Raphael

KPop is so stage orange. I can't understand anything, but I feel it.

This girl took it too far.

Very true ?

Yeah and that's why blue is reactive against orange because orange reminds blue of red.

I feel like ha has a little of it. Maybe 10% or a small kernel.

About Purifying Unhealthy Habits & Ideologies Letting go and purifying unhealthy habits, unhealthy spiral dynamics manifestations, and ideologies is like vomiting again and again until everything is out.

Another red/orange trying to optimize everything.

Because they resonate with red/orange. It happened to me too when I was in some of my lowest points in life to trash talk or listen to rap music. It felt satisfying as it helped me to release anger and hate. I can still watch or play violent video games or search for brutal movie scenes on youtube when I feel bad.

27 October 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:30 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:45 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 03:17 PM - 04:00 PM I analyzed a template and sent my opinion to a person. I also had a call and had to fight again to get a minimum payment. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 43 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 10:13 AM - 10:43 AM I added internal links to two articles Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 30 minutes 11:11 AM - 12:35 AM I added internal links to a few articles. I had a lot of distracting thoughts Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 24 minutes 01:38 PM - 02:58 PM I added internal links to a few articles Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 20 minutes 07:38 PM - 08:47 PM I started to fix some redirection issues. I stopped before finished because I'm a little too tired Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 9 minutes Average Focus: 3.3 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 5 hours 6 minutes, including 4 hours 23 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

26 October 2020 Wake Up Time: 08:04 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 11:55 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 12:09 AM - 12:23 AM I had a call Focus: 3.75/5 Duration: 14 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 10:35 AM - 10:53 AM I created a document for payments, an invoice, and sent it Focus: 4/5 Duration: 18 minutes 10:59 AM - 12:09 AM I added internal links to a few articles Focus: 3.75/5 Duration: 1 hour 10 minutes 03:28 PM - 05:11 PM Fucking shit... Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 43 minutes 07:34 PM - 08:26 PM I added internal links to a few articles Focus: 3.75/5 Duration: 52 minutes 08:33 PM - 10:51 PM Some things are really painful... Focus: 3/5 Duration: 2 hours 18 11:21 PM - 11:47 PM The solution was finally very simple Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 26 minutes I have to learn to rely more on my intuition while working. I encountered many situations where I had an intuition, but didn't listen to it, wasted a lot of time, and finally went back to it and get the work done super quickly. I also need to continue my efforts in standing for myself and putting boundaries. I could have made a lot of money today, but it didn't happen because I was shy. Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 6 hours 43 minutes, including 6 hours 29 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

It works for me, it makes me question my views by trying to understand why someone is calling me dumb.

It's going to get worst before it gets better. I'm saying this because I'm an INTP like Leo and I'm also trying to change that because I see that most people cannot handle it. It's very difficult as we are naturally very intellectual and easily find discrepancies within arguments. We want to fix these discrepancies to make things better and therefore we quickly notify stupidity when we find it. That's one of the flaws of the INTP. Leo is currently making progress, that's why there seems to be a little more turbulence. It will get better, just give him the time to improve.

Weekly Statistics (19 October 2020 - 25 October 2020) Total Working Hours 29 hours 18 minutes Average Focus 3.47 / 5

25 October 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:30 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:05 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 02:05 PM - 03:10 PM I added some internal links to a few articles Focus: 4/5 Duration: 1 hour 5 minutes 05:19 PM - 05:53 PM I fixed a few bugs Focus: 4/5 Duration: 34 minutes @Raphael Nice work Average Focus: 4 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 1 hour 34 minutes, including 1 hour 34 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

@Origins I'm already here. Oh... and I think I'll go to Australia one day

It's fine as you can communicate and handle most situations, at least from my perspective. It also happened to me to stutter in uncomfortable environments or with people that I'm not comfortable with. Maybe using the MBTI can help you with issues related to your personality type. You probably need to invest a little more into the guys that you are attracted to. And also, as you are on this forum, you will surely have to deal with being more advanced and conscious than most people and therefore not attracting regular persons because of spiral dynamics value mismatch and emotional mismatch. What would be not shy for you? Are there more things that you would like to do that your shyness is preventing you?

So you don't have huge social anxiety issues? Or maybe it's just little or average anxiety. Can you handle most of daily life situations? Can you have normal or great conversations with people? Can you speak in front of a crowd? Does your shyness can create weird social situations? If yes, does it happen often?

24 October 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:02 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:20 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 03:44 PM - 07:03 PM Shit again. Everything is going like shit Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 19 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:16 AM - 09:57 AM I switched to a new library to handle Google Places API Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 41 minutes 10:20 AM - 11:51 AM I added internal links to a few articles Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 31 minutes 11:56 AM -12:39 AM I added more internal links. I got interrupted a lot by someone Focus: 3/5 Duration: 43 minutes 01:49 PM - 03:27 PM Shit... Focus: 3.75/5 Duration: 1 hour 38 minutes 08:46 PM - 09:25 PM I finished for the places auto-completion Focus: 3/5 Duration: 39 minutes I'm completely exhausted. Average Focus: 3.37 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 6 hours 31 minutes, including 5 hours 12 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

How shy are you? What can't you handle?

23 October 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:24 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:55 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:31 AM - 10:31 AM I had a quick call Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 10 minutes 02:40 PM - 03:02 PM I provided a little assistance by Skype Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 22 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 01:35 PM - 02:29 PM I completed an SEO proposal and sent an email Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 54 minutes 03:40 PM - 04:16 PM I started to do an place API integration, but got a bug. I need to wait for my partner Focus: 3/5 Duration: 36 minutes 04:22 PM - 04:55 PM I added internal links to two articles Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 33 minutes 07:31 PM - 20:07 PM I went back to the Google Places API implementation, but got more bugs Focus: 3.75/5 Duration: 36 minutes 09:04 PM - 09:34 PM I added a few more links to articles Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 30 minutes It seems like I'm having a backslash, I will get my regularity back soon. Average Focus: 3.46 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 3 hours 41 minutes, including 3 hours 9 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

The moderator was amazing.

There's no control, nobody controls anybody. Life is magically self-regulating itself.

22 October 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:36 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:32 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 03:52 PM - 05:03 PM I did some research, continued on the SEO plan, and also had a call Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 11 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 02:32 PM - 03:38 PM I started to create an SEO plan for a client Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 6 minutes 08:03 PM - 08:36 PM I did a few updates Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 33 minutes I got very lazy today. What else to say? Average Focus: 3.33 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 2 hours 50 minutes, including 1 hour 33 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

I'm tense and anxious when I communicate with people.

Sleeping Too Much Makes Me Lazy Today is a difficult day. I have difficulties to get motivated, I'm very lazy and procrastinate a lot. I noticed that I'm much likely to be in this state when I sleep too much. I went to bed around 9:00 PM yesterday and woke up around 7:30 AM today which means that I slept ~10 hours 30 minutes. TF is that? I know a few ways to get out of this state: doing nothing for sometimes, imagining myself working and enjoying the work, forcing it. Currently, using force looks like the best option. So fuck it. Fuck the laziness and let's get to work.