Raphael

19 April 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:40 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:00 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: No Work For Today Total Work Hours: 0 hours (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 30 minutes - 1 hour)

18 April 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:50 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:10 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: 04:30 PM - 05:13 PM: I searched for clients online and send a few proposals. There's much less projects available than before, probably because of the pandemic . Work Duration: 43 minutes. Deep Work Sessions: 08:19 AM - 09:51 AM: I did some SEO training, but I not sure if I did it right. I was focused. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 32 minutes. 10:12 AM - 11:54 AM: I continued the SEO training, I was a little confused. I got distracted by some negative thoughts and look at actualized.org forum at a moment. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 42 minutes. 01:11 PM - 02:36 PM: I searched for a pretty sans-serif font and worked on an HTML/CSS form validation. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 15 minutes. 02:46 PM - 04:04 PM: I worked on some data structure in order to flexibly create forms. I got some negative thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 18 minutes. Total Work Duration: 6 hours 30 minutes, including 5 hours 47 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 30 minutes (objective 30 minutes - 1 hour)

@Raptorsin7 I think I don't properly relax because when I'm not working I spend time being distracted on the internet. It makes me lose time and then I put pressure on myself and feel ashamed. It's the first time that I hear this, it's very insightful. Do you think that proper relaxation leads to proper discipline?

17 April 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:40 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:24 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Deep Work Sessions: 09:22 AM - 10:05 AM: I did some HTML & CSS fixes, but got distracted by some thoughts and also searched for a plugin in the middle of the session. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 17 minutes. 10: 23 AM - 12:35 AM: I worked on an HTML & CSS dropdown menu, but I realized at the end that I did it the wrong way. I now need to start over. I a lot of parasite negative thoughts and got interrupted at a moment. I lacked focus. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 12 minutes. 02:10 PM - 03:45 PM: I completed the dropdown menu, but still got distracted by negative thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 35 minutes. 04:50 PM - 06:08 PM: I started to learn about SEO so I read some articles about focus keywords. Deep Word Duration: 1 hour 18 minutes. Today's was a little difficult day. I spend too much time being distracted between work sessions. I watched porn and masturbated at a moment between two sessions. I also had a lot of negative thoughts, I'm not sure why but I have been getting a lot more of these since the last 1-2 weeks. It caused me difficulties to be focused. Total Work Duration: 5 hours 22 minutes, including 5 hours 22 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 35 minutes (objective 30 minutes - 1 hour)

A Little Of Sadness I have been feeling quite sad and had a lot of negative thoughts since the last 1-2 weeks. I'm not sure what's the main reason, but here are some possibilities: Covid-19: I didn't move out of the house since at least three weeks now so I'm always surrounded by my family Bad business results: I didn't found any new clients and didn't earn anything since the beginning of the month Work ethic work: I'm currently working on my work ethic so I'm building new habits, discipline, and concentration. To be successful I need the let go of my addictions to distractions and also porn, so I'm maybe experiencing these negative thoughts because I'm losing "a part of myself". One of these reasons is probably more important (probably "Bad business results" or "Work ethic work"), but the three are surely also intermixed together. I need to understand the issues in order to properly solve them, having an attitude of just "think positive, it's doesn't matter" doesn't solve anything because we hide the negativity with a fake layer of positivity. By doing so the issues are still operating in the subconscious mind and may come back very violently in the future. Main lesson: To fix something definitely, it needs to be fixed from the root by a deep understanding of its cause.

16 April 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:30 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:36 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: 09:03 AM - 10:33 AM: I worked on my system configuration. Work Duration: 1 hour 30 minutes 10:51 AM - 12:19 AM: I configured some emails and my development environment. Work Duration: 1 hour 28 minutes. 01:23 PM - 02: 42 PM: I started to set up the CouchDB database, but got a lot of dependencies error. Work Duration: 1 hour 19 minutes. 03:15 PM - 4:25 PM: I finished the database and client project setup, I'm finally able to work without having a system that slows down (at least for the moment). Work Duration: 1 hour 10 minutes. Deep Work Sessions: 05:08 PM - 06:13 PM: I worked on an HTML dropdown menu. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 5 minutes. 7:45 PM - 20:26 PM: I finished up with some Typescript programming. Deep Work Duration: 41 minutes Total Work Duration: 7 hours 13 minutes, including 1 hour 46 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 30 minutes - 1 hour)

@28 cm unbuffed I'm asking because I personally experienced this. I was not trying to prove something, but I was just sharing my ideas or staying quiet while people were talking. Some people also thought that I was smart only by looking at my physical appearance, or maybe it's my vibe or my energy that makes them say that. All of this is funny because I don't consider that I'm smart.

That's so true. I got demonized, criticized and insulted a lot in the past by mostly low stage orange/blue people for asking questions and sharing different ideas.

@28 cm unbuffed Do people assume that you're smart by barely knowing you or just by looking at you?

15 April 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:38 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:25 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: No Work For Today Total Work Hours: 0 hours (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 30 minutes - 1 hour)

@Surfingthewave Thank you, I love you too. And I love everyone in this community and the entire universe too

14 April 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:00 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:28 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: 9:20 AM - 10:17 AM: I reported notes from a book to my commonplace book. The neighbors started to play some loud music outside, so I closed the windows and completely locked myself in the room. I was focused. Work Duration: 53 minutes 10:35 AM - 11:48 AM: I did some paperwork. Work Duration: 1 hour 13 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 12:19 AM - 01:14 PM: I did some research on an algorithm implementation. I think I found a solution. Deep Work Duration: 55 minutes 05:10 PM - 06:00 PM: I did some coding and realized that the research that I did previously was unnecessary. I had some trouble with the new OS and was not highly focused. Deep Work Duration: 50 minutes I wasn't highly productive today. Some past traumas came back to my mind and I was a little depressed because of this. I also had performance issues with my new operating system that frustrated me a lot, I will have to change again. Total Work Duration: 3 hours 51 minutes, including 1 hour 45 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 30 minutes (objective 30 minutes - 1 hour)

13 April 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:00 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:30 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: 10:02 AM - 1:00 PM: I configured my new work environment. I quickly switched between tasks. Work Duration: 2 hours 58 minutes 02:40 PM - 02:56 PM: I tried to fix an issue with my AWS account, but didn't succeed. I will have a more detailed look tomorrow. Work Duration: 16 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 04:10 PM - 06:09 PM: I worked on an HTML view, I wrote its content in English and did the French translation. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 59 minutes Getting started in the morning was a little difficult today. I was quite lazy and delayed my work, but I still managed to work for 5 hours 13 minutes which is quite close to my daily objective. Total Work Duration: 5 hours 13 minutes, including 1 hour 59 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 47 minutes (objective 30 minutes - 1 hour)

Distinguishing Deep Work Vs Other Work I spend a lot of time today setting up and configuring my new environment and doing some utility tasks. I quickly switched between many tasks and one thing that's sure is that all of this is not deep work and doesn't enter in this journal objective, however, that's still work. Thereby, I want to reframe my objective because work can include maintenance stuff too. The new objective of this journal is to work for at least 6 hours per day / 30 hours per week, it includes deep work and other kinds of work like maintenance stuff, networking, etc. I will now distinguish deep work and other kinds of work in my summaries.

12 April 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:00 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:37 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Deep Work Sessions: No Deep Work Today Total Deep Work Duration: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes)

@Vipassana This is highly impressive and you are only 20. I'm 23 and I'm trying to push to 2 hours, but I start to have troubles after 1h 30. Did people in your family introduce you to meditation? Where did you learn about it? You will probably outgrow Leo and other masters pretty fast!

11 April 2020 Wake Up Time: 6:00 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:00 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Deep Work Sessions: 09:00 AM - 10:08 AM: Good session, I continued on the initialization of the project. I still often have random thoughts in the back of my mind while working. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 8 minutes 10:24 AM - 12:26 AM: I created the application routes skeleton. I had some random thoughts unrelated to the project. Deep Work Duration: 2 hours 2 minutes 01:35 PM - 04:13 PM: I did a lot of stuff and was focused. Deep Work Duration: 2 hours 38 minutes 04:38 PM - 06:17 PM: I completed the project initialization. It took more time than excepted and I was completely drained at the end. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 39 minutes I worked a lot today and I have been highly productive. I was a little exhausted at the end of the day, but I'm very satisfied with my results. Total Deep Work Duration: 7 hours 27 minutes (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 30 minutes - 1 hour)

We should have an appreciation thread for God/Us too By appreciating others, we appreciate ourselves

@Cykaaaa Thank you

10 April 2020 Wake Up Time: 6:45 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 9:30 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Deep Work Sessions: 01:48 PM - 03:20 PM: I did the work, but wasn't highly focused because of negative thoughts caused by my inability to deal with external my environment. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 38 minutes 04:04 PM - 05:17 PM: I was more focused, but still feeling a little sad. I did some project planning and started to initialize the new project. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 13 minutes I slacked off today, I woke up late because I didn't sleep well and I also got lazy because of that. The negative environment didn't help me either. Total Deep Work Duration: 2 hours 51 minutes (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 40 minutes (objective 30 minutes - 1 hour)

9 April 2020 Wake Up Time: 6:00 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 9:46 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Deep Work Sessions: 8:59 AM - 10:24 AM: I moved forward in the work. I was a little agitated because of all the outside noise and movement. I got interrupted a few times. I tried to go too fast. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 25 minutes 10:41 AM - 11:30 AM: Good session. Deep Work Duration: 49 minutes 11:40 AM - 12:30 AM: Good session. Deep Work Duration: 50 minutes 1:36 PM - 3:02 PM: Good session. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 26 minutes 3:15 PM - 4:49 PM: Good session. I read an SEO report and ended up with a little of coding. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 34 minutes I noticed that I'm often afraid of being unproductive. I stress out because of that and I feel it in my abdomen where I have some burning feelings and agitations. I also often have some background thoughts noises, they are not strong, but they are here when I work, they are completely random (often negative) thoughts. I need to find a solution to improve my focus and reduce my mind noises, I think positive affirmations and more deep work practice will help. Total Deep Work Duration: 6 hours 04 minutes (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 37 minutes (objective 30 minutes - 1 hour)

8 April 2020 Wake Up Time: 6:00 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:10 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Deep Work Sessions: No Deep Work Today Total Deep Work Duration: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 30 minutes (objective 30 minutes - 1 hour)

@RendHeaven I understand and see the problem with my questions, thank you. It seems like your much more yellow than me.

7 April 2020 Wake Up Time: 6:00 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 9:40 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Deep Work Sessions: 8:42 AM - 9:44 AM: I did some programming and read some documentation. I felt the urge to distract myself at some moments but bring the focus back on the work. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 2 minutes 10:10 AM - 11:27 AM: I stay focused most of the time, but got distracted by my depressed grandma who started to cry. I got some negative thoughts and then choose to completely lock myself in the room to avoid noises and negative influences. I tried to work a little too fast. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 17 minutes 11:40 AM - 12:20 AM: I had some parasite thoughts. I still tried to work too fast, I noticed that I lost at least 1 hour in the previous session that could have been avoided by just slowing down and focusing my attention on an element. Deep Work Duration: 40 minutes 1:35 PM - 4:02 PM: Good session. I was focused but had trouble solving the problem. I had a few negative thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 2 hours 27 minutes 4:18 PM - 5:28 PM: I didn't deep worked a lot as I worked on multiple tasks and was communicating with a client. I shift between Skype communication, Wordpress support, and a little of programming. I maybe did only 30 minutes of deep work. Deep Work Duration: 30 minutes I worked more than I expected today, but I almost did 6 hours of deep work. It was easier than I expected. Total Deep Work Duration: 5 hours 56 minutes (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 33 minutes (objective 30 minutes - 1 hour)

Yes, that's definitely its most defining characteristic. Previous stages can understand relativism of point of view but at a very shallow level and that's why they are reactive against differences. Stage yellow understands that everything is relative and it makes him nonreactive because he doesn't consider that something is right or wrong anymore. But yellow also understand that he is living in a society, that this society is evolving, that he is human and that the quality of his life depends on the level of development of its environment. So yellow is concerned to help society move up the spiral while knowing at the same time that it doesn't matter at all. Here's some other questions: Why are big corporations important? Why do we need individualism and independent thinking? Is eating meat bad? (The vegan extremist will be very reactive) What's more important: hard work or relaxation and enjoying life? Are we all equals? Green will probably have some nuances to the above questions, but yellow will go much deeper.