Raphael

If you become able to create a system that widespread information about healthy parenting and help parents all around the world, your life purpose will be one of the most impactful ever and you will be seen as one of the most important individuals who ever existed on the planet.

The last four years were basically about me becoming aware of the unhealthy aspects of all SD stages and shifting more and more to the healthy aspects.

The videos about human development and politics are the ones that I like the most. These three videos + all the other ones about Spiral Dynamics are in my favorites.

Healthy Blue Characteristics Ability to defer gratification Hardwork & discipline Hierarchies Stable & orderly Dutiful and obedient Complies with, respects authority Respect of the laws Purposeful, guided Dedicated to a cause Sacrifice for, in service of the common good Responsible, reliable Trustworthy Respectful, polite Sharing & charitable Caring of the family, the community, the country

Stage Blue I always hated stage blue. More specifically, I always: Hated conforming Hated being shamed for not conforming Hated the need to be loyal to a culture or a social group Hated the pride that people have for their culture, country, or ethnicity Hated their rigidity Hated rigid rules Hated people taking things way too literally or seriously Hated people getting angry just because of a small joke, a bit of humor, and a bit of lightness in life Hated being criticized for having original ideas Hated having no rights for creativity and to explore original ideas Hated not being able to ask questions Hated religious dogmas Hated how people talk about being good and loving, but hates so much people who thinks differently (just as I'm currently doing with stage blue, so that's a strange loop that I'm falling into) Hated their racism, sexism, homophobia Hated how people shame others for not being kind and polite Hated how fake people are, speaks about kindness and caring about others where in reality this is not genuine care but just fear who push them to have moral values that they don't even understand Hated how much people fake happiness behind religious beliefs Hated how people stay stuck on small details Hated how people fights for small details Hated how parents don't take their children seriously just because they are children Hated the huge sense of superiority that authorities have Having having to obey to incompetent authorities Hated how authorities aren't open to the possibility of being wrong Hated how authorities talk down to people who are below them in the hierarchy Hated how much repressed emotions are Hated toxic standards of masculinity (OK. There's also a lot of red here) Hated how much people are shamed when they aren't feeling good. Especially how much men are shamed for being sad or depressed. Men not supporting themselves, but just attacking themselves because being sad and depressed is being a pussy and because a strong man is supposed to be dominant and always happy and not express emotions (except rage, anger, hate) Hated masculine hypocrisy towards the feminine. Hated men saying to be kind, caring, and supportive of women, but in practice doing the complete opposite Hated how much people are unhealthily disciplined and just work like mules without thinking about it Hated hearing people saying that the mind doesn't matter and that I shouldn't think that much Hated how black and white their thinking is And much more. Of course they are healthy aspects to stage blue, but this is not what I'm focusing on here. I rarely met healthy blue people in my life, most of the time they were pretty dumb. Sorry for the rant, but I really wanted to get this out.

Working out moderately (or intensely, but only for a few exercises) at the gym 3 or 4 days per week is fine and healthy. However, if someone becomes obsessed with it, it's an issue.

It would be the best thing to do, but I don't think he will avoid spirituality if he participates in other podcasts. It looks like spirituality is what interests him the most and he also outgrew basic personal development. Maybe talking about life purpose, world issues, and politics would be the best thing. I think that he will only talk with people that are open-minded enough and have at least an advanced orange/green audience. That way the audience would be open to the ideas without taking things literally.

12/05/2021 (Week 16) Living purposefully to me means... living for humanity living selflessly asserting my purpose in life being decisive being disciplined to achieve long term goals asserting my authentic self into life having deep, intimate relationships If I bring 5 percent more purposefulness into my life... I will take my life more seriously it will be easier to sort out my life I'll understand that joy is essential to a quality life and will bring more of it my life would feel more precious my relationships would feel more precious I'll make progress faster I'll be more motivated to work If I operate 5 percent more purposefully at work... I'll work with better focus my work would feel more important I'll let go of distractions while working I'll generate more easily flow states I'll work more joyfully I'll generate results instead of working just for the sake of working If I operate 5 percent more purposefully in my relationships... I'll let go of my bitterness in my relationships my relationships would be deeper and more meaningful my relationships would be healthier my relationships would be more authentics there will be more joy in my relationships I would attract similar people my relationships will be connected with my purpose of helping humanity

12 May 2021 Wake Up Time: 06:00 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:55 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ Stretching after waking up ✅ Cold shower after waking up ❌ No social media until 7 PM ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 09:12 AM - 10:13 AM I worked on the cron for my backend API Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 1 minute 10:33 AM - 11:58 AM I continued the previous work Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 25 minutes 01:23 PM - 02:50 PM I worked on my API Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 27 minutes 04:36 PM - 06:10 PM I continued the work on the API Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 34 minutes 07:34 PM - 08:13 PM I have some issues making this API work properly Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 39 minutes Sleep has been terrible lately. I basically almost didn't sleep for the last three days, but I don't give a fucking shit. Average Focus: 3.4 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 6 hours 6 minutes, including 6 hours 6 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours)

Seeing people as lost kids in life might help in developing compassion towards them rather than being frustrated by them.

@Eren Eeager You have to introspect yourself in this case.

Is it IRL or on social medias?

https://www.healthline.com/health/anxiety https://www.healthline.com/health/anxiety/anxiety-chest-pain

11/05/2021 (Week 16) Living purposefully to me means... living for something higher than myself living to help humanity achieving what I want to achieve being concerned about the world living for self-improvement doing what is necessary for the advancement of humanity If I bring 5 percent more purposefulness into my life... my life would feel more important I would feel more responsibility towards my life I'll be more motivated to work I'll treat each moments as precious I would be happier to live my life I would think a bit more about my life purpose If I operate 5 percent more purposefully at work... I would be more focused in my work I would produce high quality work I would be happier to work my work would feel a bit more important I would be more determined in accomplishing what I want to accomplish in my work I would create more easily flow states I would be more immersed in my work If I operate 5 percent more purposefully in my relationships... my relationships would feel more precious my relationships would be more meaningful my relationships would better serve my purpose I'll contribute more to my relationships I'll be happier in my relationships I'll try to find people who resonates with me my relationships would be healthier I'll get more satisfaction from my relationships

11 May 2021 Wake Up Time: 06:31 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:20 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ Stretching after waking up ✅ Cold shower after waking up ✅ No social media until 7 PM ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 09:24 AM - 10:29 AM I worked on some fixes and improvements on a web app Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 5 minutes 10:48 AM - 12:00 AM I continued doing improvements on the app. I had a lot of unrelated thoughts Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 12 minutes 01:03 PM - 02:39 PM I fixed a validation error. I distracted myself a bit while working Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 36 minutes 04:19 PM - 05:57 PM I did some improvements on some small web apps. I also had an emotional release during this session, became aware of some shadows, and cried a bit Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 38 minutes 08:39 PM - 09:21 PM I completed some work Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 42 minutes Average Focus: 3.4 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 6 hours 13 minutes, including 6 hours 13 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours)

Thank you, I love you.

@Raphael You are enough, you are enough.

I am enough, I am enough.

I am Enough I was experiencing very difficult emotions today. My mind was incredibly agitated then after a moment, I had this insight: I am enough. I started to feel better and better just after and the monkey mind gradually shut down. I also cried a bit. I often have a sense of urgency, it stresses me out, it ruins my life. I finally became aware of its origin: my dad. This isn't really a surprise, and many of my issues are from him, but it feels great to understand them and fix them. I have always been talked by him, always pressured so much to do great, to perform that it ruined my life. It created some deep insecurities of always feeling not being enough and of always needing to do more and more things. Today, I can say this: I am enough.

@soos_mite_ah I remember reading this entry. I also had an experience around the same time where I got into a stage blue environment. Even though I knew about SD, my ego was a bit too strong to have enough compassion which resulted in a very difficult period of my life with a lot of conflicts. I thought sometimes about trying to introduce the model to stage blue/orange people, but an entire course would be necessary only to understand why the transition to orange or green is necessary. By the way, what do you think about Leo participating in podcasts? Someone pointed out on this forum that it can help in giving a less cultist image of actualized.org and opening it, but again being too open can be an issue.

@Zeroguy Interesting, I didn't know about solipsism.

10/05/2021 (Week 16) Living purposefully to me means... living to achieve my goals living for something higher than myself disciplining myself to achieve something higher than myself living for a spiritual cause living to help humanity living consciously living gracefully always evolving to higher and higher versions of myself If I bring 5 percent more purposefulness into my life... my life would feel more previous my life would feel more important my life would feel more conscious I would have more awareness in my life I would be more motivated I would work with more intensity If I operate 5 percent more purposefully at work... I'll focus on what is really necessary to move forward in my work I would work with more intensity my work would reflect me better the quality of my work would improve my work would feel more important I'll be happier to work I'll focus on what's important I'll do better If I operate 5 percent more purposefully in my relationships... my relationships would feel better I'll try to improve my relationships a bit more every day I'll be happier in my relationships I'll be more aware in my relationships the happiness of people around me would improve I'll cut people who drag me down I'll cut people who don't serve me I'll have more satisfaction from my relationships

10 May 2021 Wake Up Time: 06:42 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:50 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ Stretching after waking up ✅ Cold shower after waking up ✅ No social media until 7 PM ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 08:48 AM - 09:48 AM I worked on a backend API Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 10:12 AM - 11:58 AM I continued the previous work. I had difficulties working properly because of some thoughts and I also felt a bit depressed Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 46 minutes 01:08 PM - 02:43 PM I continued working on the API. I got distracted by my grand who exploded in another emotional crisis. It was a bit difficult to handle Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 35 minutes 04:34 PM - 06:11 PM I continued the work on the API Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 37 minutes 07:12 PM - 08:16 PM I continued the work on the API Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 4 minutes Average Focus: 3.3 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 7 hours 2 minutes, including 7 hours 2 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours)

And this one too. How can this comment exists if you don't perceive it? See? You are creating this journal. You are creating all the posts that you are reading. You are currently creating everything. Why are you doing this? Why are you creating this? Why do you need this? Why? ?

You are creating this comment that you are reading.