Raphael

I forgive you son. You have my entire infinite love, forever.

Father, forgive me, for what I do not know what I'm doing.

Now it's time for forgiveness.

Now what?

This is life. People are unaware, people make mistakes, people make misjudgments. The ones who never acknowledge them stay guilty their entire life, but the ones that recognize them, accept them, become conscious, burn their karma, and make progress.

You are a hypocrite. Do you like being a hypocrite?

Yes, and so what?

Don't you think that it's hypocritical regarding what you previously shared here?

30/04/2021 (Week 14) Self-assertiveness to me means... having high integrity doing what is necessary to do to achieve my goals saying what I want to say having boundaries putting limits with people making things happen asserting my decisions in life no matter the nonconstructive criticism not caring about what people say If I lived 5 percent more assertively today... I'll be a bit more focused in my work I'll respect better my time table I'll push through difficult problems I'll say what I want to say I'll let people what are unchangeable do their own stuff in order to concentrate on myself I'll have more intention If I treat my thoughts and feelings with respect today... I'll accept all my thoughts and feelings I'll love my thoughts and feelings my thoughts and feelings will start to serve me better I'll have a bit more emotional mastery I'll work better I'll deal with people better I'll feel more authentic I'll do better If I treat my wants with respect today... I'll accept having wants I'll discipline myself to achieve my long term wants I'll do what I want appropriately when it's time I'll feel more authentic I'll have more integrity I'll be more comfortable being myself

30 April 2021 Wake Up Time: 07:14 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:30 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ Stretching after waking up ❌ Cold shower after waking up ❌ No social media until 7 PM ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 10:58 AM - 12:21 AM I did some tests and also had some communications. I distracted myself a bit too much Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 23 minutes 04:33 PM - 06:08 PM I got a strange bug on my app. I finally found that it's not my fault, but a problem with the third party API Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 35 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:20 AM - 10:33 AM I worked on design improvements on a small web app. I also distracted myself a bit near the end of the session Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 13 minutes 01:33 PM - 02:50 PM I did other improvements on a small web app Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 27 minutes Average Focus: 3.25 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 5 hours 38 minutes, including 2 hours 40 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

29/04/2021 (Week 14) Self-assertiveness to me means... respecting the conditions that I put being disciplined to make things work pushing through difficulties saying what I want to say having boundaries with people respect for my standards having a proper system to deal with my life challenges If I lived 5 percent more assertively today... I'll make my life system better and better everyday I'll push through difficulties I'll wont care that much about what people are saying of me I'll stick to my decisions to make my goals happen I'll close myself from nonconstructive criticism I'll do things in a more focus manner I'll move faster towards my goals If I treat my thoughts and feelings with respect today... I'll accept my thoughts and feelings I'll try to understand my thoughts and feelings my thoughts and feelings would become my friends my thoughts and feelings would serve me better I'll experience my emotions I'll be more authentic If I treat my wants with respect today... I'll be more disciplined to achieve what I want to achieve I'll recognize having wants I'll work in a more focused manner I'll get go of distractions I'll cover my want of sleeping properly by doing nothing before going to bed I'll feel more authentic I'll be closer to myself

29 April 2021 Wake Up Time: 08:03 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:15 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ Stretching after waking up ❌ Cold shower after waking up ❌ No social media until 7 PM ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 10:03 AM - 10:22 AM I did a few quick improvements on a small web app Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 19 minutes 10:48 AM - 12:08 AM I continued the previous work Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 20 minutes 01:35 PM - 02:50 PM I'm a bit stuck. I also had a lot of unrelated thoughts Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 15 minutes 04:53 PM - 06:17 PM I continued the same improvements and made progress Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 24 minutes 07:50 PM - 09:18 PM I continued the previous work Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 28 minutes I was a bit depressed today especially after hearing my grandma exploding in an existantial crisis. It's not really her fault, she is very old now and from time to time she explode in pure rage. It's quite difficult for me to listen to that and it can easily affects my mood. I decided that I will stop reading this book and that that I will work a bit in the evening in order to launch the business as soon as possible. Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 5 hours 46 minutes, including 5 hours 46 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

Hey, you! I love you unconditionally no matter how you are.

The ones who are the more needy for relationships are the ones who have the most catastrophic relationships.

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Exploring Racial Biases: Are Some Biases Unavoidable? I wonder a bit if someone can ever be completely clean or if we all have a small kernel of it. Having a small kernel of it doesn't necessarily mean that we hate someone, but just that we have some preferences and can be uncomfortable with the unknown. Being uncomfortable isn't something only related to how we deal with other people, but just an aspect of life. Being uncomfortable with the unknown applies to any new thing that we try to do or that we try to open to. One day I told my mom that I would like to visit countries like Iraq, Iran, Syria, Afghanistan and she told me that she was a bit afraid of all these countries. I don't consider my mom racist, it's just that we hear so much catastrophic news from some areas of the world that it gets internalized, and that we develop a bit of fear. I remember speaking to a guy one day, then he told me that he was from Syria, I didn't have any thoughts at the moment but noticed a tiny fearful reaction in my body and suddenly became a bit uncomfortable. How would you deal if you meet someone that comes from an area where we hear a lot of catastrophic news from? Would you be normal? Experience some micro fears? A lot of fear? How would be if you ever visit one of those places that are at risk? Would you be a hippie spreading love to everyone or be realistic? Sometimes, depending on the situation there is a need to discriminate. It doesn't mean hating people, it just means taking the necessary precautions because an environment has some features that make it dangerous. However, this can be twisted and people that are racists can justify some behavior where there is no real danger and project their hate. Balance here is obtained through high awareness. I want to finish this post on the following statement: cultural preferences are unavoidable, it doesn't mean being racist, but everyone has cultural biases no matter how enlightened they are. Just look at yourself: What language do you speak? English? It is a cultural bias and you discriminate against other languages. What food do you eat? The food that you eat is a cultural bias. What music do you listen too? What is your cultural preference regarding music? What movies, TV shows, YouTube videos do you watch? This is highly dependent on the environment that you developed in. You have a bias and discriminate against other movies, TV shows, and videos just because some resources looks more familiar. What kind of clothes do you wear? Why don't you wear clothes that people wear from the other side of the planet? Why do you prefer some clothes rather than other clothes? You have a cultural bias regarding clothing. How is your body language? Your body language is shaped a certain way and this is caused by the culture that you live in. Different cultures have different body languages. You have body language biases. How do you breathe? Yes, how do you breathe? Your culture even has an impact on how you breathe, how you inhale and exhale oxygen. You have a breathing bias. These examples are here to put awareness that some cultural biases are impossible to transcend. Even an enlightened Yogi that deconstructed the entire universe has some cultural biases, for example, he needs to use language to communicate and cannot learn all languages. Some biases are here for survival purposes and to properly function in life. It's possible to be aware of healthy biases and unhealthy biases. If a language is widely used and provides all the tools to properly express emotions in life, then having a preference for this language is fine. Healthy biases are backed up by positive emotions and integration of aspects of life while reducing human suffering, unhealthy biases (such as racism) are backup by fears and inappropriate judgments.

Exploring Racial Biases: Racism as an Evolutionary Feature Racism is an evolutionary feature. The most powerful societies have always been the one who were the most exploitative and for a collective ego it's always better to exploit another one than itself. Does it have to be forever that way? I personally think that there will always be discrimination and a social hierarchy, however, this social hierarchy will be less and less important in the future. In a utopian future where machines will do the most painful tasks, the need for human exploitation will be less important. Nevertheless, societies will still have to work and some people will have to maintain the infrastructure not maintainable by the machines and some people will have to maintain the machines. Some people have to do the dirty work and these people will be at the bottom of the hierarchy. In an utopian future, I don't consider that it would mean brute racism, but just some discrimination. People like this would just have fewer opportunities for self-actualization work, philosophy, spirituality, etc. Or maybe if it happens people will rotate: some people will do the dirty work while others self-actualize, then the groups will switch in order to maintain society and allow everyone time for self-actualization. Who knows exactly how the future will be made?

28/04/2021 (Week 14) Self-assertiveness to me means... saying what I say no matter what people thinks asserting my decisions in life having boundaries doing what I say not letting others demotivating me being disciplined to assert to purpose in life working hard to achieve long term goals taking responsibility to achieve my goals not caring about what others says If I lived 5 percent more assertively today... I'll be a bit more disciplined I'll push through difficulties I'll stay focus on the task that I'm doing without letting my mind discourage me I'll achieve more I'll let others know when I don't agree with them I'll communicate clearly and directly If I treat my thoughts and feelings with respect today... I'll use better use my thoughts and feelings my thoughts and feelings would better serve my purpose I'll accept my thoughts and feelings I'll love my mind I'll love my feelings I'll be happier with my thoughts and feelings If I treat my wants with respect today... I'll accept having wants I'll be disciplined to work for my long term wants I'll cut distractions I'll keep a proactive positive attitude that is connected with reality to achieve my wants I'll be more motivated to work I'll be more open to change I'll be more comfortable being myself I'll do what I want and I'll do what is necessary to achieve my wants

28 April 2021 Wake Up Time: 06:46 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 11:10 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ Stretching after waking up ✅ Cold shower after waking up ❌ No social media until 7 PM ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:24 AM - 10:19 AM I contacted one person and also did some administrative tasks: accounting and dealing with some bank issues Focus: 4/5 Duration: 55 minutes 01:12 PM - 01:54 PM I responded to a few persons, check my mails, and distracted myself a bit Focus: 3/5 Duration: 42 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 10:52 AM - 12:03 AM I tried to fix an issue on a small web app, but failed. I also distracted myself a bit sometimes Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 11 minutes 02:00 PM - 02:55 PM I worked on some improvements for a small web app Focus: 3/5 Duration: 55 minutes 04:46 PM - 06:08 PM I continued the work on the small web app Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 22 minutes Today was more difficult. I had trouble to work and to concentrate properly. Average Focus: 3.4 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 5 hours 5 minutes, including 3 hours 27 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes)

One day I had a threesome with a giraffe and an elephant, it was amazing.

27/04/2021 (Week 14) Self-assertiveness to me means... having boundaries letting know my limits doing what I want to do doing what I say saying what I want to say creating what I want to create asserting my decisions in life not caring about what people says If I lived 5 percent more assertively today... I'll respect more my decisions I'll assert more my decisions I'll be more ruthless I'll work with more intention I'll work with more intensity I'll have more discipline If I treat my thoughts and feelings with respect today... I'll experience my thoughts and feelings I'll accept my thoughts and feelings I'll use my thoughts my diligently my thoughts would better serve me my emotions would better serve me I'll feel better I'll be more authentic I'll be more efficient If I treat my wants with respect today... I'll do what I want I'll be disciplined to do what's needed in the present moment to achieve my long term wants I'll be more able to achieve what I want to do I'll feel better with what I want I'll feel more authentic I'll have more compassion I'll have more compassion for my wants

27 April 2021 Wake Up Time: 06:40 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:25 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ Stretching after waking up ✅ Cold shower after waking up ❌ No social media until 7 PM ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 08:31 AM - 09:10 AM I started some improvements on an interface Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 39 minutes 10:10 AM - 11:28 AM I continued the previous improvements Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 18 minutes 11:33 AM - 12:03 AM I continued the previous work. I had a lot of unrelated thoughts Focus: 3/5 Duration: 30 minutes 01:25 PM - 02:44 PM I continued the same work. I'm a bit stuck on some issues Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 19 minutes 04:16 PM - 05:10 PM I continued the improvements on the small web app Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 54 minutes 05:16 PM - 06:47 PM I went back working on my web app and continued the progress on Instagram scheduling Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 31 minutes Average Focus: 3.41 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 6 hours 11 minutes, including 6 hours 11 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective at least 45 minutes)

I feel like when I'm eating a big meal, the digestive process causes some brain fog. I chose to replace white rice by brown rice. I'll try to add some green tea, but I think that it caused me some issues in the past, but I don't remember what.

26/04/2021 (Week 14) Self-assertiveness to me means... doing what I say saying what I want to say having boundaries with people asserting my decisions in life being in control of my life making life work If I lived 5 percent more assertively today... I'll respect more my decisions I'll work with more intention I'll let go of distractions I'll cut unnecessary people I'll be discipline to make things happen it will be easier to get things done If I treat my thoughts and feelings with respect today... I'll accept all my thoughts and feelings I'll be gentle with myself I'll concentrate more my thoughts I'll concentrate more my thoughts on what I need to do to make my business evolve I'll feel more in integration with myself I'll use my thoughts and feelings properly to achieve my long term goals If I treat my wants with respect today... I'll accept having wants I'll be discipline to work for my long term wants I'll feel more authentic I'll do things that I want I'll achieve my wants I'll do what is necessary to achieve my goals

26 April 2021 Wake Up Time: 07:54 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:05 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ Stretching after waking up ✅ Cold shower after waking up ✅ No social media until 7 PM ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 09:34 AM - 10:33 AM I fixed some issues on a web app and checked a job opportunity Focus: 3.75/5 Duration: 59 minutes 10:52 AM - 12:08 AM I worked on my app backend Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 16 minutes 01:07 PM - 02:40 PM I continued working on Instagram scheduling Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 33 minutes 03:29 PM - 04:14 PM I started to do some corrections on a small web app Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 45 minutes 04:33 PM - 06:08 PM I continued the previous improvements Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 35 minutes @Raphael Good job, you're doing great. Average Focus: 3.55 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 6 hours 8 minutes, including 6 hours 8 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 47 minutes (objective at least 45 minutes)