Salvijus

That's what I like about this forum. It has a way of exposing every place in the mind that is still prone to conflict, judgement, anger and attack and needs healing and forgiveness. Years of meditation perhaps don't even touch these spots that could be lying there dormant for a long time. For someone who's on a path to Christhood these are very valuable moments. To allow correction to take place by putting aside all desire to defend yourself and abiding in the holy instant.

I was just reading a review of one of Blavatsky's book "the land of the gods" and somebody left key takeaways in the comments. That I thought are relevant to this discussion. "My takeaways: • Concentration strengthens the soul. • Before becoming spiritual, be natural. • With proper spiritual retreats, you would bring the greatest possible benefit to the world. • The Adepts say, “Give us people who desire nothing but the truth, and we will take care of their needs.” • The spirit gains strength when it finds nourishment in lower principles and is guided by wisdom to choose what it needs. • Let those who desire to develop spiritually attempt to think with their hearts, instead of continually studying with their brains. • Consistently aim to transcend animalistic tendencies, and you'll be among those who've thrown off their animal elements to live a spiritual existence. • Your will is strongest if you have no will of your own, but remain in all things obedient to the Law. In an unrelated out-of-body experience that happened in 2016, an intelligent voice spoke to a pilot named Jim Bruton, saying: “All the force of will you will ever need is found in the art of letting go.” • Many desire spiritual growth and immortality, but they feel trapped by external circumstances they're afraid to challenge. Instead of focusing on what truly matters, they spend their time and energy on meaningless pursuits. Countless lack the courage to break free from societal norms, even if they disagree with them, fearing social backlash. As a result, they forsake their spiritual potential for the fleeting trends of fashion."

🥲 Beautiful

This is actually the only shaman that I respect and think he has a good balanced and deep knowledge on the subject of psychedelics. You can contact him and ask for his opinion on your situation and the pain etc. I've sent him an email previously, he does respond to them.

@Inder I think out of all the ways to deal with that problem. Psychedelics are the most risky and least logical and least likely to work. I think something else is driving your bahvior and thinking process and you can’t help yourself but to want them so badly. All your mind needs is a tiny possibility that it may work and bam. You're hooked. The story of dozens of psychonouts really. But it's fine. Would be interesting to hear how it went. Let us know

Lol. Have fun!

You can get energetic/electric/buzzing/engulfing/tingling sensations up your whole body just by releasing the flow of blood from the legs aswell. I get that all the time

Okei that makes sense. But just be honest to yourself why you're doing it. Is it because you genuinely believe this will heal your pain or you simply can't help yourself and you want that experience at any cost.

Your legs probably have gotten numb from sitting in a cross legged posture and after adjusting your posture a bit blood started to flow and rushed up from feet to the head. It creates the tingling sensations and buzzing energy sensations and what not. It's not a big deal. Your mind probably has a tendency to exaggerate simple things to crazy proportions aswell. Something to be mindful of.

You probably just damaged your body. Psychedelics have the potential of doing that but people like to brush it under the rug. Or say it's all "spiritual" pain don't worry. Just do more psychedelics. Especially the problems with the heart area and lsd are very common. Why do you think Ram Dass the lsd guru had a stroke and went into a wheelchair? Stuck emotions? Also I smell a strong desire in you to do psychedelics again and I believe it will override all rationallity in you. If my guess is correct you're likely to invent any bs excuse possible just to justify doing psychedelics again regardless of your health safety. It's a common thing that happens in psychedelic communities.

Here's what I think. Most people only feel alive when they are being stimulated. But when nothing stimulates them they feel down. They feel lost. Their mind is looking for stimulation to feel alive again but there's nothing. So they are in despair basically. When one learns to be fully alive and glowing just by doing nothing. Then it's the end of boredom.

@CoolDreamThanks no no... This forum is full of gurus believe me

@CoolDreamThanks "change that avatar bro. Or you will not achieve nirvana" ~buddha

@CoolDreamThanks

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I personally just worry about maintaining certain principles in life that are sayed to bring better life. Dharma is another word for it. The Laws of creation. The rightful path and the right principles of life. Eat right, sleep right, speak right, live right, think right, desire the right things, serve the right purpose, do everything the right way. That is to say. Live in accordance to dharma. Live in accordance to Law that governs all life. When you live in accordance to the Law. Whereever that takes you is not your business. Because it can only go one way. Towards a brighter tomorrow. This is true in my experience so far but I'm still testing. "In the beginning there was Law. And the Law was with God. And the Law was God." Pursue God. What else is there to worry about. Everything else is just a compromise for ego.

This makes sense. Because you can't have a relationship if you build the walls of fear around you. Because these walls push people away. And relationship is about taking the walls down and embracing others as a part of yourself. So trust is essential.

Nobody is forcing you to do anything. But you have to understand, everyone's heart including yours heart is asking for release and healing 24/7. I simply responded to the call that your heart is making. Even if you're not aware of it on the conscious level of the mind. The cry for healing is always there. And it is the grudges and judgements of other people that suffocate the heart the most. So don't take it personally when I'm talking to you. Because I'm not talking to you even. My only interest is to get past the ego defenses and aliven the heart a bit that is suffocating and crying for help because of all the resentfulness and pollution there. Talking to the ego is a waste of time anyways.

Ego never trusts anything. Ego is always fearful and seeks to control everything to ensure its safety. Trust, however, is a choice to face fear with open arms and discover what lies on the other side. Perfect safety and perfect love of God.

There's much more actually... And it gets more intense with each step on The Way.

rape you haha. No actually you'll just remain in pain that's all. And your heart will continue to scream for help. Basically what's already happening will just continue on and on. Until you chose to look deeper into what is running the frustration.

I have to go. Will reply later Tcare

Really let that sink in

@bebotalk I'm not trying to be better. I just see you trying to cope with pain with the wrong tool. And huge unwillingness to look at what is behind the resentfulness. I promise you. If you spend a little bit of attention into what is behind the resentfulness instead of desperately trying to protect and justify your resentfulness. You will find great discoveries.