Raphael

3 November 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:15 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:55 (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 03:00 AM - 04:20 AM I had a meeting with a client. We discussed about an SEO solution for their business Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 20 minutes Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 1 hour 20 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

What An Intimate Relationship is About So... I've never been a relationship guy. I always had a hard time understanding why people are so obsessed with having a boyfriend/girlfriend. Relationships seemed superficial and useless for me. I never understood the reason to have an intimate relationship with a girl other than sex (which is why I never had one because it would destroy a woman emotional state), but I'm now seeing the potential. I never had an interest in relationships because most of them are egoic and low-conscious. True relationships are deep, subtle, and nuanced. They are about feeling and experiencing the other person. True relationships are spiritual and part of self-actualization. These two quotes are so perfect and elegant. Everything is so clear.

Maybe a healthy way to deal with immediate stage red anger urges

Random Thoughts I feel like my brain is functioning less properly than 5 - 6 years ago. I always had a pretty agitated and full of ideas mind, but my thoughts are just so random sometimes... I feel like I'm often switching from one thought to another completly unrelated and useless one. I think I absorbed some bad online browsing habits from other people where I was browsing in a quite concentrated way before. Hopefully, I didn't have a smartphone when I was a kid or when I was at college. I had my first smartphone at 20, it preventing me from the toxicty of multitasking and from useless garbage information feed. Even now that I now have a smartphone, I'm using an app to block most of the distracting and toxic applications. However, I do think that I have some light ADHD symtoms.

2 November 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:15 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:45 (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 10:52 AM - 11:26 AM I had a call Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 34 minutes 03:53 PM - 04:53 PM I did some research and setup. I also distracted myself a bit. Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour Deep Work Sessions: 08:39 AM - 10:30 AM I did some fixes that took much more time than I expected. I will not give people any choice now. Focus: 3.75/5 Duration: 1 hour 51 minutes 12:09 AM - 01:16 AM I did more fixes Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 7 minutes 02:32 PM - 03:27 PM I did other fixes Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 55 minutes Average Focus: 3.45 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 5 hours 27 minutes, including 3 hours 53 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

@lmfao Is it possible for you to share the essay?

Weekly Statistics (26 October 2020 - 01 November 2020) Total Working Hours 23 hours 20 minutes Average Focus 3.47 / 5

1 November 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:05 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:00 (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 11:09 AM - 11:19 AM I had a call Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 10 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 10:43 AM - 10:59 AM I did a quick tweak Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 16 minutes Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 26 minutes, including 26 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

I can't understand things until I experience things. Without the experience of a thing, the best that I can do to understand it is to intuit it.

@egoeimai Yeah, cutting her looks like the only solution in this case.

Narcissism. But she had no choice as she grew up in a difficult environment. I personally had a little of that too (but to a much less important degree) because of my dad. She need to become aware of her suffering and that she is how she is because of a toxic environment. She need to understand that we don't choose our families and that we naturally absorb what we get from our surrounding, therefore it means that she have to fix herself. It probably feel very unfair to her that people reject her because she had no luck in life. But that's how it is, some people start life from 0, others from -5, -10, and others from 2, 3, etc. Concerning you, if you really cannot help her, just cut her. It's sad for her, but some people cannot be helped even if they are deeply suffering and want to be free of suffering.

Putting authority is necessary with abusive people.

This video is pretty inspiring for those who are struggling to create a business.

The paradox of paradoxes is that they are no paradoxes.

This journal is useless. I'm not going to take that much time thinking and analyzing paradoxes, I have lower-level things that have more priority. I will get all the time that I need to think about paradoxes in a few years. For now, having a main journal and a few practical journals is far enough. This journal is paradoxical...

The paradox of paradoxes is that they are no paradoxes. I recently started to become more aware of how paradoxes works and how opposite things interconnects together. This is paradoxical because I'm not completely sure of what I'm doing here. I have been pretty agitated last week, I felt like I was loosing my mind and going insane. So... I don't know if I'm talking shit or started to have a peek into turquoise, but I want to record stuff about paradoxes. In summary: This journal is going to be about paradoxes. I will analyze paradoxes that comes to my mind, see how they interconnects together, break the bounderies between them and reunite opposite sides together. Let see how it goes...

31 October 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:55 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:25 (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 09:20 AM - 10:30 AM I did a fix for the infinite scroll on mobile Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 10 minutes Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 1 hour 10 minutes, including 1 hour 10 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

I had a pretty authoritarian boss in the past. One day he exploded in rage and said that he hated some people and wanted to kill them.

30 October 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:10 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:30 (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 03:27 PM - 04:00 PM I had a call Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 33 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 10:19 AM - 11:28 AM I did a small fix and some analysis Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 9 minutes 11:46 AM - 12:44 AM I added internal links to a few articles. I got interrupted at a moment. Focus: 3.75/5 Duration: 58 minutes 01:50 PM - 03:02 PM I added internal links to other articles Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 12 minutes I'm going to work less for 1 - 2 weeks to focus on my driving license. Average Focus: 3.56 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 3 hours 52 minutes, including 3 hours 19 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

29 October 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:36 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:32 (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 08:54 AM - 10:12 AM I did some testing and made a few corrections Focus: 3.75/5 Duration: 1 hour 18 minutes 10:35 AM - 11:53 AM These bugs are annoying and the network is also super fucked up Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 18 minutes 12:00 AM - 01:00 PM I added some internal links Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 01:42 PM - 02:23 PM I finally managed to fix this carousel bug on the mobile version Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 41 minutes 02:32 PM - 03:59 PM I added internal links to a few articles Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 27 minutes @Raphael Good work! Average Focus: 3.45 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 5 hours 44 minutes, including 5 hours 44 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

Hahahaha You cracked me up man!

The limit of equality, respect, and treating everyone as equal where people are at different levels of development.

28 October 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:58 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:20 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 12:46 AM - 01:05 PM I fixed a small bug Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 19 minutes Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 19 minutes, including 19 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)