Raphael

I live in a quite isolated part of the world. When I was a kid, I was watching a documentary about extraterrestrial life. After the end of the documentary I went outside and checked the sky and they were multiple dozen light orbs forming a circle and moving slowly. If I remember correctly, it disappeared after some time, but it was like the laws of physic didn't exist for these things.

14 September 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:13 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:50 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 10:52 AM - 11:39 AM I did some fixes on my website and had a call with my client. Focus: 3/5 Duration: 47 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:24 AM - 10:32 AM I worked a the service page design for my website. I got distracted by some messages and got some unrelated thoughts. Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 8 minutes 12:02 AM - 12:56 AM I worked on the contact form for my website. I had a lot of unrelated thoughts. Focus: 3/5 Duration: 54 minutes 01:59 PM - 03:34 PM I fixed bugs related to the variations. I distracted myself at a moment and also had a lot of unrelated thoughts. Focus: 2.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 35 minutes 03:55 PM - 04:30 PM I continued the work on the variations. I was very distracted Focus: 1/5 Duration: 35 minutes 07:27 PM - 09:10 PM I continued the work on the variations. Difficult thoughts of the past came up again, I also distracted myself near the end. Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 37 minutes @Raphael Ok, today was difficult. You almost didn't sleep of the entire night and your work was very sloppy. That happens, let's accept it. You will do better tomorrow. Average Focus: 2.5 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 6 hours 40 minutes, including 5 hours 53 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

Relax & Let Go This video is super powerful.

New Metric: Focus I'm going to add a new metric to my reports that will represent the intensity of my focus, it will simply be named Focus. I can work for longer hours now, but my focus isn't that great so I need to take it into account to improve my productivity. I often have unrelated thoughts when working and sometimes I tend to distract myself with other stuff on the internet. To improve my concentration I'm going to do the following each time that I caught myself being distracted: Inhale Exhale Let go of the distraction Relax the body Repeat steps 1, 2, 3, 4 multiple times Refocus on the work. For that, I will change my thought process, instead of keeping my focus on unrelated thoughts, I will think about what I'm doing and what needs to be done in the current situation so that the work can move forward I will rate my focus from 1 - 5: Near to zero focus A little of work, but a lot of distracting thoughts and attempts to distract myself Average focus, but still too much distracting thoughts and maybe some attempts to distract myself Good focus with a few distracting thoughts, but no attempts to distract myself Intense, deep, flow state

@Forestluv I know that it's unrelated to the subject, but I just want to say that I admire your maturity and awareness in your posts. You're an amazing moderator and an inspiration.

Total Working Time of The Week (07 September 2020 - 13 September2020) 35 hours 19 minutes

13 September 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:07 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:40 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 09:22 AM - 10:24 AM: I worked on separate routes for the order's items modal. I had a lot of disruptive thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 2 minutes 11:22 AM - 11:35 AM: I wanted to continue my previous work, but this is too much. I have been coding like a mule this week, I need some rest, my brain cannot process so much complexity. Deep Work Duration: 13 minutes @Raphael Please go to sleep at a proper time. Total Work Duration: 1 hours 15 minutes, including 1 hours 15 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

Healing Traumas I need to start working on my traumas. They continue to come back again and again, are breaking my focus when I work and making me prone to other abuses. These traumas include: Having a narcissistic stage red dad who highly humiliated me and criticized me most of my life Being bullied at school and being perceived as the loser of the school. This was happening because I was a very skinny, very shy, and very calm nerd kid Being highly rejected by most of society Being oppressed, highly criticized, and rejected by stage blue people Racism that I got Being exploited and abused by some people

12 September 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:01 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:30 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 02:14 PM - 02:19 PM: I had a quick call. Work Duration: 5 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:13 AM - 10:02 AM: I corrected a few bugs a started to do some improvements on the variations. I had unrelated thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 49 minutes 10:31 AM - 11:49 AM: I did more improvements to the variations. I distracted myself a little. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 18 minutes 12:07 AM - 01:00 PM: More bug fixes and improvements. Deep Work Duration: 53 minutes 01:50 PM - 02:14 PM: I worked on some new routes, then got interrupted by my client. Deep Work Duration: 24 minutes 02:21 PM - 03:26 PM: I finished most of the necessary routes and also started to handle a query parameter. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 5 minutes 03:33 PM - 04:55 PM: I worked on my website. I did the service page, created a template and made responsive design tweaks. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 22 minutes 07:43 PM - 08:29 PM: I worked on some responsive design issues and started to design a new page on my website. Deep Work Duration: 46 minutes @Raphael Good job, but please have some proper rest tomorrow. Total Work Duration: 6 hours 42 minutes, including 6 hours 37 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

11 September 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:20AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:55 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 10:19 AM - 10:23 AM: I had a quick call. Work Duration: 4 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 11:52 AM - 01:16 PM: I completed the variations design for mobile and desktop. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 24 minutes 02:14 PM - 03:08 PM: I started working back on my website. I'm now satisfied with the carousel. Deep Work Duration: 54 minutes 03:14 PM - 04:43 PM: I continued the work on my website. I think the home page looks fine. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 29 minutes 08:11 PM - 08:43 PM: I worked on the responsiveness of my website. I did changes to the home page and the footer. Deep Work Duration: 32 minutes @Raphael That's fine to have down days, as you worked a lot yesterday, it's ok. You're doing great overall Total Work Duration: 4 hours 23 minutes, including 4 hours 19 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

10 September 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:00AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:00 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 08:31 AM - 08:52 AM: I contacted the freelancing platform support because I still cannot withdraw my money. Work Duration: 21 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:17 AM - 10:44 AM: I started to work on the variations. It's a little complicated, I had a lot of unrelated annoying thoughts. 1 hour 27 minutes 10:57 AM - 12:22 AM: I continued the work on the variations. I got other difficulties. I also distracted myself at some moments. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 25 minutes 01:30 PM - 02:30 PM: I continued the work on the variations, it's still not working properly. I was also distracted because I was listening at a podcast at the same time. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 02:35 PM - 04:00 PM: I'm still stuck. My mind is currently too agitated, I have difficulties to work properly. There's also a lot of noises outside. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 25 minutes 04:12 PM - 05:04 PM: Still stuck. Deep Work Duration: 58 minutes 05:17 PM - 06:45 PM: This issue is craziness. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 28 minutes 07:47 PM - 08:42 PM: The variations are completed, but a small improvement is still possible. Deep Work Duration: 55 minutes @Raphael Deep concentrated efforts are always better than long working hours. Total Work Duration: 8 hours 59 minutes, including 8 hours 38 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

Many say they want respect, but many have shadows that make themselves non-respectful.

One day I made eye contact with a woman in the street, she came straight to me and proposed a blowjob. I later knew that they were prostitution going on in this area, so I guess that she was a prostitute.

There's so much racism in the world, I'm sick of it.

I don't read it that much, but the vibe that I get is a high conscious one: https://highexistence.com/

09 September 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:53 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:05 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:45 AM - 09:59 AM: I had a conversation with my client. Work Duration: 14 minutes @Raphael Good job, that was a proper day of rest Total Work Duration: 14 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

08 September 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:04 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:36 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 08:40 AM - 09:16 AM: I did a few bug fixes and had a call with my client. Work Duration: 36 minutes 04:19 PM - 04:56 PM: I had a call with my client. Work Duration: 37 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:23 AM - 10:45 AM: I worked on the slider for my website. It looks way better now, but I still have to make some adjustments. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 22 minutes 11:07 AM - 12:50 AM: I continued the work on my website's slider. It looks pretty good now. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 43 minutes 02:00 AM - 03:32 AM: I searched for some email templates, but didn't find any satisfying ones. I also try to made improvements to the breadcrumb component, had a lot of difficulties, but started to move forward near the end. I had a lot of unrelated thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 32 minutes 03:40 PM- 04:19 PM: I continued to work on the breadcrumb. I had issues related to the API. Deep Work Duration: 39 minutes 08:17 PM - 09:40 PM: I continued the work on the breadcrumb and updated all the necessary items. I distracted myself a little near the end. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 23 minutes @Raphael Superb work! Stay careful to not overwork. Continue Total Work Duration: 7 hours 52 minutes, including 6 hours 39 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

Difficult Thoughts and OCD Some difficult memories of the past and thoughts about things that I would have loved to say to have revenge after some people who deeply hurt me are coming back again and again like an obsessive-compulsive disorder.

07 September 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:39 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:15 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:22 AM - 09:46 AM: I started my day by a call with my client. Work Duration: 24 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 10:01 AM - 10:46 AM: I did a few updates for the social logins. Deep Work Duration: 45 minutes 11:03 AM - 12:35 AM: I tried to fix a display bug, but this is still fucked up. I had a lot of parasite thoughts about racism in the world. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 32 minutes 01:31 PM - 02:52 PM: I worked on the wish list icon integration. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 21 minutes 02:58 PM - 04:28 PM: I did some changes to the register and checkout forms. I had a lot of parasite thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 30 minutes 07:41 PM - 08:15 PM: It worked on a carousel for my website, it looks fucked up. Deep Work Duration: 34 minutes @Raphael Good job Have a good night of rest! Total Work Duration: 6 hours 4 minutes, including 5 hours 20 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

Literally.

I Know Nothing

Hello everyone, I have a few questions about politeness: How Important is Politeness? Should we always be polite? Should we always use politeness formulas? Should we use "bad" words? When is it appropriate to be polite and appropriate to not be polite? How to be direct, say the truth, and be respectful at the same time? Should we do it? Where is the balance?

Total Working Time of The Week (31 August 2020 - 06 August 2020) 31 hours 31 minutes

06 September 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:28 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:10 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 01:01 PM - 01:44 PM: I did a few design tests for my website. Work Duration: 43 minutes @Raphael That's was a good day of rest, good job. But please have some empty time before going to sleep. Love from your higher self ♥ Total Work Duration: 43 minutes, including 43 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)