Raphael

No, but I have a GitHub account with some old projects. I also have a little more of 2 years of professional experience. I started computer programming when I was 15, and now I'm 22. Do you have some experience in the domain?

@Truth Addict The fact that the average salary is from £70 to £90 per month for a full time job and that you guys are here on this forum despite all the dogmatism and the political situation in your country literally blow my mind up. I never thought I would experience something like this in my life. Even if I don't live in a first world country, I'm paid more than you and still have trouble getting all my shit together. All of this is fucking incredible.

I'm currently amazed that you can communicate with us in your situation. The 21st century is really one of the most incredible era ever

I actually did it, and everything went like shit! I had to relearn the basis of relationships due to a cultural gap, and it also helped me be more adaptable, conscious and open-minded on other cultures.

Only programmer nerds can understand this :

You sounds like Leo... and yes, all of these are good advices Brutally changing a cultural environment also helps in better understanding the basis as it push us to be more adaptable. Which stages would you classify yourself in? Depends of the perspective, in a sense it's a success as most enlightened people had to work really hard to obtain that. In another sense, it's just nothing ...

I don't like when people ask me to do things outside school/work with them. The typical scenario is the following: I'm with another person or in a group at school/work, I enjoy my time with them and they also enjoy it. Then, someone asks if I want to join them one day for an activity and I'm like: "Nooooooooooooooooo!!!!" I have some social anxiety, and yes these propositions are opportunities for growth. However, it's not hugely handicapping me in my daily life. It's OK at work, I don't have any difficulties to say when I don't agree on some things and I'm really proactive. But, I don't really like to share my personal life. I don't like when my days of solitude are taken, I always feel I have better things to do when I'm alone by myself. I see these people almost everyday day, so why not having some days off? I feel freer when I'm alone. When we invite me I feel like someone catches me by force and that it's not OK to say refuse.

I also have this concern. How do you handle it? I literally never had close friends during my entire life because I was so shy and introverted in the past. I would qualify most people I had social interaction with as acquaintances, and some of them friends. Outside of school/work, I had very few times where I would hang out with other people (These quotes boxes are really terrible)

I still feel like there's a little of social anxiety going on inside me. @Serotoninluv What if the same person asks for it multiple times? I think of one person who seems to be interesting and could become a great friend, however, I always feel like I need to focus on myself and be alone.

This one is really awesome

No more than these ones? I'm not sure and I'm not enlightened or highly spiritual. I am only supposing that an infinite amout of realities exists

I resonate a lot with this. I also find all this bureaucracy in my stage blue/orange work environment completely useless and ridiculous

What do you mean everything ? Areas of personal development ? Which ones ? However, no matter your answer, I will say no. Except in a different reality

The only times were I worked hard was when I had an objective I really wanted to attain. I think a good way to train yourself can be to: Find an area of your life where you are really bad at and want to change Turn it in your mind into a growing opportunity and accept fully your difficulties Cut your goal into a list of easy actionable steps Go through all of those steps one at the time, and while doing this focus only on the current step It's really important that you accept the existence of your difficulties. I find out this is even more powerful than a neurotic 100% responsibility attitude. Only do a single thing at the time, your mind needs to be detached from the external world to focus on finding the solution of the current problem. So, keep it light, don't overload it with other things (even music, especially if your work is intellectual). You can also do some affirmations and/or visualizations every day. Here are videos who helped me the most:

I think we should be careful when using irony on the internet. One day I was shocked when a friend used it on youtube in the context of France's political elections. Even though most people on this forum would understand it, it can be very dangerous as it's possible to reach thousands/millions people around the globe

Accept the guilt and your mistakes and plan to have a conversation with the other person.

I meditate 10 minutes the morning and 30 minutes the evening, but I have some trouble to do it properly since I moved back to my native country. However, I overthink less now

Hey there, I just want to share my experience of escaping wage slavery. I didn't achieve it, everything basically went like shit, but I experienced some deep growth from it! So, back in late 2017, I wanted to become financially independent with affiliate marketing. I made one sell, however, most products on popular platforms were low-quality products that I didn't like, so I stopped everything. I was also in a work environment where I was bullied a lot, I was quite depressed, and I decided to quit this job. At the beginning of 2018 I went back to my parents' house, in March/April I started to work on a SAAS app. At this time I was very angry at the world and more particularly with my father (which I hated). I also found a new job located more than one hour away from my hometown. Concerning the web app I didn't know many of the technologies that I needed, so I learned on the way. For several months I had to do more than two hours of traffic every day, I was working on my computer in the bus and was really tired. I was also stressed by putting a lot of pressure on myself. Sometimes I was very productive, sometimes less productive and I was very hard on myself. I was telling me things like: "Some people are working 70 to 80 hours a week, so stop complaining about your life and go fucking do it!", and was unable to do any work. Hard masculine compassion (like Leo did in some videos) didn't work pretty well for me. Because of this the day after I would backslide and speak negatively to myself and be depressed, then another day I would try to catch up the loosed time by working late and sleeping only four hours. I was also at this period of time going to the gym five times per week, at 5 AM. Finally, one day, the pressure becomes so hard with all the work, stress about my productivity, and all the intense hate against my father that I had a panic attack, the first of my entire life. I was very scared and thought I was going to die, I had difficulty to breathe and was very thirsty. I almost didn't sleep of the night but managed to calm down by doing some deep breathing. This experience really calmed me down. Days and weeks after this, I didn't stop working on my app, but I was calmer. I also had several other panic attacks, but their intensity decreased more and more in time. Two or three months after my first attack I moved into the city where I was working, to not have to work in the bus. I was alone by myself, I didn't have and still don't have a lot of money, but I'm more independent now. Concerning the project, I really underestimated the complexity of making a web application. I had to redo many things, work that I didn't do right, unexpected changes, etc. I basically tried to build something too complex, and it didn't even get off the ground. So I feel a little fucked up. Now, something that I really didn't expect to happen was spiritual growth. After my last panic attack three or four months ago (who wasn't very intense), I had some deep spiritual growth which I didn't expect. I learned that acceptance is one of the most powerful things ever and I started to fully accept reality as it is and had some deep feeling of happiness. One day I had a very intense ecstasy feeling when I was in my bed, I was so happy that it was overwhelming and was unable to sleep. Sometimes I was looking at the room where I was sitting and also other things like my body, my hands and was feeling deeply connected and in peace with the world. I was smiling and had some small laughs all alone. I was looking at everything and was like: "Wtf? Wtf is all that? All of this is incredible!" I tried to describe my feelings with words but was unable to do it. Right now I'm so grateful of everything that happened to me, so grateful that I've experienced those panic attacks, so grateful that I'm alive and exist. All of this is incredible, Even though I'm still a wage slave, I've learned a lot about myself and about web development. I did many mistakes from which I learned and feel more authentic and more happy with my life, even if don't have anything fancy. I'm continuing my journey now

@ajasatya Well, if we think of the relative sense, it went like shit because I didn't attain my goal, in some other senses I learned a lot. Anyway there's still a lot of shit that I need to go through!

Hey there, I have been working on a Saas app since March/April 2018 and I am not sure if I am going in the right direction. Here are some facts about my app: It's a social media management app like Hootsuite, Buffer, etc. Currently, it looks more like AgoraPulse For the moment it's literally (with only subtle differences) a copy of AgoraPulse It only has two functionalities: publishing and scheduling on Facebook and Youtube, and comment management (which is not even finished) There are still bugs and many things related to the technical aspect which are not resolved I feel like it's also important to share some personal stuff about me: Last two years have been a little rough I entered the job market I had anxiety problems and experienced several panic attacks during the last 8 months. So some days I would be stressed because I was unable to work due to my anxieties, and then I would beat myself down because of this I've slacked off a lot because of my emotional issues Currently, I feel like I have less anxiety and can manage myself better. Changing city, loneliness, and meditation has helped me a lot I never started any business before or any Saas app The main problem that I see for the moment with my app is that it's only a pale copy of something that already exists. One day I saw a video of a guy who said that there is no need to innovate and that we can create a similar product and earn money by marketing it better. However, as I am approaching more and more the end of development I have more doubt about my success and feel like I am wasting my time. Originally I wanted to put the app online for free and create a very close relationship with clients by making a video at least every two weeks. Ask them ideas and their needs on social media management and implement their ideas. However, I don't have a lot of time and the only solution that I see is to stop sleeping. Then I thought about a feature that I wanted to develop in my app to differentiate myself, that would: Check all comments for a period of time on a specific social media Rank who commented the most and got more reactions Have some sorting functionality (by reactions, by comment count, etc) Allow the client to go directly on their profile to enter in contact with them Currently, I see two actions that I can take: Continue my original plan, and then implement the previous feature. The problem is that it's not original, and it's going to take more time Create a micro-saas app consisting only of the feature I mentioned above. This seems more easy and original I'm also really inspired by the story of Joel Gascoigne of how he created the Buffer app who now have generated more than millions of dollars with a very simple original idea. I'm thinking about implementing his technique: Ask the people on the market what they think of my current project If they think this is not worth it, stop Then ask about my micro-saas app idea What do think about this? Should I continue? There's not a lot of work (in theory) for me to have the first version. Should I change direction and create my micro-saas app? Or am I sabotaging all my work just before I release it?

Hey there, I really feel that I need a break right now, especially from Leo's videos. Here are some facts: I discovered personal development with Actualized.org in December 2015 Currently, we are in August 2018, so it's been almost three years that I've been watching Leo's videos I took some actions in the past and had some changes, but nothing really massive I love abstract ideas and theories, however, I ingurgitated so much content that I'm starting to literally get bored with so many theories I love and I'm quite addicted to Leo's videos (I listened to some of them more than 5 to 10 times), I understand the conceptual ideas in each video, but my life doesn't change enough because of a lack of massive actions. I am not saying this only because Leo hardly points out this problem in its 'How To Contemplate Using A Journal' video, but because I have been noticing more and more this problem in myself lately before this video came out. That's a nice and interesting synchronicity, and of course, Leo's reminder on this also helps With all these theories and recent videos on spiral dynamics, I now know where I am in my life and where I want to go. My vision is not crystal clear and needs to be sharpened, but I know in what direction I need to orientate myself I'm currently mostly at stage orange (at least 60 %), and Actualized.org is more and more yellow and turquoise I need to embrace orange, get my personal independence, and get strong results in my life How I'm going to use Actualized.org: I'm not cutting completely Actualized.org, but I want to use it in a nuanced and effective way I'm not going to watch any new video from Actualized.org for the next 6 months (so until February 5). I also disabled notifications from the Youtube channel I'm not going to distract myself by reading the forum I'm not going to try to help anyone on the forum. Why? Because I'm underdeveloped, and that I need to help myself before helping others I will use the forum only if I need some specific pieces of information for action taking, help with emotional toughness, and motivation (I am thinking about a subject right now) I'm allowing myself to watch any of the existing videos before August 5 only if I need some information for practical actions, help on emotional toughness, and motivation. So I am not going to watch a lot of content on spirituality and very advanced topics, but more on foundational issues that need to be fixed in my life I always wanted an extraordinary life and I promised myself to succeed in the past. I'm committing myself right now to generate results. I will see how it look like when reflecting on my life after the next six months

@Revolutionary Think I'm 21, and I'm also struggling with some toxic family relationships. I'm trying be become financially independent, so that money will never be a source of limitations, but a source of opportunities. I also have other fundatinal issues that need to be fixed like anxieties and childhood trauma, etc.

@Revolutionary Think I'm currently in the same situation than you. I'm fighting and struggling for my independence, it's really hard, but keep it up! Lol. How did you achieve this feat?

Mom : Blue / Orange / Green Dad : Red / Blue / Orange

I entered "fuck society" on YouTube and found his video "30 Ways Society Fucks You In The Ass"