Raphael

One day I made eye contact with a woman in the street, she came straight to me and proposed a blowjob. I later knew that they were prostitution going on in this area, so I guess that she was a prostitute.

There's so much racism in the world, I'm sick of it.

I don't read it that much, but the vibe that I get is a high conscious one: https://highexistence.com/

09 September 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:53 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:05 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:45 AM - 09:59 AM: I had a conversation with my client. Work Duration: 14 minutes @Raphael Good job, that was a proper day of rest Total Work Duration: 14 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

08 September 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:04 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:36 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 08:40 AM - 09:16 AM: I did a few bug fixes and had a call with my client. Work Duration: 36 minutes 04:19 PM - 04:56 PM: I had a call with my client. Work Duration: 37 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:23 AM - 10:45 AM: I worked on the slider for my website. It looks way better now, but I still have to make some adjustments. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 22 minutes 11:07 AM - 12:50 AM: I continued the work on my website's slider. It looks pretty good now. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 43 minutes 02:00 AM - 03:32 AM: I searched for some email templates, but didn't find any satisfying ones. I also try to made improvements to the breadcrumb component, had a lot of difficulties, but started to move forward near the end. I had a lot of unrelated thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 32 minutes 03:40 PM- 04:19 PM: I continued to work on the breadcrumb. I had issues related to the API. Deep Work Duration: 39 minutes 08:17 PM - 09:40 PM: I continued the work on the breadcrumb and updated all the necessary items. I distracted myself a little near the end. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 23 minutes @Raphael Superb work! Stay careful to not overwork. Continue Total Work Duration: 7 hours 52 minutes, including 6 hours 39 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

Difficult Thoughts and OCD Some difficult memories of the past and thoughts about things that I would have loved to say to have revenge after some people who deeply hurt me are coming back again and again like an obsessive-compulsive disorder.

07 September 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:39 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:15 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:22 AM - 09:46 AM: I started my day by a call with my client. Work Duration: 24 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 10:01 AM - 10:46 AM: I did a few updates for the social logins. Deep Work Duration: 45 minutes 11:03 AM - 12:35 AM: I tried to fix a display bug, but this is still fucked up. I had a lot of parasite thoughts about racism in the world. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 32 minutes 01:31 PM - 02:52 PM: I worked on the wish list icon integration. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 21 minutes 02:58 PM - 04:28 PM: I did some changes to the register and checkout forms. I had a lot of parasite thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 30 minutes 07:41 PM - 08:15 PM: It worked on a carousel for my website, it looks fucked up. Deep Work Duration: 34 minutes @Raphael Good job Have a good night of rest! Total Work Duration: 6 hours 4 minutes, including 5 hours 20 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

Literally.

I Know Nothing

Hello everyone, I have a few questions about politeness: How Important is Politeness? Should we always be polite? Should we always use politeness formulas? Should we use "bad" words? When is it appropriate to be polite and appropriate to not be polite? How to be direct, say the truth, and be respectful at the same time? Should we do it? Where is the balance?

Total Working Time of The Week (31 August 2020 - 06 August 2020) 31 hours 31 minutes

06 September 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:28 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:10 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 01:01 PM - 01:44 PM: I did a few design tests for my website. Work Duration: 43 minutes @Raphael That's was a good day of rest, good job. But please have some empty time before going to sleep. Love from your higher self ♥ Total Work Duration: 43 minutes, including 43 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

Misunderstanding Enlightenment I feel like I have a lot of misconceptions and misunderstandings about enlightenment. I also feel like all these concepts, ideas, and mental models that I learn here are very far away from the reality. I have the intuition that enlightenment is not understandable through logic and ideas, but only through the emotions that one's feel. I feel that it's a way of being, not a description of being.

05 September 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:39 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:30 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 10:21 AM - 10:39 AM: I had a call with my client. Work Duration: 18 minutes 03:49 PM - 04:59 PM: I worked on my website's footer, the fonts, and the text colors. I had a lot of difficult thoughts of the past that came back. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 10 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:15 AM - 10:03 AM: I fixed some bugs on my client's website. I distracted myself a little. Deep Work Duration: 48 minutes 10:42 AM - 11:48 AM: I completed the payment validate page for the desktop version. I distracted myself a little too much. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 6 minutes 01:37 PM - 03:09 PM: I did more corrections and work on a navigation link bug. I'm a little stuck. I also distracted myself. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 32 minutes 03:15 PM - 03:40 PM: I finished the fixes for the navigation link and also changed the inputs design. Deep Work Duration: 25 minutes 07:40 PM - 08:41 PM: I worked on the fonts and the home page layout of my website. It looks very good so far, I'm super satisfied. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 1 minute @Raphael Good, that's much better Have some proper rest tomorrow, it's very important. Total Work Duration: 6 hours 20 minutes, including 4 hours 52 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

Complimenting people, praising them, putting dreams into their minds, saying how great their company is, etc. are classic stage orange manipulation tactics to get people to work a lot without getting paid a lot.

I'm a mixed kid of the exact same background (white mother, indian dad). No, mixed kids are not necessarily obsessed with beauty. I had a lot of hate towards my dad too but only because he is the most egocentric, narcissistic, racist, xenophobic, sexist, homophobic, and authoritarian person that I know. I'm currently trying to let go and transforming this into love because it wasn't its fault as he had a terrible abusive childhood. Concerning the look, many people have told me that I look very good so I guess that it's true. Look for mixed kids is a double-edged sword because we feel at the same time closer to most people and more different than most people. Because of that I personally can more easily see life from different perspectives, so when they are racism issues I usually feel slice in half. It's very painful because whatever we say, people will always judge us from the other ethnic background. As a mixed kid, I experienced strange questions and also racism from white people, and I also experienced racism from Indian people. I get it from all sides. Personally, the thing that I would like the most would be the be treated as an equal human being. I'm sick of hearing people talking about my look (even if it's positive), debating me, and noticing things about my physical appearance. However as most of the world is not mixed and is unconscious, it's not going to happen now, so for decades and decades, mixed people will have to suffer until finally everyone is mixed and the problem is solved. P-S: The person that you mentioned seems to have huge self-esteem issues and I don't think that it's about being mixed. Edit: I checked out the forum and the subject. This place looks super unhealthy and super racist, it's not worth focusing energy and being angry after such reactions. I guess that they are many similar subjects on this forum.

04 September 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:41 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:15 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:34 AM - 10:08 AM: I had a call with my client. Work Duration: 34 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 03:10 PM - 04:57 PM: I worked on the payment completed page design. I distracted myself at some moments. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 47 minutes 07:45 PM - 08:28 PM: I did the mobile version of the payment completed page. Deep Work Duration: 43 minutes I almost didn't sleep for the entire night, got super lazy, and felt a lot of difficult emotions. It seems like I'm sabotaging myself to go back to my previous state. Total Work Duration: 3 hours 4 minutes, including 2 hours 30 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

Girls obsessed with makeup are stage orange

@Extreme Z7 Yes, that's probably the case. Also, the computer that I bought is just a laptop dedicated to web development so it's not a highly powerful machine, but I was happy to see that it was able to run Crysis.

@Leo Gura Haha That's a crazy synchronicity. I recently bought a computer and installed the original Crysis on it to test the performances. I was not able to run it at max in Full HD above 30 - 35 FPS. I'll maybe try the remaster, but stay careful to avoid an explosion. It's so sad

Being obsessed with video game graphics is stage orange

03 September 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:46 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:25 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:15 AM - 09:52 AM: I had a call with my client. Work Duration: 37 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 12:02 AM - 01:00 AM: I worked on the trending category page. I was quite distracted because I was listening to Leo at the same time. Deep Work Duration: 58 minutes 02:30 PM - 04:16 PM: I completed the desktop version of the trending page. I was quite distracted. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 46 minutes 07:47 PM - 08:56 PM: I completed the mobile version of the trending page and also did some analysis for the thank you page. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 9 minutes I didn't want to work that much today because my ego felt like it worked more than necessary yesterday (yesterday was supposed to be a break day). I was also quite distracted in my work, but also sad thinking about spiral dynamics, the 9 stages of ego development, how unconscious the world is, and how most people don't understand anything of what's happening around them and judge and hurt others out of ignorance. @Raphael Ok, you had a down day. That happen, let's accept it. You will do better tomorrow Total Work Duration: 4 hours 30 minutes, including 3 hours 53 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

The 9 Stages of Ego Development This model is so precise that it almost made me cry.

02 September 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:41 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:12 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:47 AM - 10:12 AM: I had a call with my client. Work Duration: 25 minutes 11:47 AM - 11:55 AM: I had a quick call with my client. Work Duration: 8 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:13 AM - 09:47 AM: I worked on my website's header. Deep Work Duration: 34 minutes 10:35 AM - 11:47 AM: I worked on localized link boxes on my client's carousels. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 12 minutes 12:04 AM - 12:45 AM: I completed the positioning of the link boxes. I distracted myself too much. Deep Work Duration: 41 minutes 07:45 PM - 09:00 PM: I worked on the header menu of my website and also a little on the layout. It looks very good, I'm very satisfied with the results. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 15 minutes @Raphael Good work. Stay careful to rest properly and go to bed early. Continue moving forward Total Work Duration: 4 hours 15 minutes, including 3 hours 42 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

01 September 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:14 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:30 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 08:29 AM - 10:06 AM: I verified the work done by a freelancer, contacted a client, and started to work back on my website. Work Duration: 1 hour 35 minutes 10:22 AM - 11:05 AM: I had a call with my client. Work Duration: 43 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 11:16 AM - 12:34 AM: I fixed some issues on my client's website. I distracted myself a little too much. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 18 minutes 01:38 PM - 02:08 PM: I did a few fixes. Deep Work Duration: 30 minutes 02:15 PM - 04:16 PM: I continued the work on my website. I worked on the fonts, the base colors, the structure, and the header. It looks way better now. Deep Work Duration: 2 hours 1 minute @Raphael Superb work! You did a lot of progress since you started Total Work Duration: 6 hours 7 minutes, including 3 hours 49 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)