Raphael

14 February 2020 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: The session went well even if I was a little sleepy. I had a lot of thoughts and move I body sometimes, but I felt like 1 hour went very fast, maybe like 20 or 30 minutes. I didn't felt more conscious when I opened my eyes.

13 February 2020 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: I was tired today as I meditated during the night again. I had a lot of thoughts and move my body sometimes. I didn't felt a difference in consciousness when I opened my eyes.

12 February 2020 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: I was both sleepy and agitated during this session. I did it in the evening which is not the best thing to do as I was tired after the end of my day. I move my body a lot, but I felt calmer when I opened my eyes.

11 February 2020 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: I was agitated, tensed and stressed during today's meditation because I have some difficulties dealing with the pressure of my freelancing business. I moved my body sometimes and felt the need to poop during the session. I didn't felt more conscious when I opened my eyes and went directly to the toilet.

10 February 2020 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: I was quite agitated today, I originally wanted to focus on my fan's sound, but I failed because I wasn't able to control my thoughts. I did some movements with my hands, but I kept my back straight for the entire session. I felt a little calmer when I opened my eyes, but not a lot more conscious.

9 February 2020 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: This meditation went well overall, I let my mind anything that it wanted and I had an enormous amount of thoughts. I move my body a little sometimes, but I felt like this session went quicker than 1 hour. I felt calmer and clearer when I opened my eyes.

I mostly learned by using free online tutorials, it's maybe 70% - 80% of my education. When I was in college, most of the time the teacher would tell us to turn on our computer, go to a specific page and do the exercises. He would eventually help us when we had some questions, in some other classes he would direct us by showing how to do the work. Overall, I think working with other competent people on real scale projects help to learn faster. Online courses on Udemy or other similar platforms can also be great because they are very structured, but I only took one of these courses so far. Stay open when learning, have a stage yellow approach, analyze the most possibilities that you can. There are many different ways of doing the same stuff in programming, yet some of them are more effective.

@Preety_India Excellent idea ?

8 February 2020 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: The session went well, but I was also quite agitated sometimes and a little sleepy. I let my mind do whatever it wanted and I didn't control anything, I had an insane amount of thoughts. I didn't move my body a lot, except at a moment near the end. I didn't felt more conscious when I opened my eyes.

7 February 2020 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: The session went well even though some moments were a little harder and painful. I had a lot of thoughts and move my body at some times. I felt lighter, calmer, and more conscious when I opened my eyes, but my back hurt a little.

6 February 2020 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: The session went well even though I had a lot of thoughts and was a little sleepy. I didn't move my body a lot and kept my back straight for all the duration. I didn't felt more conscious when I opened my eyes and I had some back pain.

Self-Love

@Raptorsin7 Yes, I think that more people on this forum resonate with this article as well, probably more than the general population.

Using Brute Force I have been meditating for 1 hour since the beginning of December, however, I still didn't succeed in the challenge of doing 1 hour for 30 days without opening my eyes. So what I'm going to do is to use brute and take full responsibility to achieve this goal, for that I will wake up early every day (max 6:30 AM) and meditate in the morning. My clients generally don't message me in the morning, so there's less chance that I get distracted. I will also avoid distracting myself with my phone and go straight to the meditation after the gym. I'm now taking 100% responsibility to meditate for 1 hour for 30 days and I know that I will achieve this goal.

Being A Light Worker I'm currently blown away by how well this article describes how I feel. I almost fill all the points! It's strange to read something like this, it's like reading myself. This article was originally posted on Leo's blog, have a look, it's very interesting: https://thoughtcatalog.com/brianna-wiest/2018/03/20-signs-youre-whats-known-as-a-lightworker/ https://www.actualized.org/insights/are-you-a-light-worker

5 February 2020 Time: 43 minutes Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: The session went really well, I was very calm, very peaceful and blissful, it was like heaven. Unfortunately, I got interrupted by several text messages on my phone. A client needed to make a call to discuss some stuff. Apart from that, it was a very great session, I felt more conscious when I opened my eyes.

4 February 2020 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: The session went really well, I had a lot of thoughts, but I almost didn't move my body. As usual, the ending was a little more difficult, I was very tight near the end. I felt more conscious when I opened my eyes.

3 February 2020 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: Today's session went well, I focused on my fan sound, lost my focus, come back to it, again and again. I didn't move my body a lot, except near the end where the meditation started to become more difficult. I felt calmer clearer, and more conscious when I opened my eyes.

2 February 2020 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: I decided to do another meditation session today, it's the first time that I do more than 1 hour in one day. In total, I did 2 hours today, but it was separated by several hours. The second session was fine, I had a lot of thoughts, but I also had some moments where I felt very lightweight, it was like I was merging with everything. I didn't move my body a lot and kept my back straight during the entire meditation. I was a little sweaty when I opened my eyes and I didn't felt more conscious.

2 February 2020 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: The session went well, I let go of everything, I had a lot of thoughts, but I didn't move my body too much and I kept my back straight all the time. The ending was a little more difficult and my ass hurt a little, but I felt calmer and more conscious when I opened my eyes.

1 February 2020 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: This session went far better than yesterday, I still had a lot of thoughts, but I didn't move my body a lot. I felt a little refreshed when I opened my eyes.

31 January 2020 Time: 48 minutes 57 seconds Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: I also did a late-night meditation, I was tired, I had a lot of thoughts and move my body a lot. I was also scratching myself a bit because I had an issue with my skin, maybe an allergy. I didn't felt more conscious when I opened my eyes.

30 January 2020 Time: 0 seconds Eyes always closed: No Summary: Too much work for today and some bad time management from myself. I prefer to go to bed instead of meditating to have enough sleep because tomorrow is going to be heavy too.

Thank you. I started to push to 1 hour at the beginning of December, I was only doing 45 minutes before. Generally, I feel I live my life more smoothly, it's like being naturally in a flow state (of course it's not the case all day). I still have issues, I still experience stress, I still can get angry, but it happens when I'm confronted with very unconscious people. I care less about small details, and I'm less perfectionist. Currently, my meditations go well until 30 - 45 minutes, then I start to experience some back pain and to move my body. I still have a lot of thoughts, but I feel like I'm more able to meditate consistently for 1 hour than before.

29 January 2020 Time: 53 minutes 55 seconds Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: I did my meditation late at night, I was tired and it caused me to stop before the 1 hour. I was very agitated, had a lot of thoughts and move my body a lot. Meditating just before going to bed is clearly not the best thing to do, the best time is at the beginning of the day when I'm refreshed and if it's not possible it's better to do it before 6 PM. I didn't felt more conscious when I opened my eyes.