Raphael

12 December 2019 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: Wow... This meditation was phenomenal, I was in a flow state most of the time. I generated it by myself, emotions are incredible, we can create whatever we need to deal with the appropriate situation. This ending was a little more difficult, I moved my body a little more and experienced some difficulties keeping the same state, but overall it was a very great meditation. I felt calmer and more conscious when I opened my eyes.

11 December 2019 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: I was a little sleepy during this meditation as I had a pretty bad night. The session went overall pretty well, but the ending was difficult, I felt resistance and moved my body a little more. I found out that the best thing to do when feeling resistance is to relax and let go, and repeat this process for each new wave of resistance. I felt calmer, clearer, and more conscious when I opened my eyes.

10 December 2019 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: Success! This session went well, I had a lot of thoughts, but I didn't move my body a lot. I felt happy during this meditation and I had one important insight: love is what is needed to meditate longer and do well in life. If I don't love meditating, I cannot meditate properly, so the solution to last longer and have awesome meditation sessions is to generate infinite and boundless love. I felt great when I opened my eyes, but I also feel that the more I meditate the less I'm able to notice a difference of consciousness. It's maybe because I'm becoming able to retain this state in my daily life, which is a great thing.

9 December 2019 TIme: 59 minutes 15 seconds Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: Most of today's meditation went pretty smoothly until maybe the last 10 - 15 minutes. I was overall calmer than despite the monkey mind. The ending was painful, I moved my body a lot and did some burps. I opened my eyes before 1 hour without feeling more conscious.

Feeling What's True, Feeling What's False I always had an intuition concerning what's true and false. When someone tells me something or when I do something, I can feel if it's true or false. Does that mean that I always follow my intuition? No. In fact, most of the time I don't and I had many true intuitions in the past, but that didn't help me because I was too scared to follow them. That's another thing that I can improve in myself.

8 December 2019 TIme: 47 minutes 3 seconds Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: This session started well but ended in pain as I failed to push through 1 hour. I found it very difficult to maintain myself in position after maybe 35 - 40 minutes and started to move my body a lot. I didn't felt more conscious when I stopped.

7 December 2019 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: Today's meditation was similar to yesterday. I let go of everything and it globally went well even thought pushing to 1 hour was a little painful. I moved more my body, did some burps, and searched my nose near the end. I also had some moments where I felt becoming more conscious and merging with everything and other moments where I felt losing consciousness. I didn't felt highly conscious when I opened my eyes.

6 December 2019 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: Here we are, 1 hour of meditation without opening my eyes. Interestingly, I found it easier than I expected, maybe because I let go of everything and authorized my mind to do whatever it wanted. The ending was more complicated and I moved my body a little more, I also felt like the last few minutes were endless. I didn't felt more conscious when I opened my eyes, maybe because I was so distracted by my thoughts.

5 December 2019 Time: 58 minutes 40 seconds Eyes always closed: No Summary: I opened my eyes at 19 minutes because I had to inform my grandma about something. I also got distracted near the end by a message on my phone, so I opened my eyes before 1 hour. I choose to let go of everything for this session and I think I will do the same for several following sessions to accustom myself to 1 hour in the beginning. I had a lot of thoughts today and the ending was a little painful, however, I felt a little more conscious when I opened my eyes.

@Pramit Thanks, I already did a few 1 hour sessions in the past, but never created a consistent habit.

4 December 2019 Time: 28 minutes 48 seconds Eyes always closed: No Summary: I didn't meditate that much today, maybe it was because of the apprehension and challenge to push to 1 hour or maybe because of how consistent I have been the last 30 days so that I need a little break from meditation. Anyway, I had a lot of thoughts during this session and was also quite excited. I didn't felt more conscious when I opened my eyes.

Let's Push To 1 Hour I have been meditating every day for 45 minutes without opening my eyes. The first phase of my objective is then completed and it's time to move to the next step. I will start tomorrow and it will go the same as for 45 minutes, my goal is now to meditate for 1 hour for at least 30 days without opening my eyes.

3 December 2019 Time: 45 minutes Summary: I kept my eyes closed during the entire session and choose to follow @Raptorsin7's advice and found it harder than just letting go. I suppose that's normal as consciousness demands a certain effort. Sometimes I felt some movements in my brain as if the left and right parts were trying to merge. I was pretty aware when my thoughts were taking over so I try to get back to consciousness when it was happening. It wasn't perfect and I failed sometimes, but most of the time I was conscious of it. I felt more aware when I opened my eyes.

@Raptorsin7 Thanks, that's good advice.

I'm not sure. I know I can see my thoughts for a few seconds, but I think I'm still immersed in them. Most of the time, I don't even remember my thoughts after the session.

2 November 2019 Time: 45 minutes Summary: I kept my eyes closed during the entire session, even if I found it quite difficult. I let go of everything and was in a thought storm today, I also had some burning feelings in my body because of stress. I didn't felt more conscious when I opened my eyes.

@Aeris That's normal and predictable behaviours. I didn't visited their forum in more than 5 years. I would like to read the reactions, can you PM me the link?

Which forum?

1 December 2019 Time: 45 minutes Summary: Unlike yesterday, I choose to let go of everything. I kept my eyes closed and let my thoughts do whatever they wanted, I didn't move my body a lot, and I felt like this session went very fast. My mind was a little clearer when I opened my eyes.

A Little Of Red I feel like I have a little of stage red inside me, maybe 1 - 2%. It's not toxic, but I can see it appearing when I'm confronted with very difficult people. What's important is that I have control over it, even if sometimes it can be difficult.

Thoughts And Emotions Are Tools I'm currently arriving at a level of consciousness where I can see that emotions and thoughts can be used as tools to go through life. In fact, from a certain level of consciousness, it becomes possible to activate and deactivate them when needed according to our life circumstances. As an example, if someone has a great vision he/she can mix thoughts with love (one of the most powerful emotions) to attain a purpose. Thought specifies a direction and love creates motion. At this moment, I'm not able to do this powerfully, but I have a grasp of the potential.

30 November 2019 Time: 45 minutes Summary: I tried to do some mindfulness today, but wasn't very successful as I got lost in thoughts a lot. However, I kept my eyes closed a lot and almost didn't move my body, my back was very straight for most of the meditation. I felt a little more conscious when I opened my eyes.

@Raptorsin7 When you pushed to 2 hours, did you did it gradually? Did you try 1h 15m, 1h30, etc. before? Or you went directly to it?

@Raptorsin7 I also started to meditate 3 - 4 years ago. Most of the time I was doing only 30 minutes, it's only recently that I wanted to spend more time. Normally if things go well I will start pushing to 1 hour in a few days.

29 November 2019 Time: 45 minutes Summary: The meditation went well and I didn't open my eyes. I had a lot of thoughts, but I almost didn't move my body. I feel like this session went very fast, maybe like 20 minutes. I felt more conscious when I opened my eyes.