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@PureExp Awsome! In other topics of mine people also say I am doing great so I am starting to believe it now. I only don't exactly understand the fight or flight part. When I watch a film for example, when I am emotionally connected to a character I also get this feeling in certain situations. Do you know how explain this?

@heisenburger I myself am 20, when I was 17 myself I had the same mindset about my appearance. Until I was 13 I had this red birthmark on my face, this was of course a great subject for kids to bully me with. My mindset changed, my body is a gift though it might not be perfect, it still works good enough to do stuff. If you focus to much on the things you don't like about yourself than it will become brighter to you and you will always watch at the things you don't like in the mirror. In my experience, if you don't love the way you look, you will also look at the flaws of other people their appearance. If you can relate, then what happens if you talk with someone? You will look through the appearance and see the beautifull inide of everone! The first thing is not the real problem, it is only caused by the second. You don't want to percieve yourself as attractive? There is more than the eye can see, appreciate the things you like! One thing that helped me is to think positive about myself, even while I think I don't like it. Something that helped me with appreciating my appearance was watching my naked body in the mirror and loving everything I saw. Something I did what also had influence was sleeping naked, you will feel free that way. The more times I am naked, the more I love my body! I hope this helps, when you are able to do this, you will be proud of yourself!

@Loreena I don't know about you, but I only have 7 months of daily meditation experience. It had me think that I might expect more on the long run, because 7 months is nothing compared to a life time. I only wonderd if this could have a negative effect if you are driving for example. Just before posting this I watched Leo's video about becoming a sage and he said that there are more states of conciousness than you can imagine, I am looking forward to that!

Sometimes I have this peacefull state of being. It feels kind of weird though, like being under the influence of something (I only experienced half drunkenness). This state has a mental and physical effect, it is hard to explain. It feel like the state of deep meditation, while being physical awake and in motion. It is very nice to be in this state of being, but it seems to be random. Does anyone have a clue why this happens?

Recently I saw a documentary called inner worlds, outer worlds. In the documentary, they talked about meditating in a cave or a pitch-black environment. I also heard that pyramids focus the cosmic energy (which you absorb while meditating) is more focussed and makes it three times stronger than a normal environment. I also wondered how meditation under a waterfall would be. Does somebody has experience with some of this? And in case you have other environmental experiences, please share it on this post.

That sounds very awsome, I am also very interested in meditating while lucid dreaming, I only experienced lucid dreaming once, but woke up because of that. Do you think keeping a dream journal would help?

Chakra means wheel of energy. Chakra's are energy centres throughout your etheric body. There are seven main chakras: They all have fancy names, but I keep it simple and associate the chakras with the elements. From the bottom to the top. Earth chakra (red); Water chakra (orange); Fire chakra (yellow); Air chakra (green); Sound chakra (blue); Light chakra (indigo); Thought chakra (violet). The chakras have different colours, because of the frequency. The frequency of red is very low, while the frequency of violet is very high. Most people have unbalanced chakras, which leads to illness. It is possible to balance all the chakras through meditation, lifestyle and attitude. For me the biggest change occurred by thinking positively, because that creates a positive vibration and that way you will heal your body and your mind. Everything is vibrating, but our senses translate it into an illusion like the way you perceive the world (you don’t see your chair vibrate for example). There are meditative ways too to open the chakras, also yoga. A book I have read about it is called Wheels of life. I hope this makes things more clear for you.

I don't know if this is the write page to post this, so sorry if so. Since one month I experience weird things maybebecause I trust my intuïtion and my subconciousness since then. In the evening I like to meditate while laying still, because it makes me fall asleep faster. Before I sleep I try things see: Scary And Awsome Experience on the alternative healing page. Anyway I have been able to see white dots that look like dust. The first time was after my awsome and scary experience, the second time was yesterday. The first time I could see a couple of white dots in my bedroom which was dark, they seemed to be on the ceiling and didn't move even after I moved my head. When I turned on the lights I saw nothing, I switched the lights off and they were back. I repeated this a couple of times with no difference. After A while they weere gone. Yesterday it was different, I just seated myself on my chair and suddenly I saw sparkles like I did before, first it appeared to be dust, but it wasn't. I accepted my situation and closed my eyes to check if I still saw them, but nothing I saw no sparkles. When I opend my eyes I saw them again even while moving. And suddenly they dissapeared. I did some browsing and people with similar experiences said it was seeing another dimension and talked about angels. Things like this never happen when I am doing my regular meditation.... Does anyone knows something about this or am I going grazy?

Yes, my second experience looked like this, I read about it on wikipedia. I wonder if this is some kind of awareness.

@John Flores The things I saw were definitely white and I quite enjoyed, because it looked beautifull. I also read a book about the subconscious mind and since then I am more openminded then before. I also have expierenced seeing with my eyes closed for multiple times. It looks like A brief view like if you blink, but my eyes never opend. I also experience more (so called) coincidences. I think all these experiences are awsome, but it scares me too, because nobody I know can relate to this.

Thank you all for the replies! I have made the decision to restore the contact with my mother. After reading a couple of books, I realised that forgiveness is the only thing I can do. I will be immune from her toxic behaviour because I will filter the good from the bad. I just have to live in the moment and forget the past. Maybe she will change, because of my new self, at least I have faith in that.

The last three years I had a very hard time, here is my story, enjoy. When I was I kid, I used to play like every peer that time, going outside in the woods, playing all kinds of games and so on. Life was normal at that time, my parents were very dysfunctional, but this wasn’t something I could comprehend as a child. My whole youth my mother influenced me negatively, by complaining about my father and treating me like an adult at moments like that, for example the way adults complain to each other about someone else, sometimes the truth and sometimes gossip. These conversations took place when my dad was at work Because of that I was always angry at my dad and saw every flaw as something negative. The relation between me and my dad was that time also very unnatural. I also have a little brother who is two years younger than me, so he and me are on the same page. The way of life was the same for many years, until I was 17 years old. A week before my 17th birthday (early December) my mother told me she had breast cancer, of course I was shocked. My mother had to undergo surgery and take chemo therapy. The surgery happened very well, unfortunately her breast needed to be amputated. After the surgery, she took the chemo therapy, in that process she went crazy. She talked about killing herself, was very instable and was scared to death about the chemo’s. Eventually she had to be hospitalized in the hospital at the department for mental instable people. Things did not change much, only when the chemo therapy was over. All that time my father stood by her side, motivated her, joined her to the chemo and psychological therapy, offered his lunchtime at work to see her and so on. When my mother wasn’t around anymore I saw that my father wasn’t a bad person and he had very good and caring sides. Al my life I was blind to this, because I only saw the negative. When it was, summer vacation we all did go to France (I live in The Netherlands) with the mobile home of my father. My mother was back and everything did go back to what we were used to. The negative influence from my mother changed me back to my previous way of thinking. After the vacation my mother wanted a divorce. My father was devastated and wanted to commit suicide so he cut his wrist. The cut wasn’t deep enough so his life wasn’t endangered. My mother involved me in this dilemma and eventually I called the emergency services, for my fathers on good. Eventually my father left for two weeks to his parents and I was at home with my mother. My mother was angry at him and told gossip al around our family and acquaintances. She also prepared to have the divorce. Eventually the divorce was in progress, my father came back home and my mother was going to live with her mother. Eventually were opened and I saw everything my mother had done. A while after that broke the contact with her, because she was still trying to manipulate me. Half a year went by so I ought to give her a chance. After a couple of times she was trying to influence me again, later I helped her to move her to her new house (the divorce is still in progress). I once again had enough of it and broke the contact again. Last year I tried to give her another chance, but things were still the same. Since then I haven’t spoken to her, because she blocked me on social media after an argument and I finally had enough of this madness. To this day, I haven’t spoken to her, she thinks my father is holding me and my brother back, but this is of course nonsense. I can conclude from here E-mails that she still is the same person as she always has been. I know she has a hard time to accept me as I am and will try to influence me once again. That is why I don’t communicate with her. Does someone has advice or an opinion about this, please let me now. Thanks for reading

I have read it, thank you for the recommendation.

Hello everyone, When I focus on a body part I can feel my blood pumping through it. For example if I focus on my small toe then I feel my veins in that toe pumping. The more I focus the stronger I feel it. If I don't focus then I won't feel it so I don't have a condition. I told some people about it on my internship and they said that they never experienced it. Then I told them how to do it, but still they couldn't feel it. I want to know if anyone of you can do this too. And If not why can I do so?

How can those shrooms help me, isn't it the same as escaping from this world?

Actually I don't hate her, I just don't want any toxic people in my life.

Thank you for the commands, I think I have found my answers.

Recently I saw this video from Leo about intuition. Now, I am studying Engineering in the Netherlands, where I live. The education is very broad, it has multiple direction. you can take in the second year. To work as an engineer, you need to be good at mathematics and physics. A while ago I learned about the theory of multiple intelligences. There are nine of them http://fundersandfounders.com/9-types-of-intelligence/\ I know that my talents lay in four out of nine intelligences: Spatial; Naturalist; Intra persona; Existential. The latter is obvious, because that is why I started my journey just like all of you. The only one of them that I can apply at (product)engineering is spatial intelligence. Because you can need to draw an item or product. Mathematics however is not one of my talents, but it is extremely import for this type of work. When Leo recommended to read books for self-development I really got interested in the psychology of the human mind. If I complete my current year, then I will get a propaedeutic diploma. The propaedeutic diploma gives me access to every collage of applied sciences. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Propaedeutics The only problem is the need for technicians, should I switch between educations? I hope some of you can share your thoughts and stories with me, because I think it’s hard to make choices like this. Thank you for reading

In the Netherlands you can get jobs very easily if you want to work in the technical branch of carreers, because they have a lack of technicians.

Only one problem, unfortunately I don't have any Apple devices.

Thank you, I will read this. Since a while now I discovered something else I am capable of. When I meditate I can generate a chill feeling on my back, upper arms and legs. When I breathe out it sensation is stronger (imagine a flame that gets oxygen from your breath) . If I focus on the parts where I can feel it, then it also gets stronger. Is this the same as with my other ability?

Thank you for the comments. I will do some research on this topic with the use of your knowledge to get a better understanding.