Raphael

05/06/2021 (Week 19) If any of what I wrote this week is true, it might be helpful if I... align myself with my values reach to people who have similar values let go of people that I don't resonate with do everything possible to entertain high integrity am respectful of myself assert myself in life see my life as precious and as having my full priority

05 June 2021 Wake Up Time: 06:36 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:17 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ Stretching after waking up ✅ Cold shower after waking up ~ No social media until 7 PM (Doesn't apply on Saturday) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 07:20 PM - 07:33 PM I just researched a few documents. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 13 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 04:18 PM - 06:10 PM I started improving the publishing interface. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 52 minutes Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 2 hours 5 minutes, including 1 hour 52 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes)

Leo has typical INTP issues.

Personal Masculine / Feminine Balance I took this test and got a brain that is 58% masculine / 42% feminine. I remember taking it previously and getting 50% masculine / 50% feminine. Even though I think the quality of the questions is pretty low, the results relate to how I feel. I also took this other test and got a similar result. This makes perfect sense. I never really felt hypermasculine nor hyperfeminine, I don't relate a lot with people who are on the extremes. I think that I'm most of the time balanced with a slight preference for masculinity, however, it varied multiple times during my life. I had periods where I felt very creative, artistic (right brain) and periods where I felt very logical, analytical (left brain). It can be a bit difficult to handle and can feel like two people fighting for control on how to approach life, but even though this is challenging I consider this balance as a strenght. Overall I feel less masculine and more sensitive than most men and at the same time less feminine and more emotionless than most women.

04/06/2021 (Week 19) If I bring 5 percent more integrity to my relationships... my relationships would be more meaningful I'll be more honest in my relationships people would appreciate me more I'll attract conscious people I'll value relationships more I'll get more satisfaction from my relationships If I remain loyal to the values I believe are right... I feel aligned with myself I entertain high integrity I'll would be more authentic I'll be whole I'll see less the need to defend myself people would respect my more If I refuse to live by values I do not respect... I feel more authentic I entertain high integrity I'm living life for myself rather than for others I'll let go of people who don't resonate with me I'll let go of unneeded thoughts I'll increase my self-respect If I treat my self-respect as a high priority... people would respect me more my life would go my way I'll be more able to make change my life would become a high priority life I'll more joy from life things would go my way the quality of my life would improve

Actually, I feel a bit more clarity after masturbating but that's mostly after not doing it for 2 - 3 days. Masturbating every day do numbs me.

@Striving for more Interesting that you've added socializing into it. It also seems to me that any life experience can improve someone's mental capacity and that any experience can be used later in a different field. The more diverse life experiences someone has, the more flexible its brain is.

04 June 2021 Wake Up Time: 06:42 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:49 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ Stretching after waking up ✅ Cold shower after waking up ❌ No social media until 7 PM ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:58 AM - 10:25 AM I realized that I did some unneeded work yesterday. I also got a mail from the revenue authority about the payment of taxes and submission of income. I need to inform myself more on this stuff. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 27 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 10:45 AM - 11:59 AM Sent an email, did some work on my API. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 14 minutes 01:38 PM - 02:42 PM I continued the previous work. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 4 minutes 04:38 PM - 06:16 PM I mostly did some testing. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 38 minutes 07:27 PM - 08:24 PM I corrected some bugs, created a pull request and merged it, and updated the API on the development server. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 57 minutes Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 5 hours 20 minutes, including 4 hours 53 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours)

I have so much things going on in my mind. I maybe should try writing bigger posts more regularly, however, my issue is that I don't have that much time to journal everyday. Maybe I could try one very big deep post per week. I see that some people journal in order to empty their mind. It could maybe work for me too if I find enough time.

I think that these small posts with a few lines are just a survival strategy that I developt to avoid digging deep into myself.

Shadow Sensemaking These videos have sexy stage Yellow titles, but I don't know if I'll ever have the time to watch them.

03/06/2021 (Week 19) If I bring 5 percent more integrity to my relationships... my relationships would bring more joy my relationships would be more high conscious people would appreciate me more I'll get more satisfaction from my relationships I'll get value out of my relationships I'll appreciate people more If I remain loyal to the values I believe are right... I entertain high integrity I feel whole my life follows my values I'll assert more my purpose in life I'll feel more authentic my personality would penetrate the world I'll improve more easily If I refuse to live by values I do not respect... I'll let got of difficult people I'll feel more authentic I'll slow down my pace of life my self-respect would increase people would respect me more I'll feel more unique If I treat my self-respect as a high priority... I'll feel better I'll feel happier my life would become a high priority life I'll be more assertive I'll have more boundaries with people I'll spend time with people who respect me I'll respect my values I'll change more easily

03 June 2021 Wake Up Time: 07:08 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:33 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ Stretching after waking up ✅ Cold shower after waking up ❌ No social media until 7 PM ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 09:41 AM - 10:30 AM Did some work on Twitter related crons. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 49 minutes 10:53 AM - 12:05 AM I continued working on crons for Twitter. I had a lot of unrelated thoughts. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 12 minutes 02:03 PM - 02:47 PM I took a nap just. I really felt the lack of sleep, my head hurt. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 44 minutes 04:33 PM - 06:10 PM I continued the work on the cron. I still have a lot of unrelated thoughts. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 37 minutes 07:23 PM - 08:10 PM I continued the improvements on the Twitter cron. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 47 minutes 3 days without sleep... It was very tough, I had to take a nap during the day. Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 5 hours 9 minutes, including hours minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours)

Do you think you won't get banned again btw?

You need to be judgmental in order to choose friends wisely.

I came across this video. This is so innovative and allows to tackle a so sad situation that I just wanted to share it.

I really envy these people who can quickly fall as sleep and who have deep profound sleep. Insomnia is one of the most difficult condition someone can have.

Try to find a job on the Internet. Use Upwork, you can find high paying clients if you have the skills. I personally live in an emerging country, when I started working I was earning 500-600 $ / months, then I started working on the Internet and can now earn more than 1000$ / month while working less than 20 hours / week. It saved my life.

3 days without sleep. Just because my mind is crazy all day and all night. Even when I feel exhausted and have an headache because of lack of sleep, I still can't sleep because my mind is too crazy.

You prevented me to sleep for two days now. You're such a savage beast, mind. Calm down mind, calm down. It's gonna be ok.

Calm down mind, calm down.

02/06/2021 (Week 19) If I bring 5 percent more integrity to my relationships... my relationships would be more meaningful I'll get more joy from my relationships I'll be more honest in my relationships I'll cut relationships that don't serve me I'll have higher-quality relationships my relationships would be more authentics I'll be happier to have social interactions If I remain loyal to the values I believe are right... I'll be as honest as I can I'll be as respectful as I can I'll have more integrity people would respect me more I'll stay as open as possible I'll feel aligned in life If I refuse to live by values I do not respect... I'm developing assertiveness I'm living life for myself rather than life for other people my life would be more authentic my life would go my way I'll have more integrity my life would be more purposeful I'll have more focus in my life If I treat my self-respect as a high priority... I'll have more self-love I'll stay aligned with my values my life would feel meaningful my life would feel precious I'll entertain joy I'll feel empowered in life