Moonflower

Yes they just don't view it as a negative thing.

I think it's because you are becoming more conscious as you meditate, so when you're in social situations you are more self-conscious of yourself and surroundings.

I think you're making a very big mistake, I don't think you realize what the benefits for enlightenment are like. The illusion is hell, it's just suffering and worming your way in and out of comfort. It might feel like you're happy now but you haven't seen what real happiness is.