Raphael

@Eren Eeager You have to introspect yourself in this case.

Is it IRL or on social medias?

https://www.healthline.com/health/anxiety https://www.healthline.com/health/anxiety/anxiety-chest-pain

11/05/2021 (Week 16) Living purposefully to me means... living for something higher than myself living to help humanity achieving what I want to achieve being concerned about the world living for self-improvement doing what is necessary for the advancement of humanity If I bring 5 percent more purposefulness into my life... my life would feel more important I would feel more responsibility towards my life I'll be more motivated to work I'll treat each moments as precious I would be happier to live my life I would think a bit more about my life purpose If I operate 5 percent more purposefully at work... I would be more focused in my work I would produce high quality work I would be happier to work my work would feel a bit more important I would be more determined in accomplishing what I want to accomplish in my work I would create more easily flow states I would be more immersed in my work If I operate 5 percent more purposefully in my relationships... my relationships would feel more precious my relationships would be more meaningful my relationships would better serve my purpose I'll contribute more to my relationships I'll be happier in my relationships I'll try to find people who resonates with me my relationships would be healthier I'll get more satisfaction from my relationships

11 May 2021 Wake Up Time: 06:31 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:20 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ Stretching after waking up ✅ Cold shower after waking up ✅ No social media until 7 PM ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 09:24 AM - 10:29 AM I worked on some fixes and improvements on a web app Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 5 minutes 10:48 AM - 12:00 AM I continued doing improvements on the app. I had a lot of unrelated thoughts Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 12 minutes 01:03 PM - 02:39 PM I fixed a validation error. I distracted myself a bit while working Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 36 minutes 04:19 PM - 05:57 PM I did some improvements on some small web apps. I also had an emotional release during this session, became aware of some shadows, and cried a bit Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 38 minutes 08:39 PM - 09:21 PM I completed some work Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 42 minutes Average Focus: 3.4 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 6 hours 13 minutes, including 6 hours 13 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours)

Thank you, I love you.

@Raphael You are enough, you are enough.

I am enough, I am enough.

I am Enough I was experiencing very difficult emotions today. My mind was incredibly agitated then after a moment, I had this insight: I am enough. I started to feel better and better just after and the monkey mind gradually shut down. I also cried a bit. I often have a sense of urgency, it stresses me out, it ruins my life. I finally became aware of its origin: my dad. This isn't really a surprise, and many of my issues are from him, but it feels great to understand them and fix them. I have always been talked by him, always pressured so much to do great, to perform that it ruined my life. It created some deep insecurities of always feeling not being enough and of always needing to do more and more things. Today, I can say this: I am enough.

@soos_mite_ah I remember reading this entry. I also had an experience around the same time where I got into a stage blue environment. Even though I knew about SD, my ego was a bit too strong to have enough compassion which resulted in a very difficult period of my life with a lot of conflicts. I thought sometimes about trying to introduce the model to stage blue/orange people, but an entire course would be necessary only to understand why the transition to orange or green is necessary. By the way, what do you think about Leo participating in podcasts? Someone pointed out on this forum that it can help in giving a less cultist image of actualized.org and opening it, but again being too open can be an issue.

@Zeroguy Interesting, I didn't know about solipsism.

10/05/2021 (Week 16) Living purposefully to me means... living to achieve my goals living for something higher than myself disciplining myself to achieve something higher than myself living for a spiritual cause living to help humanity living consciously living gracefully always evolving to higher and higher versions of myself If I bring 5 percent more purposefulness into my life... my life would feel more previous my life would feel more important my life would feel more conscious I would have more awareness in my life I would be more motivated I would work with more intensity If I operate 5 percent more purposefully at work... I'll focus on what is really necessary to move forward in my work I would work with more intensity my work would reflect me better the quality of my work would improve my work would feel more important I'll be happier to work I'll focus on what's important I'll do better If I operate 5 percent more purposefully in my relationships... my relationships would feel better I'll try to improve my relationships a bit more every day I'll be happier in my relationships I'll be more aware in my relationships the happiness of people around me would improve I'll cut people who drag me down I'll cut people who don't serve me I'll have more satisfaction from my relationships

10 May 2021 Wake Up Time: 06:42 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:50 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ Stretching after waking up ✅ Cold shower after waking up ✅ No social media until 7 PM ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 08:48 AM - 09:48 AM I worked on a backend API Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 10:12 AM - 11:58 AM I continued the previous work. I had difficulties working properly because of some thoughts and I also felt a bit depressed Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 46 minutes 01:08 PM - 02:43 PM I continued working on the API. I got distracted by my grand who exploded in another emotional crisis. It was a bit difficult to handle Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 35 minutes 04:34 PM - 06:11 PM I continued the work on the API Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 37 minutes 07:12 PM - 08:16 PM I continued the work on the API Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 4 minutes Average Focus: 3.3 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 7 hours 2 minutes, including 7 hours 2 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours)

And this one too. How can this comment exists if you don't perceive it? See? You are creating this journal. You are creating all the posts that you are reading. You are currently creating everything. Why are you doing this? Why are you creating this? Why do you need this? Why? ?

You are creating this comment that you are reading.

You are creating this comment that you are reading.

09/05/2021 (Week 15) If any of what I wrote this week is true, it might be helpful if I... honor my life honor my wants am responsible for my life open up a bit more share my joy share my authenticity set boundaries say what I want to say do what I want to do

Weekly Statistics (26 April 2021 - 02 May 2021) Total Working Time 25 hours 33 minutes Average Focus 3.47 / 5

09 May 2021 Wake Up Time: 09:00 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:30 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ Stretching after waking up ❌ Cold shower after waking up ~ No social media until 7 PM (Doesn't apply on Saturday) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: No work for today I slept so much lol. I had a deep profound night of sleep. It's maybe because I did a breathwork session yesterday, screamed a lot, cried a lot, and released a lot of emotions. Average Focus: ~ / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 0 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes)

@Shin It comes from this.

Showing a face of God.

Nope. Wtf is this?

@Shin On peux dire que je suis à croquer

I only know his name and only watched a few minutes of his content in my entire life. I never felt attracted by videos on him because many of them had clickbait titles and are too popular to feel authentic.