 minutes, including 2 hours 23 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

20 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:17 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:58 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 11:59 AM - 01:16 PM: I wanted to continue on the SEO course, but got distracted in the middle by a client. Work Duration: 1 hour 17 minutes 02:25 PM - 03:58 PM: I continued the SEO course. The bad network is penalizing me. Work Duration: 1 hour 33 minutes 04:00 PM - 04:55 PM: I had a call with my client, fixed some bugs, and also watch a video about image optimization. Deep Work Duration: 55 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:35 AM - 10:16 PM: I started the day by doing a few fixes on the wait list form. Deep Work Duration: 41 minutes 10:41 AM - 11:52 AM: I completed the work on the wait list. I distracted myself a little. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 11 minutes I almost didn't sleep of the entire night, I was too agitated. I got lazy because of that, took to much time to get started in the morning, and took too long breaks, I also distracted myself too much today. @Raphael Ok, you got a little lazy today, but that's fine. In general you are doing much better than when you started this journal, congratulations! You will wake up early tomorrow and do better, good luck! Total Work Duration: 5 hours 37 minutes, including 1 hour 52 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

19 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:10 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:30 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:30 AM - 09:47 AM: I had a call with my client. Work Duration: 17 minutes Total Work Duration: 17 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

@Don Wei Here's a taste of what's like to walk in the street as a women

What are examples of healthy masculine role models? What men should young men follow online to inspire themselves and develop as healthy men?

It's super interesting to look at footages of different cultures at the beginning of the last century and compare them to now.

18 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:25 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:45 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 02:02 PM - 03:26 PM: I continued the SEO course. I distracted myself at some moments. Work Duration: 1 hour 24 minutes 04:10 PM - 04:42 PM: I continued the SEO course, I got distracted several times by a client. Work Duration: 32 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 08:39 AM - 10:03 AM: I continued yesterday's work on the masonry view. I had a lot of thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 24 minutes 10:25 AM - 11:51 AM: I continued the masonry view, but encountered some computation bugs. I also had a lot of unrelated thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 26 minutes 12:00 AM - 12:44 AM: I completed the masonry view, it looks great, I'm satisfied with the result. Deep Work Duration: 44 minutes 03:32 PM - 04:04 PM: I did some verification a fixed a few bugs on my client's project. Deep Work Duration: 32 minutes Today was a little more difficult than yesterday as I felt more agitation in my body. I also distracted myself a little too much when taking my main break. But globally I was quite productive. @Raphael That's good, continue Total Work Duration: 6 hours 2 minutes, including 4 hours 6 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

I resonate with this. In my previous work environment, I didn't care about competing with people or moving up in the hierarchy, I mostly cared about the well-being of the project. By just caring about the project, I would produce elite work, have and share more insights and in consequence, naturally speak more with the manager and create an emotional connection with him. This allowed me to be closer to the top of the hierarchy and I'm sure that I would get promoted faster than other people if I continued to work in this environment. I didn't even need to play social games or compete even though other workers saw this as competition. It's a little similar to the top kids at school, a kid that is interested and curious will want to do better to understand the different subjects, and therefore, he/she will ask more questions and create a closer/more intimate relationship with the different teachers. The teachers will then help the kid more and the kid will move up the grade hierarchy and have better opportunities in life and the other kids will come to him/her because he/she will be perceived as someone of value.

17 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:36 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:46 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 08:34 AM - 09:38 AM: I contacted the freelancer platform because of payment issues and connected my domain name to the WordPress server. Work Duration: 1 hour 4 minutes 09:55 AM - 10:50 AM: I continued the SEO course then got interrupted by a client. Work Duration: 55 minutes 10:50 AM - 11:20 AM: I had a conversation with my client, but the network was so bad that we continued by text. Work Duration: 30 minutes 11:28 AM - 12:43 AM: I continued working on the SEO course. Work Duration: 1 hour 15 minutes 01:48 PM - 03:33 PM: I continued the SEO course. Work Duration: 1 hour 45 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 03:41 PM - 04:58 PM: I worked on a CSS masonry view. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 17 minutes @Raphael Good job! You were quite focused today, avoided distractions, and had a lot of empty time. You are getting back on track, continue! Total Work Duration: 6 hours 46 minutes, including 1 hour 17 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

You can try to share ideas and concepts to improve the company or innovate the products or how the work is done, it would help everyone in the company and people will be grateful to you. Being good at something is fine but not enough to move up the ladder. if you can provide insights and new structural changes that innovate and make the company progress and work more effectively, people will perceive you as someone of value and you will naturally move up in the hierarchy and gain success. Concerning the politics and manipulation game, if think it would be better to avoid it as much as possible and prefer straight honest communication. Manipulating each other at work is unhealthy and creates tension within the group.

16 July 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:10 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:40 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: No work for today Total Work Duration: 0 minutes, 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)