Raphael

25 December 2019 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: This session was a little more difficult than yesterday, but at the same time I felt like it went faster maybe like 30 - 40 minutes instead of 1 hour. I had a lot of thoughts and moved my body quite sometimes, I felt calmer when I opened my eyes.

Thanks, bro. Your always here to bring positivity and encouragement to people

Better Than I Thought I realized a few days ago that I'm doing better in life than most people. Growing up as a kid, I was very anxious and depressed most of the time, I thought I was poor, that I had a bad family, a bad dad, that I was uglier and dumber than other people. I don't know why, but I attracted a lot of criticism and negativity from other kids and my family. I was the calm and shy kid who would get bullied without any reason. I understand now better how other people are reactive and insecure, they do all this stuff because they are uncomfortable with people being comfortable in solitude and silence. Of course, I also had and still have my issues, and I'm still reactive against some things, but I'm currently far better than I have ever been. I'm not living this stage orange materialistic life that many people of my age want to live, it doesn't attract me. I live simply with my family, I have healthy food, clean water, internet access, a gym membership, and a lot of alone time. I still need a few things, but the essential is here, and I'm satisfied with it. Most people are more fucked up than I am, they are always concerned about their social status, about getting material stuff, where I don't care that much. In summary, life is good and has never been that good before for me.

24 December 2019 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: This was a great meditation session. I had many thoughts, but I almost didn't move my body, except near the end. Nothing exceptional happened, but I did a full hour without opening my eyes. I didn't felt a huge difference of consciousness when I opened my eyes.

23 December 2019 Time: 46 minutes 5 seconds Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: I had a lot of thoughts and I felt like this session was pretty long where I didn't even do 1 hour. I think I'm maybe experiencing a backslash after several days of consistent practice. Meditation is like going to the gym, skipping one session makes the following ones more difficult, that's why it's important to be consistent.

22 December 2019 Time: 0 seconds Eyes always closed: No Summary: I didn't meditate today too because of the same reason than yesterday. I'm started to get a little more clients as a freelancer, all of this is new to me and I have to learn to manage my time and emotions better.

21 December 2019 Time: 0 seconds Eyes always closed: No Summary: I didn't meditate, my day was too agitated as I worked at least 12 hours yesterday.

I usually wake up, eat, go to the gym, and then meditate. However, things are going a little like shit today, so I'll probably meditate in the evening.

20 December 2019 Time: 57 minutes 17 seconds Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: I found this session very difficult, I was a little sleepy and at the same time very agitated. I moved my body a lot and scratched myself sometimes. I didn't felt more conscious when I opened my eyes.

@Amandine Thanks I sit on my bed in the morning, becoming conscious straight from the morning helps me throughout all day.

19 December 2019 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: I was quite sleepy and also lost in thoughts during this session. I wasn't really aware, but I keep it up anyway. I moved my body a lot when approaching the end and I didn't felt more conscious when I opened my eyes.

Do What's Necessary And You Will Do Everything That Needs To Be Done In Your Life I had the insight today that only a few things are needed in someone's life to be happy, which are: healthy food and water, a house/shelter, physical security, physical activity, and spiritual practice. All the rest are distractions. If someone has its physical needs covered and a hardcore spiritual practice, then he/she will be fine in almost all situations. Of course, it doesn't mean that the person cannot explore other things in life, but he/she will not be attached to it, so there will be no complaint with restrictions, but only contentment.

18 December 2019 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: It was another great meditation session. I had a lot of thoughts at the beginning, but my mind became quieter and quieter the more I meditated. I almost didn't move my body except near the end as the session became more difficult and I experienced some back pain, but letting go of the resistance and the pain helped me moving forward. I felt calmer and clearer when I opened my eyes.

17 December 2019 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: I felt like this session went really fast, 1 hour felt like 20 minutes, maybe because I was very distracted by my thoughts today. I'm surprised that I almost didn't move my body and didn't experience any back pain, I'm maybe becoming used to 1 hour. I felt a little calmer when I opened my eyes.

@Amandine Thanks! I'm glad I can inspire some people here

Mauritius, which is where I live. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mauritius

16 December 2019 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: This session went well overall, I choose to let go of everything and also did it when thoughts or resistance were arriving. The ending was once again more difficult, I did some movements because I was experiencing some back pain. I felt more conscious and calmer when I opened my eyes.

@Raptorsin7 Thanks

Not for now, but probably later in life. I need to properly integrate tier 1 stages before.

@Raptorsin7 First time I meditated I didn't even know about meditation. I wanted to calm down and relax, so I just followed my intuition and sit eyes closed for five minutes with my hands on my knees. I felt great. Then maybe one year later I discovered actualized.org, and at this time Leo was very into meditation, so I listened to him and started a regular practice.

15 December 2019 Time: 46 minutes 18 seconds Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: The session was great for maybe 40 minutes, then I felt it becoming harder and harder. I had a lot of thoughts, and start becoming more agitated near the end. I felt like I was at almost 1 hour but failed to keep it up, so I opened my eyes. I didn't felt more conscious when I stopped.

I was already a little calm when I started. During the session, I choose to let go of everything and when some thoughts or resistance were arriving I just accepted it, let go and stay present. I didn't feel that it was very difficult, but at the same time, these kinds of sessions are very rare for me. Maybe it was just luck.

14 December 2019 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: I was a little more agitated then yesterday and the ending was a little more difficult. I did some weird movements with my body when approaching the end, I felt a little clearer when I opened my eyes, but still a little agitated.

13 December 2019 TIme: 49 minutes 32 seconds Eyes always closed: No Summary: The session went well even if I failed to do 1 hour and opened my eyes briefly in the beginning. I was sweating because of the heat when I stopped.

@Raptorsin7 @Amandine Thanks to both of you!