Raphael

20/02/2021 (Week 4) If any of what I wrote this week is true, it might be helpful if I... single task bring intense focus to the activity that I'm doing fully accept me no matter my flaws and imperfections fully accept others no matter their flaws and imperfections am willing to correct mistakes am willing to persevere in the face of difficulties relax and take things slowly

20 February 2021 Wake Up Time: 05:38 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:22 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 01:33 PM - 03:00 PM I did some work on the web app Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 27 minutes Didn't sleep of the entire night, couldn't work properly. Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 1 hour 27 minutes, including 1 hour 27 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

Stage yellow is like a healthy parent watching carefully millions of kids in the hope that they don't blow everything up.

19/02/2021 (Week 4) If I bring a higher level of self-esteem to my activities today... I'll be more focused in my activities I'll be happier to work I'll easily generate flow states I'll produce high-quality work I'll get more fulfillment from my activities I'll let go of distractions I'll increase my understanding of my activities If I bring a higher level of self-esteem to my dealings with people today... I'll have more compassion for others difficulties I'll be fairer with people I'll put proper boundaries I'll appreciate more the company of other people people will appreciate more my company I'll be more genuine I'll build better quality relationships I'll build more sustainable relationships If I am 5 percent more self-accepting today... I'll feel better I'll feel better even though I have my imperfections I'll be more relax I'll have more consciousness when dealing with situations I'll appreciate life more I'll do the prerequisite to take responsibility I'll go through my day effortlessly If I am self-accepting even when I make mistakes... I'll accept not being perfect I'll recognize that I can learn from others it'll be fun to correct them I'll be more able to correct mistakes I'll be more able to help myself I'll feel at peace If I am self-accepting even when I feel confused and overwhelmed... I'll breathe when I'll feel confused and overwhelmed I'll relax when I'll feel confused and overwhelmed I'll try to distance myself from being overwhelmed by relaxing and taking a break in order to have a big picture understanding of what's not working in order to solve it I'll accept having difficulties I'll let go of the needs for things to always be perfect I'll be able to get back on track faster I'll continue even in the middle of difficult moments

19 February 2021 Wake Up Time: 05:30 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:15 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:16 AM - 10:06 AM I responded to two persons Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 50 minutes 07:17 PM - 07:21 PM I responded to a person Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 4 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 10:32 AM - 12:02 AM I worked on the small web app Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 30 minutes 02:37 PM - 04:01 PM I continued the work on the web app Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 24 minutes 04:10 PM - 04:40 PM I worked on the app and did a few checks Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 30 minutes Almost didn't sleep of the entire night, went to the gym at 6 AM, and therefore had trouble to work in the afternoon. Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 4 hours 18 minutes, including 2 hours 24 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

I want to figure the shit out of this world.

18/02/2021 (Week 4) If I bring a higher level of self-esteem to my activities today... I'll have more courage to face challenging activities I'll move forward faster I'll work with more intensity I'll be more focused I'll get more satisfaction from my work I'll do better quality work I'll work more decisively If I bring a higher level of self-esteem to my dealings with people today... I'll set proper boundaries with people I'll be fairer with people I'll let them know politely when they cross my boundaries I'll be happier to have social relationships I'll be more compassionate with people I'll do my best to understand other's perspectives If I am 5 percent more self-accepting today... I'll feel better I'll be more in the present moment I'll relax properly I'll do the required step to take responsibility I'll do things slower I'll do things with more consciousness If I am self-accepting even when I make mistakes... I'll have more facilities to accept that I'm not perfect I'll be more willing to correct myself I'll correct myself faster I'll be less stressed I'll move faster in life I'll learn faster If I am self-accepting even when I feel confused and overwhelmed... I'll go back to my normal state faster I'll easily deal with confusion I'll relax more when I feel confused I'll take responsibility to move forward even in difficult situations I'll focus on finding a solution in difficult moments I'll more easily deal with difficult moments

17 February 2021 Wake Up Time: 06:34 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:30 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 08:55 AM - 08:28 AM I did a few checks Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 33 minutes 01:20 PM - 04:55 PM Mostly worked on a website optimization Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 3 hours 25 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:45 AM - 10:45 AM I worked on the web app Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 11:04 AM - 12:12 AM I continued the work on the web app Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 8 minutes Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 6 hours 6 minutes, including 2 hours 8 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

The second image is a false equivalency.

17/02/2021 (Week 4) If I bring a higher level of self-esteem to my activities today... I'll be more focused while doing my activities I'll find better solutions and faster I'll get more satisfaction from what I'm doing I'll push through difficulties I'll relax when doing my activities I'll be happier to go through my day If I bring a higher level of self-esteem to my dealings with people today... I'll be fair with people I'll be kind, yet tough and assertive I'll be happier to have social interactions I'll be more natural around people I'll be more genuine with people I'll set proper boundaries If I am 5 percent more self-accepting today... I'll feel better I'll be able to recognize mistakes I'll be able to correct mistakes I'll increase my self-esteem I'll breathe properly I'll be more relaxed it will be easier to make progress If I am self-accepting even when I make mistakes... I'll be more able to accept feedbacks I'll correct myself faster I'll accept that I'm not perfect I'll be more open to learn and grow I'll become more flexible I'll go through life with more joy If I am self-accepting even when I feel confused and overwhelmed... I'll unfuck myself faster I'll go back on track faster I'll get clarity faster I'll slow down when I feel confused and overwhelmed I'll deal with life better I'll find my way through life faster

17 February 2021 Wake Up Time: 06:54 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:10 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 03:23 PM - 04:03 PM I added some images to a websites Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 40 minutes 07:33 PM - 07:51 PM Just did a few small updates on a website Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 18 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 11:07 AM - 12:11 AM I worked on a small web app. I distracted myself a little by listening to Leo in the background Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 4 minutes 12:22 AM - 12:53 AM I continued the previous work Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 31 minutes Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 2 hours 37 minutes, including hours minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

Back to Masculinity I need to get back to my masculinity. I was a lot in touch with my femininity for ~ 2 years after being too much masculine before. I always took it to the extremes. I currently have issues getting shit done, being disciplined, and being tough which are masculine values. I need to find a proper balance between masculinity and feminity. Maybe 60% masculinity / 40% feminity or 70% masculinity / 30% feminity.

This forum is the best place on the internet.

Moving Out So... I got this bad news from a client recently, he told me that there will be no other projects immediately. I was planning to find a small apartment/room to rent when I'll get a positive news. I'm so sick of staying at home with my parents and so sick of the loud noises outside all day long: hens, dogs, constructions, traffic on the road, television, people speaking loudly like animals, people with fucked up brains, etc. However, a good news that I recently got is that I'm now classified as a rising talent on Upwork which means that I have more visibility and more chances to find clients, so there is hope. As soon as I'll find another client that pays well, I'll start to search for an isolated and silent place. I just need a small room at max 100$/month, I hope I could find something like this. I'm so sick of this house, it's time to move out.

Luke 23:34, The Bible

16 February 2021 Wake Up Time: 08:15 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:45 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 10:45 AM - 11:57 AM Did some updates on a website. I was quite annoyed with all the noises outside me Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 12 minutes 04:03 PM - 04:26 PM I uploaded an article Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 23 minutes 08:01 AM - 08:16 AM I shared an article on social media and responded to a client Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 15 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 01:21 PM - 02:47 PM I worked on the small web app, got some issues Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 26 minutes 02:52 PM - 04:03 PM I continued the previous work, but distracted myself a little too much. Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 10 minutes Shit... Average Focus: 3.37 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 4 hours 26 minutes, including 2 hours 36 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

16/02/2021 (Week 4) If I bring a higher level of self-esteem to my activities today... I'll do things effortlessly I'll appreciate more my activities I'll do my activities with more intensity I'll generate flow states while working I'll move faster towards my goals I'll be more focused I'll have more satisfaction from my work If I bring a higher level of self-esteem to my dealings with people today... I'll be fair with people I'll consider that I can learn from anybody I'll love people more I'll be more genuine when dealing with people I'll have an increased discernment during social interactions I'll appreciate that I can exist only because of other people If I am 5 percent more self-accepting today... I'll be more in peace I'll feel better I'll more easily accept mistakes I'll recognize my flaws I'll increase awareness of my thoughts I'll be happier I'll be more relaxed I'll accept that I need to be more self-accepting of myself and others If I am self-accepting even when I make mistakes... I'll feel less bad when making mistakes I'll open room to grow it will be easier to correct myself I'll have more humility I'll more easily make progress I'll increase my self-esteem I'll see that I'm not perfect I'll see that I can make mistakes like other people If I am self-accepting even when I feel confused and overwhelmed... I'll breath deeper when confused and overwhelmed I'll be more able to re-stabilize myself I'll be more able to re-calibrate myself I'll slow down when confused and overwhelmed I'll move on faster I'll be able to not lost myself I'll be able to put myself back on track again

This guy @Robi Steel ? I remember you, it's nice to see that you woke up

Sick of Noises God I'm so sick with all these noises around me all day long. I seriously need to find a separate and isolated apartment without noises where I can work in silence.

Be wise, stay wise.

I'm not sure what's happening, I'm feeling a lot of resistance and difficult emotions, maybe I'm growing?

Interesting conversation.

The adult path is about finding a way to reconnect ourselves to the joy we used to have when we were kids but that we lost because of some circumstances.

Yes, it is.

I have a slight sense of superiority that I developed many years ago. I feel superior when it comes to intellect and wisdom. I feel like I'm a better human being than most people. I see most people as dumb, and it makes me arrogant. Sometimes it looks like it's one of the reasons why I avoid many social interactions: I want to analyze all possibilities so that I can always be right and superior. Even though I did a lot of progress in the past and this is not a big issue anymore, I just feel it within myself. It also looks like it's a natural thing for INTPs. Anyone can relate or have some tips? Arrogance doesn't feel that great compared to acceptance, satisfaction in life, or joy.