Raphael

02 May 2021 Wake Up Time: 06:37 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:55 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ Stretching after waking up ✅ Cold shower after waking up ~ No social media until 7 PM (Doesn't apply on Sunday) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: No work for today Average Focus: ~ / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 0 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

Some sexism with some racism.

01/05/2021 (Week 14) If any of what I wrote this week is true, it might be helpful if I... take responsibility for being assertive create a healthy system to support the assertiveness of my decisions in life respect my thoughts and emotions respect my decisions assert my decisions in life work with high integrity put boundaries with people am disciplined to take the actions to achieve my long term wants

01 May 2021 Wake Up Time: 07:14 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:00 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ Stretching after waking up ✅ Cold shower after waking up ~ No social media until 7 PM (Doesn't apply on Saturday) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 01:18 PM - 02:45 PM I did some progress on my app Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 27 minutes Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 1 hour 27 minutes, including 1 hour 27 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

I will watch this later.

We all know these stories about people working 10, 12, 14, 16 hours per day for weeks or months. I personally don't understand how something like this is humanly possible. What is the mindset behind this? How are these people able to work that much without exploding? Most of the work that I do is programming which is incredibly cognitively demanding. After 25 - 30 hours, I already feel tired. I pushed it sometimes in the past, however after 40 hours, it becomes too much for me.

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@Jacob Morres Thanks. Yes, this is very helpful. I experienced a lot of growth from this exercise.

My definition of a bias is just a preference for something over other things. I don't see a bias as necessarily toxic or egotistical. Someone can have a low or strong preference that can be healthy and justified and someone can have a low or strong preference that can be unhealthy and backed by fear. In these examples, these biases aren't necessarily toxic but can be toxic if a person is not even open to considering other possibilities. I see that Google and other online dictionaries are more aligned with your view, therefore I think I'll align on this too. So yes, they aren't biases, but preferences and they become biases when the ego is involved.

They are many subpersonalities in the above conversation: My father self: the one who is always angry, who is perfectionist, and critical of everything. My mother self: the one who is kind and caring, the one who nurture, the one who understand the difficulties of life and people's imperfections. My defensive self: the one who defends against critics and personal attacks. My child self: the one who ask for help, the one who wants to be forgiven for the mistakes he mades while growing up. My true self: the one who deeply love everyone unconditionally and who forgive no matter what.

Subpersonalities Confused by the above discussion with myself? That was a discussion with my subpersonalities. Everyone has subpersonalities. A subpersonality can be healthy or unhealthy, some exist to deal efficiently with life challenges, some can come from past traumas and shows as emotions like anger, jealousy, anxiety, hate, etc. An average person has around a dozen subpersonalities but is not aware of it. https://www.wikiwand.com/en/Subpersonality https://www.huffpost.com/entry/sub-personalities-whos-ca_b_447845

I forgive you son. You have my entire infinite love, forever.

Father, forgive me, for what I do not know what I'm doing.

Now it's time for forgiveness.

Now what?

This is life. People are unaware, people make mistakes, people make misjudgments. The ones who never acknowledge them stay guilty their entire life, but the ones that recognize them, accept them, become conscious, burn their karma, and make progress.

You are a hypocrite. Do you like being a hypocrite?

Yes, and so what?

Don't you think that it's hypocritical regarding what you previously shared here?

30/04/2021 (Week 14) Self-assertiveness to me means... having high integrity doing what is necessary to do to achieve my goals saying what I want to say having boundaries putting limits with people making things happen asserting my decisions in life no matter the nonconstructive criticism not caring about what people say If I lived 5 percent more assertively today... I'll be a bit more focused in my work I'll respect better my time table I'll push through difficult problems I'll say what I want to say I'll let people what are unchangeable do their own stuff in order to concentrate on myself I'll have more intention If I treat my thoughts and feelings with respect today... I'll accept all my thoughts and feelings I'll love my thoughts and feelings my thoughts and feelings will start to serve me better I'll have a bit more emotional mastery I'll work better I'll deal with people better I'll feel more authentic I'll do better If I treat my wants with respect today... I'll accept having wants I'll discipline myself to achieve my long term wants I'll do what I want appropriately when it's time I'll feel more authentic I'll have more integrity I'll be more comfortable being myself

30 April 2021 Wake Up Time: 07:14 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:30 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ Stretching after waking up ❌ Cold shower after waking up ❌ No social media until 7 PM ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 10:58 AM - 12:21 AM I did some tests and also had some communications. I distracted myself a bit too much Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 23 minutes 04:33 PM - 06:08 PM I got a strange bug on my app. I finally found that it's not my fault, but a problem with the third party API Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 35 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:20 AM - 10:33 AM I worked on design improvements on a small web app. I also distracted myself a bit near the end of the session Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 13 minutes 01:33 PM - 02:50 PM I did other improvements on a small web app Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 27 minutes Average Focus: 3.25 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 5 hours 38 minutes, including 2 hours 40 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

29/04/2021 (Week 14) Self-assertiveness to me means... respecting the conditions that I put being disciplined to make things work pushing through difficulties saying what I want to say having boundaries with people respect for my standards having a proper system to deal with my life challenges If I lived 5 percent more assertively today... I'll make my life system better and better everyday I'll push through difficulties I'll wont care that much about what people are saying of me I'll stick to my decisions to make my goals happen I'll close myself from nonconstructive criticism I'll do things in a more focus manner I'll move faster towards my goals If I treat my thoughts and feelings with respect today... I'll accept my thoughts and feelings I'll try to understand my thoughts and feelings my thoughts and feelings would become my friends my thoughts and feelings would serve me better I'll experience my emotions I'll be more authentic If I treat my wants with respect today... I'll be more disciplined to achieve what I want to achieve I'll recognize having wants I'll work in a more focused manner I'll get go of distractions I'll cover my want of sleeping properly by doing nothing before going to bed I'll feel more authentic I'll be closer to myself

29 April 2021 Wake Up Time: 08:03 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:15 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ Stretching after waking up ❌ Cold shower after waking up ❌ No social media until 7 PM ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 10:03 AM - 10:22 AM I did a few quick improvements on a small web app Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 19 minutes 10:48 AM - 12:08 AM I continued the previous work Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 20 minutes 01:35 PM - 02:50 PM I'm a bit stuck. I also had a lot of unrelated thoughts Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 15 minutes 04:53 PM - 06:17 PM I continued the same improvements and made progress Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 24 minutes 07:50 PM - 09:18 PM I continued the previous work Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 28 minutes I was a bit depressed today especially after hearing my grandma exploding in an existantial crisis. It's not really her fault, she is very old now and from time to time she explode in pure rage. It's quite difficult for me to listen to that and it can easily affects my mood. I decided that I will stop reading this book and that that I will work a bit in the evening in order to launch the business as soon as possible. Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 5 hours 46 minutes, including 5 hours 46 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

Hey, you! I love you unconditionally no matter how you are.

The ones who are the more needy for relationships are the ones who have the most catastrophic relationships.